I grew up reading and practicing to be a good man. LTRs that wasted my money and my time showed me the painful truth of what women really are. Being a white knight is never enough for them, they have to keep testing you and pushing your limits several times until you break. They keep demanding you become better and that you have to be able to understand them. I gave them my best, they showed me their worst. Did I deserve to be abused while giving them my all? I stood on the edge of insanity and depression until I decided I had enough. It is never a good trade with a woman. I buried the white knight in me when I had enough of the lies and cheating. I wasted too much of my time on them. It was not worth it. I am now on the path to rediscover myself. Just me, for me in this peaceful journey of life...