To Die the Hero….

[Smitty the Great OneParticipant 1535]

Or live long enough to become the villain? I don’t know, maybe I never was a hero in the first place, and am only justifying my decision ex post facto. Anyhow, here I am MGTOW…. I guess. I stopped trying to seek relationships with women around 1999. I got burned so many times, not as bad as marriage or kids; mostly because I never could put my finger on why I always felt every woman I ever met never really gave a s~~~ about ME. I felt like a placeholder until her BBD arrived. Every single one bolted at the first sign of trouble of any kind. so at the ripe old age of 31, I simply gave up. I was seriously worried that the next woman that s~~~ in my heart would be the straw that snapped my soul and I’m become some sort of sadistic serial killer (not a joke). So, I isolated myself and set my focus to anything but women. The first 3 years were pretty bleak, I was depressed and lonely. But as time passed, I quit giving a s~~~. There I was like Nomac at the end of Blade II, it hurt no more. I had expanded my understanding of myself, and the world around me, I finally understood what was going on.

I also completely forgot about what deceitful manipulative c~~~s women were. So when one snuck up on me a decade later, she slid right under my radar. She tricked me into believing she loved me— first time I ever believed ANYONE loved me. Then she proceeded to slowly tear me down, and into a neurotic emotional mess. In 3 years she destroyed what I thought I had created within myself….. I was devastated. So, I sought understanding, and in the previous decade I had learned to seek a solution wherever it may be found, and I undertook an adventure, a journey of discovery. I put myself to the test at the age of 44 I walked from southern Missouri to Gettysburg, Pa. for the 150th anniversary of the battle. 1,200 miles in 82 days and by the time it was over my healing had begun. I got one more test after I returned, and I got it right, I learned my lesson. It’s been a year and a half since then, I’ve been looking around the MRM, anti-feminism, and found MGTOW. I’d done it for a decade without even realizing it was a real— “thing”, or that anyone else had even considered doing it. Of course I had a relapse, and paid dearly for it, I will carry that scar forever.

Now comes the next great adventure, I see the path and have no fear in taking the next step….

 

Yeah, that should get you started, and thanks for letting me be a part of this… thing

Life is too long to play by someone elses rules....

[KeymasterKeymaster]

The line from the Dark Knight pulled me in. Big Welcome to MGTOW.

found MGTOW. I’d done it for a decade without even realizing it was a real— “thing”

That’s a VERY common statement and I didn’t either…. until I started reading other MGTOW and holy s~~~(!) for the first time ever, I saw my thoughts in print, as if I wrote them myself. This cemented the authenticity of MGTOW for me. How was it possible that other guys in other cities had EXACTLY the same stories and experiences to tell? Then I saw the Matrix. YEARS after everyone else ( Corny, yes, but work with me……) and the line “You’ve always known there is something wrong with the world but you can’t quite place your finger on it.”. Bingo. That did it.

At times I can be the villain, and it’s necessary. But the guys I work with a great bunch and I think that’s what they like about me. A previous job surrounded by mostly women hammered the point further when I got up to leave work one day, and the married guy next to me said “When I grow up, I want to be you”. I laughed but really understood him. He just had his second kid and looked dead behind the eyes all the time.

Nice chatting. Make yourself at home and thanks for leaving an intro for others.

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[Anonymous 42]

@Smitty the Great One, 1999 was a f~~~ed year! Every word you said I can relate to, especially the feeling that you were alone in your thinking. These guys at MGTOW will have you thinking normal in this upside down s~~~-pit world.

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