My LOOOOOONG Intro. Im Home!!!!

[TazzParticipant 165]

Hello fellow MGTOW brothers. FINALLY!! Ive been waiting so long to be able to post my story and to share with you guys. It feels good to finally be able to talk to people who can actually relate to me. In alot of intros ive read, ive seen that alot of people were MGTOW before even finding out about it. Unfortunately that wasnt the case with me.

Im 20 years old, and i found out about MGTOW december of 2016, after several painful experiences with females. I cant recall exactly where i found out about MGTOW although i think i saw something about it on reddit. I was actually just surfing the internet trying to find stories about guys who had been treated just absolutely horrible by women and it was fate that i found out about MGTOW.

Since birth, i was fed and gladly ate doses of blue pills for breakfast, lunch, and dinner (hell, brunch too). It wasnt till my first relations~~~ (which lasted all of 2 1/2 months) that i started to realize something was horribly wrong with the female species. But for you all to understand i must go back. Waaaaay back. My first rejection from a female. It was in middle school, 6th grade (i know middle school doesnt count but hell this still hurt at the time) i had a crush on a popular girl. So popular girl finds out i like her and would like to “date” her.

Well one day while im sitting at the lunch table with my friends, popular girl walks up, everyone gets quiet, she looks dead at me and as loud as she can says “HELL NO” and makes a disgusting face and then walks off. Everyone BUGS up laughing and the restroom was where i spent the rest of lunch. That was the first of many rejections to come.

Fast forward to freshman year. The first girl i really caught feelings for. We’ll call her thing 1. So freshman year thing 1 starts showing interest in me which stunned me because she was beautiful. She cuddled with me and all that and when I wanted us to start dating she makes up some BS exscuse that her mom doesnt allow her to date….the REAL reason was she was just using me to get to my older brother who moved to our school that same year. And she didnt even get him!! That was when i went down a long dark road of hating my brother and hating myself for it. But thats a whole other story.

The next girl….we’ll call her thing 2.

My junior year i “met” her. I use quotation marks because…get this…i only saw her in person ONCE. How we “met” was she basically asked for my number on a pic on my instagram page. From that we started talking everyday for the next few months and i learned soooooo much about her. We only saw each other in person because i pushed for it. She was really against it saying it would be awkward. And the thing is she lived FIVE F~~~ING MINUTES FROM ME. And i had a car so i couldve easily seen her alot. But little did i know at the time i was simply just her ego booster and shoulder to cry on about how her parents just didnt understand her and yadda yadda yadda. And when we DID meet she made it extremely awkward. Anyway a couple days before christmas is when she stopped needing me and just went ghost on me. Like she didnt even know who i was. Like she didnt confide in me for the past 4 months. I can still remember being so hurt laying in my room listening to pretty brown eyes by mint condition and having my dad walk in asking what girl i was so butt hurt about. Hahaha im laughing just thinking about it right now.

Fast forward to second semester of senior year. Thats when i met…lets call this one thing 3. This one was pretty simple. I fell for thing 3 who was a complete and utter slut. But at the time i wouldnt have said that.

She was a A1 chick. Arab, nice fat t~~~, and a FAT ass. Just a perfect body in general and beautiful face. I liked her. Our friends knew i liked her. SHE knew i liked her. But leading me on was just so fun to her. I remember her telling me and our group of friends (not my friends anymore) how she let….CHAD (cuz thats the exact type of n~~~~ he was) bust a nut in her mouth. He didnt even last 30 seconds!!!! She knew how i felt but she took alot of pride in just rubbing it in my face that she was letting every other n~~~~ hit BUT me. She was the average female. Texting me out of the blue, letting me know what guys wanted to have sex with her, complaining about how guys ONLY wanted to have sex with her (gee i wonder why) and using me as a ego booster. Whenever just the two of us hung out her face was yep you guessed it, buried in that f~~~ing phone of hers. She flaked on me MULTIPLE times and tried to lie. A few months after graduation is when i started to finally get tired of her and completely cut her off. That wasnt the last of her though.

But on to the next female. The one that pushed me right into the arms of MGTOW. The first girl i grew to truly love in just a short amount of time. God i loved her…and she completely shattered my heart, my confidence and my ego. I straight thought i was going to marry this girl. What bitch and a crock of s~~~….

It was march 2016 and i just moved in with my older sister and her boyfriend. My sister got me a job at her place of work, a salad chop shop. And thats where i met her. We’ll call her thing 4. Thing 4 was one of the main three supervisors under the GM (i know i f~~~ed up big time) and its funny because when i first saw her i didnt even find her attractive. Sure she had a NICE ass body, but her face was just alright. But instantly i hear that she thinks im cute. I paid no attention because at first i just forreal wasnt interested. Overtime me and her started talking and i learned that our coworker…chad#2….and thing 4 had a thing.

Not a relationship because chad#2 already had a girlfriend. But they would do things like make out in the freezer, he would finger her and feel her up and she completely let him. Keep in mind i found NONE of this out from her. She gave me the “he liked me but i didnt forreal like him and we just kissed”. And when i got there chad#2 and thing 4 stopped talking because chad#2 was mad that thing 4 wouldnt let him hit.

Anyway over a couple weeks i became interested, she invited me over and we f~~~ed. She invited me over a second time and we f~~~ed and thats when i started to catch feelings. This was the FIRST girl who showed interest in me first AND let me hit. Before her i had only f~~~ed two other girls who were childhood friends. But after that second time, her and chad#2 all of sudden were on good terms and at work there would be times where the two of them would dissappear for periods of time and then come back smirking and i knew what they were doing. It hurt but i stopped talking to her altogether.

A week and a half passes and she starts complaining to my sister that i hate her because i was ignoring the everloving s~~~ outta her. I mean like straight avoid looking in her direction type ignoring. Anyways my sister tells me and i start to feel bad and i, being a stupid naive blue pilled 19 year old, fall for it and start talking to her again. I tell her i thought that her and chad#2 were starting to mess around and i was just letting them do their thing. She says nothing happened between them (bulls~~~) and that she’s into me.

She made me feel wanted. I remember our kitchen manager trying to playfully force her into his arms and her running up and wrapping her arms around me holding on tight, showing him that she was into ME and definitely not him. After conversations, deep conversations. We decide to become a thing. But one thing that rubbed me the wrong way (which i see NOW was not a red flag but a red f~~~ing FLARE dead in my face) was before we became official, she asked me to tell her my fears about us. I told her that yea she like me now but what about a month from now? 5 months from now? A year from now? Now i was expecting her to say something along the lines of “dont think that way, dont be aftaid” you know some uplifting s~~~ like that.

Buuuut….she got extremely offended and attacked ME! “Why would you say that i feel like YOUR the one whose not gonna be around for the long haul i dont know if i wanna get into something now” was her response. Immediately i apologized for EXPRESSING MY F~~~ING FEELINGS which i now see was what i was doing. And i spent the next 2 hours convincing her i would be there for her and to give us a go. After a month of us being together i guess the GM found out we were a thing and thing 4 got transferred to another location. They lied and said she was moving up in the company but it was all BS. They were just seperating us. When i found out the news i was devastated. I knew she was going to slowly lose interest in me.

But she assured me she wouldnt and dammit she convinced me so f~~~in well. But after we started dating i started to notice things.

1. She never would call me her bf, just that we were dating

2. She wanted to keep us on the downlow so she wouldnt get in trouble which she wouldnt have

3. 80% of our convos were about her complaining about work

4. She was a MASTER at playing the victim card and making me out to be the bad guy and making me feel bad too

5. Her mother who was a parole officer straight LOOKED ME UP IN THE SYSTEM and basically made me confess about the two times i got arrested (i did dumb s~~~ in the past i admit but ive learned from my mistakes)

6. Her mother viewed me and my sister as potheads with nothing going for us in life and was disrespectful to me on multiple occasions

7. Her not wanting to be intimate with me in public and not wanting to go OUT with me in public forreal

8. Her NEVER wanting to come to our apartment it was always me going to her and she knew that i had to borrow my sisters car to do so and she FURTHER knew that we werent financially set like she was

9. She didnt like me smoking or tripping L (ive stopped both) because it didnt fit her perfect boyfriend image

And a whole bunch more but those were the main things, especially her mother. Her mother was a HUGE hypocrite and immature. Thing 4 told me about how her father abandoned them (knowing what i know now i dont blame him) and how her mother drove around with a sledgehammer looking for him. I remember hanging out with thing 4 and her mom texted her saying she was popping a pill at work. Thing 4 says she cant do that and guess what her mothers response is?

“Everyone else here is high on something so i might as well be too”…..remember that she’s a PAROLE OFFICER. AND she constantly talked s~~~ on me, my sister, and her bf for smoking. Anyway the night where i fell in love with her…we had a deep emotional conversation.

What started it was i had tripped L a few days before and it kind of got too intense for me and i needed to call her but i knew she would get mad so i didnt. But in that deep emotional conversation i told her alot of personal stuff that ive never told anyone. Like how she was the first girl ever to actually give me a chance and how before her i was just constantly played and used. I broke down and cried. She was the first girl i ever cried in front of.

I remember that night like it was yesterday. Her holding me telling me it was all gonna be alright…that was such a special night to me….WAS. After the first month and a half is when things started to go sour.

Remember thing 3? Yea she hit me up and invited me to her hotel birthday party and i wanted thing 4 to go with me. She made a big deal saying she was tired from work and that she’d rather stay home. I guess she thought i would stay with her but i took my ass right to that hotel party to get f~~~ed up. The ENTIRE time she’s texting me just trying her hardest to pick a fight. But i was to f~~~ed up to fight so i just left her hanging, thinking i was in control. Then a couple weeks later we have a big fight and she says she hates me.

Now that isnt something i take lightly and when we were having our make up conversation i told her that and she didnt even bother apologizing!! And apologized like 500 times!! Our last week together she was extremely distant. When i brought it up her reasoning was that our last fight really hurt her. I offered taking a break so she could get herself together and guess what. She JUMPED at that….like she was just waiting for me to say it. Her response was “i completely agree and i dont know whats going to happen to us from here”.

When i asked what she meant by that she said just exactly that. It hurt like a hell but i left her alone. Our “break” started sunday. The next two days i figured she would be back and that i would let her know that things were going to change if we were to continue. I felt soooo f~~~ing good and in control. Then wensday night, june 5th of 2016 is when i had my heart broken. I was just looking at her instagram pictures, just patiently waiting for the moment when i would be able to hold her in my arms again. Then i saw it. Under one of my favorite instagram photos of her was something that wasnt there before. Fresh comments of her FLIRTING with another guy!! And it wasnt even discreet flirting. Just straight up “i want you right f~~~ing now” flirting.

My heart dropped out of my chest and fell right through my sack on the floor. I immediately hit her up and it was horrible. She treated me like i was some obssessed fan of hers. Like we didnt share special moments. Like she DIDNT tell me she loved me every night and i to her. Like we didnt fall asleep on facetime so we could wake up to each other in the morning.

I remember every single thing she said….”what do you want from me”….”i really dont wanna talk on the phone with you”…..”what is there to talk about”….now i see she was just rushing me off the phone because she was with him. With chad#3 from the location she got moved to…who was “just a friend”. Big muscular body building chad#3. And on top of that she lied. “I just cant balance work and a relationship right now”.

I never felt that pain in my chest before like i did that night.
That pain was….unbearable.

For the rest of june of i was a straight alcoholic….and i never even really drank before then. But i couldnt smoke because it just reminded me how i promised her i would stop and it would be a horrible depressing high. My behavior turned extremely destructive. No more blunt cruises. Just drunk driving cruising with the bottle in one hand and the steering wheel in the other, driving down the highway at 2 in the morning listening to kanye west 808’s and heartbreak album. Coming home on break from work and getting wasted and then going back in to work my night shift.

What was worse was that i had to pass her apartment up on the way to work because she lived literally right down the street. Then on top of that a month later my dad passed.

Went for a jog 4th of july night and had a heart attack. A jogger found his body the next morning. That sent me further into a depression. Even thought i had cut all contact with thing 4 i wanted to hit her up and have her hold me and tell me it was all going to be alright. She was the only one who knew the true relationship i had with my father. It wasnt great but he was my father and he provided for me and i loved him and always will. But at night when i wanted her the most i knew she was laid up with chad#4 who was just a friend.

Then to make matters worse, 4 months after no talking to her she got transferred back to my location and boy did she take joy in hanging all over the new kitchen manager (the older brother of the last one who was always trying to f~~~ her) right in front of me. At the time i didnt know why….i really didnt know why she just wanted to hurt me so bad. But now i know. Anyway her last month there she would talk to a mutual friend of ours about me saying i must hate her (yep ya f~~~ing right i did) and that she felt bad. Mutual friend tried to get us to talk one day by having me come in the back without telling me what was going on.

As soon as i saw thing 4 walking in the back with her i jetted through the walk in freezer to the front. Mutual friend, who is truly one of the very FEW honest good hearted women on gods green earth (she helped me through the ENTIRE break up and i see her as a older sister), told me there was still feelings for me and that she could hear it in thing 4’s voice. The damage was done though and i could never go back to her.

But i did make one last blue pill decision to put her mind at ease. I texted her and let her know that i didnt hate her which was BS of course and that i was happy for her but i let her know me and her could never be cool again….not after the way she ended things. She said she knew and thanked me for being happy for her and that alot of people werent (still playing the victim card). The last thing i ever said to her through text was basically asking her why she couldnt have been straight up with me and let me know she found someone else….after all the conversations we had of just being straight up with one another, why did she have to lie? And guess what? She lied AGAIN. “I didnt have anyone else when i was with you! I really didnt” i didnt even bother texting her back after that. And that is the end of thing 4. MORE bulls~~~ happened with another female after that, but thats for another time.

Its now a little over a year later and im doing MUCH better. Its funny because now that ive grown into my lightskin looks and updated my style, all of a sudden NOW im worthy of girls. Im 6″3, lightskin, have a 2015 nissan altima, AND my own apartment (thanks to my mother and stepfather who i love dearly) and i plan to join the army in the near future. Girls throw me looks in hope that ill come talk to them but now they arent worthy of ME.

Also thing 3 tried to come back in my life a couple months ago and i very cordially told her to f~~~ off hahaha. You can guess how she took it hahaha. I have my days where i reminisc about thing 4. At times ill remember the feeling she gave me that s~~~ty night of june 5th and ill let my heart feel that exact pain i felt. But after i come back ten times stronger. Like a saiyan (for my fellow DBZ nerds out there) The only thing a female is good for is getting f~~~ed. Not to chill with (unless your getting some), not to marry, not to form a relationship with, simply just getting f~~~ed.

I’m so EFFIN happy i found you guys. I’m home. As i finish typing this i turn on my xbox one to play some modern warfare remastered while my pizza rolls cook in the microwave with no female to bother me. *sigh* life is good gentlemen….life…is….goooood

P.S how do i put a quote in for my profile?

Peace of mind is more important than pussy in mind

[Anonymous 43]

whew, long intro

now go back and edit out all personal names and descriptions

no names please, you don’t want a defamation suit, and neither does Keymaster

put in a couple paragraphs, then we’ll talk

welcome home amigo

[The Bermudian MGTOWParticipant 46]

Welcome home brother!

just a 22 year old Mgtow avoiding the parasites fuck marriage!!

[TazzParticipant 165]

How do i go back and edit?

Peace of mind is more important than pussy in mind

[Anonymous 43]

look at your post, there is a light gray edit button on the right of the story next to the star

duh ya cant star yer self

edit button in the grey bar

[TazzParticipant 165]

Hahaha of course. Thanks!

Peace of mind is more important than pussy in mind

[Anonymous 18]

Yeah bro, my intro was 8 pages long – I know I typed that s~~~ on wurddddddddd.

But give us a concise read and you are welcome to add in a longer version for dorks like myself.

I mine red pillz and they are often found in long post in a small sentence somewhere.

Happy you are here 🙂

[Anonymous 43]

up in the right corner of the screen, you see your name…click it, go to edit profile…add an avatar, quote and profile pic

remember, no real names, no real pic of you or people you know. mess up some details so you can not be tracked

[Anonymous 43]

I think taz kisses the “girl” and gets bit by the steel trap

a fitting profile pic for you bro

[Anonymous 3]

You’ve got a long way to go young man, but I surely thank you for your post. You showed me what looking for a girl is like in today’s world. I can assure you it wasn’t that much of a minefield when I was young, although in the long run it turned out much the same. Welcome to MGTOW.
Slow down & enjoy your new found freedom.

[TazzParticipant 165]

Perfect pic May 7 2020!! Thanks my dude!

Peace of mind is more important than pussy in mind

[Joey AlfioParticipant]

Tazz if you could just space them out a bit more it would be a perfect read other than that welcome to mgtow.

Δεν υπάρχει τίποτε αδύνατο γι’ αυτόν που θα προσπαθήσει. - Μέγας Αλέξανδρος

[MACHOParticipant]

Welcome Tazz, I just had to congratulate you! patience is often rewarded. I wish you the best on here. Enjoy the forums

Tazz wrote:

Hello fellow MGTOW brothers. FINALLY!! Ive been waiting so long to be able to post my story and to share with you guys. It feels good to finally be able to talk to people who can actually relate to me.

You must own a better Crystal ball than I

[wyrParticipant 591]

Welcome brother!

Self-improvement is my religion. Sovereignty is my god.

[KeymasterKeymaster]

Tazz wrote:

How do i go back and edit?

It’s OK I broke it into paragraphs for you so it’s easier to read.

But if you still want further changes, just send the WHOLE thing in an email to hello @ mgtow.com with a link to this topic and ask us to replace it. Editing posts is not possible after 30 minutes. This is to make sure you don’t post and totally change your s~~~ after others have replied to you.

Welcome to you and it’s a thrill to see you arrive so upbeat.

PS. I was amazed how firmly all of this is in your memory. It always seems like such a huge drama at the time….. but being “20” means you’ve only been an adult for a couple of years. By the time you’re 22 … you will have already experienced as much all over again. And then even more by 25. So what seems like a huge deal now, well… I guess I’m just trying to say “it gets easier”.

You have MUCH to look forward to. And we wish you every success.
A big welcome to MGTOW and the forums.

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[ResParticipant 542]

Welcome to MGTOW! You’ve found freedom.

Mr. Boats: "'Avoid the reeking herd! Shun the polluted flock! Live like that stoic bird, the eagle of the rock!' You know what that means, son?" -American Splendor

[bstoffParticipant 4863]

Welcome Tazz, great intro. Like Johnny Z said, I think you have a looong way to go, but I wish I knew what you do when I was 20. I was pussy begging for years before I figured it out.
I’m afraid you are going to continue to fall into the pussy pit for a while yet, especially if you join the military. Those dudes are all pussy-beggers and there’s so many women near military installations that know exactly how to manipulate military guys, it’s pathetic. Guard your sperm! No s~~~!

[Mr.BlueParticipant 614]

Welcome bro. I’m 21 so I can relate to you in the experience you’ve had with these females. My 3rd girfriend which was my first long-term(3years, is the one that made me realize how crazy women can be. Began going my own way and not looking back after that one.

[NerdTunnelerParticipant]

Welcome brother…Just 20 and still have a lot of fruitful years ahead of you. Just be careful with your hormones because women are sly creatures and before you know it, you are enmeshed again in their web…Stay strong brother…

I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...

[MonkParticipant 16988]

@ Tazz

Notice the theme that runs throughout?

The narcissism, the lies, the manipulation, and above all, the complete ruthlessness.

You are fortunate that by 20 you already know what you are dealing with. Now look to your own interests and watch them hit the wall.

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