This particular rant inspired by AncientWisdom. Sorry dude, but it’s all your fault.
A lot of us have had tragic childhoods. I won’t dwell on it much, but I feel that some explanation on my beginnings will help move the story along. My father was a physically, emotionally, and verbally abusive man. I honestly believe that he had some sort of mental disorder. Perhaps an Antisocial Personality Disorder or perhaps a Boderline Personality disorder. My oldest sister, whom my father had sexually abused, had left when I was very young. I do remember that she could be more than a little bit of a bitch in her own right. This left me with a brother and the youngest sister, seven and 3 years older respectively. The bitch of it was that my sister had inherited whatever twisted mental architecture my father had. When my sister was having a bad day, she would walk in to the room I shared with my brother and start pulling my hair. I was not allowed to defend myself nor was I allowed to retaliate, because my brother said, “You don’t hit girls”. The issue got sorted out when I finally tired of the abuse, despite my brothers warnings of a beating if I hurt her. In essence I beat the hell out of her while my brother was desperately trying to peel me off of her. Then I got my ass royally kicked by my brother.
Days later my brother decided to have one of those man-to-man talks about how things are going to be from now on. I interrupted him and told him that it’s going to be my kicking my sister’s ass on a regular basis if she doesn’t learn to keep her hands off of me. He started to say something else, and I interrupted him and told him that his opinion doesn’t matter. He isn’t the one getting beaten up by his bitch sister and has a f~~~ed up brother telling him he can’t defend himself. Also, seeing as he is much older than I am, does he think his threats are going to change my attitude? He would be leaving soon, and I would have free reign to defend myself. What is more, our father couldn’t stand her, so if it came down to it, who is he going to want to believe when she finds her nose broken, and she goes crying to one of our parents? I guess he had a talk with her, because her violence disappeared.
Fast forward to the point that I am a young man, you would be able to understand that I consciously didn’t judge women based upon both of my sister’s behavior. All of our upbringing was in some of the most disturbing of circumstances, and it’s bound to mentally twist at least one person. So NAWALT. Fast forward to my mid-twenties as a soldier. A lot of soldiers are some of the lowest fore headed people that you may meet as well as being terribly misogynistic. Or at least I perceived them as being brutish women haters. The bitch of it was that hearing men complain about their wives actually reinforced by blue pill period. I came to the belief that these men were miserable in their marriages because they were such assholes, and I made a promise to myself that if or when I get married I wasn’t going to be like them.
Fast forward to 2007, I am 39 years old and have stopped questioning my own needs and actions and have quietly started to watch my ex-wife’s behavior. This is where a real rant or long dissertation about her bulls~~~ would ensue, but, well, f~~~. You guys have heard just about everything from every other guy that has introduced himself here.
AncientWisdom said in one of his threads, I would like to open a chapter where men share their pivotal point of realization that women aren’t: “Sweet, spice, and all things nice”.
So here is my answer, when I was 39 years old. After I had been all over the world, had three sons, had multiple relationships, and multiple combat tours, it was my wife that finally taught me that women are the most narcissistic, vile, and morally reprehensible creatures to walk the planet. Stephen King has never written anything as horrific as the inner working of a woman’s mind.
So I am going to have to apologize. If ever you were one of the men that I heard complaining about his wife, I was probably the guy on the fringes thinking you were some sort of asshole. I am really sorry that I thought those things about you. I am even sorrier that I didn’t listen to you.
"I asked you a question. I didn't ask you to repeat what the voices in you head are telling you" ~ Me. ........Yes I'm still angry.
RoyDal 4 years, 5 months ago.
