Hello all,
Just another guy finally registering to the forums here, and also probably being a MGHOW for years, without knowing it.
So, I’m 30 years old, who a couple years ago finally had it with relationships, and quite honestly having had a good time since then. But first to the possible trigger I suppose. It’s almost 9 years since I’ve had a long and serious relationship, which I funny enough went into, with quite good finances and hopes for future education but when spit(ended) out of that, I was in debt and broke as f~~~, not to mention of being several months in a deep abyss of depression. I today, think I got off easy and early to my own fortune, seeing women in a very different way.
Luckily, when I emerged from my deep, self dug, hole of depression, I started the usual stuff, I suppose, working out, connecting with old lost friends, drinking, fooling around, and stuff but no interest in staying at the same place and growing roots, I suppose this was me blowing off steam after being rather caged for 3 years.
Had several on and off things, till around 2010, where it just started to click that I really didn’t want to hunt women but just try be myself, for myself, and see what happens, there were still friends with benefits, don’t know if this is MGTOW way or not but it set the grounds, for me noticing a very important thing. I felt more relaxed and comfortable, when I was just doing my own thing, and it struck me, I was more lonely, when I was with female friend(s), than when I was alone, just playing some games, with other single guys, or working on some personal project/hobby.
During the years to come, I would get asked, many freaking times, by friends in relationships and family, about love interest, and whether I was seeing someone new, and that it was time I settled down. I gotta admit it first felt uncomfortable and a little shameful but as time passed, I really didn’t care at all and more be proud of being single, I would still flirt but without any interest of dating. Mostly because if I wasn’t at home, had my tablet/laptop with me, or to a party where it was all about social stuff, I guess I flirted simply to kill time, if that’s to be believed?
My big Red Pill, was when I lost a promotion prospect, it really jump started me, until then, I only thought of moving up and some more money. I was angry at first but it turned out to be my big red pill moment, I wanted to be my own, delved into programming, editing programs, and other tech stuff but settled on some old past dreams and aspirations, drawing… Sounds stupid but I somehow don’t really care that much, other than it just brought my own self critic back, as in School I got the awards and all, so I always keep getting reminded what I could have achieved in the years I didn’t do anything.
I hope, I don’t end up, like the dog who finally caught the car it chased, then didn’t know what to do with it, again.
Sorry for my long post of possible complete nonsense, but I hope I’ll stay here for a while, couple years+, and set up camp too, and enjoy some beers with fellow MGTOWs.
Cheers
– Burgundy
Burgundy 4 years, 11 months ago.
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