Suicide

[SpacemonkeyParticipant 1481]

Not the most happy of topics I’ll grant you but has anyone here considered suicide? If so why and how did you plan to do it.

I thought about it once, many years ago but only as an abstract thought experiment kinda deal. I came to the conclusion suicide was the ultimate form of masturbation ( I was ripped to the t~~~ on LSD at the time )

I guess if I knew I was going to die of some f~~~ing awful degenerative disease where I would finish up some drooling bag of rancid s~~~ dependent on others for every single humiliating biological function I would probably pop my own cork. I have heard drowning is nice, and I like the sea so thats how I’d probably do it.

“Long is the way and hard, that out of Hell leads up to light.”

[KeymasterKeymaster]

Spacemonkey wrote:

Not the most happy of topics I’ll grant you but has anyone here considered suicide?

I’ve asked myself the question but the answer is always no. I think everyone has “thought about it” to some degree (like “could I ever?”)…. but I have never seriously contemplated it – even at the lowest point in my life.

I just don’t accept “defeat” to the point where I would pack it all in. Defeat picks me up and p~~~es me off too much.

Spacemonkey wrote:

came to the conclusion suicide was the ultimate form of masturbation

Some people say suicide is “selfish” and “cowardly” but I don’t see it that way. Certainly not “cowardly” I think that must take some serious courage depending on the how and why. But is it selfish? No more selfish than those who think a man should go off to die in war. Now that’s selfish.

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[RockmaninoffParticipant 1641]

Thought about it? Sure. I think about lots of things.

Considered it as an option for me? Never. I love life too much, and I have so much to look forward to (all the pleasures I’ve experienced and want to experience again, all the pleasures I haven’t experienced and want to later), so much stuff that I NEED to do, that the thought of my committing suicide is so discordant with my personality that it doesn’t stay for very long.

EDIT: Should mention that I have thought about what would make me want to kill myself. Being permanently and totally blind would probably drive me to it.

". . . elle, suivant l’usage des femmes et des chats qui ne viennent pas quand on les appelle et qui viennent quand on ne les appelle pas, s’arrêta devant moi et m’adressa la parole"—Prosper Mérimée

[MonkeyMindParticipant 5340]

Yes, i think everybody contemplates it at least once in their lifetime.

I’ve been there a few times in my life, only once did it come way too close to me actually going through with it. The irony is that i took an accidental overdose around the time that i decided not to go through with it, i can remember laying on my bed thinking about calling an ambulance while my breathing was getting pretty shallow and i found it hard to breathe, everything was getting really hazy and i was 100% certain that i wouldn’t wake back up if i fell asleep, all i could think about was how much of a stupid f~~~ i was for OD’ing. I was never the same person afterwards, for good and bad reasons. Facing your own mortality that way is one f~~~ed up experience.

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