Soulman

[harpo-my-“SON”Participant 2410]

Soul Man  wrote:  I don’t want to sound macabre but death is something that has haunted me in its many forms throughout my life.  It’s been a dance with death for me in one capacity or another.

I have told this in another thread, but some may not have read it. I have been haunted by this family curse, if you want to call it that, may or may not just be in my head. Both my father and grandfather fell to lung cancer in their mid fifties. both worked until diagnosed, effectively robbed of any leisure retirement years.  being 52 I claim to be semi retired just to be able to say the curse is broke, even before living past the age they died. I put away the smoking year before last and just like soulman have only the coffee vice left. It rules me every morning. By opening up and writing a window into myself lets light into those dark areas inside. Death is so much less a taxing thought, when I know I am taking measures to improve and getting  things done I need to. I hope to write enough before I die that my grandchildren will be able to read it, and feel they have gotten to know me personally, even if we never meet. Its not that I fear death so much as I fear not living long enough to get everything said to those that come after me.

“The cradle rocks above an abyss, and common sense tells us that our existence is but a brief crack of light between two eternities of darkness. Although the two are identical twins, man, as a rule, views the prenatal abyss with more calm than the one he is heading for.”

I was bound to be misunderstood, and I laugh at those who misunderstand me. Kind mockery at the well intentioned, but unfettered cruelty towards those would be prison guards of my creative possibilities. This so as to learn as much from misunderstanding as from understanding. Taking pleasure in worthy opponents and making language fluid and flowing like a river yet pointed and precise as a dagger. Contradicts the socialistic purpose of language and makes for a wonderful linguistic dance, A verbal martial art with constant parries that hone the weapon that is the two edged sword of my mouth.

[harpo-my-“SON”Participant 2410]

Soul Man  That son of yours understands more than you would believe. Build that bond of trust and he will absorb every lesson you teach. My father told me he would never lie to me because he loved me to much. He said “son, if I tell you that,  a flee can pull a gut wagon, you don’t question me, just find a harness and hook him up.” My first lessons started at four years old. when my parents split he pulled me aside and said that my mother was gonna ask me who I wanted to live with and that I should answer him because he promised I would have a more fun  and live a carefree childhood. He kept that promise. I kept our secret from my mother all these years, she still don’t know the question was rigged. Male bonding starts with trust and starts way more early than some would believe.

I was bound to be misunderstood, and I laugh at those who misunderstand me. Kind mockery at the well intentioned, but unfettered cruelty towards those would be prison guards of my creative possibilities. This so as to learn as much from misunderstanding as from understanding. Taking pleasure in worthy opponents and making language fluid and flowing like a river yet pointed and precise as a dagger. Contradicts the socialistic purpose of language and makes for a wonderful linguistic dance, A verbal martial art with constant parries that hone the weapon that is the two edged sword of my mouth.

[KeymasterKeymaster]

^^ This F~~~ing Guy.

Thanks Soulman… for this, and your direct correspondences.

So as not to be too obvious about being immensely moved by your post…..

On the real side, though, thanks for everything. Take good care of the little man. It’s clear he’s in good hands.

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[Soul ManParticipant 1856]

Haha!  Thanks KeyMaster!  You are the man behind the keyboard making this happen!

HISTORY...learn from it, memorize it, DON'T repeat it...

[db325Participant 114]

Soulman,

You are an inspiration, brother. Your stories and insight help young guys like myself see how bulls~~~ and rigged this whole situation is. We are operating from a disadvantage point in society today. I agree, we need to reach a higher consciousness because both genders are capable of amazing things if pushed in the right direction. This whole thing is f~~~ed. It’s great to see that you have a kid that you can relate to and be around. Nothing hurts a man more than not being able to see his offspring. I have faith that you will guide him in the right direction and will steer him away from this intoxicating culture we live in.

The next generation of MGTOW

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