The Inward Journey

[Soul ManParticipant 1856]

I am 2 1/2 years down the road from my 2nd marriage.  That one was a humdinger I tell you.  That one really turned my world upside down.  I’m not exactly sure why because it certainly wasn’t my first rodeo.  However, I honestly believe there is always something good to come out of the smoldering wreckage of a personal failure…

The deep and intense emotional pain of this experience has led me to turn inward and self-examine in a larger more global context.  What is my relation not to just one person but to the whole world…the whole universe.  What is my real purpose upon this planet?  Am I here to learn something?  What IS reality really?  How can one live their lives in such an utter fraudulent paradigm as the one we are presented from birth?  Yes, self-examination has been a major aspect of my life these past couple of years.  I’m constantly having new insights and greater understanding of how  I, the world, and the universe functions.  I am an INFJ, which according to my reading, is one of the “rarest” personalities….only 1-2% of the general population I’ve read?  It definitely explains why I have always viewed the world through a different lens from most.  It also explains why I have gotten burned when I disregarded my own intuition.  My intuition is always spot on.  I can see that in retrospect when I refused to acknowledge the red flags in my path.

So now that I am at a point in my life where I have awakened to a new paradigm, I am now trying to figure out my relation to it and how it works.  It’s like being born again.  It’s a tad nightmarish…it’s a tad shocking…but at least I see the truth of my existence and the true nature of that which surrounds me.  I guess in some ways it’s a double-edged sword.  In any case, it has me looking at the world through a much different lens that isn’t quite so myopic.  I am beginning to see the interconnectedness of everything in this world and how one thing affects the next and so on and so on.  Some of it is good…some of it not so good…but I think in some way it is a means to some end…some grand plan that perhaps we cannot see in its entirety.  All I know is I am doing my best to raise my own self-awareness and give an honest effort to be a better person.  Perhaps in some small way I can affect a positive change in the world at large.  Maybe I’m just day dreaming.  I do know that bitterness and anger, like a couple of yapping, nipping chihuahuas at my heels, must be punted over the horizon in order to move forward and be a better person.

Just some random philosophical ramblings as I sit though yet another storm in Texas…

HISTORY...learn from it, memorize it, DON'T repeat it...

[Helen be DamnedParticipant 480]

Just a state north of you there, bud. You brought up an interesting question about the paradigm, of how we can accept the statis quo.. There are many factors I believe cause this.

A.) The sex drive hits pretty hard right out of the gate, puberty hits and your mind is almost always half consumed with the concept. You really kind of want it, even if it is something you don’t understand, because it is a positional good in many ways, meaning you want it because others have it. Your brain from a biological sense isn’t aware that there are reasons logically why that might be undesirable. All it is trying to do in many respects is keep you alive to reproduce.

B.) Few people don’t seek this, because it is in many respect an aberrant line of thought from the paradigm. You have to think, “I do not like this (this being dating, marriage, sex, or just being around women) maybe I should just stop. I’m not sure that success in this matter is really worth it.”

C.) You’ve known about people who didn’t want sex/relationships most of your life, monks and religious men, but because that was connected to the idea of the monastic tradition, you may have not thought that maybe the two could be separate in many cases. Obviously we here have been shown that in some cases it is possible to not seek sex. The concept of forgoing it as a testament of faith is also different from forgoing it because women are trying to control your life. Or just using them for sex.

D.) The blue pill lie, the one shoved down our throats. It’s a subconscious rhetoric for all who live in that world. Those who don’t comply are shunned, mocked, and in many cases hated. This is a topic that is discussed in a series of novels by Terry Goodkind, The Sword of Truth series, and his first concept is very enlightening on the subject. “People are stupid, they will believe a lie because they want it t be true, or because they are afraid it is true.” People believe that they must get married, they must have a relationship, the men must bow down to women, because they are afraid that these things are true when they aren’t. We see the destruction wrought from this lie, and we were able to salvage data from the wreckage. people cannot see their freedom until it is taken from them in many cases, and it is not something most of them are aware they gave yp, because they haven’t faced reality.

Those are some of my thoughts. Enjoy the rain while it lasts, assuming that it doesn’t carry you away. If it does, hopefully it’s someplace better.

"You can keep your soul, I don't want a cell-mate." - Them Crooked Vultures

[ILiveAgainParticipant]

When my eyes were first opened to ‘the lie’ I spent most of my time seeking …… something ….. answers or maybe cures.

It drove me insane. Once I discovered one thing ….. and a solution …. another bigger lie was revealed …. and so it went on.

I was awake every night in a state of confusion, anger or determination …. trying to figure it out.

In the end I realised the situation is far bigger then I could deal with. It would take an entire population to fix it …… and they won’t because they’re plugged in.

I can’t change the world but I can change myself ….. and maybe those close too me.

I strongly believe that the deeper you go down the rabbit hole, the greater your chances of coming to harm.

It is one thing being told a lie …. and dealing with it. Quite another when you discover your whole worth and value as a person is fiction.

I had to stop just to be able to live my life on my terms.

All joking aside ….. it can be very dangerous.

[foolsgoldParticipant 5645]

Unfortunately, I believed every lie in my blue pill days. Found out it was ALL lies after my divorce 9 years ago. Thought I was loved for who I was. NO, I was just a provider. Thought I had value to society. No, I was disposable. Thought I had value at my place of employment. No, I was replaced by someone that would work for 50% less and fill a quota for affirmative action. Thought getting married and having kids was the thing to do. No, that’s what everybody else wanted me to do. Thought buying a house was the thing to do. No, now I pay for a house I don’t live in anymore and will be paying for 7 more years.

Finding out these lies would have definitely rendered me homeless. The only reason it didn’t was because I had hoarded money over the years and had some hidden resources. I’ve never been a hoarder. Something just told me to start doing it. I don’t know to this day what it was. Waking up and finding out that everything is a total scam hurt like hell. I’ve come to peace with the truth because it is what it is.

[RoyDalParticipant]

There is a time tested formula. The ancient philosophers wrote it down, and it has been rediscovered time and again.

1. Recognize you are in pain. (In other words, take the red pill. This is a necessary, but not sufficient, first step.)
2. Determine the cause of the pain.
3. Determine how to eliminate the cause.
4. Take positive action: Eliminate the cause.

Society asks MGTOWs: Why are you not making more tax-slaves?

[harpo-my-“SON”Participant 2410]

SoulMan wrote:   It’s a tad nightmarish…it’s a tad shocking…but at least I see the truth of my existence and the true nature of that which surrounds me.  I guess in some ways it’s a double-edged sword.  In any case, it has me looking at the world through a much different lens that isn’t quite so myopic.  I am beginning to see the interconnectedness of everything in this world and how one thing affects the next and so on and so on.  Some of it is good…some of it not so good…but I think in some way it is a means to some end…some grand plan that perhaps we cannot see in its entirety.  All I know is I am doing my best to raise my own self-awareness and give an honest effort to be a better person.

I can relate to those words, but I have realized that everything I do to improve and make myself a better person must be for selfish reasons..Why I say that  is because apart from the very special people at this forum and close family and friends No one else will give a s~~~ about me.. Improving myself will increase the number of people interested in my well-being..But I am so skeptical about their motives now, that I find it difficult to trust that their intentions are for my benefit and not theirs..I never considered myself a selfish person in the past, but now that I am doing the kind of deep self reflection you speak of (finding shortcomings and overcoming them) I realize my time of life was not meant to be wasted on people who care little about knowing me for who I am..I also ignored what my intuition told me about others and their intentions…I would always trust and give the benefit of doubt…  SoulMan your intuition about others and their intentions regarding  you and your well-being should always be given great weight in future decisions..You want to improve yourself so your existence will have a positive and lasting impact after you are gone…(I feel this way also) But one must choose carefully who you let into that special inner circle of trusted, deserving, and caring friends…I know from reading your post I did not need to tell you this because the blinders are off and you are perfectly able to see people for who they are now… Good luck in your path of self improvement and awareness… Be selfish with your time of life and spend it on and with deserving people…Selfish is not living your life exactly as you wish, Its asking others to live theirs exactly as you wish…Your friend Harpo..

I was bound to be misunderstood, and I laugh at those who misunderstand me. Kind mockery at the well intentioned, but unfettered cruelty towards those would be prison guards of my creative possibilities. This so as to learn as much from misunderstanding as from understanding. Taking pleasure in worthy opponents and making language fluid and flowing like a river yet pointed and precise as a dagger. Contradicts the socialistic purpose of language and makes for a wonderful linguistic dance, A verbal martial art with constant parries that hone the weapon that is the two edged sword of my mouth.

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