If anyone has any ideas, please let me know. I’m completely out.
I’m trying to re-enter my career after six years out of it largely looking after family. I have numerous degrees, and am specialized in corporate controllership. I also used to be involved in politics – fairly right-wing, the sort of thing that libtards and HR departments don’t like. Until, frankly, joining this site, I was awful at ghosting, and a number of previous employers do not like me. I’ve sued and been sued by two employers thus far. I do not play well with others, but am capable of faking it at this point to a reasonable extent.
What I have to offer a firm is remarkable – just remarkable – technical competence in accounting and operations, combined with an almost psychotic work ethic. My last two companies I worked at an average of 50-55 hours every week for several years. I am more than happy to do that again. I have no hobbies, and don’t want any. I want no family, or girlfriends. My goals at this point are entirely professional.
I’m not just *saying* that, like so many blue pill cucks. I literally have no goals in my life that aren’t professional. I take care of my body and diet so as to be more capable of doing the mental things that I live for. I’ve started bodyweight exercises so as to live longer and to keep my mind fresh while I do so. I would like to get in shape – quite remarkable shape – because it assists in business.
My only joys – since I was very, very young – have been in professional and academic merit and status. It is quite literally all I live for or want in my life. I have worked for two start-ups that had great economic potential, neither of which went anywhere. I think what best sums up my quite obsessive sense of professional pride is this little story:
I was asked at one firm how to hire people who would do anything for the job, who would be willing to sacrifice their entire lives for remuneration. How do you prove this? Anyone can *say* it. How do you prove it? I suggested that potential employees should have to go down to the local kill animal shelter and kill ten dogs (who were going to be put down anyway) in a row. Anyone who could do that would get the job. My boss laughed.
I wasn’t kidding. I’m still not. I would never – ever – want to hire someone who wasn’t hungry and obsessive enough that they wouldn’t quite literally kill for the job. I’ve hired a number of people over the years. They’ve all been quite psychotically loyal, quite obsessive, and fanatically good employees. The key word, of course, being fanatic. I’ve always paid people about half again what the ‘job was supposed to be worth’, and they’ve always produced 2-3x what a normal employee would.
How the f~~~ do I market myself?
How do I even find a company that wants this? I get lots of first and even second round interviews with little blue pill f~~~ fests that basically just want someone who plays nice-nice. Needless to say, even ghosting quite well (I do give good meeting), I don’t get offers. Too much of my past where I was a wee bit too obvious about what I actually believe is out there, and there’s no good way of escaping it. I have interviews, I ghost, I make it through two or three rounds, but don’t get the hire offer.
Any thoughts? I’d appreciate some out-of-the-box thinking.
I’d be a perfect fit for the Umbrella Corporation, if you get that reference. That’s my dream job. A place like that that cares for nothing, literally nothing, other than high paycheck, professional status, rank, merit, accolades. Co-workers have repeatedly accused me of being willing to sell my soul for professional success. Back before I ghosted, I would cheerfully smile and say “why yes, absolutely. It’s better than selling it for a wife and kids who don’t love you”.
I know better now. Now I don’t say things like that. But twenty-odd years of being quite openly mercenary and psychotically hard-working have taken their professional toll, and I don’t know how to either use this or back away from it.
Help?
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