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And people wonder why I want to see this world burn.
That is a good reason to keep going. To see is all burn to validate one’s existence and one’s beliefs.
It took 13.7 billions to make you, so you can live your dream life. Can you talk about your Big dreams? Can you talk about that you love to do? What do you enjoy the most. Focus your life on achieving your Big dreams. Let’s go of all negative thoughts and focus on creating your dream life because your life depends on it. I almost ended my life five years go due to heart break, divorce, loss of my house, cars, business and money but because I stated doing what I love doing the most, now I live my dream life, not caring what the world or family or friends think of me. Just focus on creating your dream life, let go of all your negative thoughts, do what you love, give your dreams a chance. You have what I takes to create a happy life. Give it time, create your dream life, enjoy life on your terms.
No you don’t wish you were a white male. Incase you didn’t notice, white men are the target these days. Everyone is out to get them.
It is just a matter of holding out, man! Nobody can help you other than yourself. And ike I always tell people, everthing will be all right. That is my paramount believe that keeps me going.
However bad things are today, it won’t last forever. Some of us get it bad, some of us get it worse. Doesn’t mean one’s woes are heavier than the other.
A woe is a woe. Do not worry. Time is a very good healer. Everything will be all right with the passage of time. Just pass some time.
A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush.
Anonymous42Don’t you get it yet?
It WANTS you to be insecure.
It WANTS you feel inadequate.
It doesn’t WANT you to win or succeed.
It WANTS you think you’re nothing.
It THRIVES off your insecurity.Listen to Morpheus, he speaks the truth!
When I was in my mid 20’s, no help, no place to reach out, and not feeling right in the head I decided to slowly squeeze the trigger of bliss and damn near lost my head! I was going through that door no if’s and’s or but’s! Like slowly pulling a slip knot I pulled back on the trigger with the hammer raised and ready to fire, knowing that was the end and I couldn’t return I kept pulling, then the thought of someone finding me (less one brain) came into my head, it was the only thing that stopped me, I even took the added measure if aiming at my brainstem to make sure it was done right. I no longer have a healthy fear of dying, I lost that on that day, till this day I still get those thoughts but don’t act on them, listen to Morpheus^^^^, this society has conditioned us to be self destructive, 50+ years of open man hating has left a long trail of dead men in it’s wake, I’m only lucky or blessed not to be one of them!
A quote that comes to mind that I must live by now:1Peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:
pretty f~~~ed up reaction guys. got proof ? what if you are wrong?
Also “noone can help you but yourself” is a reflection of this stupid and careless society.@ Bat: i left you a message.
Keymaster wrote:
Don’t you get it yet?
It WANTS you to be insecure.
It WANTS you feel inadequate.
It doesn’t WANT you to win or succeed.
It WANTS you think you’re nothing.
It THRIVES off your insecurity.‘it’, the system, culture, education, work place, TV programmes, media, government, permissible spoken word, etc. have all been incrementally modified over the last 50 years to undermine our self esteem and confidence. It seems like you are swimming against a tidal wave by even daring to question if it’s right. So, does that make you wrong or weak or worthless – F~~~ NO! The masculinity in your DNA can ignite a firestorm of energy when you start to face your doubts and fears. Maybe not in a flash, but as so many on this site will advise you, we build our lives at a step at a time getting stronger by the day.
There are so many ways we men have been f~~~ed over, like closed questions where there are only s~~~ options as our choices – tear up that s~~~ and make you own options! Punt that (‘it’) system and go your own way. The difference today is that you are not alone.
As others have said – you have more to live for than not. The entire world is a mess – but you can create buffers. View the brothers here as your wall-to help
shield you from a society in rapid decline. We all have different stories and strengths – but what we do share is the ability to see the truth. But MGTOW are NOT quitters. We fall down and get up stronger. As for medication, they work for some – others, including myself, not so much. Ask yourself how you can separate yourself from the societal pressures that are destroying you. You may find its not as difficult as you think. I am well into my sixth decade of life and know that men are strongest when our backs are against the wall. This is Your life alone to live! We’re here for you brother-please remember that.
Anonymous11@op:
I do not doubt the power of how you feel. You are letting it destroy you. You’re trapped in a cycle of negativity. You must break out of it for your own good. “Ending it” will hurt people who know you in ways that you cannot imagine.
You are of mixed race. So what. People will not judge you for that. Any who do are assholes and are not worthy of your friendship.
Life is never ideal. The best path to happiness is to learn acceptance of those things that you cannot control. It’s a mental discipline that takes time to learn the results are more than worth it. Acceptance frees you.
You need to break out of your cycle of negativity. It’s a feed back loop that is consuming you. Start small. find something that is positive in your life and focus on it. Soon, a positive mental attitude will ensue slowly but surely it will take over.
Does this mean your life will be perfect? No. All things good and bad are transient. Nothing lasts forever even this predicament you find yourself in is a transient thing.
Be kind to yourself and try to introduce positive back into your life. Start small by appreciating the good things around you. It will build on itself.
Anonymous42Yet here…are men of all races and even different sexual orientations and they are all accepted in a global network of brothers.
This!!!! We are strong as HELL together , and as long as we remain that way then nothing can wreck the coalition. MGTOW is the way to SURVIVE this world.
Regarding Wellbutrin, I’m on that as well. It’s a relatively mild anti-depressant, in that it won’t make you sleep all the time or any other negative side effects. I’m no Dr, so I am not going to prescribe it, but it is worth discussing with your Dr.
Whatever you’re taking though, don’t let it slip. I get that drinking can help when you don’t have an alternative, but don’t let it get to that point. Do not feel bad about your past drinking though. If it was a mistake learn from it and move on.
Ok. Then do it.
I could be wrong, but I got a strange vibe reading the posts from this person. It just feels fake to me. I think this is either a troll or a woman. Notice the lack of sincerity in such a serious topic. I have made suicidal topics before where I expressed my depression and I wrote paragraphs and poured all my feelings into them. I have seen others here do the same. This person is either looking for attention, a troll, or a woman (or all 3) judging by the lack of sincerity. It probably took him/her less than 30 seconds to type this topic and all of its responses. Doesn’t seem so serious for a person going through real depression.
If he/she gave more effort and showed more passion on this subject, then I will too. I would gladly offer some kind and motivational words. Until then I won’t give much of a s~~~. I think its a troll.
If he/she gave more effort and showed more passion on this subject, then I will too. I would gladly offer some kind and motivational words. Until then I won’t give much of a s~~~. I think its a troll.
I agree if there is no response. My thought is that it may help others reading the thread, so I’m not considering it a waste of time.
Anonymous42If he/she gave more effort and showed more passion on this subject, then I will too. I would gladly offer some kind and motivational words. Until then I won’t give much of a s~~~. I think its a troll.
What say you Batyote123, is MGTOW4life right? Are we giving a s~~~ about someone that pulled the fire alarm? Are you wasting our time? I don’t hesitate to help a brother in the fire, but to many of the guys have bells going off in their heads and calling it bulls~~~ smoke and no flames, what say you???
There is something fishy. I just checked out the other posts and Batyote23 says he’s from West Midlands and in another post says ‘i felt it would be different because i go to university in England but women in most first world countries are the same.’ Shifting storyline – Drama, long silences. . .
i feel like i am a lose cause at this rate. i have tried to be strong and show that as a man. i can battle my demons but they seem to be winning at this point in my life sorry.
Batyote—-Brother, we have all been where you are. Every single man here has been to the edge and stared over that cliff. I struggle with getting out of bed every single f~~~ing day. I have 2 German Shepherd’s and if not for them I fear I may not have made it this far. Are you alone where you are? Do you have a pet? I strongly recommend a dog brother, as they are my sole reason for pushing on most days. As far as anti-depressant’s and alcohol, and the like, you are no where we all have not already been. S~~~, them s~~~ stain doctor’s had me 80mg a day of Percocet, and now I am addicted to Poppy seed tea in a horrible attempt to get off their f~~~ing drugs. My life is so f~~~ing difficult each and every day. I am in the middle of trying to come off the poppy tea’s and holy bats~~~ is it ever hard. Bad moods, temper tantrum’s, and most of all the fear of the pain. I have a disabling condition know as Ankylosing Spoindylitis. And I am in severe pain every second of every day. My back (where I have at the least 4 pinched nerve’s), My hips (no cartilage left and severe bone damage), same with my knee’s, my shoulders, and my hands swell so bad every morning my finger nails are breaking right down the middle of my finger’s. I feel your pain sir. I feel enough pain for 10 men. And CONSTANTLY I DO NOT FEEL LIKE A MAN. I have lost all of my strength, and most of my genuine will power as well. If not for reading everyone else here’s stories I would have ended my life a year ago. Until then I didn’t think anyone in the whole f~~~ing world gave a s~~~ or understood my pain. My x-wife takes 50% of money before i even f~~~ing get it, I do not make enough to even pay my way, so yeah I get it brother, I understand the feeling you have deep inside. When I got here and found these other men, our band of brother’s if you will, I realized I am not alone in this f~~~ing boat with hole’s. My father is dead now, he dies February 8th 2007. But he was an abusive PIECE OF S~~~. He beat me senseless my entire child hood. I moved closer to my mother almost 2 years ago, because without her, I would be homeless, and she makes me feel like I wish I were homeless most days. Yet, after finding these other stories brother, hearing other men’s pains, I know I am no longer alone, I AM PART OF A GROWING DISCONNECTED PART OF SOCIETY. We have found each other here because we have been s~~~ on by the people who are supposed to love us the most. Our government has joined in on the fight against us, and we too feel like everyone is OUT TO GET US, but is simply is not true. There are those here that would talk to you at any time of day or night, would listen genuinely to your problems, or just listen and hear what you have too say, all we need from you is too speak to us, talk….it is the best medicine I can recommend. WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU! IT IS WHY WE ARE HERE NOW. So the floor is yours Batyote, just speak and we will listen. I personally have started playing guitar, and oil painting. I am not good at either yet, but I AM TRYING MY F~~~ING HARDEST to have a life of my own. You may not be into either of those thing’s, but there are enough of us here to find SOMETHING you would be interested in taking your MIND OFF this s~~~ path. So speak to us, we are here JUST FOR MEN LIKE YOU…To listen to, to grieve with, and to grab you by the f~~~ing short and curlies if we have to just to get you through a day at a time if we must. Speak and we will listen. It will all be okay in the end, just take it slow, some of us have to take each minute as it comes, but we can help, we just need you to tell us what you need.
Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....
Anonymous7Look brother,
8 years ago I almost did myself in.
Today? I’m happy.
Don’t think that just because you feel what you do today
that it will be like that forever. That is a lie you are believing that is not real and not even close to being true.To me it sounds like you’re on the wrong med. It takes time to get the right “formula” to allow you to dig yourself out of the hole you’re in. Back when I was suicidal, the medicine I was one was wrong for me and made me sleep a lot: Which only made my depression spiral down even farther.
Don’t be ashamed you need help with medicine. Depression is a medical issue like any other.
Don’t give up! Keep asking for the help you need until you get it!
Do that, and the world will turn.
i feel like i am a lose cause at this rate. i have tried to be strong and show that as a man. i can battle my demons but they seem to be winning at this point in my life sorry.
Batyote—-Brother, we have all been where you are. Every single man here has been to the edge and stared over that cliff. I struggle with getting out of bed every single f~~~ing day. I have 2 German Shepherd’s and if not for them I fear I may not have made it this far. Are you alone where you are? Do you have a pet? I strongly recommend a dog brother, as they are my sole reason for pushing on most days. As far as anti-depressant’s and alcohol, and the like, you are no where we all have not already been. S~~~, them s~~~ stain doctor’s had me 80mg a day of Percocet, and now I am addicted to Poppy seed tea in a horrible attempt to get off their f~~~ing drugs. My life is so f~~~ing difficult each and every day. I am in the middle of trying to come off the poppy tea’s and holy bats~~~ is it ever hard. Bad moods, temper tantrum’s, and most of all the fear of the pain. I have a disabling condition know as Ankylosing Spoindylitis. And I am in severe pain every second of every day. My back (where I have at the least 4 pinched nerve’s), My hips (no cartilage left and severe bone damage), same with my knee’s, my shoulders, and my hands swell so bad every morning my finger nails are breaking right down the middle of my finger’s. I feel your pain sir. I feel enough pain for 10 men. And CONSTANTLY I DO NOT FEEL LIKE A MAN. I have lost all of my strength, and most of my genuine will power as well. If not for reading everyone else here’s stories I would have ended my life a year ago. Until then I didn’t think anyone in the whole f~~~ing world gave a s~~~ or understood my pain. My x-wife takes 50% of money before i even f~~~ing get it, I do not make enough to even pay my way, so yeah I get it brother, I understand the feeling you have deep inside. When I got here and found these other men, our band of brother’s if you will, I realized I am not alone in this f~~~ing boat with hole’s. My father is dead now, he dies February 8th 2007. But he was an abusive PIECE OF S~~~. He beat me senseless my entire child hood. I moved closer to my mother almost 2 years ago, because without her, I would be homeless, and she makes me feel like I wish I were homeless most days. Yet, after finding these other stories brother, hearing other men’s pains, I know I am no longer alone, I AM PART OF A GROWING DISCONNECTED PART OF SOCIETY. We have found each other here because we have been s~~~ on by the people who are supposed to love us the most. Our government has joined in on the fight against us, and we too feel like everyone is OUT TO GET US, but is simply is not true. There are those here that would talk to you at any time of day or night, would listen genuinely to your problems, or just listen and hear what you have too say, all we need from you is too speak to us, talk….it is the best medicine I can recommend. WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU! IT IS WHY WE ARE HERE NOW. So the floor is yours Batyote, just speak and we will listen. I personally have started playing guitar, and oil painting. I am not good at either yet, but I AM TRYING MY F~~~ING HARDEST to have a life of my own. You may not be into either of those thing’s, but there are enough of us here to find SOMETHING you would be interested in taking your MIND OFF this s~~~ path. So speak to us, we are here JUST FOR MEN LIKE YOU…To listen to, to grieve with, and to grab you by the f~~~ing short and curlies if we have to just to get you through a day at a time if we must. Speak and we will listen. It will all be okay in the end, just take it slow, some of us have to take each minute as it comes, but we can help, we just need you to tell us what you need.
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This is what someone who is grieving sounds like. This is real depression to me. Notice his passion and how much heart and soul he poured into just a response. It probably took him a long time to write this and you can genuinely feel it comes from the heart…
This is the opposite of what the troll OP/female has written. There was no passion or soul in any of “her” posts, and that just screams fake to me. I strongly advise nobody keep attempting to help this person until we see a genuine post from her. Until then we must assume its just a fake troll account. Smells like tuna to anyone else?
sorry for not replying earlier guys. I got to 6.30am in the morning and i took the advice from a fellow mgtow of going to sleep.
i do understand that some of you think i am a troll or a woman, i dont blame you. if any of you have doubts about me being a man, i am happily enough to give out my facebook page, to any of you guys.
thank you for the all the advice guys. I will now spend the next hour going through it all, and hoping i can get something out of it.
I also know that mgtow is the best step forward for me at the moment. I just need to build myself back up again and enjoy life.
sorry if i worried any of you guys. i am very sorry
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