Took Me Awhile to Say "HI"

[AlmostWonderfulParticipant 63]

I’m in my late 30s and right over 6 mos ago I was kicked out by my fiancee of 3.5 years. Obviously, no matter how bad a home is, it’s still a home. I was sad, extremely sad. I tried my best to work it out but eventually, coming home to her 2 kids that openly didn’t like me, that wouldn’t even respect me, that she never was willing to make mind took its toll on me. I had some health issues that already existed. Later I found out I had cancer.

I went from making 70k+ when we met and the first 2.5 years we were together to around 40k a year that last year. I had trouble keeping work. The fact is, a lot of those jobs sucked. I was often surrounded by the obese, the lonely, the sexually confused and the belligerent. But more than that, I simply could not keep burning the candle at both ends, putting up with a high stress, high paced IT job then coming home to constant negativity.

I really wish I had gotten out of there the first year we lived together, when I knew she wasn’t going to make her teenagers mind. I loved her and being in my late 30s, I wanted to get married again and have 1 more child. Looking back, I seriously doubt her ability to have children at all. It always hurts when things don’t work out but it’s been over 6 months now and damn, I can’t even begin to explain how f~~~ed up the whole situation was. I’m amazed I made it through the whole thing without going to jail or dying, I really am.

It was so bad at one point, I went back home and tried to live with family after she kicked me out. Of course, out of the frying pan and into the fire, as most of my family and friends now have addiction issues, be it alcohol or hard drugs. That didn’t work out and I moved back to TX with a friend of mine, who also has a drinking problem. Living with her, I really didn’t realize how bad it had become. I don’t say this as someone who hates her or hates women. I was never able to hate her(Believe me I wish I could) It just crept up on me. The whole situation progressively gotten worse. When I read the glossary of terms here, it really hit home. I’ve lived it all: the hamster wheel, her hypergamy, the absolute arrogance of a lady in her late 30s with 2 kids, the total lack of family goals, the outright deception and lying, the figure 8 logic and the double think. My life had become so bad I couldn’t work out at the gym or have a beer with friends after work. It was constant Hell.

In fact, it was so bad that when I was making $26 an hour, at a physical job, sick from cancer, barely able to crawl up out of bed in the morning, sleeping on a friend’s couch, that my new life was still like a breath of fresh air compared to where I was living before. I felt my motivation come back. I enjoyed being around people again. I started loving life again, realizing that I do have reasons to live. My fire came back.

I found out, after receiving a horrible initial diagnosis, that my outlook is much more hopeful than they originally thought. I have held up incredibly well during treatments and they have been much more effective than anticipated. Right now I am hoping for a cancer free diagnosis in a few weeks but even if I don’t get that, I have the hope and will to keep pushing forward. 6 months post breakup, I now make more money than I’ve ever made in my life. I work hard for it, 7 days a week. I found out who my true friends and family are and it has been an absolute blessing. I’m working my ass off to keep my healthcare and afford the most advanced treatments possible. I’m getting ready for worst case scenario but hoping for the best.

Never again will I ever get into a relationship where someone makes me act out of character, work my ass off and come home to a group of people look down on me, don’t like me, the same group of people I spent over 2.5 years supporting, feeding, taking care of. I helped her start her new career and as soon as she didn’t need me anymore, gone. There was no loyalty. I said a lot of very ugly things at the end after I was thrown away. My guess is she was dating others for months, if not the whole time we were together. I’m never letting anyone put me in that situation again. I will never put up with that kind of disrespect at home again. I am so glad I changed my whole life around. Not only that, I quit smoking. I was a 1.5 pack a day smoker. In early 2015 I weighed 252 lbs. Today I am 198. I’m healthy. I feel great. It may not last forever but all I can do is wait and see. I want to be as ready as I can be for whatever comes down the pipe. I’m in this to win it. I want to stick around as long as I can, make as much money as I can and have as much fun as I can.

I just wanted to let everyone here know that it’s great to have a place like this. Maybe I wasn’t always posting but I was a constant observer and you guys gave me a lot of hope and inspiration at times when I thought I was done, when I could barely hold my head up from the pillow to read on my phone, when I literally couldn’t drive myself to work but I got a ride and went in anyways and I toughed it out. This site is a real inspiration and it is often great for a lot of laughs. I don’t agree with everyone or everything on here but I appreciate the core goals and message of MGTOW. So thank all of you very much from the bottom of my heart. Maybe it’s not much from an SOB and a vet like myself, but this place got me through some dark times.

[WA4SWJParticipant 366]

AlmostWonderful – Glad you’re here. I wish you the very best. The guys here care about you even if you haven’t met them. Keep on kicking!!! God bless!

Ed

[Anonymous 14]

Greetings, I believe you will find a good home here and good friends here that will look out for you and keep you strong.

This site has a wealth of knowledge held within it that you will find useful.

G/K

[bladeParticipant]

Welcome bro hope you enjoy the forums

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[Anonymous 6]

What’s good homie.

[ghostParticipant]

Not your fault. Your biology is to blame. You have learned some valuable lessons which will serve you well in life. There is no growth without mistakes. We have all made them. We are better now as a result.

[The Manipulated ManParticipant 1856]

Hello AW,

A good Introduction includes descriptions of Red Pills, lessons learned, and something about your actions as a free men.

Many thanks for sharing you story. Your words are powerful.

Sincerely, my heart goes our to you Brother.

Many of us here at MGTOW.com are freed slaves and are just enjoying life outside the Plantation. Middle aged guys like me have been through Blue Pill Hell for too long.

Some rare men are born with being able to see “Woman’s Nature.” They are Heterosexual men who are resistant to the charms of women. They have had “Red Pill” awareness, wisdom, and understanding most of their lives. They are Natural Born MGTOWs.

I have been lucky to know a few personally in my lifetime.
Two are still in my life today and it is great to hang out with them.

They are the real “Unicorns” and they have magical lives. Those great guys taught me how to laugh at my own mistakes.

Here is some humor I picked up from one of my Natural Born MGTOW Pals:

One of the other tests, besides your bank account, to determine how free you are from the influences of women and where you are on the MGTOW Road:

Are you at a place where a group of women talking sound like a bunch of hen’s clucking or are they “fascinating” to you?

From an examination of my Posts that I have written here for the past year, which can be found by clicking the Forums tab in my Profile, you will find proof that I made bad choices in my past dealings with women.

AlmostWonderful wrote:

…..I can’t even begin to explain how f~~~ed up the whole situation was……….

You are not alone.

Many of the other MGTOW’s stories and ideas have helped me a lot. It is great to find the words and philisophy that describe what my gut was warning me about.

AlmostWonderful wrote:

……I don’t agree with everyone or everything on here but I appreciate the core goals and message of MGTOW……….

Here is a link to something in Nature that illustrates my experience with womyn:

/forums/topic/parasitic-jeweled-wasp/

AlmostWonderful wrote:

…….I really wish I had gotten out of there the first year we lived together…….

There is a lot more going on with our Relations~~~s than we are aware of.

Here is a link that attempts to discuss chemistry, the curse of Heterosexual Men:

/forums/topic/blue-pill-men-are-really-pheremone-addicts/

AlmostWonderful wrote:

……. I am hoping for a cancer free diagnosis in a few weeks but even if I don’t get that……..

Here is something I posted a year ago about my cancer and other health concerns:

/forums/topic/inexpesive-cancer-cures-and-other-miracle-cures-verses-the-golden-goose/

AlmostWonderful wrote:

…….When I read the glossary of terms here, it really hit home……

Going over the Glossery on MGTOW.com never gets old. There is a lot of wisdom distilled into those short sentences.

Here is a Quote and Poster from a great man, John Holt. He is one of the founders of the Homeschooling movement which I was once involved:

“The proper business of the intellectual is to:

Make complicated ideas simpler, not simple ideas more complicated;

Make the real world more comprehensible, not less so.”

Most of the stuff listed in the following Link does not apply to you. I am respectfully including it for your consideration. And your feedback is very much appreciated:

/forums/topic/list-of-unacceptable-blue-pill-baggage/

What happens when a man finally comprehends the cold and calculating thoughts that are going through a woman's mind, while her eyes are brimming with tears?

[Secret Agent MGTOWParticipant 22510]

Glad you made it here. And that your life is on an upswing.

Live well and live free. You’ve already been to hell.

Women want everything, but want responsibility and accountability for nothing.

[Anonymous 7]

Greetings and welcome home.

[Anonymous 4]

No matter how rough the trip was you’re here now welcome.

[DocParticipant]

Welcome Almost Wonderful.
Six months is a very short while ago in the broad scheme of things.
You will go from strength to strength.
Daily visits here can be some of the finest medicine.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[NerdTunnelerParticipant]

Welcome brother…Rest and rebuild yourself here…Reclaim your manhood and go your own way…You only need your permission to be happy with yourself…

I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...

[GregB0Participant]

Welcome and congrats on your recovery to date. MGTOW.com will be here for you as you continue your path away from the past and into your future.

Thank you for you introduction and I look forward to reading more.

The very best of luck in your fight against cancer, I have been blessed with 34 years of cancer free life after my diagnosis in 1983.

​"​My father didn't tell me how to live; he lived, and let me watch him do it.​" - Clarence Buddinton Kelland

[RumpoleParticipant 994]

Beat the cancer and go on to live a long and happy life.

[MonkParticipant 16985]

AlmostWonderful wrote:

… I simply could not keep burning the candle at both ends, putting up with a high stress, high paced IT job then coming home to constant negativity.

Henry Thoreau: “The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation”.

You have broken the chain.

[Anonymous 3]

ghost wrote:

Not your fault. Your biology is to blame. You have learned some valuable lessons which will serve you well in life. There is no growth without mistakes. We have all made them. We are better now as a result.

NerdTunneler wrote:

Welcome brother…Rest and rebuild yourself here…Reclaim your manhood and go your own way…You only need your permission to be happy with yourself…

great intro. glad your here

[AufladenParticipant 105]

Introductions like this are worth their weight in gold. Thankyou for taking the time to write it.

Good to have you here, and I wish you the very best of luck with your upcoming diagnosis, I’ll have my fingers crossed for you my friend.

'You can achieve more and be happy avoiding the wrong women than you ever could searching for the right woman.' - KM

[LEO THE WISEParticipant 249]

Hello and kudos for joining MGTOW’s

Leo the wise : Giving to all men their needed uprise My MGTOW YOUTUBE channel, first vid : https://youtu.be/Xt-tJgVUGuI

[AlmostWonderfulParticipant 63]

Thanks everyone for your comments and inspiration. The Manipulated Man, I did read your links and I do a lot of juicing. Stopping sodas, alcohol and smoking immediately made a difference on my body. You notice its impact on your immune system more when you’re sick. So far my treatment is going well and my oncologist is optimistic. I’ve been at the job I’m at now for 9 weeks and it is difficult to find time to do anything. I have to hire someone to prepare all my meals, do my laundry, clean my room. I work 7 days a week, 12 hours a day. I make over 150 a year but I’m not sure how long this can last. Also, considering expenses and taxes, I’m not sure if it’s worth it. I have never made that kind of money before and it has helped me pay off a lot of bills but my body is certainly paying the price for it. I may look for something soon making less but working less. I need at least 1 day a week off. Right now, I’m between chemo cycles and it’s been great just to stay busy, make money and catch up on bills but I am beginning to feel it.

I have never thought there was a “one” but I thought that a homely lady in her late 30s would be more apt to invest in a relationship and want a partner, possibly have the wisdom to realize it’s easier with 2. I am never putting a woman above myself again. I didn’t when I was younger and I am going back to that mentality. I am focusing on my health and money. Those things will give me the life I want to have. I do not seek companionship in women any longer. They’re for sex, looking at, maybe having a good time with in the short run. If I meet a great lady who makes me think otherwise down the road, that’s fine but I have drawn some lines in the sand and they won’t be crossed. I will always have an exit strategy. My future is my future and I think about it that way now not “our future”. I don’t sit around pining over that s~~~ anymore. I just know I never want things to be like they were. I will never wear the beta suit again. It wasn’t me and it didn’t work out. Once you get past a breakup after several months, you make money and your confidence is back, you realize very quickly that there are indeed more opportunities out there with women than you could ever possibly hope to take advantage of.

[EscapedMentalPatientParticipant 1489]

Welcome home brother.

It’s truly a pleasure to read your introduction, “Almost Wonderful”.

From start to finish, your thoughts and style give away that you are a sound, logical, caring, thoughtful man. One who has a propensity for having clear goals and a respect for morality. So much so that you’ve spent a period of your life sacrificing yourself, up to and including your health; doing so while those who would stand to benefit from your kindness and integrity would turn those values against you.

We’re glad that you decided to finally say “Hi”. I know that I am, anyway.

You’ve been through the ringer in so many ways of late. I know this feeling. But one can see that you conduct yourself accordingly when met with such life challenges and for that, I greatly admire you sir.

Thank you for sharing your experience with us. You’re in the right company, you’ve walked through the right door, and you are among your brothers here.

I’m happy for you that you have a positive prognosis and a strong outlook for your coming future, man.

AlmostWonderful wrote:

Maybe it’s not much from an SOB and a vet like myself, but this place got me through some dark times.

It’s actually quite a lot my friend, and your words will benefit others here. Unlike your previous situation, you’ll be appreciated here rather than be abused. You’ll be valued here, rather than be discounted. Most of all, you’ll be you here and there’s not a soul here who would take that from you sir.

Prost, brother.

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