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[CommodoreParticipant 11]

Hi guys! Just created an account here, my friends recommendation. Well, my short story. I crew up in countryside of Finland, traditional farmer family. Interested in basic stuff, computers, wars etc. I got my anxiety about the countryside, as many others, and moved on my own when I was 16.

I think I was somehow different, geek guy. Went to study tv/radio stuff, tried to be “artistic” which I wasn´t at all. Then I tried to make impression to females somehow. I changed my style to fit their “artsy” expectations. This was the point when the bells should have ringed. But I proceed. Tried to get my first girlfriend by showing somehow my inner “difference” to other guys. And from the very first gf (I was 19) I wasn´t really my. I was what they wanted.
Then I had, of course, several broke-ups, all with same kind of artistic girls. And the worst, they really challenged my whole person as a man or as a human-being, and I of course humbled, all to their demands or non-demands. I put them on the stand to adore them. And all they left, of course.

Then I met my ex-wife, daughter of the “better family”. I felt from the very first meeting that this was not “the right”, but my fear being alone was so much greater, that I pushed the feeling away. sometimes even with depressants. Time went by, I got used to this “not there” feeling. My wife started to push me harder, trying to seek what was going on. I was shocked in my heart about those words of truth that I pushed feelings down harder. Then we tried to make our way through the unconventional marriage that we had. We had all those lover/hotwife/gangbang blabla -things. Then I secretly started to feel non-respected, cuckold-man, trying to find my way out. But I had no strength to to anything about things. We had an lovely daughter, I focused all my energy to this child, escaping the situation about our marriage. My wife of course notified this. We went through couple therapy. There I first time revealed my inner feelings. With agreement we decided to divorce.

That was a relief to me. This was 19 months ago. I bought our apartment and renovated it a little bit. But, someone else had, again, show the truth to me, that I was too scared to see. I am happier alone.
We have ok terms nowadays, I do not want to be her friend, I only care about my daughter and her well-being.
Of course I have to pay alimony for my ex-wife. She has an new boyfrind, relief to me also.

Now I just had found the interests that I really have. This time has been the worst and the best of my whole life. Seeking who I really am. Wow. I started from going-through my childhood. All the way up from there to this day, slowly. In some point of my own well-being, I needed some sick-holiday and medicine, but I went through all the feelings of my divorces, ex-girlfriend and else. And I am still on this way.

This forum seems to be a good way to strenghten me, not ever-ever to find myself on those past times anymore. Thank you letting me to share this, bros.

-Commodore

Time After Divorce - The Strongest Time In My Life

[RoyDalParticipant]

Welcome! I’m glad you made it!

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[Truthseeker82Participant 6406]

Welcome to the only road to peace and prosperity – the MGTOW expressway!

[Solo MAN’S WisdomParticipant]

Welcome, Commodore. There’s much to be learned here.

When women lead, destruction is the destination. -- Me.

[Anonymous 0]

Welcome home, Commodore
You’ve got the right idea.
Look forward to your posts.

[Joey AlfioParticipant]

This forum has therapeutic effects so stick around, share your thoughts and opinions and even read what other people have to say each of their case and story is a lesson to be learned. But I believe you’ve already learned yours.

Welcome to mgtow.

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[Greg HondaParticipant 6406]

Welcome Commodore.

I expect to see many more Nordic Brothers join our ranks. Tell me, Is Finland in the same Femminsist Hell that has befallen Sweeden?

From your story I could tell you were looking in the wrong place for female love. You are a country man and the women you wanted were Artsy types. These are the most superficial. All image and rhetoric and no substance. Finnish Men have a proud history of standing alone against impossible odds. I remember the story of the first Communist invasion you held them off when vastly outnumbered and out gunned.

I hope the men of Finland find the same courage in holding off the Femminsit destroyers we have today.

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[MutineerParticipant 1467]

Welcome dude. How do you feel about the countryside these days?

"The secret to happiness is freedom... And the secret to freedom is courage." - Thucydides

[Mr. ManParticipant 2916]

Welcome to the forums, Commodore.

[CommodoreParticipant 11]

Thanks for the encouraging words! Yep, I really was in the woods with my seeking for females…
And The Worst Case: my ex-wife is a feminist. Oh f#ucking hell. Year after year she did her pioneer work to “change the world” plus, of course, day by day, have an ifluence to me. Boy I was in between the wood and the bark. She had a bad depression almost right after we went together, I lead her to therapy, supportet her etc…
And forget myself more and more… Huh! Newer again those mentally ill women!

Yep, we had serious times in Finland in 40´s. Winter and Continous War against Soviet. Men came back from the frontline after war. Quiet, introwerted, nervous. This effected a lot in Finland´s mentally wellness after war, and over the generations, has it effects until nowadays. Most finnish men are quiet, walk their own path. Somehow I have started to understand and admire my daddy and grandpa more.

In Finland we have quite strong feminist wave, espesially among those hight graduated women. There is few new generation men groups like “Un-beating Line” “Men Crew”, but not really a forum that holds up the “men flag”.

Time After Divorce - The Strongest Time In My Life

[CommodoreParticipant 11]

Mutineer wrote:

Welcome dude. How do you feel about the countryside these days?

Well, I do not like the crush that is in Helsinki. Fortunatelly I do not live in the center of the city.
I like being in the coutryside, just to walk around and look at the nature, but I´m not the “hiker” type.
More and more I have thoughts to move somewhere in “the woods” alone.

This was the past of my grandpas…

Time After Divorce - The Strongest Time In My Life

[Anonymous 3]

Welcome to the site. I am looking forward for your contributions.

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