Some of my logic

[Anonymous 9]

20 years of living in a power struggle with a stubborn German Canadian woman had left me beaten down. The final straw was the 3rd week night out until 4:00 in the morning. I felt something was up.  When I confronted her on the third night I got something along the lines of I wish you were dead and the only feelings she had for me were hate. I lost my s~~~. Faked a suicide in a darkened basement. F~~~ed with her mind some. Came to the realization that NO woman is worth taking your life for. Those were some dark days.

I sought out a counselor to find some answers as to what was happening to me. Marriage counseling, mental health and addictions counseling. I even got a library card and found the self help book section. I sought for answers. At first to try to save the marriage but after a while it became more of a growth thing. There definitely were issues I had. Still do but I deal with them.

I read about abuse and control. Had the term control freak tossed in my face. My logic however skewed it might seem:

– some women want a man to take charge and control them.

-some women want to be made to feel special. if I’m trying to MAKE you feel special I’m trying to control you

-some women aren’t happy and want to be entertained. if I’m juggling for your amusement am I not trying to control you.

Be careful what you ask or don’t ask for.  If I’m damned if I do or damned if I don’t I will choose don’t as I have found it to be cheaper.

 

 

 

 

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