Hey brothers.
About 6 years ago, I would never consider myself being MGTOW in the future. Untill February 27, 2017, I was that stereotypical idiot, whom many of you call a “nice guy”. I would do everything for my GF, sacrificing my free time, hobbies and life for her. Oh, and I was really doing it. For those 6 past years I gave up all my personal life while dating 3 girls that I cosidered as a possible life long partners.
In my life I’ve had exactly 6 relationships + 7 girls for sex. Not a high number, but as I wrote already, I was a nice guy. No love, no sex, that was my motto. But only the last 3 girls influenced my life and a view on women.
The first one (2011 – 2013) was a classic example of leftist artist with no knowledge of capitalism save “it makes life bad”. She was a virgin and she clung to me as a leech. All girls I ever dated were beautiful, but this one was… not that kind of girl. She was pretty, yes, but not beautiful. She was also kinda psycho as she called herself an artist, but her works were and still are s~~~. I found out that with a girl like this I would never achive anything in my life – just living that “artist life” with no money and leftist ideas about utopic society while wearing a Che Guevara t-shirt and begging others for a free cigarette… just pure bulls~~~. When I broke up with her, she threatened that she’ll kill herself. Sure she did not. She became a SJW, which is much worse.
The second girl (2013 – 2017) was different. A fashion designer with a lot of potential, beautiful and wild. The problem was, I was so nice that her wilderness absorbed all my personality. She never cared about me, only about her, her work and her family. I hate this. I was never a family type of a guy, but this was really too much. Anyway, I loved her so much that I was able to be blind to this. I was doing everything – cooking, celaning the house and dishes, shopping groceries and stuff… and she was just sewing, seweing and sewing, preparing fashion shows etc. She never cared about me. She hated my friends, my music, my work, my everything. I recently watched a video by Howard Dare and realised how stupid and weak I was to let it grow so tragicaly high that I lost all my respect and became a ruin of a man I was before. In February 2017, I was diagnosed with bladder cancer and went to hospital for a surgery. I survived, but somethign in my life changed. I found something different in me, something like… a new point of view on life. I broke up with her since I knew I’ll never be able to live with her and be happy at the same time. She was also flirting with her ex and acted like it was nothing, but sure I was not able even meet my old time friend just because she is a girl!
The third one (2017) was so in love with me, but… I just could not push myself into it. I knew that I don’t want her, and actually… that I don’t want any other girl. In my mind, I just saw spending my money for her, crippling my intellect and sacrificing my free time to care only about her. AGAIN! So I quit. I quit relationships.
After the last one, I felt very free and happy. Not because I was single, but because I knew that being alone, I can now do everything that I wasn’t able to do in the last 6 years. All my hobbies were back and nobody complained about it.
Sure, now you can judge me and say that I was not strong man enough. I was and I am strong, but… those f~~~ing girls! That’s the problem. Girl number 2 cheated on me, I was ready to leave her, but she just used her perfect body and tears to persuade me to stay! Classic girl.
So, this is my story. Enough is enough.
Sorry for my english, I did not use it for a looong time.
Cheers.
phoenixgod1995 2 years, 7 months ago.
