Hello MGTOW, I took some time before writing my introduction because I want to be really sure about what to say and in the correct way.
I’ve been lurking for some time (since this January) on the site and just reading and learning from your stories and comments because I am really careful about EVERYTHING and especially signing on sites and forums.
I first rode a lot and listened to the files, video made me discover Milo Yannopulos and after that I started to take my daily dose of red pill from youtube viedos as well as the forum treads.
Then I realized that i f~~~ing wanted the black MGTOW wallpaper and the chance to share my experience with you or giving some suggestion by commenting on the forum.
I’a 32 Italian man, I’m a P.hD candidate in Environmental sciences, made studies of molecular biology and biotechnology. I consider myself quite intelligent and successful in what I do.
I’m always gone my own way and being very curious and inquiring I’ve always been put down from feminists (you know that 99% of teachers in Italian schools are either feminist, communists or at least pretentious ignorant women?) and from all the people that couldn’t understand me while trying in all way to brainwash me.
none of their tactics worked.
I’ve seen my father (a good father, a loyal husband, a very charismatic and friendly person) destroyed in divorce by my mother when I was 14 yo, she put lawyers in the middle to obtain my father house, they wasted so many money in divorce court that we suffered a considerable decrease in living conditions. From that moment I said “no marriage for me”.
My mother, who initiate the divorce, still can believe that I understand what happened and don’t stand for her against my father. Sometime she broke in tears and start swearing at me all the possible insults that a mother should never say to his son. I couldn’t care less of your failures in life, mom, I’m a MGTOW now.
Ah, and btw, she was the one that hit me when I was I child, for every reason, stupid or not. This gave me the impulse to not believe anyone but myself and be always rebel. Injustice is something that I can’t stand and if someone try to trick me I put him/her in the deserved place.
I Had some gff, long time “serious” relationships, which I will describe in a separate post, and a lot of casual sex in my twenties. Meanwhile I started to learn about MRA and anti-feminists, while being a blue-pill white knight, gf bitched a lot about that.
They always tried to change me into a simp and a relationship emotional slave but suffering from one relationship to another in all the possible ways made me think about going totally without women. because they love me as I am at the beginning, free, hard, alpha, “don’t give a f~~~ guy”, then when I’m with them I should change and become their servant, doing whatever they wanted and more, never being satisfied (so she can have more).
Then at some point I had a revelation. I was really stressed out from this soul-crushing relationship and I was on the edge “or I left the little-hitler or I commit suicide”. Decided to go to a huge festival to have some relief and good time with my bros. Still could not take her out of my mind. s~~~!
at some point I have been suggested to take LSD during the festival. I knew that this drug have the power to free completely your mind, so I thought what’s the difference now?
The first and only experience with this drug and the meditation that followed completely changed my view of the things, it opened my mind to my own self and to what I really want for me, and that I didn’t deserve all the bad things I received in my life from women. (hey I’m not suggesting to anyone to take drugs! I’m against. but for me that worked)
Soon after I left my last gf and embraced MGTOW. no compromises. no relationship. no sex. no f~~~s given.
since then I feel really happy, satisfied and free
now my only contact with girls is trolling them with tinder.
Mencken 3 years, 3 months ago.
