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NerdTunneler 1 year, 6 months ago.
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Since its been a slow day here, let me vent my personal frustration…
I have gone MGTOW for a year now…My wife left and I had been slowly recovering from the trauma after being a “good guy”…Now a few days ago, my xwifes brother in law called me…He was ok so I answered it…Big mistake…
He told me about what my x was doing and who she was dating. I didnt need to hear that. Yes I acted brave and non plussed that my ex was already dating without the separation even started…It just sucks…Since that time I spiraled down checking her online activities and what I learned sent me into a tail spin…
Perhaps it is the finality of realizing that a womans love is fleeting and an illusion. I am slowly starting back on recovery again…I pray that I grow my strength not to check her online presence…
Its a big mistake to “test” if you are over your ex or not…Do not seek her out…Keep going forward…
In that short time of spiraling down I gorged on ice cream, junk foods just abusing my body…
I am still at the phase where I am searching for my purpose and this set back just reminded me of my dreams to have a child and a whole family…I know that it is not happening. The things I learned, women are transparent now. I see through the bulls~~~ but these feelings are something else. Its not love, its nostalgia…
Sorry for my rant. I am still trying to pick up the pieces again of my shattered life…
I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...
Well welcome to the club.
1) she was cheating on you 100% sure, women monkey branch, she only left when she had what she needed in another place, accept it, get over it.
2) at the end she did you a favor by leaving, if you didn’t get an std you won.
3) is her family not yours, is her family job to tell her “hey you are a slut”, you have no relation to her or her family.
4) after a while you will learn there is no such thing as love, it is not real, hitler was not a monster just a human, ghandi was not a saint just a human, much of the “feelings” you have don’t even make sense, we just exaggerate our “humanity “. My wife left also, I felt terrible, why? She wasn’t a vital organ, nor a body part, my body and mind can keep working without her, but where teached to “care”.
STOP GIVING F~~~S.
To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.
Hey NT;
First of all don’t apologise for that rant – that’s why we’re here.
He told me about what my x was doing and who she was dating.
I had to tell the people in my life who were doing this to stop immediately. My mother was the worst for this and I had to tell her straight. She’s not part of your life anymore & what she does HAS NO IMPACT on the trajectory of your life.
my xwifes brother in law called me…He was ok so I answered it
He’s not okay. He may have been a nice guy when you knew him, but now a year later he’s a different guy. A good man WOULD NOT call you to fill you in about your ex wife.
I spiraled down checking her online activities and what I learned sent me into a tail spin…
This is bad mate. You should be disappointed with this one! If i remember correctly you don’t have kids right? – so there’s no reason to have her on social media.
I didn’t have enough strength to delete her immediately so I started with blocking her from my timeline. Then I just deleted my accounts. That wasn’t for her, or anyone else. It was for me, as PART OF MY RECOVERY.
She isn’t going to put her life on hold for you and you shouldn’t do the same. Seeing what she’s doing will only hold you back.
REMEMBER, people only post their ‘perfect’ lives online. What you’ve seen in an exaggerated life. She’s no doubt running some other chump to the plantation or spreading her legs for attention.
Don’t take it to heart. It’s their nature. It’s how they survive. You know this.
Perhaps it is the finality of realizing that a womans love is fleeting and an illusion
One of the coldest RP truths here mate. I wrote in a post yesterday: I see new women through a new lens to the one I spent 8 years with.
I’m totally indifferent to new women now BUT I stay away from Cupcake because I know I have a weakness for her. It’s difficult, it’s hard, but you have to do it for you.
In that short time of spiraling down I gorged on ice cream, junk foods just abusing my body…
A few days relapse is fine mate. Pick yourself up and keep moving forward. Don’t let her ruin another year of your life. She doesn’t care.
Its a big mistake to “test” if you are over your ex or not…Do not seek her out…Keep going forward…
Listen to your own advice bro. There will be good days and hard days. I still have a mix of the two…but one day, we’ll look back and laugh together.
Protect Your Sovereignty. Women WILL TRY To Manipulate You. #NOCONTACT #ICETHEMOUTWell welcome to the club.
1) she was cheating on you 100% sure, women monkey branch, she only left when she had what she needed in another place, accept it, get over it.
2) at the end she did you a favor by leaving, if you didn’t get an std you won.
3) is her family not yours, is her family job to tell her “hey you are a slut”, you have no relation to her or her family.
4) after a while you will learn there is no such thing as love, it is not real, hitler was not a monster just a human, ghandi was not a saint just a human, much of the “feelings” you have don’t even make sense, we just exaggerate our “humanity “. My wife left also, I felt terrible, why? She wasn’t a vital organ, nor a body part, my body and mind can keep working without her, but where teached to “care”.
STOP GIVING F~~~S.
Thanks carnage. I needed to hear that. Its like i went back to ground zero by this situation…
I do agree that she was cheating on me even before she left. She was leaving kiss emojis to this one guy “friend” which I told her to block…She didnt…Everything was on point Carnage. I was just on the low end especially when I read the article of why women should cheat…Its like I was there, I was the “Dave” and to see it from the perspective of a conniving and calculating female just made it frustrating that I was just used…I mean, I opened my heart and my soul to her and she just looked at me with a smile that I was pathetic…I dont know how to feel, like I am both mad and pathetic…
Our emotions, our self, our sacrifice never counted for anything…What counted was only what I can do for her…
I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...
She isn’t going to put her life on hold for you and you shouldn’t do the same. Seeing what she’s doing will only hold you back.
Thanks Arcturis for the advice and for giving logic to the irrational behavior I spiraled into…
I’m totally indifferent to new women now BUT I stay away from Cupcake because I know I have a weakness for her. It’s difficult, it’s hard, but you have to do it for you.
Yes. Cupcakes knows the buttons to press to make me sing and dance on the palm of her hand. Its was my mistake for being to open. She knows my buttons. I have to remap everything because I know there will come a time when she will come back knocking. An ex gf 7 years relations~~~ just came knocking recently…
Sometimes, i just needed the strength of the brothers here. Just a small amount of strength is enough to steady myself and not fall further down. I am still rebuilding myself and its not easy considering I was a stupid white knight before. There are a lot of stuff that I have to unlearn and new ones to learn…
Thank you brothers…
I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...
It’s good to rant NT, especially here.
I’ve also been MGTOW for just over a year and have been monk for somewhat longer than that.
Satan will be skating into work before I engage in relations, sexual or otherwise, with any of the entitled, selfish, disease-ridden whores that are the female population of the western world, especially my ex-wife.
However, after 12 years of marriage to her, as a reasonable bloke the sense of responsibility for protecting and providing for my family was strong, regardless of circumstances. This is one of the main differences between men and the modern female. Men are capable of pair-bonding and do “what needs to be done” rather than what the man wants to do. The modern female does not develop this as they believe they “deserve” what they want.
As a decent bloke, this pair-bonding takes time to weaken and perhaps never completely disappears, as we understand duty, honour, responsibility and accountability.
I see my ex-wife nearly every day at handover time for my daughter and whilst there is zero chance of ever wanting to get back with her, the residual bond still causes some discomfort when I learn of her activities, usually through my daughter.
This is not due to any attraction to her physically or otherwise it is due to the conditioning of society that I should be a responsible man.
Do not think that any discomfort caused by your ex is anything to do with attraction or feelings towards her, it is purely down to the conditioning imposed by society for you to be a good bloke.
The only things that matter are what YOU want to do. Do not judge yourself based on what you think society requires you to be.
Remember that AWALT and to use one of May7’s favourite quotes – “It’s not love, it’s just your turn”.
Go ghost and break off all contact, put together some plans to do what you want to do and don’t give a f~~~ about what anyone else thinks.
"...reinvent your life because you must; it is your life and its history and the present belong only to you.” It is Your Life, Charles Bukowski.
This is one of the main differences between men and the modern female. Men are capable of pair-bonding and do “what needs to be done” rather than what the man wants to do. The modern female does not develop this as they believe they “deserve” what they want.
As a decent bloke, this pair-bonding takes time to weaken and perhaps never completely disappears, as we understand duty, honour, responsibility and accountability.
This sums it up quite perfectly. Perhaps because when we got married I battened down the hatches and prepared myself to “do what needs to be done” to make a marriage work all the while the wife was never interested in “marriage”…Just the celebration, status and drama was all she was after…
Sometimes its like a heavy lead ball in the chest that makes it hard to breathe…Thanks for understanding brothers…
I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...
However, after 12 years of marriage to her, as a reasonable bloke the sense of responsibility for protecting and providing for my family was strong, regardless of circumstances.
Do not think that any discomfort caused by your ex is anything to do with attraction or feelings towards her, it is purely down to the conditioning imposed by society for you to be a good bloke.
when we got married I battened down the hatches and prepared myself to “do what needs to be done” to make a marriage work all the while the wife was never interested in “marriage”…Just the celebration, status and drama was all she was after…
Well articulated guys. This is SO IMPORTANT for all to understand.
Protect Your Sovereignty. Women WILL TRY To Manipulate You. #NOCONTACT #ICETHEMOUT
Anonymous42Sorry for my rant. I am still trying to pick up the pieces again of my shattered life
Don’t apologize for someone else’s wrong doing! They’re all EMPOWERED to follow their hearts desires, time to step aside and let them walk into the flames of unhappiness and misery. Just step aside and go live your life!
NerdTunneler, This is the world women’s liberation has delivered us, use your head and intellect to THRIVE in this MADNESS!
Rest assured, your wife/X is and always will be an unhappy creature with an empty soul. You will not feel the emptiness she lives in moment to moment.
She’s level 10 TOXIC!
Put her out of your head and out on the street with all the other trash…
Be patient with yourself.
Time heals these wounds, for some faster than others, but it will heal them.
Keep taking red pills. Never stop.
Perhaps it is the finality of realizing that a womans love is fleeting and an illusion. I am slowly starting back on recovery again…I pray that I grow my strength not to check her online presence… Its a big mistake to “test” if you are over your ex or not…Do not seek her out…Keep going forward…
Sometimes its like a heavy lead ball in the chest that makes it hard to breathe…Thanks for understanding brothers…
Keep on trucking NerdTunneller. I dont feel qualified to comment much Im not expert on women but learning more here – I was the good guy too in relationships – Im just a good person I guess and I know that feeling of not being able breathe fully when someone turns out to be a complete c~~~ – whether its an exGF/family member or whoever.
I will say that for me it was beneficial to unplug from social media and to get rid of any things/items that reminded me of exGF or any people I dont want in my life. Starting to develop NFG as the guys here have described on this site and to express myself more has helped.
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Anonymous42Hey Tunneler, one more thing before I split.
The main reason I’m still single is because I’m a nice guy that learned all about getting used and discarded time and time again!
In the beginning, level 1 obvious users could easily take advantage of my kind nature and did so!
Now the most advanced self serving bean counter always tallying for themselves has become blatantly obvious to me, they can’t hide anywhere or hide anything!
My point is that you could have AVOIDED her altogether had you honed and sharpened these skills! Make no doubt about it, these are SKILLS!
It’s like my mind has developed a third party that looks at absolutely everything objectively! Not right and wrong, good or bad, but in the purest logic I can muster!
That 3rd party protects my “nice guy” from being harmed or taken advantage of! That 3rd party in my mind can read between the lines in ways I can’t begin to describe, it’s like a bodyguard that works for me in all life’s passing moments of tribulation knocking on my door!
When 3rd party says “don’t answer it” I learned to trust it and walk the f~~~ away! It stops all unwanted contact with people out to use me!
It’s become as automatic as “F~~~ OFF, NOT TODAY!”, and my path in life REMAINS UNALTERED!
All I can say is WATCH YOUR STEP! It can HAPPEN AGAIN! DON’T LET IT!!! ASSHOLES ARE OFF LIMITS FOREVER!
It sucks having to dispose of a relations~~~! It’s like watching all your savings and investments get wiped the f~~~ out! And there’s modern man stumbling over one relations~~~ after another! Each one draining his spiritual and physical account! SUCKING THE LIFE OUT OF HIM!
Mr. 3rd party in my mind NEVER HAS CLOUDS IN HIS HEAD!
Mr. 3rd party is kin to a FIREWALL!
Anonymous43NT sorry you are feeling down. What your ex does is irrelevant. If she is whoring around, dating, or whatever, forget all that. She was cut loose for a reason, right? Disloyal bitch can go do whatever. Be happy she is gone and you don’t have to look at her cheating lying whoring face.
Do not be surprised if you never date again. You don’t have time to sort out the 3 billion women on the planet looking for the 1 unicorn that you know will f~~~ up eventually. You have a successful business to run, that is what counts. You need yo focus on that, keeping it running. Vendors bring you stuff, customers buy your stuff, all way more reliable and loyal to you than the “love of your life”. You know on Thursday, the XYZ vendor will bring you 6 cases of LMNOP, and will bring you 4 cases next week.
Your ex needs to leech off of some man, any man to survive. Men will figure her out after a couple weeks and dump her lying cheating whoring ass. Like a f~~~ing mosquito, man, she wanders the earth sucking blood from random victims. She bit you and sucked on you, then moved on, leaving you the itchy welt.
Who cares who she is feeding on, as long as it isn’t you.
Abusing food to get the dopamine high thing to alter your mood isn’t gonna work. I suggst working out instead. Same dopamine feelgood high, none of the calories to go to your ass. Fat on your ass makes estrogen, and estrogen makes you depressed. You feel down, go for a fast walk, so that conversation becomes difficult. Do that for 10 or 15 minutes. You will feel better.
Time and distance heals the wounds this mosquito caused you. She does not think about you at all, other than she regrets not getting more blood/money out of you.
I pity women like your ex, having to roam the earth trading sex for food. You as a man can work to make money to get food, there is honesty and pride in work. Being a whore for food is shameful and disgusting.
Have an awesome day my friend.
NT, look you just learned a lesson. You knew not to keep in contact with the ex. Now you know not to keep in contact with anyone else associated with her. Think for a minute about what a pathetic piece of s~~~ her brother is. Why would he call you out of the blue to rub salt in the wound. That’s no man, that’s a mangina sent by the ex to p~~~ on your parade. She probably heard you were doing fine without her and she sent her brother to p~~~ in your Cheerios.
I know it sucks right now, but lesson learned for the long run. Ghost everyone with a connection to her. I don’t talk to my ex’s family and they even took my side during the divorce. And I don’t miss them or the drama one bit.
Like May said, hit the gym. Take that energy and do something constructive with it. Not easy, but well worth it in the long run.
You got this brother.
Order the good wine
I know the feeling well: my (now ex-) wife decided that she was “not happppyyyyy” and bored and she ran off to live with her “Chad”. She had a child with him before our divorce was even final. So, now she’s got this new kid, her “Chad”, and “Chad’s” children from another mother — an instant family. Oh, yeah: almost all of “our” friends sided with her, too… even a preacher-man who, in my opinion, should have at least remained neutral.
So, in the early months after this all transpired, any sort of glimpse into her (outwardly happy, at least) new life was extremely difficult to bear. In response, I did a few things to preserve some mental peace: I closed down my Fakebook account cold-turkey (never did use the other “social media” platforms); I set a goal of doing something enjoyable, or at least productive, every single day (finally managed to restore a vintage stereo receiver I’d been meaning to service for…. oh…. 9 years! And without anyone to harass me about “when’s this going to be done”, I’m making progress on some long-delayed household renovations); I made it clear to family members that I’d tolerate no discussion about my ex — no questions, no sympathy, no talk about “what a nice girl” they thought she used to be and that I’m not interested in attending weddings; and finally (this one took more time) I decided to accept that I can’t change what happened, but I CAN avoid that sort of pain and suffering in the future.
He told me about what my x was doing and who she was dating. I didnt need to hear that.
I think you actually DID need to hear that. It’s a bitter pill, but coming to the realization that she’s no longer your problem will be healing in the long run. Continue to play the long game, and remember YOU are the prize, not some post wall heifer with fibromyalgia.
That’s no man, that’s a mangina sent by the ex to p~~~ on your parade. She probably heard you were doing fine without her and she sent her brother to p~~~ in your Cheerios.
EXACTLY. TaxGuy takes another one out of the yard.
When women lead, destruction is the destination. -- Me.
Continue to play the long game, and remember YOU are the prize, not some post wall heifer with fibromyalgia.
I bow to you. That one made me laugh out loud.
Order the good wine
I think an important takeaway from all these comments is there will be pain. It’s evident that it may continue for sometime but it does get easier.
As good men; once we commit, we try to make the best of any situation. It’s been ingrained into us to support a family at all costs from a very young age.
We want to create and build the best lives for ourselves, our ‘partner’ and our family. We will put their needs above our own and do what ever it takes to make things right.
When Cupcake takes off, it’s hard for us to let go…but part of the healing process demands that we cut them loose and go our own way. When there’s no reciprocation, it can be very confusing and hurtful.
No matter how far down the MGTOW road you are, there are always obstacles that people will throw in your way. But we are men and we will find a way to overcome them.
Let women be women.
You got this NT. Take this weekend for yourself then get back on track towards your goals.
Protect Your Sovereignty. Women WILL TRY To Manipulate You. #NOCONTACT #ICETHEMOUT
Anonymous7Rant all you want.
If she hasn’t secured a new wallet by time the wall punch’s her in the kooter, she will try to reverse monkey branch.
Unless there are kids involved if you ever hear from her again, RUN!
Be patient with yourself.
Thanks Max…The process to detox from the relationship is just slow and painful…There is no escaping that…Its one thing to understand the process, its another thing to experience it…The process of healing sucks but I know it has to happen to me…Just when I thought I was healing nicely…
Im just a good person I guess and I know that feeling of not being able breathe fully when someone turns out to be a complete c~~~ – whether its an exGF/family member or whoever.
So true Christopher…The only one we can truly rely on is ourselves…We invested much into them and deny ourselves a lot but in the end they will just keep on taking until we are dried up and discarded…
It sucks having to dispose of a relations~~~! It’s like watching all your savings and investments get wiped the f~~~ out! And there’s modern man stumbling over one relations~~~ after another! Each one draining his spiritual and physical account! SUCKING THE LIFE OUT OF HIM!
You sir are a master of NFG…Your sharp wit and NFG attitude makes me look forward when I too can have that same shield and just go into the world and make it my own…Thank you Uncle Tower…
busing food to get the dopamine high thing to alter your mood isn’t gonna work. I suggst working out instead. Same dopamine feelgood high, none of the calories to go to your ass. Fat on your ass makes estrogen, and estrogen makes you depressed. You feel down, go for a fast walk, so that conversation becomes difficult. Do that for 10 or 15 minutes. You will feel better.
Thanks May…You have been through a lot and your experience has been a source of strength for me to keep trudging on…I may not see the light yet in this situation but you have and that is enough for me to hope that things are going to become better…I am going for a walk when I close my store. Thank you for reminding me…
NT, look you just learned a lesson. You knew not to keep in contact with the ex. Now you know not to keep in contact with anyone else associated with her. Think for a minute about what a pathetic piece of s~~~ her brother is. Why would he call you out of the blue to rub salt in the wound. That’s no man, that’s a mangina sent by the ex to p~~~ on your parade. She probably heard you were doing fine without her and she sent her brother to p~~~ in your Cheerios.
Thanks Tax…You hit it right on what her family is doing…Rubbing salt on the wound to make sure I am the loser. If they were interested in helping our marriage work, they would have talked to her. They however allowed that behavior from her, a married woman and had the gall to “update” me. I didnt think of it that way. Thanks for showing me that perspective to avoid even her toxic family…
I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...
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