Note, I said BRAIN, not your heart.
If anyone remembers, there was a chick I knew from Arkansas online that was very sketchy, yet I was a purple pilled idiot at the time and went for her anyway despite my doubts and despite the thought that she slept with someone else stuck in my mind.
Though the stories are long, it gives you guys a better perspective to what I’m going to say next.
Story 1
Story 2
I talked to other women because my logical side told me she slept with the man that visited her after she dissed seeing me last year, and she held that against me by swearing up and down she did nothing with the guy that visited her.
Ever since I left Arkansas and came back home, she’s been constantly harassing me with messages on all forms of media: Online and texting. When I block her on one thing, she finds me on another and continues to remind me how happy she is with the new guy she’s seeing (though she also tries contacting me when he “hurts” her, though she later says he never hurt her and it was all miscommunication).
Ignoring her isn’t hard anymore, especially when she has her boyfriend now texting me as well (she “accidentally” gave him my number) and trying to call me out to argue and fight with him, and I ignore him as well. They both are trying to get a reaction they’re not getting, and thus call me a “coward” for it.
The golden part about all this? Two weeks ago, she admitted to what she swore she didn’t do for over a YEAR now: “I have to get this off my chest finally…I did sleep with that guy, both nights he was here. Now, I didn’t like it as much as I did with you keep in mind, and we didn’t do nearly as much as you and I did. I felt so gross but at the time I thought you weren’t serious about being into me and I needed an outlet and he was all there was.
I didn’t have a good time with him at all though, I just pretended to be happy.”
For some reason, that hit me like a ton of bricks. I was right the entire time. I was right. I shouldn’t have wasted my time with her. She was a slut and she didn’t even care about it, nor did she tell me about it until AFTER she left me and went for someone else. She blamed her AND my insecurities all on me. I was insecure BECAUSE of that very situation last year.
I started thinking about how unfair that is. She basically framed me the whole time as this player to everyone we knew when I DARED talk to other women while she claimed to “love” me and to “only be into me” yet talked to other men…yet she’s the one that actually DID something.
I should have listened to my logic. She was deflecting and projecting all at the same time, and only admits to what she did after she’s “engaged” to a new man now.
Despite her kindness and apologies for what she did, she still to this day finds a means to contact me and insult me. Despite all measures I’ve taken to cease contact with her (and now her boyfriend as well), she still tries to attack me and bring me down. She just can’t let me go.
The most recent thing she attacked me for was because I shared a funny post on a blog of mine (that she somehow found) that said “just because a man wears a skirt, it doesn’t make him a woman.” She decided to message me a 5 page message telling me “sex and gender are two different things, I learned this from biology majors and graduates in universities, ACTUAL scientists. Don’t be a bigot and don’t be so narrow minded in your echo chamber.”
This coming from an “anti-first wave feminist conservative.”
Nah, all women are feminist progressives to some extent or another, and this just proves that I should have listened to my brain here as well because I KNEW that.
The irony is that despite her attempts to constantly contact me and upset me, I’m actually doing better than ever before. I just paid off my truck, my job’s first project is coming to a close but I’m being offered more projects that would pay for my temporary relocation in Florida, Puerto Rico, or California, and the money I have now will be mine to save, save, save (as I stated in my last post).
I feel so free mentally, emotionally, and financially now. My next goal is to save for my own place to live, even if it’s just a small spit of land for me.
I love my life right now.
Governor Megachris% 2 years, 2 months ago.
