Am I a magnet for s~~~???

[TwistParticipant]

So life sucks and then you die. You just have to find the sweetness in it. And in your opening post of pain, I was able to find the pony:

Jeremiah Johnson wrote:

.My female dog has an auto immune disease and has anal fissures

Took me back to running on no sleep in 48 hours. Had fled vacation early when son of homeowner showed up looking for heroin funds/fix. Felt it was my duty to rebook and get rebound GF and me out of danger zone.

Anyhow, back to the anal fissures… Just made it to the Vet before closing to pick up my dog two days early. Little oriental girl vet looks at me, and asks with a bit of an accent: “Has your dog had trouble with anal sex”. WTF??? What she was saying was “anal sacs”, probably similar to what you noted, but here I was – having escaped a vacation gone bad, having slapped the kid off the toilet when I thought he had OD’ed, standing there in a sleep deprived fog – and some little oriental babe is quizzing me about my dog and anal sex?

Should have been on Candid Camera.

So JJ, without meaning to, you made me laugh remembering this. Thank you. Make someone laugh, surprise someone with a random act of kindness, do it for you. That is what helps me when I go down the “I did everything right and I got the f~~~ing of the century..”

Thanks.

[PhantomParticipant 3328]

Jeremiah Johnson wrote:

I feel like I could have done some great things in this life had I only the f~~~ing opportunity to do so…Instead I was built to be the water at the bottom of the toilet, and no work or effort or anything is ever going to change that fact…does any of this make sense??

Yes it does…and as long as I still breathe air, I will sojourn on with that dream for myself.

It’s why I keep on trucking. I have seen a fair amount of s~~~ too, and I know that when I read your posts in this thread, I can relate more than I wish I did.

I had to fake it to break it & now I am trying to make it with bigger plans than I have ever had in my life up to this point.

Make goals that are quick and easily obtainable, was my plan. It built up my esteem & confidence…

What doesn’t f~~~ing kill me makes me stronger! I used to think that was some bulls~~~ people said, when they didn’t know what else to say.

Whether they did or not, I don’t give a f~~~…All I know is that it freakin’ works for me, as long as I have the right mindset.

BUT! The wrong mindset of coulda woulda shoulda drove me crazy! And I had to break out of that mindset.

Jeremiah Johnson wrote:

yeah I get that, but I have done that over and f~~~ing over, ahh forget it…..

I know it sucks big green donkey dicks at times!! We just have to keep on keeping on. There is light at the end of the tunnel & it’s NOT always an oncoming train.

Twist wrote:

and some little oriental babe is quizzing me about my dog and anal sex?

Twist!! That was awesome man! LOL!

[GnosticParticipant 2491]

Everyone is a magnet for s~~~ and gold.

Just what people choose to do with them filter out the s~~~ or gold.

I am not born in a famish, war torn country. Gold
I am born in a country full of corruption that Job is scarce and pay is low. S~~~

I choose to go to a neighboring country with better economic situation to work and get hired. Gold

The first job I choose to work there is below my qualification and pays poorly. S~~~

I choose to think that job as my extended college and it is the best college ever as no college would pay me instead for having a education. After some years I become a software engineer, then promoted to assistant manager, get paid much more, and left for another company that pay even more. Gold.

The company I choose to went for run in to some financial difficulty as the new CEO mismanage the company. I choose to go to a third company that does not have as much benefit before that company was sold to some China company. S~~~

The third company I choose to work with exploit its workers and there is hardly chance for career advancement. I still choose to work diligently. Gold later.

The third company I choose is going in trouble and 2 major shareholder left. S~~~

I choose to work in a forth company and had better benefits. Gold

The forth company I choose is slowing down as the semiconductor industry is hit hard in the economic downturn. For 1/2 year I hardly have any serious work to do in the company. S~~~

A manager from my third company remembers my work performance and ask me again to join his new company a second time without me asking. (I had turn down his offer before when my forth company is doing well) I choose to go with him and the benefits is better, thinking why I don’t do it earlier. Gold

In the end gold can turn to s~~~ and s~~~ can turn to gold, depending much on what one choose to do in life. You cannot choose how you are born, you cannot choose again what already happened, but you can choose the rest of your life. The future is blank, will the blank pages be filed with s~~~ or gold is up to the person.
Life is uncertain, but it is certain that if one does not clean up the s~~~, he will be stuck in s~~~.

There is no magic in MGTOW, just recognition of the truth and logical decision how to avoid dangers. The red pill is but the truth, it is no magical potion. Do not think in this modern world men have no longer have natural enemies, men are prey to women and government.

[MattNYCParticipant 2329]

Instead of hoping for an easier life, I focus on making myself stronger.

I can’t change the world. I can only change myself.

[Jeremiah JohnsonParticipant 2219]

Anonymous wrote:

Why are you struggling to walk sir?

I have an auto immune disease called ankylosing spondylitis, also no cartilage left in any of my joints with severe bone damage to my hips, sacroiliac joint, knees, ankles, and hands…as if not enough, I have 4 completely blown disc’s in my spine, and could go on, but really there is no need, that alone makes me want to just shrug in disbelief as I type it out, I was in pain as 7 year old boy, so bad couldn’t sleep at night, pain, went to the doc, he tells my mother I am experiencing bone growth pain and is totally normal, I need to suck it up and deal with it, cause everyone goes through it, turned out, I had blown my L5 disc, and had begun to lose the cartilage already…Fast forward 30 years with no answers, no MRI’s, (dr’s kept telling me pain was in my head), and way to much physical activity, (weight lifting, mountain hiking, mtn biking, etc) and always in pain, never able to get sleep, and finally a dr gave me the MRI I had waited 20 years for…Turns out, so much damage, unrepairable, untreatable, cannot do a f~~~ing thing now but give me pain killers and NSAID’s….Of which I take neither….I quit going to the doctor two years ago….sorry but it is such a long s~~~ty explanation…….

share a video of ol johnny singing a song that totally encompasses my feelings as of late…

Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....

[Anonymous 1]

Jeremiah Johnson wrote:

joller984 wrote:

Why are you struggling to walk sir?

I have an auto immune disease called ankylosing spondylitis, also no cartilage left in any of my joints with severe bone damage to my hips, sacroiliac joint, knees, ankles, and hands…as if not enough, I have 4 completely blown disc’s in my spine, and could go on, but really there is no need, that alone makes me want to just shrug in disbelief as I type it out, I was in pain as 7 year old boy, so bad couldn’t sleep at night, pain, went to the doc, he tells my mother I am experiencing bone growth pain and is totally normal, I need to suck it up and deal with it, cause everyone goes through it, turned out, I had blown my L5 disc, and had begun to lose the cartilage already…Fast forward 30 years with no answers, no MRI’s, (dr’s kept telling me pain was in my head), and way to much physical activity, (weight lifting, mountain hiking, mtn biking, etc) and always in pain, never able to get sleep, and finally a dr gave me the MRI I had waited 20 years for…Turns out, so much damage, unrepairable, untreatable, cannot do a f~~~ing thing now but give me pain killers and NSAID’s….Of which I take neither….I quit going to the doctor two years ago….sorry but it is such a long s~~~ty explanation…….

share a video of ol johnny singing a song that totally encompasses my feelings as of late…

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Sorry dude. You’ve been dealt some s~~~ty hands. You will come through this.

I apologize if I sounded like a dick earlier – had a few beers.

Than Johnny Cash cover of hurt is a tune. Kills me.

[GnosticParticipant 2491]

Jeremiah Johnson wrote:

joller984 wrote:

Why are you struggling to walk sir?

I have an auto immune disease called ankylosing spondylitis, also no cartilage left in any of my joints with severe bone damage to my hips, sacroiliac joint, knees, ankles, and hands…as if not enough, I have 4 completely blown disc’s in my spine, and could go on, but really there is no need, that alone makes me want to just shrug in disbelief as I type it out, I was in pain as 7 year old boy, so bad couldn’t sleep at night, pain, went to the doc, he tells my mother I am experiencing bone growth pain and is totally normal, I need to suck it up and deal with it, cause everyone goes through it, turned out, I had blown my L5 disc, and had begun to lose the cartilage already…Fast forward 30 years with no answers, no MRI’s, (dr’s kept telling me pain was in my head), and way to much physical activity, (weight lifting, mountain hiking, mtn biking, etc) and always in pain, never able to get sleep, and finally a dr gave me the MRI I had waited 20 years for…Turns out, so much damage, unrepairable, untreatable, cannot do a f~~~ing thing now but give me pain killers and NSAID’s….Of which I take neither….I quit going to the doctor two years ago….sorry but it is such a long s~~~ty explanation…….

share a video of ol johnny singing a song that totally encompasses my feelings as of late…

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That’s s~~~ty doctor that thought doctors know best without doing the necessary checks. Without medical equipment scans they are just ordinary human that is not better then then patient who can feel something is wrong with their body.

I caught dengue when my company sent me to India for projects, I know something is very wrong with my body and my company send me back. Yet the doctor says it is just a normal virus infection. I insisted on a blood test, and the doctor had the gall to say why waste money, it will cost more. I still insisted and finally the blood test show positive for dengue.

Doctor are only human that make mistake, some are terrible doctor as there are terrible engineer / accountant / lawyer. How much can another human know by just looking at you and checking your pulse? Take away the X-ray, medical equipment, drugs a doctor is just another human that read some books that have knowledge that may or may not be applicable to your condition.

There is no magic in MGTOW, just recognition of the truth and logical decision how to avoid dangers. The red pill is but the truth, it is no magical potion. Do not think in this modern world men have no longer have natural enemies, men are prey to women and government.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

Jeremiah Johnson wrote:

thank you brothers, all I know is, I do not want to check the mail, because if there is mail it is someone who wants money I do not have, same with my phone, if it rings it is bad news or someone that wants money…Like I said earlier every time I smile nowadays as soon as the smile hits my face I feel a giant moment of caution if you will, a moment I am sure s~~~ is coming from some direction, it always does…depressed, I don’t think so, it is sick of the s~~~, that is not sadness, it is sick of all the bulls~~~, and yeah, it COULD be worse, I could see it that way, I usually try to anyways, but it could be better too…I mean, why didn’t I have parents that nurtured and cared for me and took me to a private school so I had a heads up, or why haven’t any big breaks gone my way, I see people all the time that have at least once in a while great luck things happen to them…I seen fella’s that had companies left to them from their fathers, or you all know EXACTLY what I am saying…it just seems like I have been going though life PAYING for Hitlers mistakes or some s~~~…And I mean, there IS NO F~~~ING WAY, I could have done so much bad to receive such s~~~ luck and karma, not as often as I try to do good for everyone else…I cannot explain it, it is almost as if I am some beings f~~~ing entertainment, and this is it for me, there will never be a great break, or great luck, it is just s~~~….I understand to you who say “well make s~~~ salad and eat up”, yeah I get that, but I have done that over and f~~~ing over, ahh forget it…..

I know that f~~~ing feeling ALL TOO WELL. I feel DREAD most days too. That what it is, DREAD. And suddenly you have something nice happen to you and its such a relief, but then before you know it, some c~~~ has obliterated it.

I never check my mail. Well i do, but i throw it in the bin and never open it. Its all debt letter and bulls~~~. Same with my phone. Someone rings or txts or even wattsapps me i suddenly feel very anxious and negative. Why do we even have cellfones?

I relate to your post alot man. I have been nothing but a s~~~ magnet my whole life. My bad luck has been unrivalled by anyone else I know. It was f~~~ing uncanny.

Even the little things p~~~ me off. When its my turn to be served at a bank or whatever, the f~~~ing staff member walks off. When at school and the teachers handed s~~~ out, i always got the f~~~ed up broken book/equipment etc. My car tire got a puncture on the exact day i got f~~~ing paid costing me $100 that i desperately needed. JUst s~~~ like that. On and on and on and on and on.

ZERO luck with any woman in my life that i really wanted over the years. It was all NO/REJECTION/I HAVE A BOYFRIEND/I’M WASHING MY HAIR ON FRIDAY SO CANT GO OUT FOR A DRINK WITH YOU/IM A C~~~ etc.

I never got into the army, police, never got that f~~~ing job i wanted, never had any real true friends that stuck by me. Never had any nice =family members, just constantly got s~~~ on.

So over the years, all that sadness, depression and bitterness turned into rage and hatred. Now its a mix of rage and numbness.

There is no magical answer to any of it. Some people are lucky f~~~s and get lucky breaks and never have to deal with s~~~. They get all the pussy with zero effort while the likes of me got f~~~ all.

You can’t change it. Like alot of you guys have said to me on here, you have to learn to not give a f~~~. Which is quite impossible in the early stages when you crave and long for so many things to fulfil yourself.

What i can say tho is, is that we should do something nice and rewarding for ourselves, even if we do it alone. Go for that camping trip, have a deep tissue massage, take a drive in the countryside and stop of and check out the views. Just that type of s~~~.

I know the malaise i have will probably engulf/surround me for the rest of my life. But im trying to train my mind to deal with it better and not constantly falling into that f~~~ing abyss of despair.

[Maraudrz1Participant 2250]

JJ, from what I was able to take away from your first post in this thread is a problem I have (just maybe less of it). It sounds as though you are very intelligent, you just don’t have a definitive realistic goal. You don’t have something that you can do within your financial means. The illuminated keyboard is your example. You let fear stop you from possibly becoming at least comfortably well off. I think you have an ongoing fear of risks. Look at where that fear has gotten you. While I haven’t invented anything, I too, have that fear. Also, I was never able to come up with a goal to work towards, I am 64 and I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.

I think a major reason you bump into things is that, possibly like myself, is you are stuck inside your own head. I daydream a lot and can focus for about 1 second. For example, while I type this I have to force my thoughts to continue on this. I don’t know from one sentence to the next what I am going to type. The only time I am able to focus for any length of time is when I am reading books. So, this bumping into things could be caused by simply not being able to pay attention to your immediate surroundings.

As for all these other things that happened/happen to you a friend said to me ” You set yourself up for failure.” For me that was profound. It didn’t change much of anything except for trying to be more aware of it.

Anyhow, I am not a philosopher or wise man or any of that type of thing. I have made bad decisions my entire life and have/continue to pay for them. I am unable to make any suggestions except one. One of the previous posters said to make some male friends, I wholeheartedly agree. Since you are a man you know that men in general won’t make fun of you or look at you with disdain after they get to know you. They could be very helpful and at least provide companionship and maybe some useful advise. They would be someone that would listen, maybe that is all you need. I wish you the best JJ. I wish I could help more.

Women's brains and vagina have one thing in common. There is nothing in there until a man puts something in there.

[bladeParticipant]

I have questioned the very same.With out going into things to much because i got ptsd and situational deppresion. Physically a couple of years ago caught a bug that ate into my right lung and right liver.Very high chance sooner or later it will turn cancerous, tick tock.When i caught this i had my step daughter look after my kids when i ended up in hospital bleeding from my mouth.The mother of my kids caught wind of this and travelled to grab them because she was caught using my tax file number and other scally wag behavior to keep herself from going to jail.My kids lived with me for 3 years because she didn’t want them.I could go on and on.I feal ya pain and suffering and i have asked myself that very same many times.One thing i sometimes think is i would not be a good person or the person i am if i did not endure all this s~~~.We have all on here got something good and in common. We are here and all stand by each other and all contribute to each other.May good happen for you.

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[Jeremiah JohnsonParticipant 2219]

thank you gents, so much…for sharing, for caring, for listening, trying to understand, I feel for each and every one of you, I really do…I read each post and am over come with empathy…So, as I have internalized a bit, took my dogs outside in the fresh snow and got them a walk this evening, I came up with this little gem…There probably is no true answer to these issues, probably no right or wrong, well there are a lot of ways I could steer wrong, but I choose not to pay those any mind…I have my babies (dogs) and they need me so very much for everything, I will continue on each and every day just as before…Not much we can do I guess…Doesn’t change anything at all, But maybe I am enduring all this s~~~ for something after, I don’t know…I have no idea what is after this…All I know is I am not ready to give up yet…I am not ready to quit…But man there have been some times recently when I was not sure….I am just tired I guess brothers…So f~~~ing tired…Ya know, if I could just get a year or two without any S~~~ at all, that would really help….Not for me to win the lottery or some s~~~, Just a year or two without any bulls~~~, is that too much too ask?????

Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....

[PhantomParticipant 3328]

Jeremiah Johnson wrote:

just a year or two without any bulls~~~, is that too much too ask?????

May Good bless you and heal you brother, in Christ Jesus name. Amen.

Hoping you get some relief from your pain & if I had the means, I would hook you up with at least a vacation for a much needed break.

I know it sounds ridiculous, but try to take it easy bro.

[Prefer Peace to PieceParticipant 10809]

JJ-

I’m sorry you are going thru this.

As I read your letter, I could identify with a lot of your story. My dad died when I was five and I basically grew up in a ghetto. I have been working since I was a kid. I knew I would have to get an education to extricate myself from the ghetto. When I wasn’t working, I was studying. I never had time to have fun when I was a kid. But who cares?
I have been robbed by partners and by my ex-wife who ran off with a preacher.

To me, life is all about attitude. If you have an indomitable attitude, you will never lose, no matter what life throws at you. Bitch wife runs off? Great opportunity. Get a younger, better one if that is what you want. So she divorce rapes you. It’s only money, and now you are a free man. Limitless opportunities. The day my divorce was finalized, I threw a kegger at the local sports bar. The house, the car, the pension? Just stuff. Get more.
Your business venture blows up? Who cares? Maybe you can write it off your taxes. You learned and had fun playing the game. You’ll grab them the by the b~~~~ next time. I have won and lost fortunes. None of it is important. Just a game.
Dog sick? Sorry. Nobody will love you like your dog. But hey, dogs can be replaced and the new one will be great.

My advice-
– please work on attitude. Never, never, never give up. You’re a winner.
– spend time at the gym
– don’t drink too much
– consider a spiritual life. I personally don’t go to church, but I do read a Bible
– start visiting pet stores
Good luck brother

[DarkRyuParticipant 2354]

See my most recent post for an explanation.

[Anonymous 11]

Jeremiah Johnson wrote:

Instead I was built to be the water at the bottom of the toilet, and no work or effort or anything is ever going to change that fact…does any of this make sense??

If you’re the water at the bottom of the toilet, then you should not worry about magnetism, it’s gravity you need to worry about.
The people that clean toilets should be well paid, but it’s the people that clean their pockets that make/take all the money.
If you want to make money, find out what the banks are spending all the money they stole on. You could probably get a good job building prisons, or you could help the government develop face recognition software, or more advanced stun guns, and a host of other wonderful things the bank-owned government makes for us. I think now it’s just a matter of getting used to this brave new world, if you can’t beat em’, join em’. All you have to do is ditch your soul if you have one, if you don’t have one, then you’re already prepared to survive in this brave new banker’s world. Cheer up man, we’re all f~~~ed.

[Smitty the Great OneParticipant 1535]

Well clearly Jeremiah you’re building up to a big finish, this should be exciting.

Life is too long to play by someone elses rules....

[PistolPeteParticipant 27143]

Very interesting. I used to be just like you. Literally everything was measured by money. Am I a success? depends upon how much money I have. WRONG. The amount of money you have doesn’t define your worth as a person. Society teaches that your worth as a person is defined by job status, money; but that is an illusion. The purpose is to take away from you what is really valuable, your innate sense of worth/value. They want to de-humanize you by making you play their game. Don’t.

Have you ever asked yourself—what would you do with a BAZILLION dollars? I mean really what? Money can only do one thing—buy things. And things either serve some useful purpose or they just collect dust. If you define yourself by “bought things” then you are in real trouble brother. If “things” define who you are than you are nothing more than a thing. You must learn to define yourself by what you DO–not what you buy.

[Jeremiah JohnsonParticipant 2219]

big ending???Sorry to disappoint smitty, not a dramatic piece I am writing, but my tale of woe instead…I have given it much thought, and even started out several times to no avail, to write a autobiography of my life…Simply stated, it would not be to obtain sympathy, but to help others in the same shoes and maybe even those that are slightly worse off, realize they were not alone…It seems to me though, a tougher challenge than I had originally thought it to be…None the less…
Have I ever asked myself what I would do with a bazillion dollars..YOU BET YOUR ASS I HAVE!!!!!!!! I would buy 2 to 3 wind mills pro grade, and then build a small building in the ground (for cooler temps of course) to house the batteries needed, tied into a solar grid, then build a 1600 square foot cabin, nothing too fancy, just enough for what I would need…I would not buy another vehicle, my 03 Trailblazer is already paid off, but I would replace the engine brand new as well as everything else that I thought was needed…Of the VERY few “new item” purchases I would be making, I would get a decent 2 person Rhino…nothing fancy here either, no heat or stereo, just a nice covered 2 man atv with standard rear end to store s~~~ for fencing etc…I would build a brand new computer (the one I have now I built 7 years ago) and probably get a couple new monitors pretty large, and sound system to go with it…I would find the very best holistic veterinarian in the entire world and take my dogs there and get them on treatments to get them both as healthy as they could possibly be…Then I would buy a couple state of the art treadmills built specifically for them so they could run all freaking day…A new bed, half built by me with materials in the forest around me, which also brings me too a new room all of itself with all the wood and metal working machines I used in all the shop classes I took in junior high, would not even have to be new machines, hell I would buy the one’s 50 + years old from schools looking to sell them off cause they do not have shop anymore any freakin where…Then, I would build a 50 or 60 meter squared greenhouse, to house all of my veggies, tree babies, and green medicine….And lastly, several security cameras watching entire perimeter, and a 8 meter tall brick wall surrounding my property…Oh and the land for sale next to me, which goes all around my 8 1/2 acre lot, and would increase property size to about 170 acres….Absolutely EVERY single penny left I would buy silver and gold coins with….That brother…is what I would do….Notice no women, no other houses or needless s~~~…no sex robot or nothing retarded…I am just looking to be self sustaining and NO ONE allowed to enter…All my groceries be delivered, and WOULD NEVER LEAVE AGAIN….

I may also look into building an area to house all the kill shelter dogs in america, and also look into buying all horses that were being sent to butchers or kill places and bring them here to be free forever…But hey man that is just me….

S~~~—-almost forgot…would also build a fiber trunk from my house into town, and start my own internet company and give all my neighbors free internet….F~~~ THE DSL RASPIST S~~~HOLE COMPANY I HAVE NOW!!!!

Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....

[Jeremiah JohnsonParticipant 2219]

You lit a fire in me with that question eh….
I would take all the money leftover (after my dogs and me were taken care of for our lives of course) and do these things——
1. Build a home to house homeless vets and a counseling center that provided green medicine to PTSD patients.
2. Build a center to take my new dogs and train them to help disabled vets and other disabled men only.
3. Take all leftover money and figure out a way to get as many disabled men or divorced men that have alimony / child support problems that have made them homeless or near it, and get them as much money each as I could, of course cutting into monthly installments so it was not ill spent…

Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....

[bladeParticipant]

My heart goes out to you mate.Will come back to this thread in time.You are a good man and have been threw hell.Having a hard day so i will leave my reply for later.F~~~ do this or do that.No one else is walking in your shoe’s.

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