Stepped back from the precipice

[MutineerParticipant 1467]

I don’t think they’re evil but they’re both mentally ill. They want me alive but dependent on them and that can only happen if i’m beaten down and feeling worthless. Without me they only have each other and they hate each other.

It’s really my father who is the bigger problem. He beat my mom down and she goes along with him. I was shocked she threatened to call the cops on me because she never did that when he beat the s~~~ out of her or me. I’ll admit i called her every name under the sun but only after she tried gas-lighting me.

I don’t know what else i can say or what you could do. I’m going to try to get into college and leave them behind. That’s my best bet as far as i can see. I don’t wish them any ill but i have to put myself first.

"The secret to happiness is freedom... And the secret to freedom is courage." - Thucydides

[AutoliteParticipant]

OldBill wrote:

narwhal wrote:

Do not waste your time on this. Punishing them will not make your life any better, it will only cause things to escalate. What you want is peace.

Narwhal is entirely correct. Don’t give these people another thought. Don’t give them free rent in your head.

Just get out and start living your life.

I agree with this. Just leave. Don’t try to engage an asshole at their level. You’ll lose…

[Anonymous 3]

I got a feeling like this might b one of those ” Yes, but…” things.
Here’s something you could do. Go to an emergency room & tell them you want to commit suicide. I am sure they’ll put you up for a couple days & you can start getting the help you need.
Sounds harsh, but desperate times sometimes require desperate measures.
Love me or hate me.
Here I stand

[AutoliteParticipant]

Mutineer wrote:

I don’t know what else i can say or what you could do. I’m going to try to get into college and leave them behind.

Have you thought about joining the military as an escape plan? I was inducted into the forces after only applying two weeks earlier. It depends on what they need right now. If you’re accepted, they might even be able to give you accommodations before your basic training starts.

You don’t need to make it a career out of it but it’ll get you three squares, a roof over your head and a steady paycheck. It could be your quickest way out. Do that and then get out and go to college after a couple of years…

[NoMoreParticipant 1233]

Brother, suicide is a permanent end to a temporary problem. Remove yourself from the toxic environment.

A co-worker recently told me, "If you want to see who someone really is, divorce them." I have found out how true this is. When your wife drops the façade of being the caring partner, you will witness all of the greed, hate, and spite that she has masked. It is truly breathtaking!

[Anonymous 12]

Anonymous wrote:

I got a feeling like this might b one of those ” Yes, but…” things.
Here’s something you could do. Go to an emergency room & tell them you want to commit suicide. I am sure they’ll put you up for a couple days & you can start getting the help you need.
Sounds harsh, but desperate times sometimes require desperate measures.
Love me or hate me.
Here I stand

I would very much caution against doing such a Thing.
The Leech in our home is the one we are very much aware of, and interact with every day.

The enemy that has no face, the Institution, the State, is the one we are ignorant about.
I am afraid the Mutineer might get himself into a psych ward for months if not years if he talks to the gov’t.
His cuts can be seen, his general condition, appearance and demeanor might be visible to their trained eyes.

In the short term, this might help him get out of the hellhole, but what are the long term effects of letting the state know of your troubles?

Returning veterans affected by Combat fatigue/Shell shock/PTSD have told stories where they wanted to get help, only to get none and being put on a “crazy list” + Meds instead.
No guns, no jobs for those guys…

Do not marry a woman.
Be wary of marrying the state.

[Anonymous 3]

g-mow has made an excellent point.I have seen good men zombified doing what we called ” the Thorazine shuffle ” There’s no easy way out.

[Anonymous 3]

I truly wish you the best.
Stick with the winners. MGTOW

[Anonymous 43]

I didn’t read the thread, sorry, I wanted to say I am touched. I am crying a little that Mutineer said I kept him from harm. umm I don’t know what to say other that what I have said in the past

A man’s capacity for absorbing s~~~ is nearly unlimited. Men are survivors, we have to pick ourselves up, think about possible solutions to the problem and survive.

improvise, adapt and overcome…

I have been through a lot of s~~~, and I have had a lot of help along the way. I don’t have magical super powers except I believe every day carries us forward to better days in the future if there is a plan and a course of action.

Please do not hurt yourself because of what some woman has done to you. She ain’t worth the tears, honestly. As you will find, a woman cutting you loose is a blessing in disguise.

I hope you come on here and ask for help. We will help you in some way, I promise. Jebus on the cross, if all we can do is talk to you for a while, and offer ideas, great. This forum is a sounding board, lots of opinions lots of experience. You will get brutal truth. We don’t have safe spaces, playdough and kittens to pet.

Mutineer, I hope you come back, maybe we can hang out for a little while.

But ultimately, you have to solve the problem yourself. When you do that, you become stronger and braver than you thought you could be.

[AntipathyParticipant 4901]

Mutineer my friend, never check out of the world for what is not your fault (The corruption around us). Stay with us and realize your pain does not take away your value, your meaning and purpose. Also realize it’s guys like you, that inspires guys like me, to press forward against all odds.

Any wisdom i now hold, never came from feeling euphoric, or having a good time, it came from deep suffering, and traumatic experiences. Keep going and stay with us.

[MutineerParticipant 1467]

Autolite wrote:

Have you thought about joining the military as an escape plan?

I don’t think the military would be a good fit as i already have PTSD and i have a distrust of authority and institutions. I can see how it would be a good way out for some.

Anonymous wrote:

The enemy that has no face, the Institution, the State, is the one we are ignorant about.
I am afraid the Mutineer might get himself into a psych ward for months if not years if he talks to the gov’t.

I won’t be taking Johnny’s advice. I’ve already been on the receiving end of state ‘care’ and they tried to break me and turn me into another drone. I’ll deal with this by going my own way and learning from others on this site.

Thank you to all who responded. I’ll keep coming back to this thread and your advice/encouragement.

"The secret to happiness is freedom... And the secret to freedom is courage." - Thucydides

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