We Must Fight; to run away

[OasidParticipant 116]

Hi all,

Having a moment here so please forgive the title. I’ve had quite the rollercoaster ride from thinking of myself as a total loser based on my history  and posting it, to posting my desire to get a f~~~ doll (recent post). Not the most boastful things in life to go through but I’ve actually found some kind of inner peace in posting all that here on this site. I’ve gone through my entire “loser” history in my introduction and well beyond recently. Gosh thank goodness no one knows its me 🙂

I wish I was a guy that women slept with, and when I’m in society….I pretend to be that guy. My real hard core knitty gritty thought process is quite the opposite though. I have little feelings for the women I meet, the rare ones I do ask out I get flaked out on at the last minute. Which, sadly, I’m not surprised by anymore. Depressingly, I know my worth to them.

Where do I go from here? Inwards. Meditation should be key. I’m alive, and I’m aware. Despite what Disney told me, Happiness does not relay on a princess to think I’m neat. Sure, I may buy an attractive f~~~ doll, but if that leads me towards wanting less from anything outside myself, what’s the shame? I welcome all thoughts on this.

Thanks for reading,

May the Force Be With You

[Gomez da SolParticipant 12]

Nah, don’t get a f~~~doll; think of the iconography. With masturbation you are fantasising, but with a f~~~doll you are substituting a woman with a doll.

I’d consider why you are window-shopping for dolls. The need to relieve sexual energy is a personal human need. Meeting that sexual release with a women satisfies the release of sexual energy, the desire to pass on your genes, and a societal need for humans to repopulate: It’s this last one that needs examining. The need for specifically ‘a woman’ is a societal need, a learned behaviour, designed to keep the population up. I recon a f~~~doll satisfies this artificially induced need, because then you’ve got a woman (sorta) and so ticked another good citizen box (sorta).

Instead, maybe the meditation you mentioned is good. It would be a powerful tool to reach a point where sexual energy could be wielded as a reward mechanism. Throwing yourself into whatever pursuit and using sexual release as a reward is basically no different in affect to the work you might otherwise be doing for a woman to achieve the same release.

I know I’m in danger of overstaying my welcome with this reply, but hear me out. This business of BEING a loser is really dangerous. Accepting an identity of this or any kind is like a ball-and-chain around your legs. Like yer man said, it’s a jungle out there, and being a loser is to be at peace with constant free-fall in the pecking order. The people most likely to peck down are those only marginally above you, so focus on ousting them rather than trying to meet their favour because they will never willingly give up their higher position. You will also be challenged from below and need to peck down at challengers. All this social climbing bulls~~~ is a substitute for pointy sticks, so at least no physical harm comes of it, but basically it’s the same in my view. Battles are mental, your persona is your sword, and your facade is your shield. What part of your self you keep beneath is private, but I feel it would help if you aren’t trying to ‘stab’ the world with your ladies-man persona and protect yourself with your losers’ shield. Change it up. Stab the world with your low expectations of others, and shield yourself with your resilience to their games.

 

Just my thoughts..

[felixParticipant 406]

Gomez da Sol wrote:

don’t get a f~~~doll

To me, getting a f~~~ doll would have a serious downside if other people found out about it.

more throttle ..... less brakes.....

[FrankyParticipant 2338]

You’re feeling exactly how women want you to feel without them. Now think for a moment, is it natural or is it the cause of endless shame bombardment by t~~~s and media?

I pretend to be this quiet awkward guy wherever i go just so that people mistake me for a blue pill man.That’s by far the easiest way to go under everyone’s radar.

By the way once you have sex a a few times you’ll realize it’s nothing close to the “super ultimate angelic experience” everyone’s describing it to be.

[kizellParticipant 368]

First of all, being a “loser” is a worldly categorization.   It’s a part of societal conditioning.   If you feel you are not a loser, then you simply are not.  F~~~ the world.

Secondly,  stop thinking in terms of success and women.   Women want all men to feel inadequate for rejecting them for all their schemes.

You were lied to, as we all were.

[WolfParticipant 890]

Oasid wrote:

Where do I go from here? Inwards. Meditation should be key. I’m alive, and I’m aware.

Meditation sounds like a great idea. You also need to look after yourself, which includes healthy living. Eat right, exercise, be active, do things you enjoy and live life. Make your passions a reality. Stay away from alcohol and other drugs that people use as an escape. If you think that you may be suffering from depression, seek professional help.

[Just a ManParticipant 934]

Why are some of your posts already showing I gave a thumbs up when I just got here and gave NO thumbs up? Is it broken?

Philosophy, the female repellent

[LupusParticipant 214]

Let go of this shame mate, shame is what others want you to feel.

Do you or do you not live your life for yourself?

You owe others no explanation or rationalization for what you want to do, provided it hurts nobody else of course.

(feelings not included)

 

Do what you feel like, the only thing stopping you, is you.

[OasidParticipant 116]

Its been a week. I’ve been dealing with the anxiety so well that my heart stopped palpitating.

Went out to the bar tonight and a girl I like from work was there. I asked if I could share a ride but they left without me…I asked if I could finish my smoke before I  got in their car, but they took off on my third drag with me hanging off the car…  quite the embarrassing moment with a white knight at wheel. Guaranteed , that because he was a giant douche bag  to me and left me in the dust he bagged the chick I like….

I told my folks about the sex doll I ordered.No more embarrassment there.  Straight up told my parents that  I am a big loser who has no choice but a sex doll. They are okay with it which is nice because I wont have to go through great lengths to  hide it. They watch HBO so they said it’s nothing new.

Still…wish I coulda hung with the party and spent time with the girl I liked.

May the Force Be With You

[RedDawnParticipant 1391]

Shame is a bulls~~~ emotion. It’s shame that makes people think they need to be the perfect parent, partner, employee or citizen. The reality is if you base your decisions off of shame and not logical thought then you become the parent with the spoilt child or partner because your shame led you to not discipline them when it was required.

Shame is used by societies to make individuals feel bad and conform. If everyone was happy to accept others for what they are then shame would cease to exist.

 

Courage is the key to life itself - Morgan Freeman

[sidecarParticipant 35837]

Oasid wrote:

which is nice because I wont have to go through great lengths to hide it.

Hell, why not use it to drive in the carpool lane?

I can’t be the only one thinking this.

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