Still Have Bad Dreams…

[iMickey503Participant 12465]

Autolite wrote:

iMickey503 wrote:

30 years ago. We need some eternal sunshine of the spotless mind right now.

Alzheimer’s would be a fix I guess.

Romulus wrote:

I think its very normal. Happens to me on rare occasion and its been 18 years.

Reading the replies tells me that I’m not the only one. It helps knowing that it’s ‘not just me’…

It helps knowing that it’s ‘not just me’… Dude. We are NOT here cuz the buffet is amazing. Keymaster does not cook that well.

Dude I’m so f~~~ed up, I have to stay alone as MUCH as Possible. Sometimes, for brief periods I forget where I am. I zone out completely.

I see a car that looks like or resembles the one that I know of, I go right back. My “DayDreams” and Nightmares are so vivid, I can almost. Smell , taste and feel just like I am there.

And for some f~~~ed up reason, I have the same one. And I can never get out. I can never change it. Each and every time I Wake up, I am so angry I Jump up. So full of rage.. I had to leave my house bro. Go on the road and just hope I can hide out from people.

If you seen my videos, I have this Happy demeanor. That’s what happens when you hit rock bottom bro. You no longer are you anymore. That person you have become has to hide. But oh the PAIN. God your heart just never recovers from it. It just f~~~ing hurts to live. But your dreams. My god, the ones that you wake up and realize that it was not true. Your Dream that it was all a bad nightmare… But you wake up going. Wait.. Nope. Nightmares don’t hurt like this. Nope, this life is real.

What I can tell you , is that there someone watching. Someone is looking. I have not figured this out. But you are never really alone. Its never really quiet. There is always someone there. Something.

I wonder if that is the people who hurt has, and how they have to watch what they did. THe devious part is I wonder if they enjoy it.

One thing I can tell you. There is no Devil and he makes no deals.

There is no hell. Because at least in hell, you know you can do nothing about being there. And there is no heaven I can see. Just an Endless loop.
That is the nightmare. No never be able to escape.

The worst dream I ever had, was the one that I woke up and realized that the happy family day was all a joke. A F~~~ING CRUEL JOKE.

You also never seem to stop thinking or fantasizing about what life would be like if it was just like what you thought it would be. Seeing your kids open presents, Seeing your Grandkids happy to be read stories in your lap. Singing them songs to go to bed. All of the things you wish were true.

See, one day, machines will truly reach intelligence and self awareness. That’s not the end of days. Its when the machines learn what Pain is. Not the scrape or bruise. But the kind of pain only MAN can feel.

There will be a day that the machines do indeed take over. That day, will be the best day of my life. A life where I get to raise my kids. See them grow, and all of them are still here.

One day, I am going to wake up, and this is ALL going to be a bad nightmare. No more pain. No more betrayal.

You are all alone. If you have been falsely accused of RAPE, DV, PLEASE let all men know about the people who did this. http://register-her.net/web/guest/home

[iMickey503Participant 12465]

Autolite wrote:

iMickey503 wrote:

30 years ago. We need some eternal sunshine of the spotless mind right now.

Alzheimer’s would be a fix I guess.

Romulus wrote:

I think its very normal. Happens to me on rare occasion and its been 18 years.

Reading the replies tells me that I’m not the only one. It helps knowing that it’s ‘not just me’…

It helps knowing that it’s ‘not just me’… Dude. We are NOT here cuz the buffet is amazing. Keymaster does not cook that well.

Dude I’m so f~~~ed up, I have to stay alone as MUCH as Possible. Sometimes, for brief periods I forget where I am. I zone out completely.

I see a car that looks like or resembles the one that I know of, I go right back. My “DayDreams” and Nightmares are so vivid, I can almost. Smell , taste and feel just like I am there.

And for some f~~~ed up reason, I have the same one. And I can never get out. I can never change it. Each and every time I Wake up, I am so angry I Jump up. So full of rage.. I had to leave my house bro. Go on the road and just hope I can hide out from people.

If you seen my videos, I have this Happy demeanor. That’s what happens when you hit rock bottom bro. You no longer are you anymore. That person you have become has to hide. But oh the PAIN. God your heart just never recovers from it. It just f~~~ing hurts to live. But your dreams. My god, the ones that you wake up and realize that it was not true. Your Dream that it was all a bad nightmare… But you wake up going. Wait.. Nope. Nightmares don’t hurt like this. Nope, this life is real.

What I can tell you , is that there someone watching. Someone is looking. I have not figured this out. But you are never really alone. Its never really quiet. There is always someone there. Something.

I wonder if that is the people who hurt has, and how they have to watch what they did. THe devious part is I wonder if they enjoy it.

One thing I can tell you. There is no Devil and he makes no deals.

There is no hell. Because at least in hell, you know you can do nothing about being there. And there is no heaven I can see. Just an Endless loop.
That is the nightmare. No never be able to escape.

The worst dream I ever had, was the one that I woke up and realized that the happy family day was all a joke. A F~~~ING CRUEL JOKE.

You also never seem to stop thinking or fantasizing about what life would be like if it was just like what you thought it would be. Seeing your kids open presents, Seeing your Grandkids happy to be read stories in your lap. Singing them songs to go to bed. All of the things you wish were true.

See, one day, machines will truly reach intelligence and self awareness. That’s not the end of days. Its when the machines learn what Pain is. Not the scrape or bruise. But the kind of pain only MAN can feel.

There will be a day that the machines do indeed take over. That day, will be the best day of my life. A life where I get to raise my kids. See them grow, and all of them are still here.

One day, I am going to wake up, and this is ALL going to be a bad nightmare. No more pain. No more betrayal.

yea

You are all alone. If you have been falsely accused of RAPE, DV, PLEASE let all men know about the people who did this. http://register-her.net/web/guest/home

[JVBParticipant]

Very normal bro. Don’t let it stress you.

Peace is > piece.

[ZoidbergParticipant 965]

Alas, it is normal. For mammals. A young man in love: ripe for plastic changes in the brain. And bam, he is stuck with them for life. If I may, two excerpts from A General Theory of Love by Thomas Lewis, Fari Amini, Richard Lannon:

Unfortunately, the brain’s biology and its mathematics both oppose adult emotional learning. The plasticity of the brain—the readiness of neurons to sprout fresh connections and encode new knowledge—declines after adolescence. And later learning is energetically unfavorable within a neural network. New lessons must fight an uphill battle against the patterns already ingrained, because existing Attractors can easily overwhelm and absorb moderately novel configurations. The nature of neurovirtuality ensures that it trims the ambiguity from reality, and portrays largely what has already been seen.

The evolution of the limbic brain a hundred million years ago created animals with luminescent powers of emotionality and relatedness, their nervous systems designed to intertwine and support each other like supple strands of a vine. But in life, as on the Greek stage, every attribute confers a matching vulnerability; each heroic strength finds its mirror image in a tragic flaw. So it is with the neural skills that constitute emotional life. The limbic brain bestows experiential riches denied simpler creatures, but it also opens mammals up to torment and destruction.

[LupusParticipant 214]

If you have nightmares, look into “Lucid Dreaming”. With work you can control your nightmares.
(And no, there is no easy path or few step program to learn, it takes many years and dedication.)

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