losing my mind

[bladeParticipant]

HITMAN …quick slip a penny under the door .

Did you watch hitmans vid bro . See were not fakes we are here for you bro cant you see .

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[bladeParticipant]

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THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[HitmanParticipant]

blade wrote:

HITMAN …quick slip a penny under the door .

not if i have to bend over blade…….
hahhahahaa!!!!!!!!!!!

[HitmanParticipant]

AGAIN…!!!
WATCH IT AGAIN
AND AGAIN UNTIL IT GETS THROUGH THAT SKULL
YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD
AND FEAR NOONE
AND NOTHING
WATCH IT AGAIN OR PERISH…!!!

[bladeParticipant]

Hitman wrote:

not if i have to bend over blade…….
hahhahahaa!!!!!!!!!!!

10secs lol

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[bladeParticipant]

Didnt albert Einstein make some quote about laughing at yourself when you make mistakes .

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[HitmanParticipant]

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand here ya go.
it’s late.
gotta go.
spend it wisely..

[Anonymous 42]

You’ve been through allot, May.

It’s okay to go to pieces, I’m sure it’s all part of the healing process. Rest assured the episodes of instability will lessen in severity and grow further apart.

You’ve been through allot, a hell of allot! It’s behind you, don’t let it creep in front of you!

It will pass…

[RhinoParticipant 3477]

May you are not a robot you are allowed to make mistakes and feel s~~~ about it. It is what you do afterwards that makes you grow and become stronger. You have been through so much and life keeps trying to bring you down. Stay strong brother there is light at the end of the dark tunnel you find yourself in right now. It will get better and if you keep screwing up so what?

You are our brother and you keep learning from your mistakes and that is all that matters. Go with God and make your life great it will never be a easy road but we are here to back you up brother whenever you need us. If you don’t get those jobs no big deal more opportunities will arrive stay strong brother we are here to help.

[joetechParticipant]

Of all the things I’ve lost I miss my mind the most. Sometimes in life you’re supposed to loose your mind. It’s part of being human. This, too, shall pass. No words of mine can console you. You’ve been through a lot, and to have survived is an accomplishment in itself. I suggest you find something fun to do and get on with your life. The holidays can be especially hard, but you have friends and people who care about you. Don’t beat yourself up over the moods you get into. Just try to lighten up and see the bright side to things. I like to use humor. If you can’t laugh at this crazy, f~~~ed up world we live in then you’re missing the big picture. There is no gravity, the world sucks, and we are all subject to its insanity. So, go ahead and loose your mind. Then, you can find another mind to replace it with…https://youtu.be/hnzHtm1jhL4

"Don't follow in my footsteps...I stepped in something."

[bladeParticipant]

Bro you will look back in a month or alot less and think .

F~~~ that was nothing .

There will always be ups and downs .

YOU DIDN’T LOOSE YOUR MIND THE SYSTEM STOLE IT

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[Billy&The CloneasaurusParticipant]

I’m with you brother. You’re your own worst critic and enemy. I’m like that too. I don’t know what to say other than I give a s~~~. I hope you pull through this. If I can help in any way, let me know

The answer, is no.

[Anonymous 12]

Yea, another one here who is like “wtf”

Please let us know how the interviews went.
I believe there is too much crap going on in your head.
Come down and do the essentials.
The things that help you, today and tomorrow.
The important things, the oens that contribute to you having a kickass future.

You have me worried, May.
I am NOT having a good time seeing you like this.
Don’t drift away.

[Anonymous 43]

ty guys. Jan Sobieski called me last night to check on me.

I have so many things going on im struggling a little. I find it hard to forgive myself for mistakes I make, but easily forgive other people.

2 interviews today, gotta focus on that.

[DocParticipant]

Take it a day at a time.
It’s all God gives us.

Trust yourself. You won’t feel this low forever. Ride the emotions you are presently experiencing and at some point they will become more bearable.

Trust in your body’s will to heal you. It will look to heal your mind also.

Take care.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[Anonymous 12]

All you need is good men.
And good men you have in abundance.

Thinking back when i was on unemployment, the money running out and pushing to find a job…

There were a dozen Monkeys on my shoulder telling me i was worthless, would never have a chance, and why bother even breathing.
“look… a bridge… you know what to do”
“look… traintracks… you know what to do”
“look, a corner. just lay down there, curl up in a ball and stop breathing… stop wasting everyone’s oxygen”

Waking up, dressing up and pretending to be “someone worth hiring”… it was the toughest masquerade i ever went through.
Time and Time again.

I propose you focus on that bit. Finding your place in the economy.
Being Trusted with tasks and Tools.
Being recognized as skilled in your line of work.
Knowing that at the end of the day you deserve the paycheck.
Not asking for more than getting better and Better at what you do.

And all the other Pieces of s~~~ subjects that drag you down can form a waiting line outside your Apartment. half of them will disappear in time without you ever facing them.

All you need is good men.
And good men you have – in abundance.

Stay in touch, Bud. Don’t be scared.

[Anonymous 18]

May, part of the problem is you are trying to make sense of your emotions.

Sometimes you need them to be. If you rationalize them, and even temporarily subdue them, when they well up again its that much harder to rationalize because you never know how much time and effort they will take to be ‘normal’ again.

Instead let them be. Accept yourself. Insanity lies in us all to an extent, to realize that you ‘may be losing your mind’ is a good sign though. Chances are you are just going through the hardships of life that are manifesting in extreme mental upsets.

If it helps, it happens to many of us who have had extremely trying circumstances.

Best wishes on your interviews man.

Hope you are doing better by the time you read this.

[ZarathustraParticipant 2246]

I don’t think you are afraid of failure I think you are afraid of success. Its coming to the surface now because you have had all these job interviews and were feeling so positive knowing your success was right around the corner.

Feeling s~~~ty, down-trodden by all you have experienced has become a comfortable place for you and now that is likely to change you are fearing the change.

If you have lived in darkness the light at the end of the tunnel can be blinding. But, when your eyes adjust, you will see a new and better world.

Just my opinion.

[NerevarParticipant 8040]

Secret Agent MGTOW wrote:

Maybe you are experiencing a panic/anxiety attack?

If he had a panic attack he wouldn’t be posting a topic, he’d be scared s~~~less.

"One of the best things internet exposed is just how insane women are." - Freeman_K

[SamsquanchParticipant 4226]

Hit the gym brother, I promise it works better than any drug or anything else to get the blues out of your system.

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