Surprised by Joy

[Two Time WinnerParticipant 1090]

My night job is delivering pizza 3 to 4 night per week. I work the closing shift on Saturdays, 6:00 pm to 2:00 am. Last Saturday was a warm day/night and I pulled up to an apartment complex around midnight. After finding the correct building I stepped out of the truck and took a deep breath saying to myself “I love summer nights”. That got me to thinking about why do I like summer nights. Driving around all night gives you some time for introspection. So I thought of the summer between high school and college. This was in 1972 and I and a group of friends all had late 1960’s muscle cars. We all worked in local restaurants or motels and got together after we got off work. We would head down to the lake and drink beer, smoke a joint and bulls~~~ each other. Sometimes an outsider would challenge someone to a drag race and we would have that. Other times we would spend most of the night there catching catfish and cooking them on the bank of the lake.

My divorce was final on March 26, 2018. I didn’t realize it but she and the marriage were a black cloud that hung over me for a long, long time. It took the peace, sense of well-being and yes, joy from my life. I was Surprised by Joy, to borrow a title from a book by C.S. Lewis. I was surprised to rediscover that feeling. It came from being 100% in charge of my own life, I can do any damn thing I please, within reason. No wife to shame, bitch, criticize or complain about what I have done, are doing or could do. I’m going to be age 64 this year and I now look forward to the future and consider what I want to do with the rest of my life.

I was married for 24 years and dated for 5 before that. I regret not ending it much sooner but not going to dwell on that, since it can’t be changed. If there are some younger married men on this site and you wife has robbed you of the joy in your life, do something to get that joy back, it makes all the difference.

TTW

I ain't got a wife to spend my money, I have to do that all by myself.

[Anonymous 13]

Joy literally burns out pain.

Combine joy and freedom and it’s an awesome combination.

[Anonymous 1]

It doesn’t take much to be content. You have been programmed to believe otherwise. I have been fighting to make things as simple as possible.

Forget the ego, forget the high pressure job. Your life is yours to live. Things are so much easier now that I am mgtow.

[ArcturisParticipant 2819]

Two Time Winner wrote:

I stepped out of the truck and took a deep breath saying to myself “I love summer nights”.

Nice post TTW. Indeed, It’s the little things in life <3

Protect Your Sovereignty. Women WILL TRY To Manipulate You. #NOCONTACT #ICETHEMOUT

[Anonymous 54]

Getting away from a woman, feels as good as getting out of jail
Hell…better!

Im with you on the warn Summer nights.

They are what I live for.

[Two Time WinnerParticipant 1090]

Anonymous wrote:

Forget the ego, forget the high pressure job. Your life is yours to live. Things are so much easier now that I am mgtow.

That is the next thing I am doing. Currently my day job is the Chief Financial Officer for a company doing over 225 million in sales a year. With commute my work week is 60 hours or more per week. Total high stress between financial reporting, dealing with creditor banks, being the buffer between my employees and owners/managers. High blood pressure is in stroke territory some days and I take 3 types of medicine in trying to control it.

I applied today for a work from home accounting job that has positions that you work anywhere from 20 to 40 hours per week, your choice. Also searching for part time jobs that are within a few minutes of home if that doesn’t come through. Will probably take a 50% pay cut but the money is worthless if you are paralyzed from a stroke. Been in a cheap efficiency apartment for the last 9 months, and I found out that I don’t have anywhere near the expenses that I had when married. Can get by on a much lower salary and have more fun.

TTW

I ain't got a wife to spend my money, I have to do that all by myself.

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