My Year of Jubilee

[J.R. “Bob” DobbsParticipant 521]

Hi Ogre,

Thanks for the encouragement. You’re right, I’m not a cuck in the strict sense of the word, but what I didn’t say in the intro is that there were long periods between those LTRs where I dated or interacted with multitudes of women. The hotter ones wanted to dump their emotional s~~~ and/or give me the privilege of spending money on them with little or no return. They might have gotten away with it briefly, but after 2-3 times I punted them.

My “cuckishness” has consisted of unicorn hunting and falling into the NAWALT trap dozens of times. That, and being groomed by my incestuous mother into being a White Knight (i.e. the kind of man SHE wanted and my father never was to her).

Quote from a former boss: "Don't get married...the fucking you get ain't worth the fucking you get."

[RhinoParticipant 3477]

Glad to see you were able to realize everything that happened to you over the course of time was not your fault but the women you interacted with. Keeping close to God is important you don’t need a church to help you with that. One thing you will find about us is we come from all different backgrounds and walks of life so you will get different view points on religion here.

My advice would be walk your own path and learn as you go along with God by your side. Others will tell you that you are a brainwashed fool but you listen to God and he will show you the right path no need to go to church for that.

[Enjoy The DeclineParticipant 1719]

Is it only emotional incest if it is only a one way relationship between the mother and the son? Like if it is actually a win/win situation with the son and the mother where they barely even hug each other more than 3 times a year, can it still be emotional incest? I would like to know and I can take the answer if it is the truth.

"Question everything" - Albert Einstein

[Enjoy The DeclineParticipant 1719]

Okay, well I read up on it more and now I guess that I have to rethink my entire life once again. I am so tired of reflecting my life over and over and I hope that I can finally get my sh*t together pretty soon.

"Question everything" - Albert Einstein

[J.R. “Bob” DobbsParticipant 521]

Enjoy The Decline wrote:

Is it only emotional incest if it is only a one way relationship between the mother and the son? Like if it is actually a win/win situation with the son and the mother where they barely even hug each other more than 3 times a year, can it still be emotional incest? I would like to know and I can take the answer if it is the truth.

Hi ETD,

It is an important question. I don’t know you so I can’t give you direct counsel on this, but I’ll try to explain.

Emotional (or covert) incest is when a parent looks to a child to inappropriately fulfill emotional and psychological unmet needs by their spouse. Sons of single mothers ESPECIALLY are at risk for this. Physical (overt) incest may or may not be present. It’s actually more crazy-making in some ways if there’s no physical molestation.

In my case I can’t recall if there was any physical abuse, but I vividly remember a dream when I was 3-4 years old where I was engulfed in flames and my mother had this evil grin on her face watching me burn and taunting me. That dream had to come from SOMEWHERE.

I do remember it started when I was 5. We were on vacation and my dad was playing a Frankie Valli 8-track in the car. My mother was singing to me along with the tape in the car. The song playing at the time was “Ronnie”. She was crooning “you were my first love” at me. I remember thinking, “why isn’t she singing this to my dad???” I knew back then something was very, very wrong.

Over the years, my parents fought a lot. Without going into too much detail, my mom would come to me and tell me what a good boy I was, and how sensitive and caring I am, and how my dad “didn’t understand her” the way I did. As I got older she would make creepy jokes about “how manly” I was becoming. One time at a family reunion (I was about 13 then), she got drunk and “jokingly” asked me if I wanted to sit on her lap. Another time, she was brushing the lint off of my pants and made a comment “we’re going to have a teepee if I keep this up.”

Even as a grown adult, she would still buy me s~~~ like cologne and underwear for Christmas. Even as recently as 4-5 years ago, she got me Playboy cologne as a gift. It went right in the garbage.

All this time my dad was like “Don’t forget Mother’s Day.” “Don’t forget to call your mother.” “Will you talk to her, she misses you.” He didn’t want to deal with her narcissistic s~~~ either and pawned her off on me.

Anyway, there’s a good book on this subject called “Silently Seduced” by Kenneth Adams, which I read. That confirmed my suspicions. Even Paul Elam mentions the subject in one of his videos. When I find it, I’ll post it here. He talks about the industrialization of society and how the men spent less and less time with their sons and their wives, and how the wives started using their sons as surrogate spouses. This is what started the dominoes falling–the deterioration of the traditional family.

I can go on and on, but you get the idea. Let me know if you have further questions.

–C.N.M.

Quote from a former boss: "Don't get married...the fucking you get ain't worth the fucking you get."

[The AirmanParticipant 74]

J.R. “Bob” Dobbs wrote:

Had 3 LTRs in my life. The first one

yea whether it is 3 LTRs is not relevant cause there is always the first one that leads to the next one….till we say STOP this f~~~ing nonsense.

[BlakeGuyParticipant 287]

wow, what a life, being screwed over by so many, hope you feel good and strong, it will be hard sometimes.

I actually think the bible and Christian teaching is part of the problem, makes you believe in goodness, especially female goodness, when it fact it is a very rare find. Makes you think being good to everyone is the way to go, when it fact it is just a way to be used. You think you can find that special somebody who is good, the problem is, this is just not what females are about.

Let the good times roll

[BlakeGuyParticipant 287]

Hey CNM – Great post on emotional incest, really that should have a more prominent place on these boards.

Let the good times roll

[J.R. “Bob” DobbsParticipant 521]

BlakeGuy wrote:

Hey CNM – Great post on emotional incest, really that should have a more prominent place on these boards.

Hey Blake,

Thanks. I agree totally. THIS is what turns boys into cucks and manginas instead of MEN.

–C.N.M.

Quote from a former boss: "Don't get married...the fucking you get ain't worth the fucking you get."

[J.R. “Bob” DobbsParticipant 521]

BlakeGuy wrote:

I actually think the bible and Christian teaching is part of the problem, makes you believe in goodness, especially female goodness, when it fact it is a very rare find. Makes you think being good to everyone is the way to go, when it fact it is just a way to be used. You think you can find that special somebody who is good, the problem is, this is just not what females are about.

Actually, the bible says in Proverbs 31 that “a good woman is hard to find, and is more valuable than rubies”, so it does state that good women ARE rare. Even Jesus said that if you’re strong enough to stay unmarried, you should do so. I’m not sure the bible per se is the problem, as much as there are so many filters and spin doctors out there twisting and turning it every which way. Which is why I’ve quit all that stuff for a while. Trying to separate the signal from the noise. If God wants a relationship with me, He can talk to me directly. I’m sure He has no lack of ability to do that. No more middle man for me.

Quote from a former boss: "Don't get married...the fucking you get ain't worth the fucking you get."

[VirgilParticipant 970]

Welcome to the forums man.

Also, great quote my dad had that hanging in his office till he retired.

Hope that someday I may lead others the path I have learned. As Virgil led Dante through Hell.

[The Manipulated ManParticipant 1856]

Greetings CNM,

Many thanks for all of the descriptions and insights into your Red Pills that you had to go through.

Your excellent Introduction raises awareness of many important Red Pills which too many of us have also had to take.

It is good to have you join the Forums.

J.R. “Bob” Dobbs wrote:

…….While the other boys played sports, I enjoyed reading encyclopedias and learning about new things…..

Many of our greatest leaders were men who were veracious readers and were hungry to learn about new things.

I preferred to explore my world the same way as you, but for less noble reasons: a soccer injury forced me out of school sports. In fact, most of the great things I have done were a result of being forced by circumstances. I was usually too stubborn and required some divine intervention.

These modern sports are a real problem on many levels. Our Grandfathers and fierce Ancestors certainly did not waist as much time on them. I firmly believe that their current form is a tool for mass indoctrination of Blue Pill fools.

It has been my experience that the best path for an individual young man is some kind of full contact mixed martial arts training followed by edged weapons, and then proficiency with fire arms.

Yes, learning to work with as a team is also important. And some martial arts schools do a good job with helping an individual get along with other men. Working with other men in the Trades is a good way to learn. But, the current Bar/ Sports scenes are toxic and the ways of our grandfathers were better.

J.R. “Bob” Dobbs wrote:

……..she ….. was borderline/narcissistc disorder……..

After my first marriage, I had a spiritual crisis and got into a lot of RelationS~~~S.

The only good thing about that time of my life was that I learned the hard way that all women were hard wired to be a Narcissist and some hid it better than others. AWALT.

Borderline Personality Disorder is a special kind of Crazy Town. Most psychologists are afraid to treat anyone who is found to have it.

Too many men, especially myself, who have spent their time as Blue Pill slaves have had no lives during that time outside their marriage.

Blue Pill men generally have few hobbies, friends, future goals, and interests on the Plantation because all of a man’s resources, including mental/ time, are used up serving his adult child woman and HER children.

And I have found that men with daughters have the least, out of the blue pill slaves.

Have you seen this yourself?

Without revealing your secret identity, share some things about YOUR life:

What kind of fun things do YOU do?

What are your plans for the future?

General description of Work situation and career aspirations?

Where are you from?

What happens when a man finally comprehends the cold and calculating thoughts that are going through a woman's mind, while her eyes are brimming with tears?

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