Red pill rage and depression

[crushhighlanderParticipant 239]

Hey guys, I was reminiscing somewhat right now after observing a YouTube video of a fellow MGTOW who was somewhat ranting of his depressed feelings and that reminded me that back in the day I used to feel p~~~ed all of a sudden without having clear why. I now conclude that I had somewhat of a red pill rage at the obvious bull of society and the gynocentric crap we’re exposed to, but I didn’t have it clear yet. I am curious as to how you felt when you first had such rage. I personally feel that it is the hardest part of becoming a MGTOW.

No more hassles, no more nonsense, no more drama. Long live MGTOW!

[Anonymous 42]

I got my red pill rage 18 years after the fact and after exploring the manisphere, I laid in bed and stared at the ceiling (couldn’t sleep) for what seemed like hours! 18 years prior I just cut the cord and decided to do life alone and on my own terms. The rage came after understanding why.

[NerdTunnelerParticipant]

Its like when you are tired and dreaming good but the damn alarm is just so noisy that you have to get up or be late for an appointment…You wouldnt know your bearings initially and cranky at having to get away from the warm and soft bed…Still you wake up because you are responsible for your life and intend to live life to the fullest however grumpy you woke up….

I am still at the grumpy stage but I can somewhat see the alarm and mashing it to shut up so I can sit down and think in peace on the next step…Breakfast or shower?…My choice…

I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...

[Anonymous 54]

Hateful of women.
Resentful.
Wanting to fight back.

Once you get to acceptance, its pretty easy.

Acceptance is a funny word.

At first you fight it. Interpreting it as approval.

But thats not it.

You give up the desire to correct things.

You aknowlage that you cant.

You cant change womens true nature.

But you can change how you react to it.

Indifference and apathy being the goal.

[iMickey503Participant 12465]

It will still come back to you in waves if you add children to the mix. Its odd, but it still comes as a freight train. It stops you from doing anything for me. I think I need to have my doctor prescribe me more adderall to keep focus. But then what happens is that sometimes, it just drives you to focus on NOTHING but the hate, and you a have to be careful of that.

Pain is like the drug some people choose to wallow in ..

They make pills to deal with it. But really, most men just self medicate themselves to sleep. I know popp has. Its a military thing I guess there. But I know plenty of people who do this.

Sometimes you get lucky and find a way to focus it in positive ways.

But for me, I still get it. I get so Angry looking back, it like I find out something new everyday.

Its disheartening. It’s cruel really. The only thing that helps is the truth. That is why women lie.

When you let go of treating women like men, you then get around to learning everything they do and say is a lie, you feel a whole lot better.

It does f~~~ with your mind. But then we really are born into a reality that is fake from the get go. And you just have to learn that what your mind and heart see is just not what is there.

The break from what is and what you see or feel on the surface of what should be is the first stage of the Red Pill.

Then you get to a point that you go.. WAIT. ALL OF IT WAS BULS~~~! ??? NOOO…

And then you hit a Mid Cliff. And then it just comes up and down in surges.

You have your triggers. But what makes you rage is up to each man. Most of the time, it is someone asserting control on your life.

Or trying to take away your freedom.

But Mostly, it is the big hole it leaves in your heart when you realize it was all for nothing. That everything you put into it was just an empty drain. There is no getting it back.

I think the worst for me is that I paid all this money, gave most of my life away, and all I got was nothing in return.

And then the betrayal of not only freinds but so called family.

That is why MGTOW and our brothers are a blessing. No matter what is said, it is there truth. No matter how bad it is, at least you know it is the truth. And a man can live with that.

Bad news is life. Truth is life for a man. Its hiding in the shadows, and the facade that drives a man soul to the brink.

Its almost like a man who had his cup full as a boy with god, and then waking up one day and realizing that there is no god that offers you safety and security, and all your prayers and wants just dry up.

Is almost that bad. Maybe more.

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[Anonymous 38]

I’m over the rage but whenever I deal with a woman for any longer than a couple of months, I feel the anger returning. You start thinking again that it must be due to your own lack of development. A fully mature and confident man wouldn’t let small things bother him, right? The problem is your red pill awareness gives you a hair trigger for any BS or red flags, so in a way it’s worse. You’re caught between wanting to blaze her out and ruin things from traumatizing her, or keeping ‘cool’ but seething under the surface. Inevitably, the anger comes out. That’s when you see the shock on their faces, that they actually have to be accountable. So my mini casual relationships don’t usually last more than a few months now, which is the point at which she realises I can’t be f~~~ed with, controlled or tolerate an ounce of BS. Luckily, I don’t really care as by this point I’m looking forward to getting back to spending most of my time alone.

The replies above mine are excellent.

[Truthseeker82Participant 6406]

After rage, at least for me, came acceptance and peace. I still suffer from depression but its separate from anything the blue pill world shoved at me. I focus on myself now and laugh at the s~~~ show around me as much as possible.

[Anonymous 0]

Well, I started to see, notice and realize all that s~~~ starting from kindergarten, but it required a pretty long time to set all pieces of puzzle into one picture.
It was ongoing process of search for truth, accompanied with angst, hatred, disgust.
And because of that, I think, I felt somewhat different kind of red pill rage – distributed and extended in time, not spiked one.
At some moment in time (at late kindergarten / early school years) this feelings of red pill rage had been changed on interest of investigator.
It was important for me to understood reasons why, how, etc. by myself and for myself.
Several years ago I found manosphere, and for me it was adjustment of details about how exactly all of it happens.
The real deal was period of time, when I was deciding for myself what exactly I’ll do with all of that, what my own special way would be, how I’ll be going through it, and it’s constantly ongoing process too.
What I got then and have now – relief, NFG, my own special way.
So, I think, the earlier mghow get used to acknowledgement of red pill facts, the earlier he’ll get to its full scale usage.
And I don’t mean a one-time full dose exposure – that would be very painful.
Would it be more productive to set a course of step-by-step red pill exposure instead of shock therapy?
Maybe it would be helpful for you, guys.

[Prophet MicahParticipant 1972]

Very reasonable for a man to experience rage after coming to the conclusion we all have come to except. Key is to channel that rage(what I refer to as Righteous Anger) into something constructive and meaningful to you. As for me I like to channel it in my home workouts(personal health), screaming/growling(scares the c~~~s on the road) to my music while I drive and shooting guns.(maintaining my marksman proficiency)

No Wife - No Strife

[NomadgParticipant 249]

I don’t remember where I read it, but it goes something like this…”you can either love women or understand them. Once you understand them you realize there is nothing to love” I still wrestle with that at times and it does make the rage come back. I so wanted to believe everything I was indoctrinated to believe when I was young. Acceptance as was stated above is the final step. I don’t like it, but I accept it. My life is 100% better now even though I can never turn off my red pill lens. I apply it to all aspects of life not because I want to, because I have to.

It's never to late to be what you might have been...

[TrailbossParticipant 1844]

Slaves always react once they realize they have been slaves. For some, slavery was all they ever knew: they become institutionalized to it. I fall prey to it now and then…once I became free and realized I was just a slave all those years, a slave to the societally induced programming of attaching myself to, and killing myself to support, a useless, idiotic, vapid walking vagina with an empty head called a “wife” I get angry or depressed that I fell for it. That I didn’t learn the truth sooner. But then I wake up and realize “I AM FREE”! I am free and I can do what I want now, for ME! F~~~ them and their programming! #MANOUT!

An educated, armed populace cannot be enslaved.

[xanthineParticipant 4903]

It’s something i have dealt with as well, but i think I’m over the worst of it. It lasted years and at times was very hard to deal with, and even now it still comes back occasionally.

I think the turning point is when you realize and accept that you can’t change anything. As difficult as that is, once you do it you will see a whole new world of possibilities. You’ll have to give up on all your blue pill fantasies and programming of course, and realize that those expectations were never realistic to begin with. They were illusions that were programmed into you so you could be exploited later. But if you don’t follow the script, you can do things you never thought possible. Literally anything you ever wanted to do with your life, every dream you’ve ever had is 100% yours to pursue for the rest of your life.

It is all about adapting to your environment, and for western men it is a very harsh environment indeed. But once you’ve adapted, you’ll have a huge advantage over your blue pill counterparts. And the predators you would have been vulnerable to will no longer be a threat to you. Once you start to achieve your dreams and goals, and experience the freedom of being MGTOW, your rage will start to fade. That is when you really start to see and feel the benefits of your lifestyle choices.

[Nomad82Participant 612]

Anonymous wrote:

You give up the desire to correct things.

You aknowlage that you cant.

You cant change womens true nature.

But you can change how you react to it.

Indifference and apathy being the goal.

This.

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[TwistParticipant]

iMickey503 wrote:

It will still come back to you in waves if you add children to the mix.

This.

I would have given my life to protect my children. But I never saw where the danger would come from. F~~~ her – that was a blessing. Lies, deception, betrayal – thank you very much and have a nice day. But the kids…

Pure evil. Done without even blinking.

Years on now – it really doesn’t get any better.

[WestcoasttrendkillParticipant 234]

It seems like I wake up as a different person every day. It’s kinda weird. Some days, I go the entire day without thinking about it. Some days, I have a feeling of acceptance. Some days, I remember all the negative things and I get angry. Some days, I feel apathetic and like I have no control over anything. Some days, I just shrug my shoulders and think, yup.

I was stuck in a toxic relationship. It’s like when I wanted to get away, she wouldn’t leave me alone. When I wanted her, she treated me like I was demanding and needy. Of course, she always knew how to dress when she came over to ask for money.

I have this sort of half thought out theory that being in love or feeling love for a woman is like being a drug addict. You give in to them and then feel like s~~~ when they go. Try and quit and then see what happens. It just gets worse. I had to move 2500 miles away and there was still trouble dealing with it.

For me, it was a lot of dreams. Weird dreams that I would try and dissect and get the true meaning out of them. I still get them every now and then. As time goes by, it does get a little better and easier. I just hope that it doesn’t take forever.

I have found peace being on my own these last few years. Sometimes walking away from everything and going somewhere, where nobody knows who you are, is the best thing to do. Having a fresh start.

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