Lurker no more.

[Remove me!Participant]

Welcome home, brother.

Like a bird on the wire, like a drunk midnight choir, I have tried in my way to be free.

[HitmanParticipant]

welcome !
stay and enjoy..!
glad you made it here.

[Wanderer77Participant 34]

thank you for sharing your story. i hope you are doing well and wish you the best of luck! welcome to the forum, like you im also new here (though i lurked a good while too)

[BlakeGuyParticipant 287]

Incredible story, attaching yourself to a women we all draw a straw, off course we do not know which one we will get until years later. Sounds like you got one of the worst straws but one that many men get. So glad you shared it in so much detail and with all the color commentary. I am working through a D now and did not have the horrible luck you had, perhaps i had a middle sized straw. But reading about your case just hardens me even more to avoid the bitches all together. At any time you can draw the shortest straw.

Let the good times roll

[LandmineParticipant 644]

Gentlemen,

It is with a smile and warmth I say to you individually and as a group a very heartfelt thank you. Being comfortable in my skin I don’t care if it sounds mush – you guys are ducking awesome.

I can’t say how much it means to be present here, on the site among likeminded individuals.

These past 2 weeks, from today back to when I first discovered this place, I’ve had strong emotions. Emotions that I have in check for the most part, others I’m still working on. Picking old wounds and memories if you like.

I will strive to bring value where possible, and continue to work on myself, the biggest being my confidence in starting my new business. I think I have now found the missing piece by being here and taking part.

I think I need to forgive myself. I believed I already had. Forgive myself fully that while I’m now in my early 40s’ with little to show financially etc. that it really was never my fault. I can’t explain it better other than to say on a conscious day to day level I knew all the s~~~ I’ve been through with women was because of the women. The biggest been my divorce obviously. I hold my hand up to any problem I brought to the marriage or other relationships – I did while married – and worked hard to have a balance in the dynamics but I completely see now any success I ever had was when I did my own thing, head down and go for it.

So, despite having been monk for some time I feel I’m still swallowing the red pills, thus possibly mgtow is a constant endeavor, much like exercising a muscle in this case the brain. I’m ok with that.

So again, thank you to you one and all.

I grasp my shield tight while raising my sword aloft to you, my BROTHERS.

PS for s~~~s n giggles I did a poem. Because NFG right? I’ll put it here and post on its own also. Just for fun.

Shoulder to shoulder, they stood strong.
For when the day came, only they would remain.
With logic and brains, they simply explained.
You foolish women, you destroyed your own game.

No longer any prizes, prison or blame.
You went too far, to keep men ashamed.
Incensed and boiling, hamster wheel inflamed,
How dare you not want me, the creature exclaimed.

Justice from thee I am due, give me time to think so I can frame you.
You cannot deny me, though I may be a whale.
I am the woman, most independent and strong.
You will not reject me, I will prove you wrong.

My golden vagina may stink of chads dong, but it shall put you in a place you don’t belong.
Hah, Behind steel bars, with only one call.
My knights with blue sirens, they always come when called.

Guilty or innocent, no need to explain.
Dial once for service, they jump ready with chains.
Forget due process or facts of law,
while we keep marching for all we can claim.

It’s all man’s fault, he is to blame.
He listened to us once, he gave us the vote.
Those women of yesteryear, who pressed for you girls today,
Now walk in silence, heads bowed down in shame.

What shallow creatures they are, vindictive and poison, no way I am one.
We just wanted equal, our pay and our voice.
How it got twisted, mangled and cruel.
Can they not see, oh these fools?

We still wanted babies, the house and the car.
With a man beside us, we would go far.
When vows meant forever, to be happy and carefree.
Now they’re all oppressors, rapists and beasts.

Always the victim, throwing the blame.
How did they not notice, playing this game?
Man is not stupid, such as they proclaim.
He has watched in silence, and thought the long game.

He scratched his head, he wiped his brow.
I don’t believe it, these women now.
What happened to princesses, dances and gowns.
We stood waiting, hoping for a chance, glass slipper in hand.

We worked so very hard, maybe too much.
Gave you the houses, the babies, you treated us like slaves.
We’re not happy you screamed, now we want it all.
We’re keeping the babies, the house and the car.

You love the dog, but that won’t get far.
Well take what we want, the judge agrees.
We’ve gamed the system, get on your knees,
Be thankful you can breathe.

Enough is enough, all the men agreed.
The silent majority set forth their decree.
Leave them be, these poisonous bees,
let them gather in their hive, while we men thrive.

No longer a companion, a lover or wife do we need.
For man is stronger than his carnal needs.
We walk silent, day to day, safe in the knowledge we will not decay.
Women will complain, point and shout, and come back with the blame.

If that doesn’t work, they’ll try the shame.
Just like the oppressors, we are labelled to be.
They don’t get it, this is our long game.
The day will come, for each and every one.

Crying in silence, alone in the night.
Oh no, where did all the good men go.
They never noticed while playing their game.
We changed the rules, and chose not to remain.

We left the party, it was fun.
But now, no thanks, the revolt has begun.
Shoulder to shoulder and head held high.
To you strong women we say goodbye.

You’re simply not worth it, no way not again.
The pain we can still feel, the abuse and the wails.
Look in the mirror, while we ask you, can you recall.
All the chad faces, before hitting the wall?

No thanks, not a chance, now go away.
Men don’t care anymore, for your promise of play.
To love us forever, you demand men pay.
Not anymore, my dear, we are going our own way.

We are the awakened. We are MGTOW

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

You’re pretty good with words. Keep going it’s good to vent, share and just get it out of your system.

Landmine wrote:

So, despite having been monk for some time I feel I’m still swallowing the red pills, thus possibly mgtow is a constant endeavor, much like exercising a muscle in this case the brain. I’m ok with that.

The answer is yes. Mostly due to the constant barrage of programming from society and our own biology to be with a woman.

I feel like a male praying mantis saying to myself ‘keep your head on’. I have to do it over and over.

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

[harpo-my-“SON”Participant 2410]

Welcome and hats off to anyone who endures and suffers long. My own seven years of tribulation is soon to be over..

I was bound to be misunderstood, and I laugh at those who misunderstand me. Kind mockery at the well intentioned, but unfettered cruelty towards those would be prison guards of my creative possibilities. This so as to learn as much from misunderstanding as from understanding. Taking pleasure in worthy opponents and making language fluid and flowing like a river yet pointed and precise as a dagger. Contradicts the socialistic purpose of language and makes for a wonderful linguistic dance, A verbal martial art with constant parries that hone the weapon that is the two edged sword of my mouth.

[Tim941Participant 68]

Landmine wrote:

My last tryst however was the biggest red pill of the opposite sex. In the company of said female, after our activities it was divulged that she was married. She lied to me. Look I messed around, but not this way. This was the rule I was NEVER willing to break. Yes, I told the guy. I met him, sat with him and asked for forgiveness. He decided to be cucked, that she was worth it, and their faith would get them through it.

Fascinating! Welcome, Landmine. I look forward to reading you more.

[Tim941Participant 68]

Landmine wrote:

. . . that it really was never my fault. I can’t explain it better other than to say on a conscious day to day level I knew all the s~~~ I’ve been through with women was because of the women.

I feel this way too. You’re early 40s and I just turned 60. I’ve been studying my life and each woman I was with I had to leave for their lack of integrity—except for one who earned it back with me and remains a good friend.

My most peaceful productive times in my life were when I was not in a “relationship”—another interesting euphemism.

[Tim941Participant 68]

Landmine wrote:

PS for s~~~s n giggles I did a poem.

Very nice. Who doesn’t love poetry? I enjoyed that Landmine. Well done.

[Tim941Participant 68]

BlakeGuy wrote:

Incredible story, attaching yourself to a women we all draw a straw, of course we do not know which one we will get until years later. Sounds like you got one of the worst straws but one that many men get. So glad you shared it in so much detail and with all the color commentary. I am working through a D now and did not have the horrible luck you had, perhaps i had a middle sized straw. But reading about your case just hardens me even more to avoid the bitches all together. At any time you can draw the shortest straw.

I’m with you, BlakeGuy, on Landmine’s intro. Good luck on your D.

[Gravel PitParticipant]

The feeling of aloneness is better than whatever it is that women offer.

There are a million ways to say it and you can do your own Risk/Benefit analysis. Do it now. Do it regularly.

The result is always going to be the same whether you cherish your aloneness or regret it, the other side was going to be worse, much worse.

After a few years celibate, I actually prefer and relish my solitude. I know I’m not missing anything but emotional pain to say the least.

[CthulhuParticipant 698]

Not bad, Landmine. Not bad. We all get baptized in our own fires. Good to have you here, brother.
Welcome.

Why vote for a lesser evil? #ICETHEMOUT

[Anonymous 12]

I’m now in my early 40s’ with little to show financially etc

Welcome!

You have experience and knowledge, and the smarts to learn your lesson.
Money will come back, i am sure of it.
But the painful Trip that got you here can protect you the coming 60 years!
Few hold such power. It comes at great cost.
cherish it, polish it, and use it as you see fit.

Again, Welcome!

[SESQUI ano estParticipant 2534]

Welcome sir.

Everyday above ground is a good one. Everyday above ground while single...better still.

[Vajra VarahaParticipant 1283]

Great intro! Welcome!
I counsel men every day who went thru this hell. It’s all true. And I treat the other side of the fence as well. Women know exactly what they want and it isn’t your love.
Keep the faith brother!

[AufladenParticipant 105]

Excellent introduction Landmine. Very well written if I may say so. Thanks for taking the time to put all that together and get your story out there.

I wholeheartedly agree with you on the importance of introductions here. Both personally and to help others who are newly awakened or suffering. Intros on MGTOW.com have been my saving grace on more than one occasion this past year. I still go back and read my own to get my repeat prescription of The Big Red Pill when needed. Know that such a good introduction will help more than one man here, of that I have no doubt.

I’m truly sorry to hear what you’ve had to go through, I feel lucky in comparison. But here is to you and all the recently unlurked (not a word I don’t think, but hey f~~~ it!) and look after yourself. And most importantly, I’m glad you and your buddy were reunited!

Take care

'You can achieve more and be happy avoiding the wrong women than you ever could searching for the right woman.' - KM

[LandmineParticipant 644]

To everyone who took the time to reply I say thank you, your words help.

I’ve been back to site but haven’t posted as these past few weeks have been hard, with the holidays and missing family overseas.

As much as I was delighted to find the site (as I still am) its been weird, after all the work I did on my mental health to have everything connected and confirmed thru the red pill it’s almost like I’m going thru some stuff again.

I’ve been having dreams which in turn have brought back suppressed childhood / teenage memories. Not bad stuff per se, but more so as if my brain is telling me something without being overtly clear about the message it wishes to tell. Sounds cryptic but hard to explain.

Anger has somewhat returned also, not just for what I wrote (my divorce etc) but the stuff I left out. S~~~ there is so so much to tell, to share.

I’ve half heartedly mused over my life and tried to assign meaning to my being here, in an effort to cement my confidence to step forward and create the next chapter
to come.

I’m ok with reflection, inner thoughts etc. Just s~~~… red pill is a kicker isn’t it? Im talking the proper dose. F~~~ looking back on things, the highs, the lows, I really don’t have regrets per se. But blue pill me was an gullible fool lol.yet in others I was ahead of so many others not in that i was better than them, just less naive.

As I said before, I wish to be a contributing member here, bring some value. I will try to do so.

Again, fine gents thanks to all who read, and to those who replied, I thank you sincerely.

We are the awakened. We are MGTOW

[Anonymous 42]

I nominate Landmine to take point!

Sounds like we found our man!

[BadgerParticipant 2277]

Welcome Landmine. I hope young men contemplating marriage again read what can happen to the best intentions of the man entering it. The system is rigged against the man and until it changes, any guy who marries is putting his whole future in jeopardy.

I suggest you read the online edition of Anthony de Mello in the message below for some tips on handling your current situation.. Skip the religious stuff. He was a therapist who did not put out the usual BS. Another good book of his books is Rediscovering Life, which you can get at a library or from Amazon.

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