Am I a magnet for s~~~???

[Jeremiah JohnsonParticipant 2219]

I know this will probably sound as though I just whining and crying and carrying on a f~~~ing pity party, but I swear that is not my intent…That said…I was born into a very abusive home…From my first memories I have I was regularly beat within inches of my life by my father…My mother instigated every situation, I see that now, I played every sport growing up, but really was not successful in any…I did not do well in the school system at all, I was a mediocre student, but I feel like I am very intelligent, just did not do well the way the were trying to teach me, I mean I have a 130 to 140 I.Q., can speed read up to several hundred words a minute, and was a straight A student in my thirties when I finally went back to school…I invented the illuminated keyboard and mouse, YES I AM SERIOUS, in 1999, and can prove it, I even had the doctor that brought my daughter into this world offer me a check to cover all expenses to get it patented and get a conception model built, but when it came time for it, I chickened out, because what if my idea sucked and flopped, I would be in debt to him for the rest of my f~~~ing life…So instead some rich asshole company had the keyboards back ordered for over a f~~~ing year they were so popular, and they made billions…My wife left me, took away my daughter, the courts f~~~ed me so hard in the divorce I will be paying for it until I die…Everything around me falls, the soda can, the tablet on the desk, the bowl on the counter top, I run into s~~~ and hurt my hands or fingers or elbows, and look back and think HOW THE F~~~ DID THAT JUST HAPPEN?????? I am not a klutz or a spaz, jesus….My female dog has an auto immune disease and has anal fissures and will now the rest of her life, I swear to chrsit everything I touch turns to s~~~…I am totally disabled and getting worse all the time, in pain always, can hardly even walk now and I am only 42….WHY?????????????????????? Why have I not got ONE F~~~ING BREAK??????? I feel like I should have 42 YEARS of AWESOME LUCK COMING MY WAY…I mean I have endured ALLL THIS S~~~!! WHY NOT??? IT IS MY TURN FOR SOME GREAT F~~~ING LUCK!!!!!!! I just do not get it, why does everything I TOUCH TURN TO S~~~…I don’t f~~~ing get it, I try to stay positive, I try to smile and carry on, But it seems like the bigger I smile or the happier I get, the BIGGER THE PILE OF S~~~ THAT LANDS STRAIGHT ON MY FACE!?!?!??!?! WHY!?!?!?!?!? Does ANYONE ELSE feel like this, has anyone else gone through this???????????? I MEAN WHAT THE F~~~?? WHY THE F~~~ IS MY WHOLE LIFE ONE GODDAMN MISERABLE EVENT TO THE NEXT????????????

Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....

[LeoYourKingParticipant 225]

Brother, you are in the right place. Here you will find straight advises and not sugar coded.
I think you are really depress (“no s~~~”). I can not tell you something that you did not hear before. The best advise I can give you is that you should start doing exercise (going to the gym) It will help you with your repression over time. This is because working out helps your brain to realize dopamine and all those good chemists naturally. I hope you are not using antidepressants because those will fk you up more on the long run. Try to get that blood flowing. If you are already doing it, good for you. Keep it going. Also, try to find guy friends but do not tell them your bad experiences. Try to make new memories and be positive. Nobody, likes to be around a negative person. Forget, you past, you can not do anything about it. Focus in the present and the future. Set goals, small goals in the beginning and then set bigger goals. Small, goals add up to give you the confidence you need to take over bigger challenges. From what I read, you have the potential but you do not have the confidence to take it to the next level. work on it. Finally, if this does not work, try a psychologist or group therapy for depression. I said psychologist not Psychiatrist. If one psychologist is not working for you, try another. I will recommend a psychologist whit cognitive and behavioral background. Try different professional psychologist because some of them are s~~~. If you do not have the money for therapy, group therapies are cheaper. If you do not have the money for therapy or group therapy get some psychology books (positive psychology). I comment, Mindset: The New Psychology of Success by Carol Dweck. Good luck and keep us updated.

[Anonymous 11]

Keep on chugging. Harland Sanders of KFC fame was 64 when he struck gold.

Sometimes taking risks is warranted.

[JimBoLeaParticipant 1891]

DAMN IT I HAD A BIG MESSAGE WROTE OUT AND HAVE TO START OVER AGAIN, F~~~ I HATE THAT, JJ WHAT I THINK WE ALL GO THRU IM 52 WE ALL GO THRU CYCLES IN OUR LIFE THAT WELL AM I DOING THINGS RIGHT? WHY DOES IT SEEM I GET A BOWL FULL OF PITS AND NO CHERRIES ? YEAH, YOUR LIFE LOOKS LIKE S~~~ RIGHT NOW, BUT YOU DONT KNOW WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT THAT MIGHT JUST GET YOU BACK ON COURSE AND DO WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO. IM A TYPE 1 DIABETIC WHO TAKES SHOTS EVERY DAY TO LIVE AND IM GOING BLIND AND I HAVE A SICK DOG THAT I CAN’T OFFORD MEDICATION FOR, YOU SEE WHAT A MEAN JJ , WE ALL HAVE S~~~ IN OUR LIFES, ITS HOW WE REMEMBER THE S~~~TY TIMES OVER THE GOOD TIMES, AND JUST REMEMBER THE GOOD TIMES, IT MAKES FOR SOME FOND MEMORIES . HOPE THIS HELP WITH GETTING YOU THRU THE FUNK

LILITH IS THE HEAD SUCCUBUS AND SHE LIVES ON THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON

[Freeman_KParticipant 3524]

Hope this is anger from nicotine deprivation, if it is vent as much as you need.

What is past is past, nothing you can do about it. Sounds like you can be proud to live decent life after that upcoming. Work on your health first if you can do anything about situation.

The choices we make, not the chances we take, determine our destiny

[SamsquanchParticipant 4226]

@jj

I hope that after you typed out the post it made you feel a little better. If nothing else you at least got it out of your mind which helps me when I’m struggling.

I don’t really have an answer for why you’re being s~~~ on. One piece of advice that has helped me is:

“Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.”
― Charles R. Swindoll

[Anonymous 11]

Am I a magnet for s~~~???
Everyone is a magnet for s~~~, s~~~ loves us. It can’t get enough of us. Life sucks, but if you’re not locked up, and can freely go outside without anyone’s permission and look up and see the sky, it doesn’t suck as bad as it could. Cheers.

[PhantomParticipant 3328]

This method may not be helpful to you, but I try to balance out the s~~~ with cool stuff…

So, no matter what it is, big or small, I try to do it as much as possible.

Sometimes I have days where everything seems to suck & on those days I will go out of my f~~~ing way to have at least something positive to f~~~ing think about, when my head hits the pillow.

I don’t know, but it does wonders for my attitude & outlook.

[DorkShitParticipant 4353]

What a small world. I started out my days at a company that was named maxi…(never work for a company with maxi in the name)

My earliest mentor was the man that invented the one piece elastomer switch. It replaced the reed switch.

The company moved operations to Mexico. They delivered 500,000 keyboards to Compaq for the release of the 80286 computer. To save money they didn’t have inspection operation state side and Compaq delivered with computer bundle to customer’s.

Problems happened immediately. Customer service phone bank went crazy. Some keyboards did a simple short circuit. Some shot out sparks. Some produced smoke and fire. Some worked. The problem with the ones that worked is that the keys were not in correct sequence and some had the same character multiple places. I saw one keyboard with 3 “q” keys and none of them were in the “q” position.

The company stock went from 34 dollars to 0.34 cents in less than a month. Coworkers lost their entire life savings. I attended lots of funerals of suicide victims. All men.

As my career progressed things got worse.

Trust me jj, bad luck is relative.

Please find peace and serenity.

Peace brothers

[JimBoLeaParticipant 1891]

DAMN I’VE BEEN TRYING TO THINK OF THIS SINCE I READ YOUR LETTER THIS MORNING.
“TO SUCCEED IN ANY ENDEAVOR YOU MUST HAVE THE ATTITUDE OF GRATITUDE” HAVE A GOOD ONE JJ ALL IS NOT LOST YOUR AMONG BRETHREN.

LILITH IS THE HEAD SUCCUBUS AND SHE LIVES ON THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

“Am I a magnet for s~~~?”
At this point I think a better questions is
“WERE you a magnet for s~~~?”

Regardless of whether the answer is yes or no, own it and move on. Put that s~~~, and the magnet that attracted it, behind you.

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

[KillmandrillParticipant 497]

How to change the polarity of a s~~~ magnet?

There is no way, all you can do is focus on those tiny little peak moments of luck, that you need to draw energy of.

Ah, women. They make the highs higher and the lows more frequent. Friedrich Nietzsche

[Jeremiah JohnsonParticipant 2219]

thank you brothers, all I know is, I do not want to check the mail, because if there is mail it is someone who wants money I do not have, same with my phone, if it rings it is bad news or someone that wants money…Like I said earlier every time I smile nowadays as soon as the smile hits my face I feel a giant moment of caution if you will, a moment I am sure s~~~ is coming from some direction, it always does…depressed, I don’t think so, it is sick of the s~~~, that is not sadness, it is sick of all the bulls~~~, and yeah, it COULD be worse, I could see it that way, I usually try to anyways, but it could be better too…I mean, why didn’t I have parents that nurtured and cared for me and took me to a private school so I had a heads up, or why haven’t any big breaks gone my way, I see people all the time that have at least once in a while great luck things happen to them…I seen fella’s that had companies left to them from their fathers, or you all know EXACTLY what I am saying…it just seems like I have been going though life PAYING for Hitlers mistakes or some s~~~…And I mean, there IS NO F~~~ING WAY, I could have done so much bad to receive such s~~~ luck and karma, not as often as I try to do good for everyone else…I cannot explain it, it is almost as if I am some beings f~~~ing entertainment, and this is it for me, there will never be a great break, or great luck, it is just s~~~….I understand to you who say “well make s~~~ salad and eat up”, yeah I get that, but I have done that over and f~~~ing over, ahh forget it…..

Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....

[DarkRyuParticipant 2354]

Life sucks b~~~~. Just remember that no matter how s~~~ty you think you have it, there’s someone out there who’s more miserable than you are right now. I’m not implying that you don’t already do this, but maybe if you helped others it would bring more joy into your life. NOT women though because they’re not grateful and they EXPECT it and think they DESERVE it.

I too started life disadvantaged. My family never owned a home. We always rented. And we were poor as s~~~. I had to crawl my way up out of the gutter. Sure, there are some people that get everything handed to them and they have a peachy life without having to work for it. But that’s the exception, NOT the rule. The truth of the matter is, it takes HARD WORK and SACRIFICE to get ahead in life. Luck plays a part too, but you can have the s~~~tiest luck and still get ahead if you play your cards right.

Every decision you make affects your life. Having a f~~~ing kid and getting married is one of the worst things you can do to set yourself back, and unfortunately you’ve already done that. Nothing you can do about that now though. All you can do is move forward and work your ass off so you can have some amount of peace in your final years.

[RorschachParticipant 2083]

No sir you are not a magnet for s~~~. Women are a magnet for s~~~. When your with them its always something. When they go it seems so devastating because they subliminally made you orbit them. Luck or life may or may not favor you. But there is one sure fire way to start turning things around for yourself. Start emptying your life of anything negative. You cannot do anything about what is done, but you can make damn sure you minimize the things that contribute s~~~ to your life. Respect yourself brother. Life s~~~s on everyone, all we can do is try to be well prepared and shielded. Don’t give up.. you were f~~~ed by the system but you can still rise and f~~~ it back. Wish you the best sir.

The accumulated filth of all their sex and murder will foam up about their waists and all the whores and politicians will look up and shout "save us!"....... and i'll look down and whisper "No."

[OrlandoParticipant 833]

If you were a s~~~ magnet, I would study you, then develop the most sophisticated pooper scooper ever devised. (Insert cash register sound here)

Your attitude stinks like s~~~. I would start working there. If you can’t change that, you’re f~~~ed.

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

Jeremiah Johnson wrote:

thank you brothers, all I know is, I do not want to check the mail, because if there is mail it is someone who wants money I do not have, same with my phone, if it rings it is bad news or someone that wants money

Hang in there.
I know from personal experience you can recover from losing everything and being in the hole so deep you can’t see daylight.

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

[Jeremiah JohnsonParticipant 2219]

Thank you brothers, let me at least give a tiny bit of perspective to those that are reading, it is not at all as if I have sat here wishing for greatness and sitting about waiting, no no….I have been working my b~~~~ off since I was 14…I started off in what I could, labor, hated it….Worked two jobs to get a $4000 computer when NO ONE else had one…Took it apart put it together, upgraded it, studied, read, and worked my ass off in the IT field, took s~~~ from some hundreds of thousands of people over the phone, face to face, fixing their broken s~~~…I have paid my f~~~ing dues!!!!! I have put in a BILLION hours of OT, worked several jobs….STILL F~~~ ALL…THAT IS WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT….I have seen so many in my early field go on and make BAZILLIONS and I feel like I have had the intelligence to have my cake too, but not one f~~~ing chance, or at least one I would have recognized as a chance I guess….I tried going out on my own, tried it all, just never in the right place, or right time, just passed over….I feel like I could have done some great things in this life had I only the f~~~ing opportunity to do so…Instead I was built to be the water at the bottom of the toilet, and no work or effort or anything is ever going to change that fact…does any of this make sense??

Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....

[FermatParticipant 3478]

Your lucky break was finding this site.

I have discovered a truly remarkable list of reasons why women are not necessary for a happy life, but alas this margin is too small to contain it.

[Anonymous 1]

Jeremiah Johnson wrote:

I am totally disabled and getting worse all the time, in pain always, can hardly even walk now and I am only 42….WHY??????????????????????

Hi Jeremiah. Im a track runner and a former long distance runner. At 42 you absolutely should not be experiencing the pain you describe for no reason. Why are you struggling to walk sir?

With respect, do you enjoy a healthy diet?

Are you doing light exercise?

Are you overweight?

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