waking up screaming

[Anonymous 43]

I hope you brothers got a good night’s sleep.

the nightmare was the c~~~ imagined that I did something to her, and I can’t afford my lawyer, who would normally alert me to her allegations. in the dream she went to court to complain a week ago, and I wasn’t there and I had a warrant for my arrest. 20 SWAT Troopers kicked in my door and found me sleeping and they shot and bayonetted me thinking I was resisting the c~~~ followed them in and shot me in the head before I bled out. She congratulated all the men and the men carried all my belongings to a pawn shop and gave the c~~~ the money, $120. She took my car and gave it to my daughter, telling her that Daddy wanted you to have this.

Great way to start the day. Wrapped up entangled in bed covers on the floor = body bag

This is a recurring nightmare, and I check the county clerk’s website for the court schedule every Friday to see if she is on the docket.

ok im up now, time to go grocery shopping. maybe someday I can afford therapy for ptsd or a pill to make me forget,

Have a better morning than I am having.

Why check on Friday? Every motion she filed started on Friday. The lawyer would be notified Friday afternoon, and then call me so I would have to be stressed out about it all weekend, I’d meet the lawyer on Monday in court or at his office maybe court on Tuesday or Monday. Another trick women do t men in court.

[bstoffParticipant 4865]

If the courts weren’t so biased against men, you might have a case against your ex for harassment, etc., if she is having this effect on you?

[Anonymous 1]

Anything related to Courts is a nightmare. The few times I’ve been there, I knew right away, the Judge is looking for any little excuse to lock you up. They make their living off locking you up.

The Lawyers, who supposedly represent you are out playing golf with the prosecutor and Judge on the weekends. They all work together to figure out how to lock you up for the longest sentence possible.

My defense lawyer flipped to the other side and asked for the maximum sentence declaring me to be “very guilty.” This was minutes after shaking my hand promising that I’d walk. Lol.

Never Trust a Lawyer!!!

[CarnageParticipant 22113]

Today I celebrate 2 years of freedom.

I slept like a baby with a smile on my face.

The first year I also had nightmares.

But is been like six months I don’t have them, I know that thing is far away from me, we are already totally divorced, I live far away, all my keys, passwords, everything is new.

Im safe from that monster.

Give it Time it will pass and when your little hell spawn is 18 you will be free.

To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.

[Anonymous 42]

Anonymous wrote:

maybe someday I can afford therapy for ptsd or a pill to make me forget,

Keep telling your stories men! Our collective mindset formed by gynocentrism, feminism, and the evil overlord system created through woman’s liberation is being exposed in detail to the masses of men that have not gained the wisdom and understanding of how much this system is hell bent on our destruction!

Hey May, it’s not a pill and it’s all natural; smoke some Power Diesel or White Widow before bed to make the nightmares go away or at least not so prevalent!

MARRIAGE AND MODERN WOMEN ARE TOXIC IN EACH AND EVERY WAY IMAGINABLE! They’re not allowed to talk to me or gain entry to my home and are forbidden from stepping foot on my land! NO TRESPASSING!

These intrepid tyrannical law wielding creatures have the entire planet to themselves! EXCLUDING THE TINY PORTION I DWELL ON ISOLATED FROM THEM IN EVERY WAY IMAGINABLE UNDER THE SUN SON.

Ladies, go to hell! Go straight to hell and BURN!

[GargamelSpectator 29101]

May, thanks for sharing your story.

This is what c~~~s do to you and I had to go through this nightmare-creating psycho-s~~~ for years as a little boy.

Giving you advice on what to do about it would violate this forum but be very effective in turning your nightmares into a smile when you wake up.

Today I would not take s~~~ from any c~~~.

Send her a Christmas present and make sure to put good and frost safe lithium batteries in it. So it will work well when it arrives.

Detonators draw a lot of start-up current. Use a 10000 uF Buffer capacitor on the output circuit.

In July of 2018, this honey pot forum was sold out to an unidentified NPC sock puppet and troll organization. Most independent thinkers and writers migrated to other MGTOW forums as a result of the never-ending infighting and deliberate trouble starting caused by members who were given "carte blanche" by the admin to do whatever they want. Before my departure, I only left a few thousand cat pics here to comfort and ridicule the feminist owners who now run this place. Their background agenda is to make MGTOW look like a club of losers the public eye. And during the course of 2019, they actually managed to destroy almost all other MGTOW venues as well. Here is the truth about "theindependentman.org" aka "TIM" which was created as an extended workbench to further divide the community. When you register, they install a spyware Zombie cookie on your browser that does all kinds of things the user does not know of: http://www.filedropper.com/essay-on-the-removal-of-malware-cookies-used-by-tim

[Anonymous 42]

Gargamel wrote:

Detonators draw a lot of start-up current. Use a 10000 uF Buffer capacitor on the output circuit.

You’re mean!

[MarketWatcherParticipant]

Anonymous wrote:

shot me in the head before I bled out.

Jesus May. I am so glad I do not live in your head. The chronic anxiety and stress has got to be killing you. I guess I am lucky. I always wake up before I die in my dreams. Normally I have the falling dream and wake up on impact. /sigh/ It is a sign of uncertainty.

[PistolPeteParticipant 27143]

Solution to lousy dreams? Booze.

[Anonymous 43]

sorry guys I,m a little broken.

So wandering around failmart shopping and having the store to myself was nice. I picked a direction and drove for an hour, found the local failmart and did my grocery shopping.

Lets get something straight here. I can not have anything bad happen to the c~~~. I would be suspect #1. I want her to live a long happy life. She will work until she has a stroke, I am convinced of this. I need her to live long and productive. When she retires, I’ll get a piece of her social security. It will be more than enough than what I am paying in CS. All I have to do is live long enough to collect it.

long happy life, no violence or suspicion of ill will towards her. If something bad happens to her An investigator will find the cart with our case on it and conclude that after a brutal high conflict divorce I snapped and got rid of the c~~~. NOONONONONONONONONONONNONONO I want nothing to do with her.

I put up the nightmare and PTSD thing because divorce is a traumatic experience even if it wasn’t as high conflict as mine. I don’t know if any of you have this and think you are uniquely troubled.

I have 4 types of nightmares. The c~~~ kills me, or has police kill me through deception and lies, and I am not in court to refute them, thus a bench warrant. Second is reliving parts of the assrape or the jail time I served. Third, is my kids are so poisoned that they come to kill me, and fourth, I survive the suicide/self immolation and are bed bound and then divorced while languishing as a burned up invalid.

When I was in my tent, I had a bad nightmare and rolled around in the tent, and rolled down a hill in to the Mexican migrants camp area and made a ruckus, so they tried to help me, cutting me out of my tent…I came out of it to find 20 Mexican men with knives in hand shouting gibberish at me. F~~~.

I seem to have gotten the worst of the worst possible events in my divorce and recovery…suicide attempt, homelessness, jail, hospitalization, assrape in court, high conflict bulls~~~, recreational litigation, violence, police issues, parental alienation and virtual exile from a state I lived in for 30 years.

This is hell on earth. I hope none of you go through any part of any of this. I am an outlier, I went for a wild ride and lucky to come out of it alive. I had a lot of luck and a lot of help along the way. I’m hoping that with a new job comes the ability to get some therapy for PTSD. The cost of getting out of the s~~~ vortex was for me very high.

I also hope that some lurkers with girlfriends and wives understand that what happened to me could happen to you. Women, when they lose their s~~~ will mess you up. Yeah, there is the obvious grieving when you fall out of a relationship, but there could be this other unknown component, the insanity after a breakup. I have read about some of your benign break up stories, and stories of reverse monkey branching, and I am amazed that that is even possible.

I want men to know that it is possible to survive a high conflict divorce. Sometimes you make it by the skin of your teeth. I was very lucky in some key ways, perhaps unique in 200 million men. I have had 21 months of peace, and I think I am uneasy, like something bad is coming and I need to be more wary. I haven’t been in court for 21 months, a new record.

Some of you wrote that you have the night mares too, thank you for sharing. that tells me I am not unique and alone in this regard. I don’t mind sharing if it helps others not feel unique alone or a total failure because of the damage caused by some c~~~. I wish I could point others to some sort of solution, but I know alcohol and drugs will not help this. I have learned to lock up the firearm and move it around occasionally. My apartment has a motion detector, it will give me a little warning if the c~~~ is coming to dispatch me to the next world.

I am confident that this s~~~ will end someday. until then all I can do is continue to rebuild, heal up and get ready for the next court battle in 33 months, asking for the child support order to be lifted. It was completely lifted for one daughter. I can only hope.

Jebus on the cross! I want my ex to have a long happy life, I don’t want any trouble.

[Anonymous 43]

bstoffers…I did file suit for that, there were certainly grounds for it, but the judge swatted aside. She warned the c~~~ several times not to engage in frivolous and recreational litigation. Like farting at a hurricane for all the good that did.

I am sure the judge got tired of seeing us every week, and I am sure she was annoyed at my resilience through it all. I never acted like a defeated man in court. I held my head up high, smile on my face. Judge F~~~wit received an award from a feminist organization for her work on behalf of women’s rights. but here I am, a man she can’t stomp on, extract money or property or crush with paralyzing orders, standing there smiling and polite through it all. I know I frustrated the c~~~’s lawyers. Those people were fed lies. They prepared for one type of attack and were surprised that it didn’t work.

[MoreSkyParticipant 4865]

May, thank you for continuing to share your story.

My respect and admiration for your resilience and fortitude grows the more you share.

You are a fine example of what a man is capable of surviving, and your ex is the archetype of the contemptible nature of women.

"...reinvent your life because you must; it is your life and its history and the present belong only to you.” It is Your Life, Charles Bukowski.

[Two Time WinnerParticipant 1090]

Must have been the night for dreaming about ex’s, in my case hopefully she will be an ex sometime in my lifetime. She has used delay after delay on the court date. Court date in March, 2018 will be a year after she first filed.

Anyway, I was mowing my backyard and stopped the mower because a weasel stood up, out of the grass, in front of me. I looked down and saw four flattened out dead weasels. They were not cut up by the mower but were as flat and dead as they could be. Their fur was still shiny and clean, no blood anywhere.

Not sure what the symbolism is in the dream but I do consider her weasel. A person who cheats and lies can be called a weasel

TTW

I ain't got a wife to spend my money, I have to do that all by myself.

[RomulusParticipant 4667]

I do not mean to minimize the pain you are suffering right now May. It was the absolute worse time in my life. In hind sight however, I’ve grown to look at the financial and emotional rape as the cost I paid for my freedom.

You are in prison my friend, and one that some men never walk out of. You now have a choice that some men don’t get. You can pay your jailers a good sum of money and you get to leave prison, a poorer man, but one that now can smell the fresh air and move about the world as a free man. Or you can avail yourself to the fine amenities there in prison for awhile longer….and try to negotiate with the warden on the amount it will take to get you out of there.

I choose to pay the ransom and walk free again. Yes, I’m poorer, yes, it was a hose job from start to finish. But I’m also wiser, and most importantly, FREE.

How can a woman be expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being.

[Old BuckParticipant 3596]

Must be weasel stomping day!

Glad you guys are sharing your horror stories, it helps to talk with others, and by writing down what you are thinking you get to analyze it from a different perspective. It also helps me, reaffirms my belief in MGTOW, and makes me really think twice when engaging with females whether socially or at work.

I wish the red pill had a little valium in it. I am starting to meditate to control anxiety, and find other natural remedies as well.

Don't chase tail. Turn yours around, walk away, and live free!

[OgreParticipant 5863]

@May, I left that state a quarter of a century ago. I’m sorry you have to go through what you do. Eventually your succubus will be totally gone from your life.

Enjoy the hours that she doesn’t invade until then.

Your name is your date of freedom. Every day is a day closer. Her hold wanes with every passing day.

Your brothers here love you, she never really did.

I’ll find you on your name date to buy you dinner and at least a couple drinks.

I failed to realize in my youth that I was the prize. I was going to work. I was going to earn. Little did I realize that due to feminism, that no longer meant I had to share. Road soon, Desert after.

[Anonymous 3]

Incredibly tough stuff.
Go with God

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