This Is KDRAM And Here Is My Intro…

[KD_RamParticipant 102]

Hello Gents.

I Am 29 Years Old And Am A Computer Systems Engineer. I Enjoy Computers, My Bow, Bush-Craft, Biology, Teaching myself 3D Graphics And Hitch-Hiking. I Have Hitchhiked Pretty much everywhere in the south island of New Zealand. Have Never Been Married Or Even Had A Girlfriend

I Have Always Been On The Outside Looking In Socially, most of this is due to the fact that I have mild autism so I never did fit in, but until I was about 8-9 or so this was not a big issue (could not speak properly but knew how to read early) but when school went from engaging your mind to simply parroting what the teacher wanted to hear then that’s when the problems started.
I Grew up with two sisters An Older one and a younger one, as time went on my younger one was held up as an example of a “Model Student” especially compared to me. due to the fact that ALL the teachers were woman there was no emphasis on actually knowing the subject or for that matter any focus on what boys were interested in (apart from sports). combined with my “Issues” I was pretty much labelled a retard and then once I hit double digits put on the pills (the usual “Happy Pills”.
but looking back there was help.
first and foremost was my uncle. the biggest, baddest guy I have ever known. Considered A Criminal Scum Bag By Everybody in the town that I lived, While True that he Was In Many Respects Even The Police Admitted That He Operated With A Code Of Honor. Many Of his friends were the only ones that did not mind me as they thought I was a future mad scientist in the making. while he was the biggest asshole I have ever known (a fact that he was proud of) he was the one who taught me to not give a f~~~, do no harm but take no s~~~. he is the main reason I did not kill myself when I hit puberty. and taught me everything I know about being a uncle myself he taught me.
second was one of my dad’s oldest friends a man who went by the nickname of chuck. he had a farm that was the bane of every woman he knew. his point was that it was a place where men could come have a few beers (or some of his borderline home-brewed rocket fuel), shoot the s~~~, shot some cans and generally be free from women. he never said he hated women (at least that I know of) but he did not have a very high opinion of them. as a kid I could not drink grog but it was just being able to be a boy in peace that helped. my sisters was always jealous that I was the only one that was allowed to go up there, even more so than when on my eighth birthday he gave me my first air rifle but like he said. “Is This Your Farm? No, Then Quit Your Bitching”.

once I hit 12 apart from a few people that tried to help me most people thought I was somehow broken, that only doping me up on pills could “Fix’ me yet obviously did no good, just made me worse. I Started trying to kill myself. did not bother with slashing my wrists, used cleaning s~~~ that were under the sink. then the system tried to baby me, telling me that it was OK to be sad, just not in the way men were trying to teach me. that changed when my uncle moved in. he taught me bush-craft, how to stand up for myself. Meaning instead of telling bullies “I Don’t Like That”, he taught me “Prison Rules” (Find The Biggest one then knock him/her down/out). once I started doing that then people stopped picking on me for a while.

when I was 13 I started at a posh high school. since at the time I was in a single parent household (My Dad Was kicked out when he pointed a loaded shotgun at my mum during a fight) I was the poorest kid in the school. while there were poor and geek jokes aimed in my direction for the first couple of years people did give me credit for being staunch. it was when CYFS got involved that the s~~~ hit the fan (Any NZ’ers Here Will Know What I Am Talking About, If Not They Are The Femanazi ran Child “Protection” services). My uncle was slapped with a child abuse charge for giving me a clip around the ears (he busted me drinking on a school night) when I told the police that this was agreed on (a clip around the ears then it’s over and done with or an ineffective grounding for a week or two) they did not see it as a big issue. but CYFS saw it fit to put me with my dad and his new partner. this time my dad was whipped to the point where she could make decisions about me that only he could of. to the point where I tried to run away to the west coast of the island I live on. I had a relapse of the s~~~ that plagued me when I was younger and thinking back admittedly things was bleak.

Then I turned 18, I was free.
I mucked around for a few months until I started getting board the I made the first major decision of my life, I sanded up to a joint welfare/army program normally intended to get long time unemployment benefit receivers off their ass’s and doing something. this provided a much needed focus on discipline and was the first time ever I was trusted with leadership. while most people had me pegged to be the first to quit I could not, I had chosen to be there so the only person I was failing was myself. While I was not the strongest or the fastest I had grit, something that the platoon staff respected although they did think I was very uptight (according to them technically I could of been arrested for not following a verbal order for not relaxing) they encouraged me to sign up however they could not read my handwriting (completely understandable, it is worse than a doctors). but the final report still counts as a good reference when I marched out. a week later I landed myself a job. at first I thought it sucked until I saw the on the job cores work for it. once I passed that I could then light fires, on local council property, and get paid for it. working with just guys was fun. they were older than me, not as “Educated” as me but they came out of the school of hard knocks. so I learned a bit about life form them. I was in that job for a few months before I found a job in Queenstown.

the job was as a house keeper for a four star hotel. a mostly female environment, service to say I did not last long there. I left and got myself a job laboring at a painting firm. I wasn’t the best painter but that was not a problem as most of the time I was just the spare pair of hands, surface prep and on the side helped my boss with his computer problems. when my uncle died in a logging accident, I decided to go into computing. my boss was not happy but he saw it as my calling. after a semester I walked out with a certificate in technical computing level 5. that is when I moved to the west coast of the south island to a small town called blackball.

I signed up to do a welding course to pass the time and give me a chance to sort out what I needed to get into polytechnic to sit my diploma in information and communications technology. after passing I started to try and set up a business, that was not really successful as far as making money but in a small town barter was more effective as most people could be counted on to help out. I made deals with a carpenter, an electrician and the like. in blackball you did not last long unless you either did not screw with the wrong person and/or have something to bring to the table. as most people in the town had a very high opinion of my uncle they afforded me a lot of support. for some they saw it as a duty. but it was not one way, they had helped me through some dark periods in my life so I started to return the favor.
it was in blackball I started to see the true nature of women. when I was young I thought all of society had it in for people if you did not conform. when I was in blackball I had mostly men to call on as friends. for a while the women my age thought I was ok (mostly because I could make a lot more money than most of the guys my age) but was to “Geeky” for them. once they started getting together with my friends they tried to pair me off with other women but sneered when I said “I Don’t F~~~ women in the same town where I live”. after a while if they heard that I was coming over they would get snarky (unless the computer was busted then they were all roses and sunshine). most ended up hating my guts when it was clear that I would not be a “Real Man” to which I replied “so?”.
when I turned 26 I decided to leave and return to where I started to further my goals. blackball was all good but it did not have the customer base for me to really get setup. I moved into one of my sister’s house in my caravan and sort of stagnated. that is where I once again say the true nature of women. she is a dyke so I saw firsthand how much worse women can be. my sister went from someone that could at least think somewhat logically to being, emotional unpredictable and dishonorable (Honor something that my uncle drilled into us) her partner is much worse. a real man hater but I did have some fun with her
Her: “Women are better than men”
Me: “OK…” (Get My 65 Pound Compound Bow and arrow Out) “Pull My Bow Back”
Her: (after pulling only a inch back) “it’s too hard, you clearly have it rigged”
Me: (Pulling It Back Then Shooting a Old Washing Machine) “Works Fine For Me”
Her: “F~~~ You”
Me “No Thanks”

After A While I Needed Some Concert Answers. Why Was Everything I was ever told about women either a lie or “Sexist” That Is When I Started To Look On The Internet. I Found Some Anti Feminist Sites But All Of Them Seemed censored. I had almost written of caring until I found five letters that changed everything.

MGTOW.
So I Punched that into Google and the first hit that came up was this site. I must admit I was a little skeptical until I saw what the site offered. but after looking at first the archives, then the forums then I knew that I was not alone. I had come to the conclusion when I was young that most of the time women were not worth it but as I got older the same s~~~ was playing out with my friends. the fact that no matter what they did it was never enough. add that I learned I was sterile when I was 22 and then I started to understand how low women viewed me. but that was only what I could see. this site showed me that it is not only me that see’s it. looking at some of what you guys have been through I count myself as lucky. not only for the fact that me being a social outcast meant I could see a little slice of what was really going on. not only the fact that some of you guy’s stories I have seen on this site has sent shivers through me. but most of all is the fact that “Bros Before Ho’s” Is Still Alive And Kicking, and I found the site.

This website may have not saved my life but seeing people having it much worse than me, and rising above it. has given the kick up the ass I needed to brake the stagnation that was going on. I may not be where I want to be but slowly but surely I am getting there. I am working for a boss who does not like the MGTOW message but from what he has seen of late does see the value of it. building and fixing computers both for him and for myself (I am small fish as far as he is concerned so he is not worried about me competing with him). I am in a rented flat on my own and for the first ten minutes I just enjoyed the silence. ever since then the most stress has been from computers which logic and reason help to fix.
this site is not only informative and gritty but many times I have almost “Died” From laughter and the wit. all the hacking attacks as of late only prove that we are on the right track. and this website has enforced my desire to never have a girlfriend or get married. to view my infertility as a good thing (no baby trap for me Muhahaha) but most important of all. to be proud not only of myself but every man. this site has even helped me to try to heal the rift between me and my dad.

so to every MAN on this site I salute you. should you ever be in my neck of the woods I would be honored to meet you and have a beer and if the s~~~ hits the fan for everybody. count me in.

If You Guys Have Any Questions For Me Feel Free To Drop Them Down.

Yours, the hitch hiking geek

KDRAM

When a man does something to a woman it's abuse... When a woman does the same thing it's marriage

[RedDawnParticipant 1391]

Hey mate, welcome to the community! Glad to hear you’re keeping busy. I certainly agree with you that some of the posts on here are beyond hilarious, though ironically the funniest stuff tends to be the truth. Living at home without a partner is awesome, there is such freedom and peace in being able to do what you want to do.

Anywho, hope to see you around the forums,

Red.

Courage is the key to life itself - Morgan Freeman

[KD_RamParticipant 102]

well red they say the best humor is grounded in realty, at least here there is not “lol” every second post like on fakebook

i will try to post more than just reply’s but most of the time i am beaten to the punch.

When a man does something to a woman it's abuse... When a woman does the same thing it's marriage

[RoyDalParticipant]

Welcome! I am glad you made it.

Society asks MGTOWs: Why are you not making more tax-slaves?

[Anonymous 18]

Good intro man. Welcome!

It sounds pretty cool to have such a wide working experience as you have had.

[Dark KenshiParticipant 2132]

Welcome, brother!

You have been through your version of hell, like every one of us had been. Som worse, some less worse, but we all have been there, like you said.

A few of us are Aspies or autistic, but we all are bad-assed bastards, like you, mate!

Nice to see another fellow computer wizard over here, our kind seems to be more and more in need every day.

Anyway, nice intro, brother.

Welcome to the brotherhood, wlecome to MGTOW.

Your place at our table is set, all you need to do is sit, grab a cold one and share some stories with us.

You are at home now. I am glad you joined us.

"Young was I once, I walked alone, and bewildered seemed in the way; then I found me another and rich I thought me, for man is the joy of man." Odin, Hàvamàl, stanza 47.

[John Woods 13Participant 2855]

Welcome KDRAM!
What a story, might want to consider writing a book later on.
I say this to everyone who considered/considers suicide:
After the day you seriously thought about killing yourself, every day is a BONUS day. Think about it you could be dead right now. It doesn’t matter how bad things may seem, if you are alive, YOU can fix it.
Also, my advice is to never have high expectations, because there is a high chance you won’t be able to accomplish them and then depression hits you like a f~~~ing hammer.
Anyway, given the context, my hat off to you sir for what you’ve achieved.

The answer is NO. “I could but I won’t”. Memini murum!

[KD_RamParticipant 102]

Thanks To Everybody. The Funny Thing Is Despite Everything, Would Not Change It. My Past Has Enabled Me To Understand that alive is better than 6 feet.

And Like I Have Said… Compared to some of what i have read here i am f~~~in lucky.

only a spider can give the salute everybody deserves

When a man does something to a woman it's abuse... When a woman does the same thing it's marriage

[Anonymous 29]

Good long read m8. Welcome even if you are from NZ.

[KD_RamParticipant 102]

Anonymous wrote:

Good long read m8. Welcome even if you are from NZ.

We Are All Brothers On This Crazy Mudball Mate

When a man does something to a woman it's abuse... When a woman does the same thing it's marriage

[Anonymous 29]

KD_Ram wrote:

We Are All Brothers On This Crazy Mudball Mate

True dat. I’m on the other side of Tasman. Au.

[KD_RamParticipant 102]

That’s No Problem For Me, The ANZAC Spirit Will Win Out In The End (A OZ Man Will Win Out Over A NZ Feminazi Any Day)

When a man does something to a woman it's abuse... When a woman does the same thing it's marriage

[Spank The MisandristsParticipant 2308]

Nice to have you with us brother! The feminists have destroyed the world and ruined the lives of many men out there. Even though each of us came from a very different background and has unique experience with women, one thing we all have in common is that we have the mental strength and courage to resist the way we’ve been biologically programmed and we know where we are heading. No woman is capable of manipulate a true MGTOW, because we don’t play their pathetic little games.

Cheers!!

[Anonymous 42]

KD_Ram wrote:

We Are All Brothers On This Crazy Mudball Mate

@KDRam, I’m on a rocky section of this mud ball, digging sUcks!

KD_Ram wrote:

do no harm but take no s~~~.

I could be your uncle, so could 90% of the guys here! Welcome to MGTOW! Enjoy yourself!

[LonerBonerParticipant 358]

Welcome!

My youngest son most likely have a mild form of Autism, he is very functional but in many ways special.

Keep clam i'm dyslexic.

[tripvanParticipant 193]

Welcome KDRam, great story! You have a knack for story telling! Great to hear you´ve been inspired to heal things between you and your dad.

[KD_RamParticipant 102]

Anonymous wrote:

I could be your uncle, so could 90% of the guys here!

That’s one of the reasons why this site rocks. He would of liked it.

LonerBoner wrote:

My youngest son most likely have a mild form of Autism

Never know what he might come up with… one of my nephews has it as well, He is only seven and some of the things we talk about are kick-ass. teaching him blender 3D. Once your son fingers out what he is good at it will help provide a centre his life, especially with him being functional, just what i have found myself.

tripvan wrote:

Great to hear you´ve been inspired to heal things between you and your dad

Well I think I may not have been the son he wanted… but at least I did not throw my life down the drain because of it, I think he figured that out too. He is not dead yet so at least I “won’t kick myself for not doing it sooner” afterwards

When a man does something to a woman it's abuse... When a woman does the same thing it's marriage

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