MY FATHER REMARRIED 3 YEARS OUT OF A DIVORCE FROM MY MOTHER ( SADLY BECAUSE OF HER HAVING A STROKE THAT PARRALIZED HER ON HER LEFT SIDE ) YES MY FATHER WAS A CAD. IN NOT SO MANY WAYS.
MY STEP MOTHER WAS A BRIGHT REDHEAD THAT LOVED THE BOFONT HAIR DO’S AND PLENTY OF LIQUID NET HAIRSPRAY . AND AS THE TUMULTUOUS RELATIONSHIP BEGAN , ME , AN 11 YEAR OLD NO NOTHING FEELING LIKE A WASTE OF SPACE, CONTMPLATING ON HOW DID MY FAMILY BREAKUP AND DISSOLVE.
MY THREE STEP SISTERS WERE ALL NICE AND WARMLY LOVEY DOVEY AT FIRST, BUT I BEGAN NOTICING SMALL SHIFTS IN ATTITUDE AND FACEOULE EXPRESSIONS , AND JUST GETTING WORSE FROM THERE.
I DO REMEMBER ONE DAY AS MY STEP MOTHER WAS COOKING SCAPLOED POTATOES , SHE WOULD BE DIVING INTO THE FRIDGE AN AWFUL LOT, SHE WAS DRINKING BOXED WINE . WHOA, OK . THE MEAL THAT NIGHT AS SHE PLACED THE DISH HOT FROM THE OVEN, SCRAPE OUT A SPOONFUL AND PUT IT ON MY PLATE, I THEN NOTICED An HAFE OF A C~~~ROACH IN THE CASSEROLE DISH, I WENT INTO DEFENCE MODE AND SAID I WAS NOT FEELING WELL .
MY STEP MOTHER GOT UP FROM HER CHAIR AND BACKHANDED ME ON THE FACE, “YOU WILL EAT WHAT I PUT ON YOUR PLATE MISTER” I LOOKED AT MY FATHER FOR SOME HELP, YEAH HE WAS COWERING HIMSELF. SHE-FORCE FEED ME THE ROACH AS I BROKE FREE AND RAN TO MY 2 CAR GARAGE CONVERTED ROOM.
FROM THERE IT DID NOT GET BETTER, I REMAINED INTROVERTED NOT INTERESTED IN ANYTHING. STAYING IN MY COLD ROOM IN THE WINTER NO HEATER NO A/C HOT ROOM IN THE SUMMER.
ALL OF MY STEP SISTERS WERE REALLY GOOD LOOKING EXCEPT ONE GASLY FLAW , THEY ALL HAD WITCHES NOSES , I MEAN I BIG BUMPED RIGHT IN THE CENTER OF THIER NOSES, I AMEADEATLY SAW THAT I COULD USE AS AN ATTACK TO GET SOME OF THIS S~~~ OFF ME, AND EACH TIME I LOOKED AT THEM, THAT’S WHAT I WOULD STARE AT.
OF COURSE GETTING FLACK FROM STEP MOTHER ONLY AIDED MY CAUSE .
IT WAS ONE COLD WINTERS NIGHT , I GATHERED MY BLANKET AND PILLOW, GETTING OUT OF THE GARAGE ROOM TO FIND A FLOOR VENT FOR WARMTH, AH, I RESTED AND FELL FAST ASLEEP.
WAKINGING TO THE CRACKS OF TOES IN MY RIBS AS MY STEP MOTHER STARTED KICKING ME LIKE I WAS A FOOTBALL, DAMN BITCH I SAID , OH LITTLE JIMMY SHOULD HAVE KEPT HIS MOUTH SHUT. SHE PULLED ME FROM THE BLANKETS AND FLIPPED ME ON THE LIVINGROOM COUCH, SLAPPING ME LEFT AND RIGHT, “WHAT DID YOU CALL ME” OVER AND OVER AGAIN TILL I SAID IT ALOUD “BITCH” THAT JUST FUELED THE CRAZED BEATING ON. I WAS SOBBING BY THEN REALLY PORING ON THE WORKS, SHE LET UP, AND SAT ON ME, TILL SHE THOUGHT I WAS ASLEEP, IF I MOVED, SHE WOULD SIT ON ME. DAMN I’M IN A SPOT, WHAT CAN I DO. 12 YEAR OLD GETTING BEAT UP BY HIS STEP MOTHER.
I WITHDREW FROM SOCIETY, EVEN MORE, I WAS IN MANY AFTER SCHOOL EVENTS , STAR TREK FAN CLUB, CHESS FAN CLUB, I REMEMBER SAYING I HAVE OTHER MATTERS TO DEAL WITH, AS MY EXCUSE TO LEAVE.
THE STRAW THAT BROKE THE CAMELS BACK CAME ONE DAY I WAS IN A CHIPPER MOOD COMING HOME FROM SCHOOL, PASSING THRU THE KITCHEN , MY STEP MOM WAS MAKING SOMETHING, I WASNT EATING AND I SAID HELLO TO HER, BAM I WAS HIT WITH A BACKHAND AND WAS PUSHED OVER THE KITCHEN TABLE LIKE A RAGDOLL, LIKE AN IDIOT I SAID “WHAT THE F~~~ WAS THAT FOR!!!” KICKICKING SLAPPING AND ABOREUIS YELLING WAS THAT RESULT. AS I COWOREDLY RETREATED TO MY ROOM IN THE GARAGE.
SLAMMING THE DOOR SHUT AND LOCKING HER OUT. WHOA, I GOT AWAY FROM THE TYRANT OF MORRIS AND INDIAN SCHOOL ROAD.
A STERN KNOCK ON MY DOOR , IT WAS MY FATHER , PLEASE I BEG YOU TO LET ME IN. I DID. HE WAS CRYING, SAYING THAT I AM THE MAIN REASON HE IS BREAKING UP WITH THE STEP MOM, I TOLD HIM ABOUT WHAT SHES DOES TO ME WHEN HES NOT AROUND, NO MATTER ITS OVER. WOW HOW F~~~ED UP THAT WAS, BUT I REALLY DID NOT UNDERSTAND IT TILL MY LATER YEARS OF THE COGNITIVE PROGRAMING THIS BITCH DID TO ME.
FEAR OF JUST ASKING OUT A GIRL, LET ALONE EVEN KISSING ONE.
I’M KINDA GLAD I FOUND MY DAD’S STASH OF PLAYBOYS, AT LEAST I HAD AN OUTLET OF PENT UP EMOTION, BUT I LATER REALIZED I WAS BELITTLING WOMEN BUT THATS ANOTHER STORY FOR ANOTHER TIME.
I AM NOT THE 52 YEAR OLD VIRGIN, I HAVE HAD 10 SEXUAL RELATIONSHIPS IN MY LIFETIME. EACH TIME I WANTED TO GET SERIOUS WITH MY PARTNER, SHE WOULD SAY LET’S STAY FRIENDS.
IT TOOK ME 29 YEARS TO FIGURE IT OUT THAT FEMALES ARE TO EMOTIONALLY INTANGLED WITH TO MUCH TANGIBLE STUFF IN THIS WORLD . INSTEAD OF STAYING INTANGLED WITH YOU.
THAT’S A MOUTH FULL.
LILITH IS THE HEAD SUCCUBUS AND SHE LIVES ON THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON
The Manipulated Man 2 years, 1 month ago.
