I stumbled upon this site quite by accident about 3-4 months ago. I believe I saw a link or reference posted in the comments section of another website. In any case, I’m glad that I did.
I’m a 33 year old guy, never been married, no kids. I suppose I’ve been lucky in that respect. I’ve also been lucky insofar that I was able to find this site just as my (now ex) gf was giving the hard push to make me her little blue-pill producer. I couldn’t believe it at first. How did I become so desensitized to things like her saying “Let’s go to OUR house”, or muttering “I always get my way….” under her breath. It scared the hell out of me! I started to realize that it wasn’t actually me she was head over heels for (pump the brakes on that ego!), but rather the idea of having a husband to pay for her to pump out 3-5 kids (this was her predetermined brood number). I saw someone on here say something about, “If you want to know what your future holds, just look at her father’s life”. Took one look and that was it. No way. So I split up with her, and it was extremely difficult. The tears, the fits, the accusations…but I had to keep reminding myself “She isn’t upset because you ‘hurt her feelings’, she’s upset because she sees her slavish meal ticket slipping away”. It’s hard to admit that you’re being played and manipulated. Nobody wants to admit it. “It’s easier to fool people, than to convince them that they have been fooled.”
I hate being so…cynical, but unfortunately all of the signs are out there. They say that man does not regularly think about how large the universe is, or all of the infinite possibilities that exist. And when we do, our brains filter this information down into little digestible pieces, because the truth is too f~~~ing vast and difficult to comprehend. If we were to always think about it, we would be perpetually paralyzed in fear/wonderment/confusion. I feel like in a lot of ways, the ongoing paradigm of love & marriage is the same way. We package it up nicely, throw some Disney wrapping paper on it, sprinkle some sugar on top, and convince ourselves that this is the way that it is; because to do otherwise is simply too damn difficult. And I think it works…most of the time. Until one day your life literally is torn to shreds because of your inability to come to terms with the cognitive dissonance that has been banging around in your head for the last 20-30 years. This usually comes to a head when the person who you thought loved you and would die for you, decides that her survival and reproduction would be better suited with YOUR money, YOUR house, YOUR car, and not…YOU! And this is not done in anger nor spite, but rather simple genetic programming, combined with our current set of social constructs of marriage, law, and ethics. To be frank: it’s f~~~ed. I do honestly think that this is all done intentionally in an effort to undermine the efforts and power of the common man. They want you to be docile, and such a system is perfect for keeping you in check. Teach a man from K-12 that every instinct in his body is evil, bad for society, and selfish. No swearing. No fighting. No back-talk. And little boys should ALWAYS put the needs of little girls ahead of their own. Then when he’s grown, if he steps out of line, and that results in a divorce….well then takes away his financial, emotional, and spiritual stability, and threaten him with jail if he can’t meet the sometimes outrageous monthly payments, and you’ve literally got yourself a nice little obedient slave. But I digress…
I have more to write later, but I’ve been delaying writing an intro for so long that I just wanted to go something out there. Thanks for reading.
Anonymous 4 years, 5 months ago.
