Theres something seriously wrong with the way things are now

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

I’m sick and f~~~ing tired of masking a deep seeded hatred and internal loathing for the world today. This cancerous malaise eating away at me every god damned day. This f~~~ing perfect alienation and pointless existence. It’s a full blown hell that goes on and on and on and f~~~ing on. All I see are the c~~~~~~~~~s and vermin of society getting EVERYTHING handed to them and being rewarded for being sub mediocre pieces of s~~~. This quick fix instant gratification society of trash. All women are now pure trash as well. and they are proud to be pure trash.

I used to be able to deploy self constructed distractions to ease the foreboding horrors waiting for me around the corner with a sledgehammer and numb the sting of reality. F~~~ all works now.

Theres this emptiness that won’t go away, no matter what I do. It’s driving me insane.

It seems such a s~~~ life to do things on my own (without good friends, not women, f~~~ women) and expected to be content with being treated with a level of disdain that I find repulsive and degrading. I might as well be a goldfish in a f~~~ing bowl.

In my early 20’s I had hopes and dreams of being a vocalist in a metal band and at least gigging in dive bars and clubs but none of it materialised at all. I met losers and people who let me down every way possible. It just didn’t happen for me. I’m still bitter and twisted about it all. I had the talent and determination.

This isnt a rant or a fishing trip for pity. This is just a f~~~ing statement. for whatever its worth.

Social media, cellphones, all of that s~~~ has warped society into one dimensional pieces of s~~~. The recession, 9/11, etc, its all connected. Make of that what you will.

I know I’m not the only one who feels like this. Yet I NEVER meet a single god damned soul in person who feels as sickened as I do about everything. I’ve been told I’m f~~~ed up and mentally ill when I express my thoughts and opinions. I know this is all bulls~~~. My eyes are wide OPEN. I remember how things used to be, when things were much better, when everything had meaning and purpose. Now, nothing. They say honesty is a virtue but none likes hearing the truth.

I’m bored s~~~less most days. The drugs and alcohol do nothing anymore. I just feel SICK. Sick and and mentally tired from having my mind battered from all the tormenting thoughts and repetitive predictable toxic verbal emissions from the scum around me.

I’m supposed to just sit here and go to some bulls~~~ job everyday and take it lying down? F~~~ that.

Ive tried everything god damned thing, believe me. I can’t help but feel ive been conned duped and ripped the f~~~ off in life.

I have been blessed with the curse of insight. And it sucks dick like a motherf~~~er.

[Jan SobieskiParticipant 28791]

Of course it is.

Love is just alimony waiting to happen. Visit mgtow.com.

[ghostParticipant]

Forget about the past. You either adapt to the current reality or you will not survive. Keep thinking and trying new things. You will catch fire at some point. Believe me.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

ghost wrote:

Forget about the past. You either adapt to the current reality or you will not survive

Adapt to what? The current reality is a f~~~ing hologram.

[ghostParticipant]

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

The current reality is a f~~~ing hologram.

I think this is what YOUR current reality is. Only you can figure out what you need to change to make your mind feel at ease.

For me personally, I have short-term, medium-term and long-term goals. I stick to them and it keeps me sane. There are some frustrations that come up here and there, but I know how to handle them better now. Like I said, you have to figure these things out for yourself. You have to want to get out of this mental state. When you want something bad enough, you will find a way.

I know this might sound repetitive, but this is what worked for me when I felt like the way you are feeling right now.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

ghost wrote:

You have to want to get out of this mental state

Of course I do. In fact I’m positive most of the time but then I think wow this is a f~~~ing waste of time!!!! Nothing is happening, 15 years later!

Being positive and feeling despair is possible, and that how i am.

[NerdTunnelerParticipant]

There is no need to fix everything DYD…Only do what you can in your way one moment at a time…A single breath is all it takes to ground you and gain perspective…

Here is something that helped me when I was down. I am not preaching or anything, just trying to help…Good luck DYD…Not everything is f~~~ed up…

I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...

[Sky-OParticipant 18936]

Magnum Opus was read and processed. Wow. That was deep.

And I hate to say it, but I agree with approximately 80% of what you said (on the 80% – fluctuating margin +/- 4% depending on the day)

And as far as the drugs and alcohol not working anymore. I’m at that point right now. It’s just not numbing it all for me anymore.

During my blue pill era, sex (& pumpkin pheromones) did it for awhile. It was a drug in a way. Then I got away from that.

Currently. Nothing is working. The only time I am happy during the day now is:

01: When I wake up next to my dog.

02: When I witness his warrior vs. the world behavior during the day.

03: & when I go to sleep next to him at night.

And I just jumped out of a plane four times again today. And felt nothing at every exit, during free fall and under my canopy. I felt nothing.

Just to go to sleep at night now, I have to slam 10-12 beers, take a huge bong hit, 1500mg of Methocarbomol and a shot of NyQuil.

And there lay the problem. . .

(to be continued: need to find my phone charger – down to 1% and blinking)

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

I don’t understand anything anymore around me, not a f~~~ing thing. I’m a nihilist through and through now despite my waste of time positive attitude and wasted investments in things and people.

[ghostParticipant]

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

I’m positive most of the time

No one is positive all of the time. You are normal.

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

this is a f~~~ing waste of time

I don’t see it as a waste of time for myself. My purpose was created for me based upon the events in my life thus far. I am here right now because of those events. I really do believe everything happens for a reason.

[DocParticipant]

Read about the existentialist dilemma
Might help.

As for life being pointless as it’s all gone g down the tube. You have a possible front for seat to Armageddon.
F~~~ dude. Priceless.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[Puffin StuffParticipant 24979]

You sound like you have depression and, even though many here are naysayers, antidepressants work.

That said, did you ever think about doing something radical like move and change jobs? If you move to a place with a lower cost of living, like I did, you may not have to work so hard or at a life sucking job.

The world sucks, you have to make the best of it.

#icethemout; Remember Thomas Ball. He died for your children.

[Secret Agent MGTOWParticipant 22510]

Think about it. Women get told by numerous sources of support they are perfect just the way they are. Their hamsters work overtime so they can genuinely believe this massive lie.

The believe they are perfect, just the way they are. They are told this all the time in one form or another.

The corrolary is if they are perfect just the way they are and don’t need to change,

GUESS WHO is IMPERFECT and MUST CHANGE? MEN!!!

This is why they demand men change anything they don’t like about him, but cannot handle any criticism of themselves. Perfect beings are perfect and being criticized means they are not perfect. They criticizer then, MUST BE WRONG and needs to be smashed for being so wrong and making her even THINK she might not be perfect and right.

Essentially this is the basic dynamic underlying men/women interaction with modern women today.

Women want everything, but want responsibility and accountability for nothing.

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

I keep hearing some of guys here want chaos and want to “watch it all burn”. Like your waiting for it to happen. 50+ people were just gunned down last week and 200 more wounded. Sweden and Germany are failing. Borders are down. Libtards are spewing hate speech. Antifi is trying to shut down free speech. Others are fighting back.

If you want to know whats wrong and why you feel like

“”Theres something seriously wrong with the way things are now””

it’s because the burning and chaos have already started. You just missed the starting gun.

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

[Sky-OParticipant 18936]

(continued). . . . .

The problem is. After a profound awakening such as what occurred to me by taking the Red Pill and having a better and clear understanding of just how the world works, along with finally seeing the truth. And understanding the real matrix that we are all trapped in:

The prior charade & illusion that was clung to and used as a crutch can no longer sedate and pacify what is in fact – cold, hard and undeniable truth.

And there is a price to be paid for finally seeing things for what they are and accepting it all.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

I’d like to go back to live in Brunei like i did for 3 years in my childhood. Live in the rainforests in a longhouse with the native people and smoke opium and give the finger to the western world. (Yeh i know Brunei is oil rich.)

I’ve thought many things. But it just isn’t realistic. Someone has already done it or doing it, and ruined it for everyone else.

I don’t even know ho the f~~~ i am anymore. A flesh vessel waiting to capsize.

[Faust For ScienceParticipant 22521]

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

It seems such a s~~~ life to do things on my own (without good friends, not women, f~~~ women) and expected to be content with being treated with a level of disdain that I find repulsive and degrading. I might as well be a goldfish in a f~~~ing bowl.

I know exactly what you are talking about.

The condensation is the worst. They expect us to succeed while denying us any opportunity to succeed.

The worst way they do this is first point out a group event, accuse me of being childish to go to the event, but also they accuse me of being childish if I chose not to go to the event. Either way I get accused of being childish.

I would prefer to not be a part of the event, at least I do not have to deal with both their bulls~~~ and the bulls~~~ of the group event.

[X11Spectator 4520]

OP read Kafka.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

FrostByte wrote:

it’s because the burning and chaos have already started. You just missed the starting gun.

I haven’t missed jack s~~~. I’m not some babe in the woods. I’ve watched s~~~ for years decay and the slow but sure entropy has been blindingly obvious.

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

I haven’t missed jack s~~~. I’m not some babe in the woods. I’ve watched s~~~ for years decay and the slow but sure entropy has been blindingly obvious.

Easy, that wasn’t meant as a dis.

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

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