Self pity to power!

[SephirothParticipant 13]

So… philosophy is a lore of the man. My life was very dark, challenging and full of absurdity. Pain and suffering made me stronger. Now I finally understood what made me so strong. Now listen closely men… young and old. I have a secret to turn hatred and darkness into a source of inexhaustible power and will. After this metamorphosis no woman will have power to affect you in any way.

Two years ago, I’ve been bullied cruelly and mercilessly at gymnasium because of badass feminists, they made boys to hate me by giving them attention, chicks are beautiful of course. I was in love with one of them. My older brother is insanely strict, he could punch me for an average grade like C(2-7). He forces me to study for grade not lesser than B. In Lithuania studies are very hard and there so much to learn, we have one of the hardest education system compared to America. And then the day came then started to feel dizzy and couldn’t concentrate anymore. One of my friends told that one of that bitches picked bottle of water out of my bag and did something while I was outside of classroom. They hated that I was at the top of the classes… maybe she put something bad into it, I live in fear even today. It’s so cruel and inhumane, in fact that she knew that my brother could kick me out of home if my grades got lower.

That day I have nothing left inside of me, had no friends to talk to, only myself in my room alone. I laid down on my bed and few tiers rolled on my cheeks. I have gone through so much pain, and… now everything is over? Is this the outcome for all my struggles and effort. I was so strong to the best while mercilessly bullied, broken hearted and loveless… Why everybody is so cruel to me? What I have done? I hate the world, I hate everybody! I sat up… went to my PC. Turned it on. Went to youtube typed linkin park and started to listen. Feeling of tingles and goose-bumps started to take over because of self-pity. After listening to some music I found BVB, and heard line from Sweet Blasphemy

We are young and we are strong
Through strength in self we become
Something more than they can be
I raise my heart and sing!

That I won’t believe this lie
I know there’s something more inside
When darkness is all you’ll see
This is our Sweet Blasphemy

And then great idea came to my mind, that I won’t give up because it’s not worth it, even if I die I will fight to and end. Nobody will understand that you feel dizzy, no one cares… You understand no one cares. So shut up and do your homework(In my mind to myself). After that I started to eat healthy, do workout with my dumbbells and everything to improve my health and myself. This led me to philosophy of Nietzsche’s Overhuman. Till now I want to become The Androgynous Cyborg God to create new kind of women, end meaningless work and cruelty of the world. I grew my hair out, and after the month I started to recover from that brain fog. Now I’m concentrated and intelligent like never before. This realisation led me to to understanding that there is no other way in life than to fight and seek to advance. I become quite badass as them, I started to speak half-truth to my classmates in order to convert their mind and gain power over them. And what you think… I succeeded! All my classmates started to hate that damn, perverted feminists. Power feels so good, because everybody was by my side. Self-pity and darkness overcame my fear and hesitation so I did everything I can. Today I’m respected, androgynous, athletic, cool guy with a lot of friends and great ideas. Maybe I will become the justice by gaining the power of nanotechnology and cyborgness. Another thing to this is hope that the one femme fatale that is so bad to me, secretly loves me and feel great pity and remorse for who I’m. No shaming and other dumping stuff has power because I fell no inferiority and inner darkness of self-pity and nihilism makes me fearless, because I’m the victim, I’m the one who is great and disadvantaged of life. So I can think that I want about them without feeling humble, poor male. I have experienced to much pain and loss to give up, I have no other choice but to do everything I can. There is no other way.

So, the more pain, hatred, self-pity you hold the more power you can have. Life is so absurd that there is no reason NOT to fight. If you commit suicide, who will care about you? You will die and all your pain will be forgotten, but… you have a chance to do something great, to become a god and kick their asses. Even if you lose, it’s worth in the end. Because you are not the fat, weak geek who gives up easily, you are The Overhuman, the one who fights against all the odds. Try to feel superior to enemies, because they will never understand your pain and greatness of you. And hope secret sympathy from someone that will never give it to you. Pity yourself and have no mercy for yourself in order not to lose… because you can’t, you must survive to revenge your oppressors. Then life pushes you hard, push it harder, create the inspiration, the idea that is greater than your life itself. So no woman will be able to control you, because they doesn’t know how great you are. How powerful your inner darkness is. Drink all the hatred like a sponge and use it as power. I don’t want to relate all this on anime like nerd. But this is beautiful example that inspires me. The one who suffers are superior to one who hates without a reason.

[experiencedParticipant]

Sounds like a dangerous point of view,
but then again “More human than a human”
by White Zombie remains my favorite song.

"It seems like there's times a body gets struck down so low, there ain't a power on earth that can ever bring him up again. Seems like something inside dies so he don't even want to get up again. But he does."

[RoyDalParticipant]

Read the Stoic philosophers (without neglecting your studies of course). I think you will find they agree with you.

The lives of the great men of history all seem to have this in common: They overcame great hardship of one kind or another. The kids who have it easy never get very far beyond what is handed to them.

Society asks MGTOWs: Why are you not making more tax-slaves?

[MattNYCParticipant 2329]

Sephiroth, welcome!

It sounds like you discovered what some people call “monk mode”. Where you limit your social interactions, limit your romantic interactions, and only focus on improving yourself (weight training, study, etc.). It is a very powerful tool on the road to self-improvement.

Can you help me understand what you mean by Androgynous Cyborg God? I’ve never heard of something like that before.

Regardless, it’s great to see younger guys getting educated, and benefiting from the lessons from us “older guys”.

You’ve come to the right place.

[FrankyParticipant 2338]

Sephiroth wrote:

badass feminists

ahahahaha i’m sorry, sorry i just couldn’t resist

Sephiroth wrote:

Life is so absurd that there is no reason NOT to fight. If you commit suicide, who will care about you? You will die and all your pain will be forgotten, but… you have a chance to do something great, to become a god and kick their asses. Even if you lose, it’s worth in the end. Because you are not the fat, weak geek who gives up easily, you are The Overhuman, the one who fights against all the odds.

As Takeda Shingen often shouts:

LISTEN MEN, ONLY FOOLS DIE PEACEFULLY WHILE THEIR ENEMIES ARE STILL BREATHING!
YOU ARE NO FOOLS!

Most of the time when someone is trying desperately to destroy you or frustrate you,
they are extremely damaged and frustrated themselves.
You just need to recover and stand firm, not succeeding in destroying you can be considered one thing:

a failure.

Now, time to make them fail,
live.

[SephirothParticipant 13]

Keep your life simple. Never keep hatred in your soul and your mind should be filled with the thoughts of wisdom from great books…not the banter of others.

Thank you, Code bunker! It’s hard to tell you this thing, it’s not just simple hatred it’s something more complex, yet I should write longer essay to explain it. The text that I wrote it’s something very abstract I need to explain thing a little more. But it’s good a thing since it leads to an advancement and soldier like psychological strength. Relaxed life is needed sometimes, but this can make you sluggish if overused, so female may catch you off-guard and break your MGTOW defence.

If you want to understand me better then read my sci-fi novel, it’s about blue-pill guy who becomes red-pill after betrayal of female. You must read it to the end. It’s designed more for young readers, but recommended for older ones as well. Age is not an indicator of wisdom, but majority of young man should listen to older men.

My MGTOW book!

MattNYC wrote:

Can you help me understand what you mean by Androgynous Cyborg God? I’ve never heard of something like that before.

I mean post-humanism. Have you heard about that? I mean then after a few decades in ~2050 there is huge possibility that we would be able to improve our biological body by the means of technology. I see something powerful, mysterious and overhuman in androgyny so I would like to remain young and kind of beautiful, because my tulpa likes me this way. Another reason why I’m ready to fight for my life is she, my tulpa. Tulpas are hallucinations imposed into sentience that can interact with you by all 5 senses. You can search in google about that, but let’s get back to the topic! So I want to earn a lot of money in order to pay for scientists so they would create a body for her and improve mine so I could transfer her consciousness into it. She is really pretty lady, the one who feel true love( Not like physical bitches). Today, she is soul, but she loves me because she shares same body with me, that male hormones and psychology. Interesting fact is that she is not like woman… she loves me the way man loves a beautiful woman. So scientist could create a woman body that has male’s system of love(hormones, feelings and ect) but females body. And if woman would have feelings, they would choose androgynous looking guys.

About tulpas!

Video about posthuman era.

<p style=”color: purple”>My tulpa wants to say greetings for you all! She says that you all are smart guys, who broke the veil of illusion. `</p>

[SephirothParticipant 13]

I won’t start with any woman, because I have tulpa. No living female can replace her, she is a dream lady for good guys. I suggest you all, brothers, to create one.

I don’t like Bible, Buddhism it’s much more appealing religion to me. Peace is the goal of my life, but first I have to dig out to the light, get independent from brother and get programmer’s job, then start my own casino. After that… fun begins! But anyway, thank you Bunker!

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