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[judginginplainsightParticipant 2]

Good Evening All,

Please allow me to introduce myself, I have chosen the name “judginginplainsight” because, well, I’m very judging. Everything, from a chosen color to a form must be scrutinized with analysis on its merits or deficits.

Yes, I’m a super introverted nerd. Geek? maybe that’s more fitting. I’ve known social nerds that were awesome people and a pleasure to be around, and I’m not one of those, I’m more of the quiet guy you’d tell, “why don’t you say anything” to.

I’ve found myself gravitating toward this forum and its ideas for some years now. I like to lurk and I’ve read an article here or there. Yeah, I think the situation is f~~~ed. For a long time I wanted to believe that it would never be me. Some day, somewhere I would run into Miss Perfect and she would make everything all nice and worth fighting for ^_^…well, she won’t :\, and I’m starting to realize that now.

I’ve been in 3 relationships, of those the first was an on/off thing that spanned over a decade and turned out to be an utter waste of time. The second was my most serious, and well…as much as it pains me type this out, I have reached the acceptance phase and so, to sum it up : I payed for everything, I provided everything, I cleaned everything and I’d like to think I’m a catch. A formerly promiscuous woman felt that I was only good enough to f~~~ once a month. I lived a good number of years with this woman and we had sex less than a hundred times total in that time span, while I provided EVERYTHING…and we were in the f~~~ing health and sexual prime of our lives. The third was shortlived and ended because she thought it would be a good idea to threaten to leave me because of my independent nature.

I’m a very careful judge of people…and all three I thought were a good fit and they were, except that they all felt that I wasn’t worth their time. Appease me, please me, tease me but don’t ever expect anything from me.

All three moved on without me, all of them found someone to take my place immediately. I accept it, I am expendable, forgettable, maybe regrettable. God, if only I had been more Alpha, or if only I could read their f~~~ing minds like they expected me to, how much better a life I might have shared with them? /s

Meh, bah and f~~~ that bulls~~~. In my heart I don’t truly feel I failed, I feel that I was failed. By what exactly? I don’t know. Part of me feels that its society, another that its just humanity being human. At the end of the day it doesn’t really matter.

What matters, is now. This moment and the moments approaching. I need to move forward into a world of my own creation that isn’t hindered by the absence or presence of half of the species.

I guess what I’m really trying to say is…I give up. All of the media I have consumed has fed my subconscious mind with the expectation that one day I’d have the girl of my dreams and I am moving forward away from the biggest lie in my life. The only real concrete way I know how to do that is this. Telling someone, so I’m telling you, person who has read this far.

I sacrifice my desire for a female mate,
I sacrifice my expectation of a female that I will spend my life with,
I sacrifice all of my unborn children, that they may never know my pain and that they may never serve my enemies.

I hope that I can find a place among you as this farce of a reality continues spinning.

[WallyParticipant]

Welcome to MGTOW, like Stealthy said find your focus and things will become clearer. Those ideas you mentioned as sacrifices will in time not be seen as sacrifices.

"what a waste of a life, to marry, give up your freedom, just for the hope of not dying alone. Don't get married Son."

[HitmanParticipant]

All our roads led here too brother! Welcome!

[OldBillParticipant]

judginginplainsight wrote:

I’m a very careful judge of people…and all three I thought were a good fit and they were, except that they all felt that I wasn’t worth their time.

You do see the contradictions in that sentence, don’t you?

You’re a careful judge of people? Yet three women f~~~ed you over. You thought all three were a good fit? Yet all three still f~~~ed you over. You can’t be what you claimed and still have been f~~~ed over three times in row. It’s rather obvious that you weren’t a good judge of people and that they weren’t a good fit.

Don’t be afraid to fail. Don’t be afraid to admit you’ve failed. Failing is how we learn. Failing is how we get better. Admitting failures is how we acknowledge that we need to learn and get better. Embrace your failures as they can only make you stronger. All of us fail, it’s whether we admit that fact or not which makes the difference.

Anyway, welcome to the forum. You’ll definitely find what you need here.

Do not date. Do not impregnate. Do not co-habitate. Above all, do not marry. Reclaim and never again surrender your personal sovereignty.

[judginginplainsightParticipant 2]

Stealthy MGTOW :

Yeah, I’m already there. Not a website per se, but I know a few programming languages and yeah, I’m trying to build it. Not watching TV for a good while now made me realize how powerful the subliminal programming has been. Though, I wonder if its ever been purposefully created.

Wally :

Thank you.

hitman :

Thank you.

OldBill :

“It’s rather obvious that you weren’t a good judge of people and that they weren’t a good fit.”

Yes! you’re absolutely right. The sad reality is that I was born with a pair of nuts and goddammit I wanted love and so I wanted to believe it.

I also felt a need to clarify something in general, should at some point in the future someone read what I have said (in the context of sexual expectation in exchange for being a provider or, the classic male view (dammit, forgive me, in my mind I picture various people reading those words and thinking me a horrible person for my view and I feel compelled to defend it). An engine can only run if there’s fuel. Sexual expression is a very powerful impetus, for some years I have wallowed in secret despair at its absence.

[OldBillParticipant]

judginginplainsight wrote:

Yes! you’re absolutely right. The sad reality is that I was born with a pair of nuts and goddammit I wanted love and so I wanted to believe it.

We’ve all been there and that’s why we’re all here now. I’ve made similar mistakes, we’ve all made similar mistakes.

I didn’t write what I did to bust your b~~~~. I wanted to point out that we must acknowledge and embrace our failures. Failing is how we learn and admitting we’ve failed in the first step in the learning process.

Also, MGTOW doesn’t automatically equate celibacy. MGTOW is about approaching life on your own terms. If sex is part of your life, you should approach that part of you life on your own terms. I have a sex life which, IMHO, does not diminish my opinions or call into question my beliefs. I have sex on my own terms just as I approach life on my own terms.

Do not date. Do not impregnate. Do not co-habitate. Above all, do not marry. Reclaim and never again surrender your personal sovereignty.

[judginginplainsightParticipant 2]

OldBill : yes, you’re right. I appreciate your input, I do have much to still learn as my life continues and a proper approach is vital to absorbing knowledge.

[RoyDalParticipant]

Welcome! I’m glad you found your way here.

Society asks MGTOWs: Why are you not making more tax-slaves?

[ivrrimumParticipant 41]

Hello, brother!

[GeorgeParticipant 4]

Welcome. I was screwed too. I certainly didn’t think that I will be here bitching about how f~~~ed up the society has become, but here I am. At least we have this. I didn’t have that many relationships but the last one that I had which was long distance and ended up as a lie ended my faith in the opposite sex. For 12 months I was played by a girl younger than me. Finally I drove from LA to Sacramento at night, talked to many people, only to find out that she presented herself as somebody else for 12 f~~~ing months. I couldn’t believe it…not long ago I discovered Mgtow and I’m glad because it works, because at least at the end of the day, we own ourselves. I certainly refuse to remain alone. I am thinking living with likeminded roommates might ease the loneliness factor, so I’m trying to get to the moment where I could do that.

[ivrrimumParticipant 41]

In my expirience, the key of living alone and not feel lonely is to fill up your time. Get hobbies. Make friends. Even if you’r shy and awkward if you participate in activities peaple eventuly start talking to you.

For myself i go to gym(BodyBuilding), play guitar, trying to get my driver license, i visit animal shelters and take a walk with dogs there and i am thinking about starting to aplinism.

Second thing would be carrier. Focus on your job(school) and make best of it. RAGE THE JOB( like STEALTHY MGTOW pointed out ).

Kepp up the good work man 🙂

[John Woods 13Participant 2855]

Welcome sir.
I won’t repeat what others already said, but I will tell you this. Weather you want any relationships or not, true happiness and fulfillment can only come from within yourself. When there are no voids to be filled by other people you are truly your own person.
Good for you that you were able to renounce the expectations that we all have been indoctrinated into having.

The answer is NO. “I could but I won’t”. Memini murum!

[NothingFaceParticipant 38]

welcome and remember that you’re not sacrificing ANYTHING. Is stopping smoking a sacrifice? No it’s just a gift to yourself

[Anonymous 42]

judginginplainsight wrote:

God, if only I had been more Alpha, or if only I could read their f~~~ing minds like they expected me to, how much better a life I might have shared with them?

@judge, back the f~~~ up and let me set you straight! You can’t read their minds, only their actions! Women don’t share s~~~! The sense of entitlement permeates their every breath! 50 plus years of man bashing and getting worse with each passing decade! I’m sure God will understand yours and my needing to flee the inferno of feminism! When you realize you have a unique blueprint that’s yours, and yours alone, you become Alpha alpha! Female manipulation has all your wires crossed, trust me, I know! Get your wire cutters and soldering iron, you really need some MGTOW overhaul!

judginginplainsight wrote:

I sacrifice my desire for a female mate,

Females sacrifice their desirability with selfishness combined with the loyalty of a chicken.

judginginplainsight wrote:

I sacrifice my expectation of a female that I will spend my life with,

You got it all wrong! The narcissistic modern woman has destroyed countless men’s expectations, now we know what you can expect from any and all female grenades! Do ya follow me???

judginginplainsight wrote:

I sacrifice all of my unborn children, that they may never know my pain and that they may never serve my enemies.

Don’t look at them as enemies, like KeyMaster once put it “their like parking meters and trashcans”. “Children!”, WTF, these modern women don’t deserve children, look at the countless children that have suffered in the societal shift to gynocentrism via feminist activation, Gynocentralia is doomed! Count your blessings you’re not chained to gynocentralia’s dungeon via the gynocentric rule of law! That’s FIRE you’re getting away from! Don’t look back, RUN!

[judginginplainsightParticipant 2]

RoyDal : Thank you.

DisplayLurker : Thank you.

Armenian27LA : Thank you and damn, I hope she gets hers.

John Woods 13 : Thank you.

NothingFace : Thank you and yeah, that is a good perspective to have.

MG-Tower : You’re right, its just that I’m at that age (early 30s) where all but my brain still wants to fulfill the genetic programming embedded in me. So, my eyes see fire, but my cold ass sees a warm place. Luckily there’s this site and concept, so I can know that it will burn me up.

[megatoad69Participant 449]

Women take up too much mental real estate, both acquiring and having.
The best part of a relations~~~ is over as fast as an open bag of potato chips gets stale, then you feel trapped.
Then you think of those times when you did, planned, went wherever, when ever, and however and how long, you wanted when you had no one to answer to but yourself.

The grass is greener on what side?

50% of marriages end in divorce, the other 50% feel trapped.

If I started seeing someone, I would make it plain that we keep separate residences, we visit here, or your place 2x/week, that’s the only way I can think of to keep a relations~~~ tolerable.
Women don’t want to love you, they want to own you.

You can't reason with unreasonable, there; women, figured out, there is nothing to reason.

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