Okay…. so I fell off the wagon tonight.

[ViciouscunningtreacherousParticipant 823]

I’m at the country bar where I like go and well decompress. Sitting listening to music on my head phones. Minding my own business as it were. Two fems come over and ask me whether I’m listening to political talk or hard rock. Strange. I said in a nfg way, I’m listening to Angie-smoke weed eat pussy. (Sorry for the lack of the umlau). One of them knew who it was and they said they had a bet because they see me listening all the time. So transparent. So. I said to myself “alright,I’ll play”. Not too long and two of them are rubbing against my arms and flirting. And suddenly I realized that I was sucked in. I started actually listening to what they were saying instead of focusing on getting laid. They were as dumb as boards! I quickly realized that I was a target. Not just a guy. The hottest one wanted to staple a dollar bill up on one of the crossbeams and asked to help her up onto a chair. I did. Then she pretended to be unstable and “fell” into my arms. All I could think was ” how pathetic”. Yes she was hot but I thought “no, not worth the squeaze”. Paid my tab and drove home. I’m sitting out front in the cool night air feeling good about myself. It’s getting better but I’m still tempted. I guess it will always be there. I have concluded that I need to do crazy stuff again. It’s the only thing that makes me feel alive. Hey Sky-O, take me skydiving!

For in much wisdom is much grief, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow.

[AposematicParticipant 2671]

Ya shouldn’t sky dive as a pilot ubless the plabe seriously breaks….

Afinogyny.. from the Greek Afino {to abandon/ to set down/ to leave /to allow/ to let } + Gyny {Women} MGHOW’s philosophy to not engage women without “hating them”. Narcorca =Narcissistic Orca typically spouting to a bathroom mirror taking an arms length selfie ; Wallinate describes post wall females whose SMV is terminally negligible New Years resolution "To not make women happy" . Instadestitue: yet another Neologism for Men that cohabit with women that decide to pull the handle of intervention orders.

[ViciouscunningtreacherousParticipant 823]

I’ll remember that, thanks.

For in much wisdom is much grief, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow.

[CarnageParticipant 22113]

Remember this is not a sect.

We are not AA.

You can’t fall off the wagon here, unless marry or knock up some slut.

Is MGTOW, go your way.

To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.

[ForeverDoneParticipant 2928]

Nothing wrong with getting it in dude. It’s a basic need. Just remember the old Indian proverb. Ahah oal cum to dee. You do not go into her tee pee without a condom on your pee pee.

Words to live by.

[sidecarParticipant 35837]

Did you marry one of them?

Did you impregnate one of them?

Did you let one of them move in with you?

No, no, and no?

Then you didn’t “fall off the wagon”. On the contrary, you saw right through their scammy bulls~~~. That sounds like winning to me.

[Anonymous 12]

[uchibenkeiParticipant 7965]

I don’t see any issue with banging women. Just be careful with your spunk. Some guys go monk mode, but that’s not for me.

I bathe in the tears of single moms.

[G.O.A.TParticipant 1459]

Dude, there’s no wagon. Even if there is one, I’m not on board.

I do what the f~~~ I want.

Life is about having fun.

Money is God.

[AwakenedParticipant 35203]

What EXACTLY did you do ??

In a World of Justin Beibers Be a Johnny Cash

[SH3LLZParticipant 5569]

Pump and dump dude. You’re fine. Just don’t let a vagina attach itself to your wallet under any circumstance.

#ICETHEMOUT
#MANOUT
#HIDEYOURWEALTH

#ICETHEMOUT!!! #MANOUT!!! #HIDEYOURWEALTH #VAGINAISWORTHLESS

[MonkParticipant 17035]

Viciouscunningtreacherous wrote:

Yes she was hot but I thought “no, not worth the squeaze”. Paid my tab and drove home.

Looks like a win to me.

[ViciouscunningtreacherousParticipant 823]

I think I may have turned the corner towards monk mode. They just seemed so unappealing to me. And all I was doing was being flirty and gregarious. I’m kind of ashamed of myself for getting in that position which is why I said I fell of the wagon. If only they could be picked up without having them talk…

For in much wisdom is much grief, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow.

[ViciouscunningtreacherousParticipant 823]

So it’s been a few days and I’ve digested the occurrence previously mentioned.
1. I’m still horny as ever and am so hungry for it.
2. I still check out women and want to f~~~ them.

However…

There is now in my mind this voice that is audibly performing the essential cost/benefit to the situation. I had 4 women of varying ages jockeying for attention and at some point in the conversations, there was the deal closer moment when all I had to do was suggest we get out of there and it would be on. I got to that moment 4 times and 4 times i backed out of the deal. Not because i was attention whoring or teasing or seeking vengeance. It just didn’t seem worth the trouble. Perhaps it was because of the sum of knowledge and experience gleaned about female nature,hypergamy,hybristophelia,the hive etc; they just don’t seem shiny and desirable anymore. I began to question whether I have lost some virility or potency or am I showing my age or what? No. It’s just that I value knowledge more than anything else. Pussy was close. Real close. But no. I can’t deny experience and observable truth and evidence and shared stories from the brothers. So. I find myself in a kind of limbo. Ironic and quasi painful. The less I truly care, the more women show attention and desire. The more they do that, the more I say “what if?” “Maybe…?”

But. No.
I have realized that when I look at them I’m more turned on by what I fantastically project onto them more than what they can actually deliver. The creeping reality interceded and I saw them as I always should have seen them. Like a rose. Pretty but not much else. It is a profoundly sad ascension but one that cannot be avoided by the rational thinking man. Stepping up the ladder and mourning the loss of the fantastic dream of love and happiness, up into the altitude of sovereignty. Another acceptance of disappointment that reveals a betterment of unknown value. The reality for me is that I don’t know right now that I would pass up a woman of my specific tastes for a sexual encounter, but in the vague recesses of my mind I know I need to get to the monk mode. The journey continues…

For in much wisdom is much grief, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow.

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