S~~~ LIFE

[DARK BEAST GANONParticipant 16]

I’m very fortunate to exist at a time when many men have realised their lowly place in human society — slavery. A few of these men are geniuses, and some of them are kind and noble enough to spread their anecdotal and/or objective scientific evidence regarding gynocentrism in our society as best they can to other males who are willing to listen. My childhood reflects the works of Bar Bar, Stardusk, and Metaphysics of MGTOW on male disposability and the complete disregard society has on the overall well-being of men in general.

I would say that my childhood was relatively stable and peaceful up until I was about 12 years old: I had good relationships (I wouldn’t call them friendships) at primary school and during my first year at secondary school; I indulged in my interest in ancient maps/atlases and various histories of great civilizations (especially the East Asian civilizations of Japan and China); I had good times playing multiplayer video games with my siblings — my younger (and only) brother and my second eldest (bitch) sister — and playing outside in the garden with them. However, at around age 12 my mother suddenly changed, and what was once a relatively peaceful childhood quickly degraded throughout my teenage years — by the time I left for university I lost most of the hope and enthusiasm for life I had during my formative pre-teen years.

As my parents grew more distant, and my father spent more time at work, my mother and sisters targeted me more. I had my games consoles destroyed, my history books ripped apart, I was forced to do everything from cleaning the floors to hanging out the washing and going to the shops to buy groceries. My mother would encourage my sisters to beat me up and generally harrass me inside the house. When my father came back from work their ire would be directed at him. Fortunately my younger brother avoided much of the abuse hurled at me until I left for university a few years ago.

My mothers’ abuse turned racial during my later high school years as she was jealous of my academic interests: she’s a Black female, my father’s White, and I’m mixed race. My mother would call me a Nazi if I wore black boots, she’d call me an uncle tom for being interested in learning various subjects/topics in history and geography, and she made sure everyone in the house thought I hated myself for being mixed-race. I never had any close friends — even today I spend most of my time alone — as she would threaten to do things if I went out: for example, she would say she’d go to my ‘friends’ houses to embarass me, or go to the high school to say I’m a mentally unstable self-hating racist to my teachers and the headteacher. However, I was never really bothered about friendship for some reason, and at this point I still had quite a few history books, atlases, and games consoles to keep me sane that I managed to buy — I managed to preserve and protect some of my older games consoles from my sisters — in my late teen years.

A few years before I started university my parents divorced while I was still at college. For various reasons I was distant from my father at this point, but I don’t want to drag this introduction for too long to explain why. When I left for university the abuse shifted to my brother. Before I left my brother wasn’t too well mentally, but his condition deteriorated rapidly after I left and now he’s pretty much given up on life. I want to do something for him, but I’m worried it may be too late before I’m in a position to do anything worthwhile to improve his mental and physical state. My relationship with my brother has been an ‘on and off’ one.

I gave my mother thousands of pounds from my student loans and grants during my time at university as she’s welfare/benefits leech. She would be nice for a short while after all of the times I paid money into her account — I wasn’t used to her ‘niceness’ which was most likely fake — as would my sisters, but just a few weeks after I had transfered money she would return to being a bitch and act like I never did s~~~ for her — Briffaults Law in action. There were times when my mother was ‘good’ and ‘helpful’ to me, but she did not deserve the thousands I gave for those few times.

Towards the end of my undergraduate course — I’ve finished now — I realised that I still love history, but I don’t want to focus on it for the rest of my life — and who wants to spend most of their life reading about how other men achieved great things. I want to make something of myself, but everything I’ve been through has pushed me towards a place I don’t want to be. I was on course to getting a first class degree, but, after thinking about my postgraduate life, I realised that what I could do with my degree will never satiate my desire for more, so I slacked off and will likely get an upper second class degree. I’ve made an application to join the Army as they provide free courses for those who join — it may only cost your life. Life is short, I don’t believe that there is an afterlife, so I want to do something that will at least do some good and is different from what I’ve done in my life so far.

We need more forums like this one. More men need to be aware before society can progress further beyond its current s~~~ condition.

I think the only reason I’ve ever wanted girls is because I COULDN’T HAVE THEM. However, once you realise just how little females have to offer -- nothing at all -- THEY BECOME INVISIBLE. You shouldn't centre your entire life around feelings.

[Jan SobieskiParticipant 28791]

Welcome home brother!

Love is just alimony waiting to happen. Visit mgtow.com.

[globemasterParticipant 443]

My friend’s mother hated him because he had his father’s face.

[Ronin De NiroParticipant 200]

Welcome. Thank you for telling your story. I had similarly bad relationship with my parents. Figuring out the issue my father was easy, by I was still feeling as a villain with my mother. Getting in touch with MGTOW in a sense made things more clearly (I would give more credits to some material about “narc” parents, but one thing led to another).

[FrankyParticipant 2338]

Glad you made it out of there in one peace man.
Thank you for sharing your story with us.

I wish your brother good luck.

[Anonymous 42]

Hey Gannon, that’s one hell of an introduction man! Home life was a living hell for you! There’s few other guys here that went through the “mother and sisters from hell”, you described perfectly my long diseased and bitter grandmother, My father had no sisters, but she put him through psychological hell, he joined the airforce when he was 17, I think the city would have destroyed him if he didn’t get out and fly around the world and see much more than he would have ever seen.

I think you should follow your gut instinct and go into the military, I would recommend to first get a pilots license if you want to be the cream of the crop, and not the grunt down near the bottom. They’ll advance you in your certification and supply everything! Go in certified for a Piper Cub, Come out certified to fly multi jet engines. You sound like the kind of person that deserves some time in a positively structured environment surround by intelligent and worthwhile people, think “cream of the crop” I believe you have what it takes.

Welcome to MGTOW, where the psychological abuse finally ends…

[UntamedParticipant]

Thank you for the intro, Dark Beast Ganon, and welcome!

Don't let them Blame, Shame or Tame you!
Give 'em NOTHING, not even an answer!
#GenderSegragationNow!

[Anonymous 54]

Welcome Dark Beast! I too survived a violent mean mother. You are not alone here.

[Anonymous 54]

globemaster wrote:

My friend’s mother hated him because he had his father’s face.

I look like my father. Man did i pay.

[Blue SkiesParticipant 15665]

very well written intro.

welcome sir
i’m glad you found the path to freedom
enjoy the website and the forums

cheers–

MGTOW is not a movement, it is a way of life.

[MGTOWmonkey aka No More Fucks To GiveParticipant 6635]

Anonymous wrote:

globemaster wrote:

My friend’s mother hated him because he had his father’s face.

I look like my father. Man did i pay.

I couldnt believe how I was treated because I looked like my father she once loved.

Never lose sight of what brought you here.

[NeroParticipant 1466]

I was also mistreated by my mother, because I look like my father. However, I dumped that toxic bitch out of my life, and I don’t regret it one single bit.

[experiencedParticipant]

Nero wrote:

I was also mistreated by my mother, because I look like my father. However, I dumped that toxic bitch out of my life, and I don’t regret it one single bit.

Great insight!

Looking back, this isn’t the first time I’ve concluded that my “dad” would punish the s~~~ out of me when my behavior reminded him of my mom. When you grow up cringing, waiting for the next blow, or literally LOL, not cringing and then regretting it when you were caught by the blow by surprise, you blame yourself. Years later, when objectively putting the pieces together, you see things for what they actually were. A key point when examining things is to consider who may have been “absenting” themselves from the situation physically or by “blowing up” when any communication by the child was attempted. These are not my ideas. I read them from a psychologist and agree with them because they snap into place quite crisply. One parent abuses the kid-the other knows full damn well that it is going on and removes themselves from the picture, or if they missed the event, when any attempt is made to describe it, they go through the roof on the kid.

"It seems like there's times a body gets struck down so low, there ain't a power on earth that can ever bring him up again. Seems like something inside dies so he don't even want to get up again. But he does."

[DARK BEAST GANONParticipant 16]

Thanks for the replies.

Old Sage said: “I look like my father. Man did i pay.”

When I was younger (until my mid-teens) I had fairly light skin, and my mother said that I must have inherited most of my fathers traits due to said light skin and my interest in learning. I’m not sure why she thought that — she’s probably too retarded to realise that Blacks can enjoy learning.

When I returned for Christmas in 2013 (after my first semester of my first year at university) my second eldest sister commented on how much healthier my skin looked — she said it looked like it was glowing. After just a week of being away from my family I had a healthier diet, my concentration improved, and I regained some of the enthusiasm I had when I was younger. It’s unfortunate that I realised far too late that my degree is s~~~.

I think the only reason I’ve ever wanted girls is because I COULDN’T HAVE THEM. However, once you realise just how little females have to offer -- nothing at all -- THEY BECOME INVISIBLE. You shouldn't centre your entire life around feelings.

[The_YoungParticipant 1073]

I think the only reason I’ve ever wanted girls is because I COULDN’T HAVE THEM.

Glad to see someone read my introduction, haha.

Welcome home brother, thank you for posting your story. I’d love to hear about you and your father anytime. Or your plans for the future.

Never stop your love for history. It’s a great interest, and all it takes is reading a good book. It will keep you much happier than a vagina ever could.

Brother, we need to stick together.

[DARK BEAST GANONParticipant 16]

Anonymous wrote:

I think you should follow your gut instinct and go into the military, I would recommend to first get a pilots license if you want to be the cream of the crop, and not the grunt down near the bottom. They’ll advance you in your certification and supply everything! Go in certified for a Piper Cub, Come out certified to fly multi jet engines. You sound like the kind of person that deserves some time in a positively structured environment surround by intelligent and worthwhile people, think “cream of the crop” I believe you have what it takes.

My vision is too bad to join the RAF. I wanted to be an infantry soldier but my vision isn’t good enough, so I decided to join the Royal Military Police. You’d think the Royal Military Police would be my first choice, but I was (and still am) completely fed up with life when I made my application. I don’t know what the overall opinion on ‘being prepared for death’ is among MGTOWs, but I feel prepared to die. I don’t want to die and I wouldn’t go out of my way to try and kill myself, but knowing that I most likely wouldn’t know I existed — as I would cease to exist — after death has put me at ease. Does anyone else feel this way?

The_Young wrote:

Glad to see someone read my introduction, haha.

I used to watch 3d CGI Japanese porn called Umemaro 3d when I was younger, and I thought that real women’s vaginas were like those I saw in those Japanese porn videos. However… I was wrong. Once I finally decided to look at “real life” porn I was immediately disgusted by the sagging vaginas, the cellulite, and all the other bits on a woman that look disgusting and pathetic. My limited desire for women — limited to sex — was completely obliterated after watching several “real life” porn videos. I couldn’t even go back to that Japanese cartoon porn as I had the images of those “real” women flood back to my mind whenever I did. I think — but not sure– that I’m now an undistracted asexual — I hardly ever think about females anymore.

I think the only reason I’ve ever wanted girls is because I COULDN’T HAVE THEM. However, once you realise just how little females have to offer -- nothing at all -- THEY BECOME INVISIBLE. You shouldn't centre your entire life around feelings.

[DARK BEAST GANONParticipant 16]

I’ve also noticed that females seem to be getting a lot taller and bigger lately. In the university I attended, a lot of the female students were around 5’9, and I came across many other females who towered over me — well over 6′ it seemed. I don’t know what it’s like in the USA, but in the UK it seems like there’s a convergence in average male and average female height.

I think the only reason I’ve ever wanted girls is because I COULDN’T HAVE THEM. However, once you realise just how little females have to offer -- nothing at all -- THEY BECOME INVISIBLE. You shouldn't centre your entire life around feelings.

[VarunParticipant 2981]

Welcome to the MGTOW community, brother. I feel for you that you had to ensure an abusive childhood; and people think Cindrella stories happen to girls only, right? F~~~ed up double standards!

I am glad you are a history student; if you think a graduate degree in History is not a good option, I’m not gonna say anything other than this: there are a lot of options for history students now than before; one of my nieces just completed her Masters in History and now she’s a fresh Associate Professor drawing a good salary; something that would equate to $75000 in US (or 66k euros in the UK).

But our decisions in life are ours t make; that’s the beauty of it! Though I don’t know much about the Army over there in the UK, I could tel you one thing: someone in the army, who was a history student before, would become a very interesting person one day.

Hope you have fun here.

A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush.

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