Prolonged depression = The black hole in the mind

[AntipathyParticipant 4901]

How many guys here have experienced year after year of depression ? When i say depression, i don’t mean bouts of feeling down, or bouts of sadness. But rather i mean a condition that goes on for years, where you merely exist rather than live. I mean the kind where your levels of energy are so low that you lay down to stretch and end up laying for hours partially asleep, yet partially still awake, while knowing you need to get up and do something, but you can’t find the strength.

Even routine things like collecting trash from your bedroom, or getting ready in time for work, become a daily goal, rather than a passive routine. Perhaps your short term memory begins to not work so well, and mild confusion and inability to focus take hold. Your sleeping patterns may be allover the map despite having a set schedule. The drive to have a hobby, or go anyplace you don’t have to, ceases to exist. Maybe you only buy food you can microwave, because cooking is too much time and energy.

These are some of the things i notice as i go day to day, and year to year. I’ve noticed little details in behavior change once in a while, but the overall status remains the same. It takes every ounce of energy just to maintain the most basic lifestyle.

If anyone else here is the same way, i don’t know what to tell you other than do your best, and try not to get too frustrated with yourself, because sometimes your best efforts, will seem a thousand miles short of where you aim to be.

[MGTOW_MikeParticipant 6253]

Opt Out,

When I was at university I had depression for several years. Those years were the most darkest of times. I was studying electrical engineering, which has a failure rate of %66, and I struggled for 4 years. After that I studied mining engineering for another 4 years and got though that. When I had depression, I remember for a year or more I could feel pressure in my head and feelings in my chest fluctuate up and down. It was like being on a roller coaster that continually goes up and down and feeling the g-force hit your chest. I never took any medication during those years, but what did help was changing my studies at university. I guess it was the underlying pressure to study hard and eventually find a job. Day in day out I would catch the bus, which took at least 1.5hrs each way. I was mentally drained.

Surviving through each day was a tough challenge. Most people these days are too “busy” with their chaotic lifestyles they are pursuing. It has become utter chaos and we need to step back and breathe. Long time ago, society was not like this. Now, we don’t even know our neighbours. Things are really going downhill and we need to jump off this bandwagon before it crashes at the bottom the canyon.

A tranquil mind is neither happy nor sad, it is uninfluenced by external conditions.

[joetechParticipant]

I went through 5 years of it right after I got out of the Navy. I was heavily involved with marijuana which made the problem worse. Once I got off pot and started to change my environment things got easier. I also used the VA to get outpatient counseling which helped tremendously. I have to also credit wife #2 who helped me embrace my hobbies and kept me clean. Staying off drugs and associating with good people were the best medicine for me. It was hard getting through those years, but time is a good healer. My emotional problems were real, not imaginary. Getting help was the key.

"Don't follow in my footsteps...I stepped in something."

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