How do you guys pull yourself from the ledge of life?

[ForeverDoneParticipant 2928]

Not going to lie, ever since I decided to divorce my now ex-wife, I’ve been wrestling with on and off depression. I usually can keep it under control, but my mother even asked, are you okay. You seem very unhappy with life and always angry. Truth be told, I am angry at myself. I wasted over 10 years with her and got nothing out of it. Literally, nothing. My distrust of people is sky high partly due to the fact I VAR’d my ex-wife and found out her true feelings towards me. She acted one way with me, and the complete opposite when I wasn’t around. I feel like a complete idiot. I find little satisfaction in life, work, hobbies, reading, etc. Day in and day out, same old thing. Bored to death sometimes. I can never trust a woman again, so there goes having a family. What’s the point? Lost all my “friends” due to this f~~~ing divorce. Tried to go to these meetup groups to make new friends, but it’s mostly women there and a few men. There’s little I have in common with any of them. I just build my business and expand, however, it’s incredibly stressful. I make good money, but stressful and little rewarding aside from monetarily. I really do not like to go anywhere if I am not working. Rather not hang out with my Mom or siblings (I’m over 40 for Christ sake). I really f~~~ed my social life up. Life was so much better in my late 20’s. Had no money, but was relatively happy. Since the divorce, financially, I’ve recovered. Socially and mentally, not at all. Thinking about getting dog, but I worry that when I am out and about, the dog will be suffering as I do not really like to use the AC in the summer. Plus, since when I am out and about, I am gone for 8 – 10 hours. Keeping a dog stuck in a house for 10 hours straight day after day isn’t a good idea. Every night I actually hope I pass on in my sleep, then wake up the next morning.

I find little point or happiness in life. I hate the heat, so the next three months are brutal on me. The heat causes my muscle pains in my spine and horrid migraines to come and just reck havoc on my body and mind. Which, further make me literally hate life. I often think it would be best to move to a cold climate year around, but that’s not available nor feasible.

I also saw my ex-wife the other day. I look pretty decent. Hair grew back and I’ve lost 28 lbs. since the divorce. She looks haggard, tired and miserable. I just walked by like she was just someone that I used to know; though, I wish I never met her. I can forgive, but I can never forget. Those evil things she said about me to her friends, colleagues and family. I still believe she cheated on me, though, I couldn’t prove it. Why else would a wife ask for an open marriage 1.5 years into the marriage?

No doubt, the whole experience of marriage and divorce changed me as a man. I just need to find a way out of this black hole. I keep pulling myself out of it, but it become tiring day and day out. I am so exhausted as well. I work, exercise, cook and clean. Each and every day, purely exhausted and I do not know why. I eat a clean diet (Keto), little sugar, maybe a Jack and Coke or Moscow Mule a few times a week, no candy. 2+ hour exercise session 2 – 3 times a week. Used to be 3 – 4, but the kettlebell workout kills me and take a day or two for recovery.

I just feel lost. I do not believe in psychologists, and I am still taking care of business. I am not sure what the heck is wrong. Blood work shows a bit high cholesterol, but that is prob. due to the KETO diet. It will work itself out over time. Not sure what else to do. If it ever stops raining in NY, I will start my day off with a 1 hour walk around the town to clear my head. Maybe that will help. I do not know. Just babbling, but trying to find a solution.

[bladeParticipant]

What your speaking is normal . Do you keep going over s~~~ and whishing you did this or did that . It will fade .

As for f~~~ing up with friends dont worry . Let people find you .

Things do get easier as time passes .

Its good you mention how you truly feal .

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[It’sallbsParticipant]

It’s all internal, you need to reach a state of tranquility where you no longer feel any rage.

Exercise is great all you need to do is a brisk walk 2 hours a day, I’m lucky there are lots of countryside walks not far from my flat (apartment).

Many people on here have gone from red pill rage to periods of feeling low and you will come through it to the otherside and when you do it is beautiful the inner peace is total.

As for not trusting people-I’d say that’s reality based wisdom.

Lots of exercise -keep alcohol to a minimum -why don’t you join Zoom it’s busiest on Friday and Saturday but there is usually a few people on there most days.

Everyone on Zoom is highly veted so you can trust everyone-I trust Gregbo and Jan and Kenobi anyway-as for that Greg Honda -well we non of us know who he really is-hahaha

I’ll send you the link if you pm me.

http://www.leavemeansleave.eu

[CarnageParticipant 22113]

Friends? What friends? If they where your friends they wold be around, you didn’t lose friends you lose the pest.

You wasted 10 years, I wasted 14, got nothing in exchange, wrong, this is what you get The lesson, no one wins, only 5-10 of men get something, lottery is better, at least when you lose you only lose what you betted.

Rage? Depression? Is normal just learn to live with it. It generally comes from the feeling of lose, but you didn’t lose anything, just the same everyone else did or even less.

Your ex pumpkin is not a monster, is just a regular normal women, that is the basic, default setting.

99 of women you meet will be like that at best, some will be worst, there is a 1% that are clearly abnormal, but you will never find one.

Life is about boredom, the more boring your life is the better, it means you are doing it right, no problems, no dangers, food is secure, life is good.

Learn to enjoy it, because it won’t last.

To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.

[It’sallbsParticipant]

Carnage wrote:

Friends? What friends? If they where your friends they wold be around, you didn’t lose friends you lose the pest.

You wasted 10 years, I wasted 14, got nothing in exchange, wrong, this is what you get The lesson, no one wins, only 5-10 of men get something, lottery is better, at least when you lose you only lose what you betted.

Rage? Depression? Is normal just learn to live with it. It generally comes from the feeling of lose, but you didn’t lose anything, just the same everyone else did or even less.

Your ex pumpkin is not a monster, is just a regular normal women, that is the basic, default setting.

99 of women you meet will be like that at best, some will be worst, there is a 1% that are clearly abnormal, but you will never find one.

Life is about boredom, the more boring your life is the better, it means you are doing it right, no problems, no dangers, food is secure, life is good.

Learn to enjoy it, because it won’t last.

Good post Carnage but if you don’t mind me saying you made 1 error so I corrected it for you.

http://www.leavemeansleave.eu

[Black MaskParticipant 1572]

Some marijuana strains can cheer you up. I try to get my mind off bad things by trying to keep busy if I don’t have it.

"Man honesty is misogyny." - Patrice O'Neal

[experiencedParticipant]

Since you’re not home for ten hours to a time, consider getting a Maine coon or a Cornish Rex cat.
Pets take after their owners also and IMO many being owned by THE LAYDEEZ, pick up their attitudes also.
If I were able to get a dog, I would but am gone for long times like you. The above breeds start with good dispositions and will pick up on your good ways as well. It’s called men going their own way. Each of us has a different path, sometimes it seems like wandering aimlessly, but don’t be fooled. Things WILL slowly get better. You can put in a description in ADOPT A PET and they’ll email you when they find one at the dog pound or aspca/shelter. Both my pets are effed up physically, but sure beat anything from a women’s shelter.

"It seems like there's times a body gets struck down so low, there ain't a power on earth that can ever bring him up again. Seems like something inside dies so he don't even want to get up again. But he does."

[MoreSkyParticipant 4865]

Feelings of futility are common, especially after beginning to understand that most of what has gone before is bulls~~~ when seeing things without the fog of blue-pill indoctrination.

Finding what makes YOU happy after years of satisfying other’s needs is not an instantaneous process.

Find those things and new friends will be found, if you want them.

There is no magic instant solution.
Learn to enjoy your freedom to do whatever you want, and nothing else will bother you.
If you can’t do one thing (e.g. gym), for health and/or environmental reasons, then have a go at something else completely random until you can.

For example, I have a condition that prevents me going to the gym occasionally, usually for about a week at a time.
Last time that happened I had a go at rally driving.
Nearly wiped out several times, but great fun to have a go at.
Next time I can’t go to the gym or feel bored, I think I’ll have a flying lesson or two.

"...reinvent your life because you must; it is your life and its history and the present belong only to you.” It is Your Life, Charles Bukowski.

[bladeParticipant]

Always remember there is always some one on this site if you feal really f~~~ed .

Even if you dont feel like talking take the offer to go on zoom .

Even though we speak digitally on here i look at this site and the bro’s on here as friends .

Say what ya want . Its all cool .

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[Anonymous 42]

ForeverDone wrote:

Truth be told, I am angry at myself.

We’re brainwashed to blame ourselves for others lack of control and lack of morality.

ForeverDone wrote:

I really f~~~ed my social life up.

There you go again flogging yourself for a social system that only has one purpose for men, and that’s belittlement, slander, and persecution.

You’re better than that!

ForeverDone wrote:

Why else would a wife ask for an open marriage 1.5 years into the marriage?

Because she’s a filthy whore, not a wife! Women have unlearned how to…

[bladeParticipant]

The road warrior listen to his wisdom .

THE ROAD WARRIOR SPEAKS TRUTH .

Parabels of the road warrior

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[It’sallbsParticipant]

Anonymous wrote:

We’re brainwashed to blame ourselves for others lack of control and lack of morality.

If everyone acted with integrity many of the world’s problems would be solved.

But of course the yes men and yes women who get into positions of power are almost always then set up so that those at the very top have dirt on them so that they then keep their mouths shut.

Which is why the ballot box has always been and always will be pointless.

http://www.leavemeansleave.eu

[It’sallbsParticipant]

Anonymous wrote:

There you go again flogging yourself for a social system that only has one purpose for men, and that’s belittlement, slander, and persecution.

Judge yourself by your own standards and whether you like yourself let go of societies shaming tactics.

“Being well adjusted to a profoundly sick society is not a sign of good health”.

I can’t remember who it was first said that but it is 100% spot on true.

http://www.leavemeansleave.eu

[Anonymous 42]

Mel Gibson really needs to ghost that bitch in ways he himself doesn’t understand “yet”.

When I smoke someone, there’s not even ashes left behind!

Your silence speaks VOLUMES!

[joetechParticipant]

You’d be surprised how much a good psychiatrist can help. After I got out of the Navy I had just gotten divorced, my daughter was crippled for life, and my mom was dying of cancer. Talk about being depressed! Outpatient counseling really helped. As for the wasted years? They weren’t wasted. The experience you gleaned from that relations~~~ will serve you for the rest of your life. The disappointment of not getting what you expected is what is most likely bothering you the most. Now you see, expectations can be disappointing. I’ve learned that when it comes to other people I shouldn’t expect a damn thing. I’m the only one I can rely on. Accepting that fact was hard. I’m not angry over wasted time anymore. And when I find myself pining for a good woman in my life, I just imagine that I’ve found her already, and it turned out to be May’s ex! That cures those feelings immediately.

"Don't follow in my footsteps...I stepped in something."

[Black MaskParticipant 1572]

Forgot to mention that feeling tired all the time may be an iron deficiency. Depression can leave you feeling drained as well.

"Man honesty is misogyny." - Patrice O'Neal

[JVBParticipant]

Time is precious brother.
Forgive yourself
Love yourself………..and f~~~ forward. Time to move on.

Peace is > piece.

[ChristopherParticipant 2478]

Hey Forever Done. Brother I have to say playing a few music tunes – whichever ones you like – was one of the things that helped me in the hard times.

ForeverDone wrote:

I hate the heat, so the next three months are brutal on me. The heat causes my muscle pains in my spine and horrid migraines to come and just reck havoc on my body and mind. Which, further make me literally hate life. I often think it would be best to move to a cold climate year around, but that’s not available nor feasible.

Im the same. Some people thrive in cold – I am one of them – a cold shower or ice bath makes me feel great – try it may help. I was like kinda like Wim Hof years before I ever heard of him – check out his stuff on youtube.

Feminism was funded by bankers/politicians to create more taxpayers. MGTOW IS FREEDOM https://archive.org/details/mgtowisfreedomblurayready

[ChristopherParticipant 2478]

ForeverDone wrote:

Truth be told, I am angry at myself. I wasted over 10 years with her and got nothing out of it.

Know you did nothing ‘wrong’ society has conditioned men into getting married – you ‘learned’ a valuable lesson – you used your intelligence to escape the gynocentric matrix. Let the conditioning, any lack of self esteem, beating yourself up over the past – let it all fade away now – its in the past it is gone now. Much more awaits you. Be patient with yourself. Give yourself permission to do absolutely nothing or absolutely ANYTHING you feel like. Make a list of the things that are ‘OKAY’ in your life. For example, your health if you have it (as some don’t), your finances, etc. Cherish those things.

I too felt like an IDIOT after falling for my ex bitch and losing my sense of dignity in the relationship. Its mentally head wrecking when a bitch is cooing that she loves you one minute and then screaming at you an hour later. Ending the relationship got me back on the road to recovering my sense of dignity. I also was immensely angry at myself for allowing what happened to happen.

ForeverDone wrote:

I just feel lost. I do not believe in psychologists

We are on a journey and sometimes it is REAL f~~~ing hard – these are lessons. Sometimes its joyful. You are alive. YOU ARE FREE to be YOU. The conditioning of society is like the unwanted unneeded dirt we clean away from the pot – underneath the dirt is a REAL person – your ‘pure’ consciousness – of an eternal blissful soul. Keep cleaning away the dirt – greater self realization, happiness and much more awaits you.

STOP and see how you do you feel right NOW. Take 2 choices and feel which choice of the 2 makes you feel better – take the path of least resistance and choose the choice that makes you feel a little better than the other less desirable choice. Note this does not mean you just keep drinking beer all day everyday (for example as for me too much beer day after day makes me feel awful but you get what I mean right?). Keep doing this in your life and you will be amazed at where you may end up – happiness and bliss and life changes may occur. Just don’t blame me brother – alright ! 😊

Feminism was funded by bankers/politicians to create more taxpayers. MGTOW IS FREEDOM https://archive.org/details/mgtowisfreedomblurayready

[AposematicParticipant 2671]

Exercise in the morning grows brain cells, gets vit D up and helps burn off anxiety stress hormones. I ran 28 marathons in 6 months a while back- never felt grumpy during the training for this.

Afinogyny.. from the Greek Afino {to abandon/ to set down/ to leave /to allow/ to let } + Gyny {Women} MGHOW’s philosophy to not engage women without “hating them”. Narcorca =Narcissistic Orca typically spouting to a bathroom mirror taking an arms length selfie ; Wallinate describes post wall females whose SMV is terminally negligible New Years resolution "To not make women happy" . Instadestitue: yet another Neologism for Men that cohabit with women that decide to pull the handle of intervention orders.

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