Almost went back to being blue pill.

[The_YoungParticipant 1073]

This morning my mindset was so far from MGTOW, I was ready to go completely back to blue pill. I had some serious oneitis for a girl I’ve been texting for the past day. Here’s how it went down..

I get a text from her out of the blue asking me to buy tickets to a “paint party”. I thought it was a virus text, so I asked about it but she confirmed that it was a real text. I recently bought something called Phenibut, which supposedly BLOCKS all forms of anxiety, without making you feel drowsy like alcohol does. I’ve been waiting for an opportunity to test it out, and thought this was the perfect opportunity. So I signed up. I mentioned in a recent post that I hate going to stuff like this, but I was more or less just curious to see how it could be different. /forums/topic/partying/

Later through texting, she tells me how I “made her christmas” last year. I played stupid, saying it was the mask/gift that I gave her that did it. I later saw she posted something on her facebook wall, “Your gift wasn’t the mask. It was you showing up.” For her to post it on the wall meant that I mean a lot to her, and its important to remember. This made me feel nice. I decided I’d call her out on it later.

So I take phenibut about six hours before, and go get a haircut. Man, I was a social butterfly. I was walking through the mall like I just didn’t give a f~~~ about anything. I was super friendly with my barber, and even talked to a few strangers. I bought some rave clothes, and knew I was super ready for this.

We eventually met up, and my Phenibut felt like it was beginning to wear off, but the fact was that I still felt a bit nervous around these new people. That stopped after a bit. I knew the Phenibut worked when I was able to walk into this club and not feel “nervous”. I just immediately started to dance, all night long. I was dancing up on the girl “accidentally”, because it was crowded. They would spray paint all over the entire crowd, and it was kinda fun for a while! But I eventually got split up, and was alone. I started to get in my head, and I was dancing just so I wouldn’t look like a loser. I wanted to leave. I found the girl again, and we were a bit more flirty. We grabbed each other, I put her up on my shoulders. We never kissed though. Outside when we left, she hugged me for warmth, and a guy called us a cute couple. She said we’re not a couple, and I said “Yes we are, you’re my future ex wife blah blah blah”. She didn’t say anything back to that. This is important to remember. The girl drove the group home after that and dropped me off.

I woke up in the morning, and the only thing I could think about was her. Her “caring attitude” and “perfect looks”. I just felt like s~~~ though because I didn’t get as far as I wanted to. I knew at some point I should have kissed her. Maybe I had lost my chance, and I would never be able to have her. I knew how f~~~ed up it was how I was feeling, I was getting obsessed. I tried watching some online MGTOW videos just so I could get at least a semblance of my normal red pill mentality.

She eventually responds to my texts, which goes something like this. At times she would take an hour to respond, and let me tell you it f~~~ing killed me waiting for the replies.

Me: “Yo, wicked crew! Had a ton of fun last night.”
Her: “Yea they are pretty awesome, thanks for coming :)”
Me: “Thanks for the invite! How is everybody?”
Her: “They are still passed out lol”
Me: “Not surprised, my mom literally barged into my room at 12”
Her: “Rotfl mine got me up at 1:30ish to style her hair lol”
Me: “Lol I swear you got like a mouthful of your hair when you started shaking it”
Her: “Haha most likely if you feel a slimey club up hair lol”
Me: “Mmmm tastes like the beer I should have poured all over you.”
Her: “Haha so mean! Well have a good day! You should add my brother on facebook, you guys seemed to hit it off.”
Me: “Lol tell him to add me as soon as he finds it. You too! We should hang next weekend.”
Her: “That would be cool. I am normally in [my personal hometown] with my boyfriend, same spot as when we went to yoga!

What. The. F~~~. How could she have not told me? All that flirting in the club. For f~~~ sakes, we’ve already kissed each other last christmas. Now you invite me out, and all of a sudden you are back with your ex? Whether she’s lying or telling the truth, I’m not dealing with this f~~~ing bulls~~~. Her facebook post obviously shows. She wanted to hop off her boyfriend and onto my dick. I’m not going to partake in the c~~~ carousel. F~~~ that s~~~. All this event did was embed the red pill even more. My emotions have been running wild all goddamn day (but thanks to MGTOW mentality, not do anything drastic..) but I’m feeling a bit better now. I really thought she was a NAWALT. She isn’t. She isn’t different.

Thanks for reading. You don’t have to respond, just felt like putting my thoughts somewhere I could write them down.

Brother, we need to stick together.

[Blue SkiesParticipant 15665]

dude.

control your hormones.
don’t go back to the blue pill slavery life.
its tempting, but don’t do it.

good luck.

MGTOW is not a movement, it is a way of life.

[The_YoungParticipant 1073]

dude.

control your hormones.

I’m really trying hard to. Some days its extremely difficult..

Brother, we need to stick together.

[RennieParticipant]

Blue pill thoughts troubling you? Whack and whack lots. Just don’t hurt yourself in the process.

[DarkThunder30Participant 201]

She is a massive waste of time and a tease cut all contact with her for your own good.

[The_YoungParticipant 1073]

Blue pill thoughts troubling you? Whack and whack lots.

Thought about this actually! I’m a bit too distressed/hungover today to do anything like that, let alone exercise. Tommorrow should be a better day.

Brother, we need to stick together.

[The_YoungParticipant 1073]

She is a massive waste of time and a tease cut all contact with her for your own good.

This is the most honorable thing I can do. And I’ll do it immediately.

Brother, we need to stick together.

[SlayherParticipant 2074]

If you want to take the blue pill, go ahead. I won’t judge you.

Just be prepared to end up black and blue emotionally, financially, and if you’re not careful, physically.

I agree with Rennie and Went Camping. Sound advice my friend. Good luck.

[The_YoungParticipant 1073]

Time to order a fleshlight dude.

I f~~~ing did it. When I first started hearing about it, all I could say was what the f~~~….but I just did it.

If you want to take the blue pill, go ahead. I won’t judge you.

Just be prepared to end up black and blue emotionally, financially, and if you’re not careful, physically.

I agree with Rennie and Went Camping. Sound advice my friend. Good luck.

I’m not taking it anymore. My emotions got the better of me. I’ll make sure I never let that happen again. All I wanted was to get some vagina, but I blew it way out of proportion, and the situation sorted itself out.

Brother, we need to stick together.

[Anonymous 18]

From time to time its important to go back near the plantation and see how its still a miserable f~~~ery at hands of women like that.

The fact that women like her end up used and abused by her choosing should not fade you my man. Work on yourself, pussy follows.

[experiencedParticipant]

The_Young wrote:

I get a text from her

out of the blue

asking me to buy tickets to a “paint party”. [she uses guys]

she tells me how I “made her christmas” last year.

It was you showing up.”

For her to post it on the wall meant that I mean a lot to her.

Outside when we left, she hugged me.

She said we’re not a couple, and I said “Yes we are, you’re my future ex wife blah blah blah”. [[PERFECT DUDE]]

At times she would take an hour to respond.

Her: “That would be cool. I am normally in [my personal hometown] with my boyfriend, same spot as when we went to yoga!

She’s a c~~~ teasing count.
Don’t beat yourself up, most of us here have been through a version of this.
Thanks for the post.

"It seems like there's times a body gets struck down so low, there ain't a power on earth that can ever bring him up again. Seems like something inside dies so he don't even want to get up again. But he does."

[SlayherParticipant 2074]

The_Young wrote:

I’m not taking it anymore. My emotions got the better of me. I’ll make sure I never let that happen again. All I wanted was to get some vagina, but I blew it way out of proportion, and the situation sorted itself out.

Completely understand. Been there myself. Stay safe.

[The_YoungParticipant 1073]

She’s a c~~~ teasing count.
Don’t beat yourself up, most of us here have been through a version of this.
Thanks for the post.

I like how you congratulated me on the “She’s my future ex wife” bit. If I was still in my PUA phase last year, I’d have felt pretty good about that.

On the bright side, at least for once I don’t regret any of my actions. Usually I make a complete ass of myself when I go to these places. Must have been the phenibut

Brother, we need to stick together.

[The_YoungParticipant 1073]

Thank you all for understanding. It actually kind of brings a tear to my eye. I feel really welcomed here.

Brother, we need to stick together.

[xlrsnbrgParticipant 1786]

Don’t take drugs before dating, not even light ones. Dating is dangerous for men now, drugs increase the risks.

A man shouldn't make his life's objective to be on the side of the majority, but to avoid finding himself in the ranks of the insane. (Marcus Aurelius)

[Silverstone the SecondParticipant]

This usually works for me…

Jerk off a few times before you meet her, completely drain yourself before hanging out. Then you realize how much sex plays a role in your attraction. Once you realize there’s little more than a pussy to offer then you realize how s~~~ty it is to deal with them. That’s usually their best and only quality because they usually aren’t funny, or intelligent, but are self centered and annoying. Like after sex, just ask yourself why you like her. Once the lust is gone, I usually lose all interest, and women know this, that’s why they c~~~ tease you, so that you chase them so much, and once you get the pussy you feel like you won something, even though that pussy is as good as it’s gonna get.

Feminism is a movement where opinions are presented as facts and emotions are presented as evidence.

[NerevarParticipant 8040]

Hang in there, brother, you’ll be fine.

"One of the best things internet exposed is just how insane women are." - Freeman_K

[bigboy83Participant 11312]

You actually believe her garbage? Control your lil head, next time. It always gets you in a mess.

When c~~~s say that too me, I just smirk. And that’s it.

Shit Tested, Cunt Approved.

[DanceMyOwnWayParticipant 2097]

It’s all a process. It’s not like you’re NEVER going to feel those blue pill moments. But I think we here are aware of hypergamy, female nature so we are NOT surprised when they act this way. It’s actually EXPECTED. Female attention and validation feels good but your own validation is what matters. Girls like that are ten a penny. Don’t give the bitch so much as a second thought man. She aint all that and certainly isn’t worth renting out any space in your head to!

If you fall down 7 times, get up 8

[StargazerParticipant 12505]

Girls just want attention. She needed some, sent out a broadcast to see who she could lure in and you took the bait.

It’s happened to all of us.

This is why whenever you get invited to “hang out” with a girl and her people, the first thing you do is go talk to some other girl who isn’t in the group. Then if she gets jealous enough, the girl that invited you may give you some play to rope you back into her orbit, or she may not… either way you go in expecting nothing and leave with your dignity and maybe some other girls’ numbers and some props from the group because you’re a player and not a playee.

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