My journey to MGTOW started in 2013. My then girlfriend(who I planned to marry in a year) and I had moved into our first apartment together two weeks prior at the age of 23 and her being 21. Due to the stress of moving out, working a new job, going to school, and taking care of her needs to furnish the apartment I apparently wasn’t paying her enough attention. She wanted me to move out two weeks after having moved in. I did and we didn’t talk for two weeks after that until I messaged her where she invited me back over. I went over to the apartment and everything seemed to be fine. I was sitting on the bed when she told me that during those two weeks she had went a bar and slept with another guy. I was stunned, hurt, dazed and confused. We had been each others first for everything and things were apparently set so that I felt like she was a different kind of girl. In a daze I tried to leave, but she wouldn’t let me and we got into a fight over it. I stumbled out of the apartment back to my parents home where I was staying and tried to sleep it off. An hour later there was footsteps on the steps and my parents answered the door; it was the police. I was charged with assault. Apparently her cousin had called it in and upon talking to me(never talk to the police) I had given them enough reason to charge me. Upon being processed and out on bail I tried to go back home to sleep. It was like a nightmare when I woke up. I couldn’t believe this had happened.
I hired a lawyer and set to the work of clearing my name. Because it was a domestic violence incident there was a no contact order so that I couldn’t talk to her. I tried to make the best of my situation. Up until that time I would only spend time with her and had few guy friends. All of my friends were hers and we spent a lot of time with her family. Of course after this incident no one would talk to me and I was alone. I tried to make friends and found some people to hang out with. I was out with the people that I had met through work at a bar and saw her there. She called me that night and we talked about what happened.
From then on I was able to manipulate her until she came over to my side and cooperated with my lawyer and the charges were dropped to a disorderly conduct misdemeanor. It was the lowest moment of my life to have gone through that, everything I had, being reduced to nothing, and having a permanent scar for the rest of my life to haunt me. The six months that the case took changed me as a person and showed to what depth I was willing to go to save myself. I tried hanging out with people that I had known before, girls, blue pill guys. None of them cared, none of them knew what it was like to go through something like that. I met a guy through work and he through a sort of brotherly bond showed me what it was to be a semi-red pill man. I learned from him but quickly separated from him because he was an alcoholic and kept getting in trouble. I learned what it was to game girls and tried to learn from pickup artists on youtube(a joke in my opinion) and it worked. I was able to get low class girls and started off there.
Eventually I knew that I was destined for something better. I wanted to learn what it was to be a man. I started off by watching male figures in movies(Sean Connery’s James Bond), and started researching role models. I jumped head first into finishing my degree and because of my experience I know what it is to succeed. Recently, I have gotten scholarships, great grades, and have been able to take on large course loads. I have met mentors and they have helped me get in touch with some successful business people in my community. I’m set to start some internships soon and I’m hoping to crack $100,000 in 2 years at the age of 27. Its a tough goal, but ever since then I decided to get my life together and become a success for myself. I feel in a way that I’m being pulled towards this goal of success and that there is something that changed inside of me because of my experiences. Never once during the whole process did I feel like hurting myself. I felt a drive to survive, and a will to show everyone what I was capable of that they never saw in me. In the near future, I’m looking to grow investments and become independently wealthy.
I’m not sure if I harbor any anger for what happened to me anymore, I still feel the rage deep down, but I know that if I stick to the plan that I can take care of myself and be content with what I have achieved. I honestly feel like I have in ways been given a gift and that I am just making up for the lost time I spent on a bad relationship.
I have learned not to trust women, the government, doctors, or basically anyone. I carefully select who I allow into my life. A blue pill man “friend” can be just as deadly as a woman. I wouldn’t say that MGTOW saved my life, but rather that it started it. Its almost as if I’ve woken up for the first time and I can see whats really going on in the world.
FullMetalExo 4 years, 7 months ago.
