When Did You Hit Blue Pill Bottom?

[CarnageParticipant 22113]

Hanging from a rope.

Pulled up and out somehow, I know, impossible right?

Somehow got enough strength to pull up, and support my feet on the border of a wall, dizzy, coughing, tongue bleeding, neck burning from the bruises, 31 years old stupid me and why?

Why did I did this?
Why did I put up with 14 years of bulls~~~?
Why did I did many things in life?
Why do I even care?

That was redpill bottom, i died that day, December 7 2015.

But what came out of that, is a beautiful, evil, no f~~~s given machine.

To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.

[SamsquanchParticipant 4226]

Hit it with the last serious relationship.

On again/ off again type of relationship. We didn’t talk for a week or so, and decided that we should meet a person to see what else is out there, to see if we still wanted to continue.

The other chick I met was a dud.

The ex, met some guy from match I think. Went out with him and his friends on a Wednesday. I texted her around 8pm, no response. 9pm, no response, 10pm, no response, and it went on like that until about 3am. Even rode over to her apartment and knocked on the door. I didn’t know if she was ok or not, my blue pilled self didn’t even think about her f~~~ing the other guy.

Anyway, she finally called the next morning, hungover at work, said she got drunk and passed out on his couch.

“Ok honey, are you ok?” I said

I feel like banging my head on the table after typing this all out.

Societal pressure got to me. My friends were married, cousins, siblings, all married and starting families. I thought the ex’s bulls~~~ was something I HAD to take, since everyone else seemed to be doing fine.

F~~~ that noise

[OldschoolParticipant 2481]

Carnage wrote:

Somehow got enough strength to pull up, and support my feet on the border of a wall, dizzy, coughing, tongue bleeding, neck burning from the bruises, 31 years old stupid me and why?

F~~~, you are lucky.

Get a vasectomy.

[OldBillParticipant]

Mine was more of a tipping point than a sudden shock and, as such, was something I discerned more in hindsight than something I immediately recognized.

Thanks to a hectic business travel schedule and my own naivety, a woman I dated for a few months was able to successfully lie to me about being single and childless when she was actually married and a mother. I dated for her slightly over 4 months which, thanks to my schedule, really amounted to us seeing each other over 6 or 7 weekends. (This was the early 90s so no internet, email, mobiles, etc.)

When the scales finally fell from my eyes I was so disgusted with both her behavior and my own idiocy that I purposely didn’t date for several months. Years later, I realized that since that incident I hadn’t dated any other woman for anywhere near the amount of time I’d dated her.

That lying, cheating, married, mother marked the point where I began dating less often and for shorter periods of time until my need to date thankfully withered away. It was the tipping point.

Do not date. Do not impregnate. Do not co-habitate. Above all, do not marry. Reclaim and never again surrender your personal sovereignty.

[Won'tGetFooledAgainParticipant 3293]

After finding out my ex wife was having an affair with a guy she reconnected with after going to a school reunion.

Waking up the day after she told me she was staying at her mums, after driving there and finding out she wasn’t there. Feeling like I was having a heart attack the whole night in bed on my own, before sleeping for 30 minutes at 5am and waking up again. The couple of seconds after waking up and thinking it was a dream before the reality hit me.

But I still had further to go, finding myself googling Beach Head (a famous UK suicide spot) and thinking about driving there and having a walk around. I am too much of a coward to do anything, but I was drawn to go there.

4 years on I am better than ever and can’t believe I let a piece of pussy affect me so much I thought about killing myself.

For women, everything eventually boils down to Alpha Fucks, Beta Bucks.

[GeraldParticipant 3631]

Samsquanch wrote:

Hit it with the last serious relationship.

On again/ off again type of relationship. We didn’t talk for a week or so, and decided that we should meet a person to see what else is out there, to see if we still wanted to continue.

The other chick I met was a dud.

The ex, met some guy from match I think. Went out with him and his friends on a Wednesday. I texted her around 8pm, no response. 9pm, no response, 10pm, no response, and it went on like that until about 3am. Even rode over to her apartment and knocked on the door. I didn’t know if she was ok or not, my blue pilled self didn’t even think about her f~~~ing the other guy.

Anyway, she finally called the next morning, hungover at work, said she got drunk and passed out on his couch.

“Ok honey, are you ok?” I said

I feel like banging my head on the table after typing this all out.

THIS IS SOMETHING EVERY LURKER SHOULD READ. This is where many of us were in Blue Pill Hell at one time or another. Can’t see the forest for the trees. Worried about someone who has us on ‘hold’ in case they find someone else…

Thank you for sharing and thank god you woke up.

No longer can we walk away, we must run. Remove the motive power.

[ZarathustraParticipant 2246]

I thought I had bad experiences with women. Jeez guys…

[GeraldParticipant 3631]

Won'tGetFooledAgain wrote:

I am better than ever and can’t believe I let a piece of pussy affect me so much I thought about killing myself.

With the stories of you guys here who were suicidal and those of us who have been there or close to there feeling the echos… thank you all for sharing and also thank you all for hanging around to help us men who need it. We appreciate you.

No longer can we walk away, we must run. Remove the motive power.

[Won'tGetFooledAgainParticipant 3293]

Gerald wrote:

Won’tGetFooledAgain wrote:

I am better than ever and can’t believe I let a piece of pussy affect me so much I thought about killing myself.

With the stories of you guys here who were suicidal and those of us who have been there or close to there feeling the echos… thank you all for sharing and also thank you all for hanging around to help us men who need it. We appreciate you.

If I can stop even one brother doing something stupid then everything I went with was worth something.

And if any of you are going through this right now and having dark thoughts, trust me in a few years time you will look back and wonder what on earth was I thinking.

Don’t do it, she is one of a million, not one in a million. She replaced you without a second thought, don’t give her the satisfaction of even giving a f~~~.

For women, everything eventually boils down to Alpha Fucks, Beta Bucks.

[Anonymous 12]

When my live-in girlfriend wanted to store her Bike in my living room, she had essentially taken over the entire apartment.
Didnt pay s~~~, wasted her own money on bling and pushed me to the edge of knocking her the f~~~ out.

Broke down in tears and called for female backup to help me figure out what the f~~~ was going on.

That was the lowest blue pill moment i remember.
goddamn am i happy those days are over.

[HermitParticipant]

Anonymous wrote:

Working UNTIL I F~~~ING DIE.

No life or ease to look forward to.

Listen one more time,

WORKING UNTIL I F~~~ING DIE.

And I’m lucky, many have it MUCH worse.

Still want to marry?

THEN DIE.

That’s one thing you and I have in common, working till we die. I don’t like it, but when you say, “no life or ease to look forward to”, I can’t accept that. I know it’d be great to look forward to retiring and not have to work you entire life, but since I know I won’t be able to retire, I’m making my life good and I think I got it pretty easy even though I don’t make a lot of money. I’m going to enjoy my life.

I don’t know how much money you make or if you have to struggle to pay bills, but there’s gotta’ be a way you can still enjoy your life.

The evil in women’s hearts leaves them no moral bounds as to inhibit them from descending to the lowest levels of darkness to acquire their self entitled desires.

[HermitParticipant]

My entire life has been “blue pill bottom”. There is no one defining moment where it was the worst. For me, you’re either in blue pill hell, or in red pill paradise. I guess the very absolute bottom was getting married and being miserable for over two decades of my life. Seems like such a waste. At one point, feeling so bad and so trapped, putting a loaded .357 magnum up to my head and c~~~ing the hammer back, wondering what she would think when she came into the room seeing me dead on the couch……………ok, yeah, that sounds like maybe it was the bottom………

The evil in women’s hearts leaves them no moral bounds as to inhibit them from descending to the lowest levels of darkness to acquire their self entitled desires.

[ViciouscunningtreacherousParticipant 823]

When I was hounded and goaded and harrased so badly by my ex that I threw over the couch to shut her up. She wasn’t hurt ,but it shocked the hell out of me that I could be reduced to that level. I suddenly realised I couldn’t recognize myself anymore. She controlled the money because I allowed her to, so she immediately put a fraud alert on my credit cards. I spent the night in my shop sleeping in the bed of a customers pick up. I cried and heaved so badly that I lost my voice and my eyes swelled almost shut. The only reason that I didn’t kill myself was to live to fight her and crush her. Not even my Christian faith would have prevented suicide at that point. The pain became vicious angry vengeance. It was the only thing that motivated me. Then one day, my friend said that the flip side of love was hate. That’s when it hit me. I still loved this horrid shrew of an amoeba. I still wanted her to love me. That was my lowest blue moment. Then! I went and did it again with another c~~~ because I was so desperate for love. Dated for a month and she wanted to move in. I couldn’t help my response. I got incensed and told her to get the f~~~ out of my house. Awalt. I still struggle with my needs. I suspect I always will. However, I can never go back to the plantation.

For in much wisdom is much grief, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow.

[SamsquanchParticipant 4226]

Gerald wrote:

Samsquanch wrote:

Hit it with the last serious relationship.

On again/ off again type of relationship. We didn’t talk for a week or so, and decided that we should meet a person to see what else is out there, to see if we still wanted to continue.

The other chick I met was a dud.

The ex, met some guy from match I think. Went out with him and his friends on a Wednesday. I texted her around 8pm, no response. 9pm, no response, 10pm, no response, and it went on like that until about 3am. Even rode over to her apartment and knocked on the door. I didn’t know if she was ok or not, my blue pilled self didn’t even think about her f~~~ing the other guy.

Anyway, she finally called the next morning, hungover at work, said she got drunk and passed out on his couch.

“Ok honey, are you ok?” I said

I feel like banging my head on the table after typing this all out.

THIS IS SOMETHING EVERY LURKER SHOULD READ. This is where many of us were in Blue Pill Hell at one time or another. Can’t see the forest for the trees. Worried about someone who has us on ‘hold’ in case they find someone else…

Thank you for sharing and thank god you woke up.

Of course, I’m happy to share any/all of my embarrassing stories as long as another man can read them and learn from my dumb mistakes. I wasn’t nearly as low as some of you guys were, but they’ve caused me to get angry, be suicidal and all that crap too.

By myself or around friends/family, I’m a very easy going person. But when a woman is involved in my life, I can turn into an entirely different person.

Another reason I avoid them now, is because I honestly don’t know if I’ll be able to restrain myself when they start up with their usual bulls~~~.

I got fired from a job one time because I was dealing with bulls~~~ with an ex. A bus boy made some snide remark about me, didn’t know that I was in ear-shot. He went out back to smoke and I beat the p~~~ out of him. Lucky I didn’t get an assault charge. I take 100% responsibility and felt awful after I did it. Never would have happened if that dumb c~~~ never entered my life.

[NerdTunnelerParticipant]

When I had a mild heart attack and ex wont come to the ER with me. She could drop everything else for others except for me. I have to seek aid from a fellow employee because she was tired after being on a mini vacation that she did not tell me about…and somehow I was the one asking an apology for disturbing her…I was an idiot….

I think back at the marriage vows and the ex seems to have heard only the part regarding, better, richness and health…Perhaps she thinks she should have those and I get the worse, poorer and sickness part instead of being partners and sharing life through it all….

I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...

[Anonymous 54]

Too many to pic one.
My problem is my never give up attitude.
For me, life is about getting back up.
Thats me.
I will keep doing this till I get it right!!!

Problem is, there is no” right”

Always get back up.

But just know when its a looseing cause, and try something else.

[Anonymous 54]

NerdTunneler wrote:

When I had a mild heart attack and ex wont come to the ER with me.

Jeezsss…
If my wife, (no matter how nasty shes been) went to the ER. I would be there.

This IS NOT UNCOMMEN!!!!

A life time of hard work and careing, only to be nagged into a heart attact, only to be in the ER alone.

This is what awaits you young lovers in love!

[Anonymous 12]

Viciouscunningtreacherous wrote:

it shocked the hell out of me that I could be reduced to that level. I suddenly realised I couldn’t recognize myself anymore. She controlled the money because I allowed her to, so she immediately put a fraud alert on my credit cards. I spent the night in my shop sleeping in the bed of a customers pick up. I cried and heaved so badly that I lost my voice and my eyes swelled almost shut.

Thank you for those words.
It was the possibility of Violence against a Woman, the shock that comes when a Blue pill Man discovers his inner Beast, and the confusion this creates that shocked me too.
I had suffered at the hands of a violent stepbrother before, and at that fateful day i was at the point of becoming like him.

Violence is not the answer, though we might think that our opponent deserves it.
Violence is a form of giving a s~~~, is a form of pouring (negative) energy into someone.
That is the reason why Violence is not the answer ; they do NOT deserve it.
Not to speak about the Cops, Jail and Judges and more Jail.

On that fateful day, i avoided ruining my life, and have found a setup that suits me much better.

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