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I am very wary about introductions because of being vulnerable. Yes it is sad and also pathetic, but I never knew any better until now. I have been vulnerable all my life. The infliction of vulnerability was beaten into me from when I was a child. Not sure what that means for this intro but to be sure I am not mistaken and to be sure that no one misunderstands my introduction I will try to give as much detail as possible without skipping a beat. I will try to give context where I can and to give details where I can. Why am I like this and why I am so angry?
At age 5 my mother thought I was the cutest thing ever. She never thought less of me until I started elementary school. That’s when trouble started for me during kindergarten, because I knew something was wrong very wrong. I still remember vividly my elementary school teacher telling us that she was moving. Exactly where I do not remember, and all I know was that every girl in the class was crying. The boys. Well we just started coloring our papers and handing them in with goodbye notes. That was the only memory I had of elementary school everything else is a blur. That teacher was the only teacher I really loved, because that day when crying she held me and told me with a stern face while sitting in her lap, “Your going to grow strong and stop the crying.”My mother was never a really good woman her history very stark and bleek. Before she had me out of wedlock, she was slated to get married, and its only now that I realized why she was so brutal with me when I was kid. She found out that her future husband had an affair and got some woman pregnant. So automatically as soon as I was born (from another father who I will talk more about soon) because she was single and poor and it was my fault. Every single day this woman would be so angry the walls would shake to a boiling point. I hated going home so much that it made want to kill her. It is only now that I realize why she was so angry after so many years. She caused me to be afraid of myself and other people by instilling fear into me as a young child. I remember one day the bitch held a knife to my eye. She threatened to gauge it out because I talked too much.
That day the Nanny over heard me talking about her getting fired (which my mother decided for some reason to tell me). The Nanny left the same day that I talked and that same day she begged my mother not to let her go, and of course like women all do to well she told her that she heard me talking about it. The bitch (Mom) was so mad and p~~~ed and absolutely raging I don’t think I will ever see her that angry again. Forever more I have just decided to cut contact with my mother permanently. I am now reconnecting with my Father who lives close by. Maybe not in the future but right now as of this minute I am still seething with anger over my overbearing and unreasonable childhood.The only good thing that came out of this was the fact that by the age of 15 I was out of my mother’s sight and into my Father’s house but that too is another story for another time. I lived with my Father for 8 years all on bad terms. He kept saying that my mother messed me up. For sure she did f~~~ me up, and now I feel like the only payment I can give my father is to reconnect, and leave the bitch by herself. I am not sure what it is about me but ever since I came to the United States and till this day have not been in a legitimate relationship except for a long distance one. I have been always able to spot the f~~~ing bulls~~~ that women would try to dish out. Now I am even more brazen enough to tell them to SHUT THE F~~~ UP!!!!!!!!
My middle finger as I said before is doing work. Because I don’t give ONE F~~~ what anyone say’s about my beliefs. They would have to shoot me f~~~ing dead before I change them. LINE ME THE F~~~ UP ON A WALL AND PULL THE TRIGGER, BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER TAKE AWAY THE FACT THAT I AM A MAN WITH INSTINCT’S WHEN INSTINCTS KICK IN ALL OBSTACLES GET THE F~~~ OUT OF MY WAY!!!!
Today I am a F~~~ING WOLF !!!!Not sure if this was warranted but I am in seething Red Pill Rage that can only go so far. If you wanna hear more feel free ask or reply with your own family story.
Society live's as if we have reached the pinnacle of human potential. Technological Advancement and Innovation, intellectualism, critical thinking is substituted for useless innovations, nasty narcissistic games, tyrannical laws that destroy the very foundation of family, and the world as we know it.
Digested – The red pill rage is a natural transition period. Don’t fight it, but try to channel it to something productive.
The best advice that I can give is to seek qualified counseling. A PhD, LCSW, or LSW may suffice. Choose a man. I tried a female counselor years ago and it was like trying to explain to the moon what it was like being Planet Earth. Also, don’t be surprised if you encounter gynocentric male counselors. Don’t be afraid to fire him.
I encourage this because homicidal ideation, while a valid response to your experience, may also translate to your everyday life. People snap and the next thing you know your are doing 25 to life and have no real memory of what transpired. Your experiences, in all likelihood, have translated in to a case of post traumatic stress. This is a very real condition. PTSD had been diagnosed in those that have been raised in abusive households. Do not take this possibility lightly.
BTW. Not lumping you in to this category – most of the violent offenders in the prison system were raised by single women. This factual statistic is a key indicator that of any demographic in the world, women should be closely supervised. Especially when raising children. Especially if they are single mothers.
I was also raised in an abusive household. Violence, degradation, gamesmanship. These were the rule and not the exception. It took me several years to process. In the end, these were acts of betrayal from those that should have protected and raised me to be a man. The latter I did on my own.
You seem angry and ready to fight the good fight. (DUH) Having experienced this myself, I have to strongly recommend that when your rage passes, you seek peace and prosperity. Explore your abilities and ambitions. And continue to trust your inner voice and instincts. I ignored mine and wound up in a awful marriage.
“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.”
I also think that this applies
Desiderata
Max Ehrmann, writer and lawyer (1872-1945)Go placidly amid the noise and the haste and rememeber what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly. And listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, for they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggresive persons, for they are vexatious to the spirit. Never compare yourself with others. You may become vain or bitter, for there will be always greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements, as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble. It is a real possesion in the changing fortunes of life. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is. Many people strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love. For in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings, for many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. You have a right to be there. And whether or not it is clear to you, the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be. And whatever your labours and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
"I asked you a question. I didn't ask you to repeat what the voices in you head are telling you" ~ Me. ........Yes I'm still angry.
welcome to the club, Wolf Primer
my advice is read stories from other introductions on mgtow.com.This is much cheaper than hiring a white knight Ph.d counselor
MGTOW is not a movement, it is a way of life.
Digested – The red pill rage is a natural transition period. Don’t fight it, but try to channel it to something productive.
The best advice that I can give is to seek qualified counseling. A PhD, LCSW, or LSW may suffice. Choose a man. I tried a female counselor years ago and it was like trying to explain to the moon what it was like being Planet Earth. Also, don’t be surprised if you encounter gynocentric male counselors. Don’t be afraid to fire him.
I encourage this because homicidal ideation, while a valid response to your experience, may also translate to your everyday life. People snap and the next thing you know your are doing 25 to life and have no real memory of what transpired. Your experiences, in all likelihood, have translated in to a case of post traumatic stress. This is a very real condition. PTSD had been diagnosed in those that have been raised in abusive households. Do not take this possibility lightly.
BTW. Not lumping you in to this category – most of the violent offenders in the prison system were raised by single women. This factual statistic is a key indicator that of any demographic in the world, women should be closely supervised. Especially when raising children. Especially if they are single mothers.
I was also raised in an abusive household. Violence, degradation, gamesmanship. These were the rule and not the exception. It took me several years to process. In the end, these were acts of betrayal from those that should have protected and raised me to be a man. The latter I did on my own.
You seem angry and ready to fight the good fight. (DUH) Having experienced this myself, I have to strongly recommend that when your rage passes, you seek peace and prosperity. Explore your abilities and ambitions. And continue to trust your inner voice and instincts. I ignored mine and wound up in a awful marriage.
“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.”
I also think that this applies
Desiderata
Max Ehrmann, writer and lawyer (1872-1945)Go placidly amid the noise and the haste and rememeber what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly. And listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, for they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggresive persons, for they are vexatious to the spirit. Never compare yourself with others. You may become vain or bitter, for there will be always greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements, as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble. It is a real possesion in the changing fortunes of life. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is. Many people strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love. For in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings, for many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. You have a right to be there. And whether or not it is clear to you, the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be. And whatever your labours and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Not in the least Homicidal but in Rage at the massive betrayal from women. I do find solace when riding my bike to work 8 miles everyday. It calms my nerves. I am way too goal oriented right now to even let things get even more crazier than it is right now. To be honest I have just had enough of the bulls~~~. Yes my anger is very wild and unchanneled right now. But my complete focus is to start repairing right now.
Society live's as if we have reached the pinnacle of human potential. Technological Advancement and Innovation, intellectualism, critical thinking is substituted for useless innovations, nasty narcissistic games, tyrannical laws that destroy the very foundation of family, and the world as we know it.
Anonymous42TheDigestedRedPill. The temperature just went up 10 degrees! Good rant! It’s GOOD to blow off some justified STEAM! Otherwise things could go critical!
TDRP, you got hit full force by the truck of sexual revolution! You’re in the right place! Between the lot of us, we have the necessary materials and combined knowledge to rewire your head! We have mental solder, spools of thinking cable, and every kind of mental connector imaginable!
You’re among friends here, we’re willing to assist you in anything red pill RAGE throws at you!
Welcome to the finest assembly of men ever to gather in one place….. Welcome to MGTOW!Welcome! We are here to help if needed. Better than any overpriced shrink too – free and 24/7 – not to mention the wisdom of 1000,s of men. Peace, brother.
Digested – The red pill rage is a natural transition period. Don’t fight it, but try to channel it to something productive…
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Desiderata
Max Ehrmann, writer and lawyer (1872-1945)Go placidly amid the noise and the haste and rememeber what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly. And listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, for they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggresive persons, for they are vexatious to the spirit. Never compare yourself with others. You may become vain or bitter, for there will be always greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements, as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble. It is a real possesion in the changing fortunes of life. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is. Many people strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love. For in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings, for many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. You have a right to be there. And whether or not it is clear to you, the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be. And whatever your labours and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
A quite sublime post Soldier-Medic. I’m going to keep that poem on my desktop.
Welcome Digested, I’m so sorry to hear what you’ve had to endure but you sound like you’re made of pretty stern stuff so I have no doubt that you will prevail and conquer. You’re certainly in good company on MGTOW and I’m sure you’ll find many brothers here who can relate to your experiences and provide you with any support and advice you might care to seek. 🙂
Thank you guys I really appreciate it. Right now hanging with the Pops he is 81 years old and sure enough I am spending every waking minute soaking up his presence. I find peace when I close my eyes. But know this the Rage does end and it will end. I am on good terms with most men and women. But I do keep my distance from women. I am joining a Gym next week after my Full time Employment kicks in. I am also planning on joining a soccer team to get back in shape. Yes Soccer is the sport I love from a child. Cycling is one my best assets right now it keeps me at ease and calms the nerves. I planning on getting some help as soon I can.
Society live's as if we have reached the pinnacle of human potential. Technological Advancement and Innovation, intellectualism, critical thinking is substituted for useless innovations, nasty narcissistic games, tyrannical laws that destroy the very foundation of family, and the world as we know it.
Not in the least Homicidal but in Rage at the massive betrayal from women. I do find solace when riding my bike to work 8 miles everyday. It calms my nerves. I am way too goal oriented right now to even let things get even more crazier than it is right now. To be honest I have just had enough of the bulls~~~. Yes my anger is very wild and unchanneled right now. But my complete focus is to start repairing right now.
That is a great thing to do, TDRP. Don’t fool yourself and concentrate your efforts at building your Self up. Let the Red-Pill Rage do its effect for however long you deem necessary but as Doc said, try to channel it. I can’t much give you advice about the Rage. I made it part of myself and welcomed it when I woke from my Bluepilled delusion. I’m in constant rage, it just boils way deep like in the lava chamber of a volcano.
Things may be rocky for you but you have a Forum full of guys who get it and you’ll find great advice here to help you along your way.
Welcome to MGTOW, mate.Don't let them Blame, Shame or Tame you!
Give 'em NOTHING, not even an answer!
#GenderSegragationNow!Untamed I feel you on that one. I am not gonna deceive myself but sometimes I wish the Rage would just go away, but deep down I know its still there. Trust me dude I know its still there. Not sure how long its going to last but I do know this. I am not gonna let it consume anymore than it has already at some point there will be balance and peace.
Society live's as if we have reached the pinnacle of human potential. Technological Advancement and Innovation, intellectualism, critical thinking is substituted for useless innovations, nasty narcissistic games, tyrannical laws that destroy the very foundation of family, and the world as we know it.
Untamed I feel you on that one. I am not gonna deceive myself but sometimes I wish the Rage would just go away, but deep down I know its still there. Trust me dude I know its still there. Not sure how long its going to last but I do know this. I am not gonna let it consume anymore than it has already at some point there will be balance and peace.
Been living with it for a long time. It’s there when I wake and it is my bed-time story. I’ve rebuilt myself and been on my own way alright, I ignore weemins as much as I can and I have the patience of an elephant yet I will not be told anyf~~~ingthing by a t~~~. Period.
Don't let them Blame, Shame or Tame you!
Give 'em NOTHING, not even an answer!
#GenderSegragationNow!Hey TDRP – first off welcome & appreciate your honesty in the intro. That sounds like a rough road man.
I am not gonna deceive myself but sometimes I wish the Rage would just go away, but deep down I know its still there. Trust me dude I know its still there.
You have every reason to be angry; completely justified. I echo what a couple of the other guys said about trying to channel it into something positive, and you’ve already hit on my recommendation to join a gym. Lift heavy man – it’s the best way, at least for me, to work out rage & stress. A godsend, really. (If you’re not familiar with lifting programs, i’d recommend reading up on StrongLifts 5×5 – great beginner program).
One other recommendation if you haven’t already. Look in to a group called ASCA – Adult Survivors of Child Abuse. It helped me, knowing i wasn’t the only one dealing with a s~~~ty childhood.
Regardless of the rest, i’m glad you found our corner of the world. There are good men here – perhaps the last place in the world where we can celebrate that.
I will take those recommendations to heart man thanks MattNYC
Society live's as if we have reached the pinnacle of human potential. Technological Advancement and Innovation, intellectualism, critical thinking is substituted for useless innovations, nasty narcissistic games, tyrannical laws that destroy the very foundation of family, and the world as we know it.
Anonymous0Welcome Brother,
You are in the right place. Reading the experiences of other men was better at helping me make sense of my situation than talking with some simp with a degree. Your rage is part of you. It will be there forever. Would it be possible to let that rage be your motivator to success. By that I mean this. When I left my first wife, I was angry and I used that anger to lose 75 pounds because it p~~~ed her off that I had SMV (sexual market value) that she did not. Sometimes living well and succeeding is the best revenge. Read. Post. Learn. There are those here who will help.- AuthorPosts
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