My LAST suicide attempt.

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Hermit wrote:

I thank God you didn’t have a full tank.

I appreciate that Sir. I got very lucky. Never again will I let myself fall to such a place.

[Jack HarperParticipant 2863]

Helluva story Market~~~cher. Thank you for sharing. I’ve been in that state of mind myself. It’s a dark place. diazepam Is a serious drug. After my divorce started, when I was seriously depressed my doctor prescribed it to help me but said he wouldn’t let a patient be on it more than three months. Also gained weight while on it. But it did help me function during a bleak time.

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Jack Harper wrote:

diazepam Is a serious drug

It is a hell of a drug, but highly effective. Of course I cannot stop taking it since I have been on it so long. Use with extreme caution.

Jack Harper wrote:

Thank you for sharing.

Thank you for reading.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

Hey Market~~~cher, hows things? Damn I’ve just remembered this story now I’ve read it again. Don’t know why I didn’t reply to it way back then. Thats some heavy s~~~ man but I completely relate to it.

Seems I’m in your place now when you were 34. The suicidal thoughts come once in a while but knowing how hugely that would impact on my son and that I would never see him again, I feel like a selfish bastard for even contemplating it. Knowing I could never do that to him makes the thoughts of suicide a little easier. I always think its ok to flirt with the idea. Its how you feel at the time so f~~~ it.

In New Zealand I was addicted to lorazepam and couldn’t live without it due to the stress I had living with my second ex and her insufferable revolting child. Both of them were bat s~~~ crazy and I think without lorazepam, abusing high strength codeine and whiskey I would have had a f~~~ing heart attack.

When my t~~~ of a doctor wouldn’t give me lorazepam I’d get insomnia so bad and withdrawal. I was up 24 hours once and on the sofa in a cold sweat, and had to get my ex to get herself a prescription of the stuff for me. I was waiting like a f~~~ing junkie on the sofa. When I got the pills, I took about three 1mg pills and fell into a blissful sleep.

I’d take lorazepam every day if I could, because I have and always have had huge trouble sleeping at night due to anxiety, and a f~~~ing c~~~ of a irregular heart condition. The lorazepam gets rid of all that and I sleep well. I havnt had a good nights sleep since being back in the UK.

Hope to see you on Zoom man! Take care.

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Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

anxiety, and a f~~~ing c~~~ of a irregular heart condition.

Seems we have the exact same issues. Great post DYD and I will see you this weekend.

[FreedomParticipant 965]

When the depression and dark thoughts grab you…..it takes a massive amount of will-power to put them in a box and hammer the lid down. But you did it…..you’re a survivor.

I was in that place 15 years ago….almost finished it for a miserable bullying c~~~….but I survived.

My life now is my own. Not for some c~~~ to own…it’s mine.

And next year I’m getting a dog…then everything will be complete.

She cheated on me ..... my fault. I showed an interest in another woman......my fault.

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MarketWatcher wrote:

Seems we have the exact same issues. Great post DYD and I will see you this weekend.

Awesome see you then dude.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

Freedom wrote:

And next year I’m getting a dog…then everything will be complete.

Good s~~~. I’d love a dog but I need to get my own place one day lol.

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Freedom wrote:

My life now is my own. Not for some c~~~ to own…it’s mine.

Exactly. I read this thread again and the man who wrote this is not the man you see today. Thank God for MGTOW.

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MarketWatcher wrote:

Freedom wrote:

My life now is my own. Not for some c~~~ to own…it’s mine.

Exactly. I read this thread again and the man who wrote this is not the man you see today. Thank God for MGTOW.

People and situations always change. Twice in my life I’ve put a gun to my own head and each time, after I decided not to pull the trigger, the situation always got better.

Both times I considered suicide were over females. The first time was because one left me. The other time was because I couldn’t get one to leave me. HA!

The true stories of me considering suicide were not funny, but the true reasons are, now that I look back at them.

The evil in women’s hearts leaves them no moral bounds as to inhibit them from descending to the lowest levels of darkness to acquire their self entitled desires.

[Remove me!Participant]

I’m so glad you ran out of gas, and that I can call you my friend. Otherwise we would’ve never met. I’ve had a couple attempts a few years back, but we are survivors of the blue pill. We broke loose of that and now we rise from the ashes like the Phoenix. We don’t sugarcoat our lives, but I’m glad we were both failures at that!

Like a bird on the wire, like a drunk midnight choir, I have tried in my way to be free.

[Anonymous 1]

You already had my star, meaning I did read this a lot of time ago. MW, you are a great dude and very lucky for the path you did take, I felt like you for years, then I mastered the 0 f~~~s given attitude and I started enjoying my life for what it was, you can turn yourself into a f~~~ing master if you can use most of your time for yourself, so let’s ROCK!

[Puffin StuffParticipant 24979]

Thanks for sharing MW. I’m sure that your personal story will reach more than one man today.

I’m too big of an asshole to commit suicide. Make them have to live with the asshole that is me. That is better punishment.

I really feel this way. When people f~~~ with me I become a giant prick. I don’t think about hurting myself. I think about p~~~ing them the f~~~ off.

#icethemout; Remember Thomas Ball. He died for your children.

[SolidParticipant 7520]

Thanks for sharing your story brother…
Be strong brother, you have a penis and it makes you a better person than at least 50% of the world !!
MGTOW is the only way that a man can keep his sanity in a world where don’t even the top 0.0000001% of the men can be considered “successful”.

[Anonymous 1]

Thanks for bumping this thread market~~~cher. I had no idea.. Glad to have you among us brother..

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MarketWatcher wrote:

My desire for a woman to complete me was all consuming.

I understand that feeling. I also survived suicide. Alcohol used to make me cry and get depressed late at night. Glad I don’t have that anymore.

MarketWatcher wrote:

In fact I have been told I have THE LIFE.

Damn skippy.

You have brothers in every city. There is always one of us, everywhere. If you’re ever in Dallas, I got coffee and a spare room.

CELIBRATE YOUR LIFE 🙂

[MGTOW_MikeParticipant 6253]

Hats off to you, brother, for sharing your story with us. Your story can and will help other men who are in a similar situation to what you were in.

A tranquil mind is neither happy nor sad, it is uninfluenced by external conditions.

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MGTOW_Mike wrote:

Your story can and will help other men who are in a similar situation to what you were in

That is my hope.

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