Oh, this should be fun. Recalling all the f—ed up, blue pill behaviors I’ve exhibited over the past 30 years.
Probably like most other men raised in families that over-stressed respect for women (at the expense of men) I bought into this BS. Of course it seemed to morph into shoveling their crap while doing my level best to maintain a sense of dignity.
Maybe I’ll go with the Reader’s Digest version since I’ve seen so many “good men” (on the forums here) who’ve done the same for decades to try to keep the peace. You know that part of the story.
I’m the son of a line of military officers and became one myself. I guess you could say, “Son of a son of a sailor”. During my last year at a service academy Dad paid an unexpected visit to inform me he was leaving my mother. I totally understood why; she henpecked him relentlessly. He always took a stand but during my previous holiday leave I noticed he no longer stood up to her crap. I thought he’d simply thrown in the towel and resigned himself to a life of s~~~-eating. He was done alright. He never bad-mouthed her but years later did confide that she was awarded 51% of his 30-year military pension. What BS.
So a few years later I did what every young man is encouraged to do and I got married. 13+ years later she engineered an argument on vacation, left early with the 2 kids, and changed the locks before I could get home. WTF? It took some investigating to uncover the infidelity (with a married friend of ours) which is an amusing story in its own right but I’ll save that one.
She used an amazing phrase to explain the separation/divorce to friends, colleagues, anyone who would listen to the woman-victim. She told people, “we had physical difficulties”. Left to the imagination I was either an abuser, a cheater, or impotent. Perfect cover.
Thought my life was over (FinallyAwake, this is for you) and decided before I blew my brains out I would go for a good long walk and see how I felt. I hiked 500 miles of the AT and returned after 5 weeks (lawyer told me to get my ass back to town if I wanted shared custody) feeling like a new man. I was lucky and did get 50% custody.
Quickly went through a succession of girlfriends and then, of course, I found a NAWALT. Yep, married her and the 2 additional kids that came with her. Had to. I was living the perfect life as a single man, seriously perfect. I just had to f— that up.
After current wife’s ex owed me/us a few thousand and little-to-no action on part of wife to get re-paid I pushed back and slowed the outflow of my cash. Wow, did that change our marriage. Once you start taking away resources they just don’t ‘love’ you like they used to. That began a down slide over the past several months and then she ‘moved’ into the spare bedroom.
Ever the Blue pill man, “I still love you and want this to work”…she’s not sure. Tried everything. Moments of weakness I’d crawl into bed with her looking for a starting point. Rejected. Rejected. Rejected. That’s painful. Kept trying and kept losing my dignity.
Then I found MGTOW dotcom, read “The Manipulated Man” & “Men on Strike”, listened to Tom Leykis, read these forums, Keymaster, MGTOW Knight, Old Bill, many many others dispensing wisdom. Lightbulb, aha moment after aha moment. It all makes so much sense now.
So I paid a visit to my lawyer and started the process. Handed her papers last week. Wife comes home tonight like she’s been sucking on a lemon so she must have spoken to her lawyer. By the grace of God she works and still owns the place she had before we got married <5 years ago. No alimony for her. She’s so disappointed. Honestly, she looks like she hit the wall over the past 5 days. It’s a beautiful thing to recognize. My eyes are wide open now.
So this will suck for the next 4-6 months but I’m out. Time to start deer hunting, SCUBA diving, and taking ski trips with my sons again.
Wildwalker57 2 years, 4 months ago.
