My LAST suicide attempt.

[MarketWatcherParticipant]

I share this story because of the current epidemic that is plaguing our men; especially our veterans. Too many have been lost and SUICIDE IS A PERMINANT SOLUTION TO A TEMPROARY PROBLEM!

In 2010 I was in blue pill hell. I had been consumed by the propaganda that at 34 I should be married and have a big house and 100k a year job. I had not been laid in years and had sold all of my stock to cover debt in the recession. My job was low pay and I had to move into what was my big rental property investment. I was alone most of the time and have no family in state. My desire for a woman to complete me was all consuming. I had found that it is not as easy to get fast sex at 34 as it was at 24 and I had not even seen an attractive woman in public for months. Internet dating was beneath me.

With no cash assets left, low pay, little hope, no friends, and no woman to “love me” I decided to take my life. Due to my job I had time to be home alone and had not even spoken to a human in at least three days. I had thought a lot about killing myself and had decided not to take anyone with me or make a mess. I narrowed it down to drug overdose or carbon monoxide poisoning. I chose the latter. Grabbed my drugs of choice; beer, weed, cigs, and went to the garage. Closed the door, started the car, put on some music and began getting high and trying to die. Within minutes I started to feel the sleep coming on.

I woke to what sounded like an explosion. The car had run out of gas. How I survived I will never know, I must have been in there for hours because it was dark when I opened the garage. I was sick as hell and vomited up all I had drank followed by the worst headache and pain I had ever known. I had accomplished nothing. Damn I couldn’t even kill myself right. I crashed.

The next day I couldn’t believe what I had done and why I did it. I even thought it was a dream. I went out to the garage and found the exhaust burn on the floor from the tail pipe. It was real. All because I had not met society’s expectations for a man of my age. My father used to call and ask me if I was married yet. When I always said no I was told I was a bum.

I found a doctor.

Fast forward to 2017 and things are still difficult. I did get help, but now I am addicted to diazepam thanks to the shrink. It all was not worth it. I could not see what a good life I had due to the chronic bulls~~~ pushed down my throat by the woman/success definition myth. When I realized that I was not a loser due to my job or relationship status my life changed. I found true independence and began to understand sovereignty. I found MGTOW and I feel less alone because the men here understand that we are not slaves to status.

I hope that no one can relate to anything I have said regarding suicide. If you can please know we are here to talk about it and help. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I am still alive and it’s a good life. In fact I have been told I have THE LIFE.

Thank you for reading and if you see a man retreating from life just talk to him. Sometimes it is that simple.

[Blue SkiesParticipant 15665]

Mgtow is freedom
Mgtow is life
i’m glad you made it.

MGTOW is not a movement, it is a way of life.

[sidecarParticipant 35837]

You can’t get revenge if you’re dead.

And the best revenge is to live well.

[Blue SkiesParticipant 15665]

at 1:04 in the video, the guy tells the story of his friend and co-worker (two separate people) who committed suicide over relations~~~s
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MGTOW is not a movement, it is a way of life.

[guiParticipant 825]

MarketWatcher wrote:

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Thanks for sharing. Stories like yours save lives because they are proof that people aren’t alone in their suffering. There always someone else in the world going through the same and if all those people could send a message to each other it would be to never give up.

It’s never enough to talk about as a subject important as this. Stay strong brother. We understand you.

Pity and contempt are siblings. You only feel pity for those you consider weak.

[Anonymous 54]

Check gas gauge. Thanks.
Kidding!
I had a roomate who took himself out, over an old c~~~tail waitress, at the age of 18.
For the love of God, do not any of you measure your self worth, by weather a damned woman loves you or not.
They are not capable of it.

Heres what I say to young guys who are thinking about checking out.

Say its 2015…and your a Cubs Fan….

You never know what suprise is waiting for you. Do you want to miss it?

[Anonymous 42]

I’ve been there bro, it’s nothing short of a miracle the hammer didn’t drop from how far back I slowly pulled the trigger, I was 24 and never did it again, I know your pain, we just want it to go away, and it does, a numbness fills the heart where only pain could be felt prior to the struggle to pull yourself out of depression. The good thing is since that day I lost the fear of death and not afraid of dying, FROM NATURAL CAUSES!

[Anonymous 5]

F~~~ your dad said that? Welcome to the club. Many times I dived into the thought suicide to slove my problems. “If I can take my very being out of the picture all is irrelevant- all stops when you die” > but it wasn’t even Mgtow that helped me understand the importance of life. It hit me I have being playing a game. Thehardestgame. But it’s a game based on rules; a “a-z” format. A predictable game (society) that had been created to test my worth. Maybe that sounds alittle -religious. I belive in good and evil and both I feel equally hate each other but need each other.. balance. That balance cannot be achieved in death for me. So I continue to suffer- dude am happy you had another look at life and stepped away. Sometimes it’s better to see what happens than to decide foolishly that earth is completely lost. Well it kinda is but that’s not the point- your a f~~~ing rad dude you rule – man. I have been there I was working minimum wage with 2 jobs 7 days a weeks just so I could drown it all out on a odd day I would call in sick drowning everything in drugs and alcohol. I hated all – but that was all off of something that i never knew the cause of (women, BAM mgtow happened) – now am cured of a sickness based off of a perception on life. I smile at my 1 job – save my money am done with all of it.

[Anonymous 5]

When I was a kid my father’s co -worker and freind son committed suicide he wrote a note bought a gun that morning and went to the park and blew his brains out.then 2 years later his dad beat his wife to death with a bat.my dad and him worked at Maricopa jail as corrections officers.

[Back in BlackParticipant 1732]

Thank you for reading and if you see a man retreating from life just talk to him. Sometimes it is that simple.

This is what this site has done for me as I was going through one of the most difficult times of my life. I am eternally grateful for the men on this site as well as KM for keeping this site going.

I am now very conscious of other men suffering and in pain and reach out whenever I am able. It has the added benefit of making me a better man for doing so.

"Women are directly adapted to act as the nurses and educators of our early childhood, for the simple reason that they themselves are childish, foolish, and short-sighted—in a word, are big children all their lives, something intermediate between the child and the man, who is a man in the strict sense of the word. Consider how a young girl will toy day after day with a child, dance with it and sing to it; and then consider what a man, with the very best intentions in the world, could do in her place.” Quote from Arthur Shopenhauer, 17th century philosopher

[bladeParticipant]

Oh f~~~ have i been there . Think alot of guys to should realise there are also alot of failed attempts that leaves blokes brain damaged or veges from od . A guy about a year ago had an unsuccessful attempt of gassing himself in his car . Last i heard he ended up really f~~~ed up and has to be looked after full time .

sidecar wrote:

You can’t get revenge if you’re dead.

And the best revenge is to live well.

Very true sidecar . But i am going to tap god up for six months grace so i can hang out in spirit form to f~~~ with c~~~s for a bit .

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[bladeParticipant]

Going to roll Patrick Swayze ghost style . See how these corrupt motherf~~~ers like that . Going to be a real c~~~

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[MagusParticipant 424]

When my stepfather was ill he had me read a bunch of suicide books to him. I liked this one the most https://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_2?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=final+exit because it had all the ways you could off yourself. Ways that worked and were free of pain. After he passed away I took the advice given and bought the stuff I’ll need to end myself when the time comes. I bought double of everything. Keep it in storage. It is a relief knowing how I will go if I’m suffering and I still have my mental facilities. I would recommend that everybody buy the books and the equipment needed. It is comforting knowing you have an easy painless sure solution prepared ahead of time.

Suicide does not need a respectable reason either. If you are tired of the mundane I see no reason to prolong it. However keep in mind you’ll get over stupid bimbos. That’s a fact. Make an exit for something else.

[HitmanParticipant]

Suicide Solution ?

[HitmanParticipant]

click on the title of post highlighted above.

[ConstantineParticipant 4420]

sidecar wrote:

And the best revenge is to live well.

He’s right dude. Sorry to hear about your rough patch, but kudos for getting through it – and demonstrating the golden rule.

Nothing p~~~es off women more than enjoying a far richer and more fulfilling life by staying single.

To see what is in front of one's nose requires a constant struggle. -Orwell

[MattNYCParticipant 2329]

Bro i am glad you’re still here.

And i’m glad you can share your story with others who are having a hard time.

[PistolPeteParticipant 27143]

I think we have all been there at one time or another–I know I have had a gun in my mouth, and something stopped me…It was the knowledge of how many people would be delighted if I pulled the trigger, so I didn’t just to spite them. Hey it worked.

[MACHOParticipant]

gui wrote:

Thanks for sharing. Stories like yours save lives because they are proof that people aren’t alone in their suffering. There always someone else in the world going through the same and if all those people could send a message to each other it would be to never give up.

Thank You, your story is helping desperate men.

You must own a better Crystal ball than I

[MarketWatcherParticipant]

Hitman wrote:

Suicide Solution ?

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Hitman wrote:

Suicide Solution ?

Thank you for posting that.

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