Na Razie, Knights and Brothers Of TOW

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

Gentlemen. Good sirs. Knights and Brothers of TOW. Their Own Way. The Only Way.

It is with a heavy heart that today, I bid you, my brothers, farewell.

I had decided to do so prior to the surgery which I’ve mentioned in an earlier post, but I’ve realized today that doing so sooner would be a much wiser choice. I’d received a good bill of health a couple of months back, but apparently this was not to be.

I have periodically referred to this place as a Keep. A secure fortress, where we might meet, exchange our wisdoms, pleasantries, and injustices with one another so that we might better weather the storm that society has cast upon itself. Today, I lower the drawbridge, and make my way across the moat into the unknown. In doing this, I wave fondly at you, and do so with a smile.

The past weeks have not been kind to me, and if I have lashed out and been unkind with any of you in any way, you have my most sincere of apologies.

I’ve started a treatment this morning. One which I’m unfortunately familiar with. And it is one which drains me to my core; I wish this on no one.

I’ve also started a very heavy dose of pain medication this morning, and that is unfortunately something I’ve also become all too familiar with this year. I’ve been on one sort or another for most of this year, and it’s not an experience which I’m fond of. This new dose and type, is however more powerful than I’d really expected. I’m on enough extended release and acute release meds to knock an elephant over.

I had to leave MGTOW.com a couple of times earlier this year, and I’ve done it out of the wisdom in knowing “what comes next”.

I don’t react to most medications well; that’s always been a given for me. I don’t like what they do to my thinking, my personality and my ability to function on the whole. They make my behaviour erratic, they tend to make me angry, and I just generally feel like garbage.

This is not a way which I’d like to be remembered.

Out of all things in life, the one of our natural senses which I’ve always valued most is oddly one which is never listed amongst our senses. Sight, hearing, taste, smell and touch are some of the most inexplicable sensations which we’ve struggled to define since our ability to step outside the cave, look around, and figure out just what the hell to do next. We struggle to define these things, and to put them in a box, like many try to do with the concept of MGTOW. Oddly enough, Humour is not listed with these senses. And it is this sense, above all, that we must never lose. In the darkest of situations, men find humour, and use it as a tonic with which we might combat the most adverse of circumstances. Never lose this. And if you’ve not found it yet in your travels, then it’s something which you must reach for and find. You’ve not lived until you’ve laughed; especially at yourself. In yourself, you’ll find the deepest, most gut-shaking laughter which life has to offer, especially in your failures. If you ever allow someone to take this from you, they’ve won. You might not be able to see, you may not be able to hear, you may not even be able to feel. But, one must always laugh. Our laughter is something which can never be imprisoned.

I feel very weak. I’ve felt weak before; this time it’s different. I don’t know what awaits me in the coming months, but I feel very different. I’m not frightened. I don’t fear the unknown, and I don’t fear death. As Three Dog Night once so eloquently said: “I’m a high night flier and a rainbow rider
and A straight-shootin’ son of a gun”. Sing it now.

I may not feel frightened, but I do feel a very palpable anxiety. One which I must address. I do fear that if things go south, I will have spent precious time not smelling the flowers while I could. While I’ve smelled and touched all manner of things in my life, one must always remember that no one has ever touched them all. As I said, I do not know what to expect, but I refuse to put myself in a position where I’ve got to quickly look back and wish for more time. I’ll not be spending anymore time on the Internet in the coming period. I think you’ll understand this. I need to walk through the forest that is our true and natural home, and not digitally.

I do not leave MGTOW.com easily. In this place I have found brethren which I couldn’t possibly have known existed were it not for the technology that great men bring us. Were it not for this ultimate sand table that KeyMaster has so unselfishly laid out for us, we’d only have hoped that other kindred spirits were roaming around, rather than have known it. But my time here is done. Although I know that my contributions to this place have been very limited, I really hope that I’ve at least been able to make some of you laugh once or twice. Once the class clown, always the class clown I would suppose.

If I make it through this challenge, I would like to stay in touch with you KeyMaster. I will let you know via email how things progress. I know that you’re an exceptionally busy man, so I hope that it wouldn’t be too much trouble. I just wouldn’t want to drop off the face of the earth, as you fellows truly are the only brothers that I’ve ever known. It’s strange, but even though I have two brothers by birth, I would tell you men my greatest of secrets before giving way to telling them.

I’d like you all to know that you’ve changed my life, and for the better. In this place, you’ve made me laugh, you’ve made me cry, you’ve made me rage with anger, and above all, you’ve allowed me to find peace when I had begun to think that there was none left to be had.

Thank you all for your honesty, your integrity and for sharing your space with me when I needed it most. Above all, thank you for opening up, when the world didn’t want you to.

I bid that you stay true to yourselves, at all costs. We’re at a time in History when this is more important than ever. I believe that Humanity has reached a crossroads. I also believe that MGTOW.com is a pioneering place of infrastructure where men might realize that it’s more important than ever to band together in our relentless drive to define the progress that is the human spirit.

Stay true to your own way, and don’t try to make your way that of others. Just share the way you’re going, and if it is truly great, great men will follow.

I will stick around here today, in the event that I’m able to say goodbye to some of you fellows.

I wish all of you the best of luck in your endeavours, and may you all find the peace you’re seeking, and may you find it well.

Goodbye, my brothers.

[PhantomParticipant 3328]

I just read this, and I am unable to find my words or voice at this exact moment. I just got through crying my eyes out on ILiveAgain’s thread regarding his friend.
Tears are in my eyes again today. I don’t know why you are leaving, or if you have covered it in other threads. I will look through your posts.
In the posts of yours I have read, I have really found myself absorbing your words to the best of my ability.
I wish nothing but the fondest of farewells, and that you are touched and moved for the rest of your days, the same as you have touched and moved me.
Stunned stupid here….gonna miss you EMP. Damn this is a sad
Thank you for everything you have shared here with us.
I want to say more & write you a parting book…I just kind find the words…

Wish you every happiness!!!

[Anonymous 1]

My friend,

I wish you all the luck in the world.
Thank you for all the comments you posted.

I am not as eloquent as you are when it comes to good byes, so this post will be short.

Take care.

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

Phantom wrote:

I just read this, and I am unable to find my words or voice at this exact moment. I just got through crying my eyes out on ILiveAgain’s thread regarding his friend.
Tears are in my eyes again today. I don’t know why you are leaving, or if you have covered it in other threads. I will look through your posts.
In the posts of yours I have read, I have really found myself absorbing your words to the best of my ability.
I wish nothing but the fondest of farewells, and that you are touched and moved for the rest of your days, the same as you have touched and moved me.
Stunned stupid here….gonna miss you EMP. Damn this is a sad
Thank you for everything you have shared here with us.
I want to say more & write you a parting book…I just kind find the words…

Wish you every happiness!!!

I’ll miss you too, Brother MGTOW Age. There’s not much to look through my friend. I’ve kept fairly quiet on the issue, but I have cancer. I’ll do the best of my ability to kick the s~~~ out of it. I was glad when you joined, nad I’ve very much enjoyed reading your contributions my friend.
Thank you very much for your warm thoughts sir, and may your way be a good one.
Cheers, brother.

[FrankyParticipant 2338]

I’m not going to attempt to give a worthy reply so i’ll make it short.

I hope you get trough this.
If you don’t i hope you be as brave and strong as you are today until the end.
Goodbye brother, i never really knew you yet my chest feels heavy.

Thank you.

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

Anonymous wrote:

My friend,

I wish you all the luck in the world.
Thank you for all the comments you posted.

I am not as eloquent as you are when it comes to good byes, so this post will be short.

Take care.

@BadKan.

Thank you for sharing all of the ingenious posts which you have. I’ve learned from you, and have really enjoyed your contributions my friend. I wish you the best of luck, and keep kicking ass, BadKan.

Cheers.

[ScandinavianParticipant 590]

Meet you in Valhalla brother. If not then I’m afraid you’re stuck with us here for a while longer. Either way my thoughts are with you.

[KeymasterKeymaster]

I didn’t know I would be so affected by our members. I didn’t know.

It’s with a very heavy heart that I read this my friend. Will reach out to you when I am in your neighborhood. Please answer when that time comes. Please. Will miss you very much. Thank you for your time and contributions – especially of late. You’ve made a difference in people’s lives. Mine too. Your name is permanently etched on the wall. If it’s OK, I need to stop here.

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

Franky wrote:

I’m not going to attempt to give a worthy reply so i’ll make it short.

I hope you get trough this.
If you don’t i hope you be as brave and strong as you are today until the end.
Goodbye brother, i never really knew you yet my chest feels heavy.

Thank you.

Take care, Franky 😀 I’ve always enjoyed our banter, and keep watching those gates brother. Long live MGTOW. I’ll do my best to get through this, my friend. There’s a few barks left in this dog.

Cheers.

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

Scandinavian wrote:

Meet you in Valhalla brother. If not then I’m afraid you’re stuck with us here for a while longer. Either way my thoughts are with you.

Should we meet in Valhalla my friend, it will be over a glass of the finest mead that Thor can offer. That, and maybe we’ll steal his hammer just to f~~~ with him.

Cheers brother.

[Anonymous 11]

EMP: You have made your mark very well. We’ll be pulling for you to get through this and be back here.

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

Keymaster wrote:

I didn’t know I would be so affected by our members. I didn’t know.

It’s with a very heavy heart that I read this my friend. Will reach out to you when I am in your neighborhood. Please answer when that time comes. Please. Will miss you very much. Thank you for your time and contributions – especially of late. You’ve made a difference in people’s lives. Mine too. If it’s OK, I need to stop here.

I really didn’t know that I would be either, KeyMaster. It’s something which took me by complete surprise.

You’ve made a great difference in my life sir; more than I could hope to type out on a message board.

Thank you for giving us this place.

I look forward to the day when you might be in my neighbourhood, my friend. I truly do.

Thank you again, my friend and thanks for holding the Key.

Cheers brother.
Willy

[ScandinavianParticipant 590]

EscapedMentalPatient wrote:

Scandinavian wrote:

Meet you in Valhalla brother. If not then I’m afraid you’re stuck with us here for a while longer. Either way my thoughts are with you.

Should we meet in Valhalla my friend, it will be over a glass of the finest mead that Thor can offer. That, and maybe we’ll steal his hammer just to f~~~ with him.

Cheers brother.

I would like doing that together. I don’t know you in person, but I feel like we’re all some sort of deranged family here, across all nation borders, racial and religious barriers. I keep my fingers crossed for you, I really do! And should the brown hit the fan I am sure we will meet one day on the other side, if we steal the hammer of Thor, the horn of Gabriel or something else is yet to see, but we will be there together, and that is what counts.

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

Anonymous wrote:

EMP: You have made your mark very well. We’ll be pulling for you to get through this and be back here.

@CP. Thank you brother. Best of luck in your travels and hopefully no travails.

Cheers brother.

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

Scandinavian wrote:

I would like doing that together. I don’t know you in person, but I feel like we’re all some sort of deranged family here, across all nation borders, racial and religious barriers. I keep my fingers crossed for you, I really do! And should the brown hit the fan I am sure we will meet one day on the other side, if we steal the hammer of Thor, the horn of Gabriel or something else is yet to see, but we will be there together, and that is what counts.

hahaha. And a great, deranged family it is. And it will continue to grow. Thank you for your well wishes brother. I’ll do my best.

Cheers.

[Biggvs_DickvsParticipant 3725]

I’m pretty new here so don’t have much background, but I read your entire post and wish you the very best possible of health, luck, and everything else. Thank you for your kind words and inspiration – they mean a lot when you know that someone took what may be borrowed time to say a farewell to brothers.

We do hope you can keep in touch with Keymaster and I think I speak for everyone in saying we completely understand your reasons and will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

Sincerely,
Rich

"Data, I would be delighted to offer any advice I can on understanding women. When I have some, I'll let you know." --Captain Picard,

[MERCHParticipant 56]

EscapedMentalPatient wrote:

Gentlemen. Good sirs. Knights and Brothers of TOW. Their Own Way. The Only Way.

It is with a heavy heart that today, I bid you, my brothers, farewell.

I don’t feel like I have earned the right to be called a brother just yet, seeing as I just found you all yesterday, but I do feel a strange bond, almost primal I guess would be the best way to describe it. Mr. M, you were the first interaction that I had with the MGTOW state of mind, and it really set me in a whole new direction.

I feel like the new guy trying to make a toast to a war hero, I don’t know what to say without making a fool of myself or discrediting your achievements. I only wish you the best of luck, and i wanted to say thank you for the things that you’ve said in the short time I’ve been here.
A toast to you my brother
MERCH

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

Biggvs_Dickvs wrote:

I’m pretty new here so don’t have much background, but I read your entire post and wish you the very best possible of health, luck, and everything else. Thank you for your kind words and inspiration – they mean a lot when you know that someone took what may be borrowed time to say a farewell to brothers.

We do hope you can keep in touch with Keymaster and I think I speak for everyone in saying we completely understand your reasons and will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

Sincerely,
Rich

Thank you Rich. I’ve kept up with your posts, and I have to say, the nickname you chose cracked me up when I first saw it, and still does. I’m a huge Monty Python fan, and always appreciated the humorous reference lol.

Thank you for the well-wishes and best of luck to you sir.

Cheers.

[Anonymous 42]

We’ll never forget you Willy, I’ll say a prayer for you (again). We enjoyed every bit of your company, Thank-you
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P.S. I have a feeling you’ll be back…. a good feeling…

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

MERCH wrote:

Gentlemen. Good sirs. Knights and Brothers of TOW. Their Own Way. The Only Way.

It is with a heavy heart that today, I bid you, my brothers, farewell.

I don’t feel like I have earned the right to be called a brother just yet, seeing as I just found you all yesterday, but I do feel a strange bond, almost primal I guess would be the best way to describe it. Mr. M, you were the first interaction that I had with the MGTOW state of mind, and it really set me in a whole new direction.

I feel like the new guy trying to make a toast to a war hero, I don’t know what to say without making a fool of myself or discrediting your achievements. I only wish you the best of luck, and i wanted to say thank you for the things that you’ve said in the short time I’ve been here.
A toast to you my brother
MERCH

And a toast to you, Brother Merch.

Our first interaction was a great one, and I do hope that you’ll keep up with the site. There are so many good things, and so many good guys here that’s its truly just unquantifiable.

All the best MERCH, and best their all!

Cheers.

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