I am tired of posting the same stuff every month. I get it we get new people and lurkers all the time, but I am tired of writing about how I wanted to kill myself, that I was constantly in court, on trial, and being accused of s~~~ that I didn’t do. I am tired of writing about how the court was unfair, and how the police and the courts ignored some horrible s~~~ perpetrated by my ex. I am tired of writing about the debt I incurred and the house and the cars I lost. I am tired of thinking about the c~~~ that derailed me.
I am tired of writing about my kids and how they were poisoned. I am just plain tired of flying the MGTOW flag.
I an worn out, and I would like to move on. I have run out of anger, everything that I valued in the blue pill world has been taken away from me, and I am rebuilding again. I am tired of rehashing old s~~~ that just doesn’t matter anymore. Yeah, I had horrible experiences, and so to avoid being thrashed like I was, do not get married.
I don’t have anything new to add, and whatever I had is buried under thousands of posts.
I am in job training for something that I absolutely love, I bought a stupid little convertible 2 weeks ago, and my face is sunburned and my face hurts from smiling so damn much, and I have friends who will put up with me. Life is getting better.
Two years ago I was living in a tent. Two days ago I got in the stupid car and drove 200 miles for the f~~~ of it. I drove past Leavenworth Prison, and reflected on the poor f~~~s stuck in there, and then I moved on happy to have my problems
And that’s where I am now, happy for my problems. I survived the s~~~ vortex. I have 2 more years to go and I am free and clear. Yes, it has been a long 9 years so far, but my ex has further to go before she implodes, and my kids have far to go to find me again.
I have pmed with and called 16 men who were going to derp themselves over women, divorce, infidelity and other bulls~~~. I listened to them talking through beer, booze and mary jane, slurring and spitting on me. I can’t tell you what it is like to reach out to someone in so much pain like that, looking for anyone who will listen and care. None of these guys could tall frineds or family how much pain they were in, they saw my s~~~ty story and reached out to me. After I hang up with these guys, I sit and cry for a couple hours, shaking…I’m back in my backyard again with the gas can. Honestly, I can’t do that kind of intervention work anymore. I can’t. I cant dissipate that kind of raw energy.
I am not even good at talking to these guys, but I can listen. That’s what they want, someone to listen. Someone who has looked over the edge and realized that there is a better day coming, just get through this day.
Last one I talked back from the edge was a couple weeks ago. I heard the click of the gun being c~~~ed…going single action means less pull on the trigger. Jesus Christ I was scared. I don’t know If I can go through something like that again.
Maybe that is why I am supposed to be here. I am supposed to show other men that a man can be wrecked, everythign taken away, kids, house, cars, money, love, everything is blown away in a second because some pumpkin isn’t happy or has the gina tingles for some Chad. Go from living in a dusty campground wiht the tumbleweeds and the migrant workers, and pull it together after some false starts. Am I here to be a symbol of hope? I don’t know, I just live my life one day at a time.
Here’s what I know. A lot of quality people hang out here. And these guys keep up the average. The trolls and the troublemakers drop off eventually, and new guys drift in here with the tide. If you want this site to improve then stick around, and post content that improves the site.
Unfortunately the current situation we find ourselves in is not going to improve. Family court is still hazardous, the Duluth Model is the prevailing protocol in Domestic calls, women’s hypergamy is genetically programmed, and kids will continue to be born and damaged by divorce. The only way to fix it is not to marry, do not impregnate and do not cohabitate. Dating is strictly catch and release after a couple months, but good luck avoiding gonnasyphilherpleaids. If every woman is a pump and dump, the STD rate is going to explode. Women are literally toxic to the touch.
I can’t fix the website, I can’t fix the society, and I can’t fix my broken family. All I can do is look after myself. I am going int a field that women do not generally enter. I can fix computers and networks, I can protect servers and I can learn new things on a daily basis. That is the best life I can make for myself, no one will make it for me.
It is up to you to decide to leave the website. I suggest that you heed the lessons learned by the men who have shared their stories on MGTOW.com. That is the true value. We have left our stories here for others to read.
The biggest lesson here is we have seem movies stars, wealthy men, doctors, lawyers, star athletes all have nasty expensive divorces, and some suicide. If these beautiful, wealthy, successful men who can afford the very best life has to offer…mansions, exotic cars, tropical vacations, and stunning women all end up in front of some Judge F~~~wit, what chance do us ordinary men have? Zero. Zero chance.
Whatever you decide, I’m sure it will be the best choice for you. That is the core of MGTOW, going your own way.
I am going to go get some lunch, get in that stupid little car and work on my suntan. I went looking for a beautiful lake the other day, and missed it. Today I’ll find it and take some pictures.
Take care, amigo.
Penman_Frey 1 year, 9 months ago.
