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I am hurt, I am angry, I am barely able to motivate myself to go to the gym, work or study. All thanks to NAWALT pumpkin banging Chad and telling me she loves him after a year of being with me.
I randomly obsess over the thought of them f~~~ing each other brains out. I randomly obsess over should I have been more blue-pill in my relationship with her, should I have always ‘dressed well’ or ‘taken her out all the time and paid the bills’ or ‘showed her how much I cared for her’ or ‘done the little things’
There have been days where I have skipped work just because I had suicidal thoughts due to my low self-esteem.
I have slept with 4 women after the cheating incident yet I am not over the fact that I feel worthless. I was complete Red-Pill before meeting this girl, was in the best shape of my life and was kicking ass at work and in my studies. After a year with her I am now back to square 1. Maybe its a sign.
No matter how many times I tell myself – She was not mine, it was just my turn. or Shes going to hit the wall or Chad will dump her ass soon. I cant seem to shake this feeling of being at the bottom of the pond.
I keep fluctuating between rage and sadness. I NEED TO STOP AND FOCUS!
First, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you are suicidal, please seek professional help.
Second, just breathe. Relationships come and go. The failure of one is no measure of you as a person, only the decisions of someone else. Just breathe. Re-assess the good things in your life, even the smallest. Do what you can to amplify them.
A co-worker recently told me, "If you want to see who someone really is, divorce them." I have found out how true this is. When your wife drops the façade of being the caring partner, you will witness all of the greed, hate, and spite that she has masked. It is truly breathtaking!
I can understand, been there, done that.
It took time, but overcame it. In the process i learned, ABOUT ME.
1) it is pure drama, you are creating your own drama, the truth is you dont care she is banging chad, the problem is YOU ARE NOT CHAD, you just angry becouse you feel like a loser, you measure your success on your ability to keep that pussy around. Well you are a loser, you lost soo what?
Did you make a fuss when you lost in monopoly too?If it is any good, is not your foult, since the industrial revolution men have become men by getting pussy, no more ritual fight or test of bravery or hunting proes (lets take the boy out to whore house to make him a men)
2) suicide, im totally ok with you blowing your head off, i almost hang my selft, but this body of mine fought back and pulled itself up, i dont even know how, trust me, you dont wanna die in the last minute your survive instinct will kick in and you might be too late. Now if you still wanna do it go ahead, but make it count, go bananas, go god mode, make it big on the news is more entertaining (try to blow a nuclear plant or something i dont know), wanna know why? Becouse if you kick a dog the dog bites you, the dog doesnt suicide, the natural response is to ATTACK others, not kill your selft.
This is also socially programmed, we have romaticised the idea of suicide, romeo and juliet for example, they made us believe that voluntarily evicting your meat suit (thank you pop), is the most romantic, beautifull, human action… Bulls~~~, is anti natural, live organism tend to try to survive, every cell in your body is fighting with everything they got to keep functioning. SUICIDE IS ANTINATURAL. It has been fed up to us as a romantic way out, is stupid as f~~~.
To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.
3) being angry is ok, why not? Be angry if you want, you got screwed over, you believe you are hurt (is pure narcisism, how could this happen to me? Im perfect, im awesome, im not a loser like the other 65% of men on this planet that gets divorce raped), you get angry becouse of your unaceptance of this reality that you dont like, being angry makes you more angry becouse it means you are weak… WELL IS OK FOR YOU TO BE WEAK, that is the challenge, get up and become strong, or dont, it doesnt matter, your life has no meaning, it never had.
No live in this world has a meaning at all, you just have to live, be a success, be a total failure, your only job is to breathe, relax you are doing just fine, bill gates will be dead in 30 years, in 5000 no one will even imagine ge existed.
Learn to not give a s~~~.
Deprogram your selft, emphaty, feelings, honor, is people trying to be better, but you dont have to, is up to you, is your life, none of that s~~~ is real, is just people trying to be better.
Everything you feeling now is nothing but your ego trying to be the most human, abused, victim that ever lived, i know,is pathetic, i was there.
To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.
4) more narcisism, she hitting the wall, chad dumping her, is of no benefit to you, you just want revenge, AND IS OK TO WANT REVENGE, but the truth is, you csnt have your revenge and is of no benefit to you.
Now, you will have waves of depresion, suicidal thougs, anger, you dont understand why you rumaging the same things over and over, IS YOUR BRAIN, HE GETS HIGH ON A RUSH OF NEWROTRASMITERS, your brain has become an addict for punishment, he gets high on high dose of stressing discharges, is like cocaine, brain doesnt know he is hurting itself all he knows is he needs his next dose of anger and depresion.
Tame that mother f~~~er.
To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.
Adrenaline rush can help you to rewire your brain, run, it helped me to control my brain adiction
To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.
Anonymous38What Carnage said.
My advice, just calm yourself, don’t do anything silly. What you’re going through has been gone through by almost all of us here. You will get better and end up FINE. Not just fine but GREAT. But it is a process. Now it is about survival, you must do whatever necessary to ‘heal’ yourself.
And my new favourite nugget of wisdom:
Becouse if you kick a dog the dog bites you, the dog doesnt suicide, the natural response is to ATTACK others, not kill your selft.
I am hurt, I am angry, I am barely able to motivate myself to go to the gym, work or study. All thanks to NAWALT pumpkin banging Chad and telling me she loves him after a year of being with me.
We’ve all been there! Just remember that what you’re dealing with is common and that it’s not due to any failing on your part. We were all duped by the same NAWALT bulls~~~ . You are now going through the ‘awakening’. It really sucks I know but just tough it out like the rest us have had to do…
Anonymous3I am hurt, I am angry, I am barely able to motivate myself to go to the gym, work or study. All thanks to NAWALT pumpkin banging Chad and telling me she loves him after a year of being with me.
You are lucky. She could tell you she still loved YOU!
And that would be the ultimate insult, putting on your shoulders the responsibility for a decision that would break your hearth whatever the choice you could make: accept being a cuck or losing your wife. You could probably end up being both, eventually.
Worst, she would blame YOU for the decision. She probably does anyway, saying that you did not do enough for her, or that you change, or some other bulls~~~. It is a blatant falsity, it always is. But if the decision was yours, then you would probably believe her more.
So, whatever the situation, it could always be worst. Count on women to create drama and strife. Count your blessings!
SkyO still has nights of drama and booze, when her “dark angel” messages him saying she still loves him, and wants him, and could never be happy without him… All that after leaving him, breaking him, and BEING MARRIED to someone else. Its like a game for them: poking the wounds they made just to see if it hurts…
What happened to you? Why do you feel this way? Why to you lack energy, motivation, joy of life?
It all happened because your life was centered in this women. That is what society tells us we should do. That is everything we are sold. And that is the ploy of the gynocentrism to exploit men.
What you need to do is recenter your life around YOU! What do you want? What is important to you? What do you wish to avoid?
STOP THINKING ON OTHERS!
Feels selfish? Yes, I wonder where does this programming comes from? It is a nice way for society to enslave men to provide for others.
lets look at it more rationally if you meet a girl like her you wouldn’t date her would you maybe pump and dump your wounds are fresh she had time to get over you. you just need time 6 months later and you wont care, you cannot make her trustable or like you do you want her to do you a favour and stay even when she isn’t interested you can do better.
All thanks to NAWALT pumpkin banging Chad and telling me she loves him after a year of being with me.
Only a year? Be thankful you wasted so little on her. Give it ten years to gain a little perspective. Seriously.
Chances are he’s not actually Chad. Chad generally doesn’t f~~~ cheating whores; Chad doesn’t have to. Chad has his pick of all the new trim fresh to the carousel who haven’t had a chance to cheat yet.
That guy is just her next chump. In a decade, when she’s all used up and depreciated, you’ll be glad you got rid of her skanky cheating ass so easily today. And you’ll be even more glad you’re not the schmuck she cheated with, because he probably won’t be the last. However, and this is the important thing, some poor thirsty cuck will be. In all honesty, he did you a favor.
You see, dating monkey branching serial cheaters like her (AWALT) is like playing a game of russian roulette. Eventually some guy is going to take a metaphorical bullet to his metaphorical brain (or not so metaphoric). At some point she will inevitably see The Wall approaching and panic and lock down the first guy she can and nail him for as much as she can: divorce, alimony, child support, at least half his s~~~, and so on and so on. It WILL happen to some chump.
Be grateful it won’t be you.
In the meantime, forget all this suicide bulls~~~. You can’t get revenge if you’re dead, and the best revenge is to live well. Use the next ten years to do the best you can with your life. Gain skills. Learn. Accumulate wealth. Whatever so long as it benefits you.
Because I guarantee in ten years time (or less) she will try to get back with you, either when she’s desperate to lock down her first chump, or looking for her next. And you’ll want her to see just how badly she f~~~ed up, just how much she missed out on, when she does.
And remember, the only way to win at russian roulette is not playing.
Women don’t truly love men. They USE them to extract their resources and when their resources are gone or a better resource provider comes along, they’ll trade you in as casually as they would trade in a pair of shoes to Payless. It’s their NATURE. They’re liars and pretenders, saying and doing whatever it takes to get a free ride in life. She USED you and it’s okay to feel ANGRY about this. But you can sooth your anger by reminding yourself that this is their nature. You don’t get angry at a storm if it wipes out your house, do you? The LAST thing you should feel is responsible. You’re no more responsible for her lying, deceitful behavior than you are responsible for a storm that comes and wipes out your house.
Yeah it sucks, but remember – the person you loved DOESN’T REALLY EXIST. It’s a fake persona she used to extract your resources, nothing more.
In all honesty, he did you a favor.
Amen, brother. The absolute worst revenge you can take is to LET. HIM. HAVE. HER.
Women don’t truly love men.
Damn straight. They love themselves, and being loved.
I randomly obsess over should I have been more blue-pill in my relationship with her, should I have always ‘dressed well’ or ‘taken her out all the time and paid the bills’ or ‘showed her how much I cared for her’ or ‘done the little things’
Save your time and energy. It would not have mattered. She viewed you as temporary from day one.
I feel worthless.
You’re NOT. Get back to the masculine principle of making decisions by using reason and informed judgement, and leave the feelings to women.
When women lead, destruction is the destination. -- Me.
Look, man… You dodged a bullet, and you feel guilty of having dodged it?
In one thing, you are damn right. You lack focus, or better you lack focus on THE RIGHT THINGS.
For example, look around you. I am damn sure that you have lots of things to thank for, lots of things you have done in your life that you should be and could be proud of. You are not a broken man, you are a man who lost his focus in the things that make you, YOU.You don’t need to stop, you need TO MOVE. Work harder, hit the gym, DO SOMETHING, whatever it is. If you keep yourself moving, you will barely have time to comiserate about yourself, or about the things that pumpkin did to you.
Look at it from this perspective: Chad did a favour to you. He showed you how much of a liar, a cheater and a whore she was, and thank the gods that it only took a year for you to realize that. Many other men take DECADES to know and see what you know now. Imagine how worse it is to them!
You are alive and well, bro. You just took a detour with pumpkin out of your way. Now, all you have to do is to go back a few steps and get back on your way.
Cheers, and be well!
"Young was I once, I walked alone, and bewildered seemed in the way; then I found me another and rich I thought me, for man is the joy of man." Odin, Hàvamàl, stanza 47.
All good advice…….and when it does pass, and it will never forget what brought you here.
Peace is > piece.
Dating Leads to Relationships…
Relationships Lead to Cohabitation/Marriage….
EACH “date” Leads a Man to More and More Misery
I was complete Red-Pill before meeting this girl, was in the best shape of my life and was kicking ass at work and in my studies. After a year with her I am now back to square 1. Maybe its a sign.
NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF THE HARD WIRED BLUE PILL PROGRAMMING REGARDLESS OF HOW RED THAT YOU MAY “THINK” THAT YOU ARE.
In a World of Justin Beibers Be a Johnny Cash
Joining a group workout gym might help you get motivated to get going. I have found it very helpful; you are more accountable than just yourself and it helps getting encouragement from others (and paying it forward to encourage them back). I have found in myself and others, that physical activity is a key component to mental health. It builds a cornerstone foundation for Purpose to which every other facet of your life can be built upon.
By far though, the hardest step in the journey out of rage/anger/anxiety/depression is that very first one. It is the hardest by far–even if the subsequent steps thereafter bring you to an ultra-marathon.
I would make a small goal, and start there. Make is specific, measurable, and timely (i.e. “I will commit to joining that CrossFit box by Friday”)
I wish you courage to take that first step, brother. We are all here with you.
I am hurt, I am angry, I am barely able to motivate myself to go to the gym, work or study. All thanks to NAWALT pumpkin banging Chad and telling me she loves him after a year of being with me!
If after brief flirtation with death, cancer passes you by and you get your life back, do you feel like a loser?
I was with my (now ex-) wife for a total of 12 years, ten of those as a married couple. When she became “unhaaaappyyyy” because her “life hadn’t turned out how she’d envisioned it”, she ran off with an unemployed high-school dropout 5 years her junior. Is it possible to ever completely recover from that? I don’t know — I’m not there yet. I suspect not. But, I can tell you that life gets better as time passes.
Don’t beat yourself up over feeling like you didn’t “show her how much you cared” or anything like that. I don’t mean for this to sound like criticism, because it’s not intended to be, but NONE of that blue-pill s~~~ would have made any difference in the end. She decided to leave for reasons even SHE probably doesn’t fully understand (her “feelings”).
My advice would be to forget about women for a time. Forget about f~~~ing them; forget about dating them; forget about what your ex is doing now (won’t do any good to worry about it). Women will still be there in a year, or 5, or 10. And, by then you may decide that you’re better off without them. But, they’re not doing you any good right now. Focus on yourself, decide what YOU want to do, and then follow through. Make a point of doing some things you enjoy, or at least, that will benefit you in the long-term (like your studies). DO NOT LET WOMEN OR ANYBODY ELSE dictate how you feel about yourself. The funny thing is, I used to be self-conscious and I would have considered my self-esteem to be on the lower side because I used to worry about how others saw me — but now I realize that “self-esteem” is largely bulls~~~. I’ve moved toward an attitude of self-acceptance; basically “I’m ok with who I am and I’m not changing for anyone, take it or leave it, I don’t care.”
The old ‘you’ was not red pill in my opinion, the new you is.
Women don’t love men.
I thought she loved me. I had an emotional dependence.
When she severed that, it was like losing a limb. The pain is real.
Now that I understand women, I laugh at my former self.
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