The only time my knees ever buckled.

[ghostParticipant]

I have taken some big risks in life. Some have worked out while others have not. The one thing that has never happened was I never felt weak in the knees. I have stared down some massive losses, but I never blinked.

Until I did.

Of all things, a woman made me buckle. I thought I knew what I was doing but I let my emotions get carried away. I have never made such a mistake in business. No matter how good you are in some areas of life, if you get emotional with a woman, you will pay the price.

Never again.

MGTOW.

[Anonymous 6]

I got an amazing blowjob from a chick in college and it made my knees buckle… I swear this girl had a vacuum for a mouth

[NomadicExpatParticipant 1785]

Agreed, Gambit. I’ve succeeded in all of my life’s goals I had for myself at 16 once I reached 35.

But girls were the only real obstacle that could derail my progress. A beautiful and dainty girl cuddling up to me in my youth was like holding a magnet to a computer screen… it just f~~~ed my brain up. It created huge holes where my rationality and risk/reward indicators were.

Luckily we’ve grown past the childish illusions of “a happy wife”. No such thing. Like Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny. The sooner you realize they arent real, the sooner you can start living in reality.

[Anonymous 6]

NomadicExpat wrote:

Agreed, Gambit. I’ve succeeded in all of my life’s goals I had for myself at 16 once I reached 35.

But girls were the only real obstacle that could derail my progress. A beautiful and dainty girl cuddling up to me in my youth was like holding a magnet to a computer screen… it just f~~~ed my brain up. It created huge holes where my rationality and risk/reward indicators were.

Luckily we’ve grown past the childish illusions of “a happy wife”. No such thing. Like Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny. The sooner you realize they arent real, the sooner you can start living in reality.

I hear more and more men say this very thing. The more they stayed away from women, the more goals they accomplished. Has to be something to it, if alot of men keep saying it.

[Anonymous 43]

I was in divorce court. I needed a job on a Monday, I had court on a Friday. I had 2 weeks to find a job, living in a small town. I found a job on Wednesday. I went to court on Friday. I told the court I had a job, turned in a letter from my employer dated Wednesday. I was found to be in contempt of court. My knees left, and I fell into a chair, in shock. I was going to jail for following the order as best as I could, and yet the c~~~ could stab me, chase me with her truck, almost run me over track me, have private investigators follow me, she took me kids during my time, she threatened me numerous times, she can accuse me of all kinds of bulls~~~. Going to jail as a teacher candidate is not good. my prospective employers do an extensive background checks, and now I have a record, for no good f~~~ing reason!!!

My job was to wash cars on a s~~~ car lot for $8 an hour. to pay $35 a week child support to a woman who makes $150,000 a year. Unf~~~ing believable. I spent the weekend with a drug dealer pedophile, constantly moaning that he wanted to f~~~ his 16 year old girlfriend, s~~~ my own daughter was 15 at the time.

Then when I left jail, I wanted to walk to the lawyer office. I left my wallet and keys with the lawyer, and my phone was in the car. Lawyer had my car. I got lost in the town and wandered around all day in a suit and dress shoes, it was July, and it was 95 degrees that day. I was heat stroking out, my feet had giant blisters, no money, no food, little water. I found a hospital and collapsed. Yep, kidney damage, cooked, stressed, couldn’t walk, liver problems, low blood sugar, extreme sunburn, delirium just completely f~~~ed. I was in hospital for 3 days. They told me I had a temperature of 105, blood pressure of 90/50, and several other readings just so f~~~ed up.

For 6 months afterward, it was difficult to grow new skin on my feet. Just absolutely destroyed. Constantly bleeding, cracked, skin falling off. Looking at a map, I walked almost 30 miles that day. as the day passed, I felt worse and worse, more confused, and lost. Rage does not cover this s~~~. There was no reason for any of this. Absolutely no reason. Except I am a man, I am a defendant, I am a criminal, and I needed to be punished.

I didn’t have ID, my family had no idea what happened to me, all my phone numbers were in my phone, in my car at the lawyer office that I couldn’t find. I was completely f~~~ed.

not a happy week. stay away from women, stay out of divorce court. stay the f~~~ away.

Every time I went to court I lost money, time, freedom, health, time with my kids, and sanity.

I will never go back to that court.. I have nothing left to give except my life. Just take all my blood bitches, take all 5 quarts.

I have to go back on May 7, 2020 to end my court order to pay child support. I am not paying another dime after that date. I don’t care if I am held in contempt again. Done on that date.

[DocParticipant]

Damn May 7.
I salute you.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[RedDawnParticipant 1391]

I feel you Gambit, I’m going the urinal metaphor route, if I must ever absolutely get with a woman I’ll do what I need to and bail, no having ‘feelings’ for the urinal. Though I doubt I’ll ever be in that situation.

Crazy s~~~ man! You’re diastolic blood pressure was the absolute minimum textbook number for kidney function! Glad you’re still with us May.

I can’t afford to go to court so if my son ever gets withheld indefinitely from me then I’ll just wait till he’s old enough to come visit me of his own accord.

Courage is the key to life itself - Morgan Freeman

[FunInTheSunParticipant 8283]

Anonymous wrote:

My job was to wash cars on a s~~~ car lot for $8 an hour. to pay $35 a week child support to a woman who makes $150,000 a year. Unf~~~ing believable.

I really don’t understand why people allow this kind of injustice in their societies. What kind of scumbag judge would sabotage your efforts to be a good man? It’s pure insanity!

The way I see it: in the future, women in gynocentric societies will be 100% undateable. A man’s relationship with them will be strictly business. We’ll have to get passports and travel to impoverished nations in order to date women—because those governments don’t give a s~~~ about women’s rights or gender equality. Here in the USA, we can actually afford to put someone in jail for any stupid reason. That’s why I live my life carefully.

"I saw that there comes a point, in the defeat of any man of virtue, when his own consent is needed for evil to win-and that no manner of injury done to him by others can succeed if he chooses to withhold his consent. I saw that I could put an end to your outrages by pronouncing a single word in my mind. I pronounced it. The word was ‘No.’" (Atlas Shrugged)

[Point Of No ReturnParticipant 4074]

Anonymous wrote:

I was in divorce court. I needed a job on a Monday, I had court on a Friday. I had 2 weeks to find a job, living in a small town. I found a job on Wednesday. I went to court on Friday. I told the court I had a job, turned in a letter from my employer dated Wednesday. I was found to be in contempt of court. My knees left, and I fell into a chair, in shock. I was going to jail for following the order as best as I could, and yet the c~~~ could stab me, chase me with her truck, almost run me over track me, have private investigators follow me, she took me kids during my time, she threatened me numerous times, she can accuse me of all kinds of bulls~~~. Going to jail as a teacher candidate is not good. my prospective employers do an extensive background checks, and now I have a record, for no good f~~~ing reason!!!

My job was to wash cars on a s~~~ car lot for $8 an hour. to pay $35 a week child support to a woman who makes $150,000 a year. Unf~~~ing believable. I spent the weekend with a drug dealer pedophile, constantly moaning that he wanted to f~~~ his 16 year old girlfriend, s~~~ my own daughter was 15 at the time.

Then when I left jail, I wanted to walk to the lawyer office. I left my wallet and keys with the lawyer, and my phone was in the car. Lawyer had my car. I got lost in the town and wandered around all day in a suit and dress shoes, it was July, and it was 95 degrees that day. I was heat stroking out, my feet had giant blisters, no money, no food, little water. I found a hospital and collapsed. Yep, kidney damage, cooked, stressed, couldn’t walk, liver problems, low blood sugar, extreme sunburn, delirium just completely f~~~ed. I was in hospital for 3 days. They told me I had a temperature of 105, blood pressure of 90/50, and several other readings just so f~~~ed up.

For 6 months afterward, it was difficult to grow new skin on my feet. Just absolutely destroyed. Constantly bleeding, cracked, skin falling off. Looking at a map, I walked almost 30 miles that day. as the day passed, I felt worse and worse, more confused, and lost. Rage does not cover this s~~~. There was no reason for any of this. Absolutely no reason. Except I am a man, I am a defendant, I am a criminal, and I needed to be punished.

I didn’t have ID, my family had no idea what happened to me, all my phone numbers were in my phone, in my car at the lawyer office that I couldn’t find. I was completely f~~~ed.

not a happy week. stay away from women, stay out of divorce court. stay the f~~~ away.

Every time I went to court I lost money, time, freedom, health, time with my kids, and sanity.

I will never go back to that court.. I have nothing left to give except my life. Just take all my blood bitches, take all 5 quarts.

I have to go back on May 7, 2020 to end my court order to pay child support. I am not paying another dime after that date. I don’t care if I am held in contempt again. Done on that date.

I’m speechless

Know when it is your duty to give them zero explanations for your actions.

[Maraudrz1Participant 2250]

Agreed. Never again.

Women's brains and vagina have one thing in common. There is nothing in there until a man puts something in there.

[Maraudrz1Participant 2250]

Anonymous wrote:

I was in divorce court. I needed a job on a Monday, I had court on a Friday. I had 2 weeks to find a job, living in a small town. I found a job on Wednesday. I went to court on Friday. I told the court I had a job, turned in a letter from my employer dated Wednesday. I was found to be in contempt of court. My knees left, and I fell into a chair, in shock. I was going to jail for following the order as best as I could, and yet the c~~~ could stab me, chase me with her truck, almost run me over track me, have private investigators follow me, she took me kids during my time, she threatened me numerous times, she can accuse me of all kinds of bulls~~~. Going to jail as a teacher candidate is not good. my prospective employers do an extensive background checks, and now I have a record, for no good f~~~ing reason!!!

My job was to wash cars on a s~~~ car lot for $8 an hour. to pay $35 a week child support to a woman who makes $150,000 a year. Unf~~~ing believable. I spent the weekend with a drug dealer pedophile, constantly moaning that he wanted to f~~~ his 16 year old girlfriend, s~~~ my own daughter was 15 at the time.

Then when I left jail, I wanted to walk to the lawyer office. I left my wallet and keys with the lawyer, and my phone was in the car. Lawyer had my car. I got lost in the town and wandered around all day in a suit and dress shoes, it was July, and it was 95 degrees that day. I was heat stroking out, my feet had giant blisters, no money, no food, little water. I found a hospital and collapsed. Yep, kidney damage, cooked, stressed, couldn’t walk, liver problems, low blood sugar, extreme sunburn, delirium just completely f~~~ed. I was in hospital for 3 days. They told me I had a temperature of 105, blood pressure of 90/50, and several other readings just so f~~~ed up.

For 6 months afterward, it was difficult to grow new skin on my feet. Just absolutely destroyed. Constantly bleeding, cracked, skin falling off. Looking at a map, I walked almost 30 miles that day. as the day passed, I felt worse and worse, more confused, and lost. Rage does not cover this s~~~. There was no reason for any of this. Absolutely no reason. Except I am a man, I am a defendant, I am a criminal, and I needed to be punished.

I didn’t have ID, my family had no idea what happened to me, all my phone numbers were in my phone, in my car at the lawyer office that I couldn’t find. I was completely f~~~ed.

not a happy week. stay away from women, stay out of divorce court. stay the f~~~ away.

Every time I went to court I lost money, time, freedom, health, time with my kids, and sanity.

I will never go back to that court.. I have nothing left to give except my life. Just take all my blood bitches, take all 5 quarts.

I have to go back on May 7, 2020 to end my court order to pay child support. I am not paying another dime after that date. I don’t care if I am held in contempt again. Done on that date.

I just can’t believe what the courts are doing to men in these “modern” times. Thank whoever you care to that I never had to go through any of it. Until these male judges go through this type of punishment will they understand and change their ways.

Women's brains and vagina have one thing in common. There is nothing in there until a man puts something in there.

[GargamelSpectator 29101]

You know why women want MGTOW gone?

Stories like yours are unforgettable and can’t be untold. They run through the minds of yet undamaged men who will think about you during sex and collapse immediately.

This is what makes me “undateable” in the view of women. I feel about my brothers and these stories are a boner killer.

I wouldn’t even get as far as shooting cum into her pussy. Too many thoughts in the back of my mind… And the fear of ending up in situations like that of May… And fear causes adrenaline, which in turn takes away your sex drive.

Knowing that sex is the way to hook you… Dealing with women is like the refusal to try heroin “for just once”.

Stories like yours make my knees weak when a c~~~ tries to “sell me love”…

Game over!

In July of 2018, this honey pot forum was sold out to an unidentified NPC sock puppet and troll organization. Most independent thinkers and writers migrated to other MGTOW forums as a result of the never-ending infighting and deliberate trouble starting caused by members who were given "carte blanche" by the admin to do whatever they want. Before my departure, I only left a few thousand cat pics here to comfort and ridicule the feminist owners who now run this place. Their background agenda is to make MGTOW look like a club of losers the public eye. And during the course of 2019, they actually managed to destroy almost all other MGTOW venues as well. Here is the truth about "theindependentman.org" aka "TIM" which was created as an extended workbench to further divide the community. When you register, they install a spyware Zombie cookie on your browser that does all kinds of things the user does not know of: http://www.filedropper.com/essay-on-the-removal-of-malware-cookies-used-by-tim

[xenonParticipant 2007]

May 7, your story always amazes me in it’s vast unfairness. Reading this installment I came up with one minor error I would like to point out. You are not a criminal. An unjust system has criminalized things to the point where they feel a right to label you as one, but you are not a criminal in my eyes. Just another victim of this s~~~ we all have to live with our own version of.

[Anonymous 43]

I managed to walk 12 miles out of this town in a random direction and didn’t perceive another human being, like I picked the one way out of this suburb that lead nowhere, still disorientated. I could go into restaurants but I couldn’t order food I was drinking water out of the bathrooms, but no food since 4 the previous day, a jail baloney sandwich and fruit juice, I was released before breakfast on Sunday morning.

I found my way back to town, found the lawyer office at 8pm and left my tie with my car, and wandered some more. I found a failmart and wondered if I could find a way to stay there over night, walking the store all night. My feet were bleeding through my shoes, I was leaving bloody footprints.

walking the failmart, pushing a cart to hold me up, I hurt so badly, still confused, not sweating since hours before, I walked out into the parking lot, and sat in a little grassy area, the sun was setting and I had no idea what I was going to do. I look in the distance, and I see a sign for a hospital. maybe three blocks away I went there, and laid down in some sort of lobby on a long bench and passed out.

I was told someone found me, I guess I was in a hallway near the parking garage, near the out patient area. and took me to the ER at midnight. I was out until Tuesday afternoon. The ER people cut my clothing apart, and had to cut off my shoes. No id, no phone, no keys, I was a guy in a suit who fell out of the f~~~ing sky, feet all blistered to hell, heat stroked, dehydrated, no food, bad vitals, bad blood chemistry, just f~~~ed.

when I tell you I have been completely destroyed by divorce, I mean stripped naked, I mean it. This was the suit I grabbed in the last minute of being in my house, my last possession from that life was cut away, thrown in red biohazard bag and incinerated. I started out on Friday in a green prison set of scrubs 3 sizes too big, and I made it home on Thursday in a blue set of scrubs with a blood stain on the shirt. I went home from the hospital later that week in hospital scrubs. I cried the whole way home, and didn’t move from my bed until the following Monday to report to work. I couldn’t stop crying and smashing my pillow in rage. I didn’t want to eat, I was absolutely furious, all I could do was squeeze a racquetball until my hands were numb. I was supposed to have my kids the weekend I was locked up. My fury was unending. I was planning on taking the kids to Chicago for a ballgame and a trip to a museum, and a bike ride on the lakefront path.

once I was awake I had the hospital contact my lawyer, he contacted my family. It had been thought that the c~~~ had picked me up and killed me, buried me in a field south of Chicago somewhere, but there was no proof. Nope, she and Chad had alibis.

I went home, told my employer what happened to me. He was glad I was alright. I went to work washing cars, with a cane.. every step for months was painful.

and yes, the next week I was called back into court for some bulls~~~ reason, or to check compliance on some issue. The damn court was always 3 complaints behind, and just could mot deliver justice without a discovery phase, a trial and a follow up finding. 2013 sucked out loud. That was the week I was ordered to buy a cart for our case, it was only 3 banker’s boxes at that time, and the clerk was tired of bringing our three boxes up from storage. All the day’s cases would fit in one box, then three was our three boxes. F~~~.

I’m back in this thread, I woke up screaming at 2something am thinking I was back reliving this day. Not the first time…I spent half of 2013 and part of 14 screaming myself awake trying to get out of those days. Another reason why I cant be with anyone, I wake up screaming thinking I am under attack, and lash out blindly.

My kids would sometimes hear me screaming and ask me about it in the morning, they thought it was a bunch of college kids going home from the bars, back to their dorm. nope, it was me. dying, walking through Joliet on a hot f~~~ng day. I hate that place with a hate that transcends time and distance. I hate that place more than concentration camps, more than gulags or ancient roman salt mines. If I find a nuclear bomb just materialized in front of me, I am programming that f~~~er to level downtown Joliet.

[Anonymous 43]

I remember getting the hospital bill a week later. OMG it was over $23,000. I was also given a form, for low income patients. Thank God for that, I filled out the form, sent my tax form, and they told me I didn’t have to pay for anything, and told me if I needed medical assistance I could receive free care for up to a year. I was absolutely blown away. When I can I will donate money to them, I guess there is a low income fund that people donate to. I’ll pay them back that way, I guess.

[Anonymous 43]

sorry,i am stillmessed up from this experience. I woke up screaming when I was living in a tent, I had rolled and wrapped up the tent around me and rolled down a hill into someone’s trailer and was thrashing around, I was cut out of the tent by a bunch of Mexicans with knives trying to help me, jabbering at me in Spanish, knives in hand, yeah that was pleasant, too.

someday I wont have these nightmares. maybe in a couple years.

that’s very kind of you to remind me that I am not a criminal. You are right, I am not technically a criminal. I did not break a law. I tried to comply with a court order and failed. in divorce cases, someone is the plaintiff, the one who makes the complaint and the defendant, someone who defends against complaints. Even if I had a complaint, I was referred to as the defendant. F~~~. While the c~~~ was given all kinds of latitude with the s~~~ she was doing to me, there was no wiggle room whatsoever for me. In the cases I watched with this judge f~~~wit, she let the women off easy, and crushed the men.

This is the s~~~ that no one tells you going through a divorce. There is a possibility that you will end up in jail for something stupid. I went to court every week for 300 weeks and was held in contempt once for a small thing. I can’t tell you how lucky I feel having been f~~~ed that hard once, and to survive the following week. Every day I wake up and I control the door locks is an excellent day. Everyday I left the courthouse in Joliet and smelled the diesel exhaust of the bus stop on the corner was a great day. Id walk over to the parking garage and gladly pay my dollar and be on my f~~~ing way. I had a whole stack of dollar bills in the car just for this purpose. OMG I spent more than $300 over 6 years in parking at that f~~~ing garage, they should have given me my own parking space.

[AttonParticipant]

You’ve likely lost more money I could ever make in my entire life. But some bitch brought to you to your knees? That sounds like some brutal s~~~ happened.

A MGTOW is a man who is not a woman's bitch!

[Manspread MansplainerParticipant 4222]

May 7 you have my respect for not going on a killing spree. I mean it man. Respect.

If women ran the world = It would become the shithole you are seeing.

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

I always though it was a wives tail until it happened to me. I was working on the roof of a two story house and when I turned around and my 2 year old was up there standing behind me. Climbed right up a fully extend 3 tier extension ladder. I hit the roof so hard with my knees they bleed. Now I know its a real thing.

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

Manspread Mansplainer wrote:

May 7 you have my respect for not going on a killing spree. I mean it man. Respect.

Just keep away from woman and moving forward there is place up ahead where you will recover from all this.

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

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