I’ve been meaning to do this for a while now, but it’s a long story and I want to trim it down without losing too much others may find valuable So here it goes. I was raised in a far right wing, and heavily traditionalist household. I was raised Mormon which is a mind-f~~~ to say the least. My mother had some mental issues somewhere in the bi-polar spectrum with a heavy dose of an explosive disorder. My home was inhabited by a screeching abusive banshee on a regular basis. My father silently struggled with PTSD since he was drafted to Vietnam, they both had issues and without bashing them I think it is fair to say that neither of them should have had any children, they had nine anyway. I was a younger child in the long line.
When I told my father I was going to be the first male son to not go on a Mormon mission because I wasn’t really sold on the religion myself, he made it clear that I should find somewhere else to go, so I enlisted the Army. I served my time in co-ed units nearly always being under the command of several females in varying levels of the chain of command. To make a short story of it, I would not wish a female NCO on anyone; just f~~~ing awful. Also I have glossed over several of the more typical MGTOW events: manipulative relationships, depression, recurring suicidal impulses, and a host of gender double standards I experienced before, during, and after my military service. Including a girlfriend who got pregnant and had an abortion against my indoctrinated wishes, she was such a whore I strongly suspect now that it wasn’t mine in the first place; so dodged a bullet there.
I got married as I prepared to leave the army, but that only lasted a few years before she walked out on me. Typical story, she was everything I wanted and sexually insatiable before we were married. After the “I do’s” she became aggressive, abusive, nearly-celibate, and all-around intolerable. She decided to try to reign me in by playing the walk-out game, and I was so tired of her s~~~ that I let her go. I filled out and filed the divorce papers myself and never involved a lawyer. She signed the papers without drama, the divorce was clean, and again I dodged a bullet.
I was going to college and had a good deal of feminist propaganda and lies pushed on me, it took me a few years to really start to dismantle those lies (but at-least college did help me free myself from the remaining threads of religious dogma that were stitched into me). Every relationship I had was toxic and I removed myself from the dating pool for a few years. I was enjoying being single until I was snatched up by another Chameleon. This one was an older single mother so she tried extra hard to keep up the facade, but it broke too early and she quickly became highly controlling.
I was disillusioned with it when I finally first saw the MGTOW acronym online. It described what I was doing before the single mom got her claws in me. It was the life I wanted back. I became more aggressive in disagreement with her, knowing she wouldn’t tolerate her lap-dog disobeying his training. It worked like a charm and she closed the door on the relationship. It was my plan to have her leave me as a precaution to her getting the rejection-rage. Another bullet dodged. So by some miracle here I am divorced with no alimony and no kids. In short I am now a single, happy, stable, MGTOW. I have no interest in dating and have not had any in quite some time, I intend to remain a MGTOW-Monk for the rest of my life. Thanks for reading through all of this. I hope it might help some of the younger guys know that even when it seems dark and hopeless there can be value in struggling through another day – each day.
NO WAY 4 years, 9 months ago.
